woohoo!!!!

3 papers down, 2 to go. and i have absolutely no mood to study.. argh!!! how how how??? lalala lalala lalala

i juz had a 'lecture' with jeremy.. sigh.. i do so hate giving lectures.. maybe i need to learn how to convey my message across properly eh..

hmmm... kiwi 2 has flown off.. apparently i am the mother, dey r my kids. wow. in dat case i have 15 kids? haha i love them.. i'm going to miss jiali so so so much.. like jeremy is great too. but dey r both unique. and i will really miss jiali..

cell leaders appreciation was awesome.. i've gotta get hold of the video wilson took.. its up on facebook though.. they did ymca and changed it to "eunice's house" and yea.. dey even took pictures of my room when it was a mess.. ARGH!!! i dun like ppl in my room when its in a mess. but i mean. i know it was for fun.. but yea. hehe.. d song/dance together with the video really made me cry. i was like telling myself cannot cry. sigh. but i did. heh.. i'm weak i know.. i juz haf a soft spot for them haha.. and my gift frm dem (a scrapbook) is still not done. hahaha.. why am i not surprised???? but i still love them.. very very much. hehe..

exam periods are now.. and everyone is super stress.. its reid library everyday. some go by 8am etc.. and we stay till 11pm. madness rite.. haha.. oh wells. exciting times eh.. i really enjoy times der. disturbing ppl, catching up wif ppl, getting to know them better.. even like rebekah is opening up so much more now..

we're heading for coral bay for the 3rd time aft exams.. n its gonna b insanely HUGE.. we have 47 ppl gg.. and i can just die i tell u.. but we all know its for God's ppl.. who are we to complain huh?? as long as they enjoy themselves, dats all.. i've learnt so much interms of planning.. interms of working wif ppl.. jlow aint that easy to work with.. gotta change approach tactics everytime.. sometimes muz b firm (when things gets out of hand) sometimes muz b silly.. ah.. my brain has too much to think.. den again, i enjoy such things. more than studying for organisational behaviour. dunno why i even took it. but i needa clear dis elective.. i will and i can.. coral bay will be exciting. woohoo!!!

God is good, all the time..

my second time doing tithes n offerings.. and i was scared to death.. memories of the first one that i did haunted me.. i was scared. trembling. hands and feet, my voice quavered and i seem to be that close to tears.

this round somehow i felt a tad bit more confident. i prepared. i knew how God wanted me to do it.. yet my lack of faith caused me to start fearing what i was going to say was not good enough. that i'll go up and start panicking again like last round.. i prayed a prayer of peace and wisdom to know what to say. and as i went up there, i knew what to say. God guided me. my words and my actions.

it was really amazing when i went up there.. how i envisioned myself speaking was how it came out. it was amazing.. really thanks to joshlim for all the support. d place u sat was juz stratigic.. haha..& thx for responding so well. hehe. though faith wanted those lines to spoil my sharing.. anyhow.. really, it was all God and none of me.. cos if u ask me to do sth like this again, i wld prob start freaking out again. though i know dat God will always b der to guide.

the best part of all, i had so many ppl coming up to me to affirm that what i did was good and all.. and even better so, they were from a wide range of grps of ppl. frm those older knowledgeble ppl. to those newer ones.. i had several comments as followed "nice sharing", "short simple easy to understand. good", "nice use of props", "dare to use other verses. good" etc..

thanks so much guys.. and most importantly, thanks DADDY GOD...

another more amazing thing.. i prayed for 2 healings today for myself. and amen, i was healed. sort of instantly. for the swelling in one of my eyes. and that was kinda instant, and the pain in my arm.. thank you Lord.

sometimes.. i just feel like i've failed as a cell leader..

there are so much i want to do that i wish i could do.. i ask myself how my members are doing, and sometimes my answer is i dunno. yet i am so tired physically..

i really dun like the idea that "he/she is a cell leader, so cannot be friends".. i dun get it. really. i dun.. sigh... and i dun even know why i'm getting so emo about it.. guess i really dun wanna see that gap, that barrier.. all i wanna do is just be friends..

its the last 3 cells left. i'm already gonna b missing this one. i dun wanna miss another one... i dun wan dis sem to end and i hate saying goodbye. especially when this one holds so much meaning to me.. and yet.. i feel like i've failed them. sigh..

i need a kind of check point. by people or by things happening..

currently as it seems, its a cell leader aint to her job, but we do our best to bond the cell..

maybe i am just being paranoid.

Psalms 121:1-2. help me Lord

Motto

We look up to God for help and guidance,as well as for directions in our lives,as we aim for greater heights of achievements.
We lift up our eyes unto the Lord from whom we receive help to face life's trials and tribulations.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. " - Psalms 121:1-2 -

Creed

I would be true for there are those who trust me
I would be pure for there are those who care
I would be strong for there is much to suffer
I would be brave for there is much to dare (2x)

I would be friend of all - the foe, the friendless
I would be giving and forget the gift
I would be humble, for I know my weakness;
I would look up and love and laugh and lift. (2x)

I would be prayerful through each busy moment
I would be constantly in touch with God
I would be tuned to hear his slightest whisper
I would have faith to tread the path Christ trod. (2x)

Anthem

O Let our youthful voices ring
With all their joyfulness
In praise and gladness let us sing
Of Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Here may we seek all wisdom, truth
And ways of kindness
Through all the years of golden youth
At Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

So when we leave its shethering walls
We go with fearlessness
Enriched to face life's greatest call
By Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Now let us pray and learn and trust and obey
To serve Him in every way
Glory to God we give and pray
For Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

i can't deal with stress.. i am so bad at it..

in the past few weeks, i've given everyone the impression that i'm very uptight and stress and all.. sigh... but they just don't see the importance of getting things done. and in the end, if its not done, either i get into trouble, or i dun get my sleep..

now everyone is telling me dun stress/dun worry etc.. yikes...

i realise i really suck at dealing with stress...

and sometimes, i do wish i never had to do all these

Lord, help me to remember each time i do all these, its for You and Your people. and help me to deal with it with a smile

stand by everything you said
stand by the promises we make
let go of everything i've done
i'll run into your open arms

i was talking.. and it does seem that people are so... emotional. i can't find a better word to describe it. i know its difficult not to be emo. but when all thats said and done comes to an end, what holds you is God's promises and God Himself.

i guess i will not understand. won't i? but i guess... ... its sometimes not that difficult after all.. i mean.. those standing outside will see the clearer picture. no?

dear Lord, please keep me from all temptation. help me not fall into sin. help me to keep myself pure for you and for your mighty great plans.