year 2005 is here.. ok.. its like nearly 13 hrs into e new year.. theres juz so much to commit to this year.. so i wont write it down here.. it'll go into my journal as u can call it.. n yup.. i'll keep trying to learn to trust God FULLY this yr.. though i noe it'll b very difficult.. ya very very difficult.. especially over certain issues.. but.. i'll try.. hmmm.. gg for ARISE in like half an hr.. dun even noe why i'm gg.. but nvm.. shall go see wad i can get out of it.. but its catered for kids! ok.. i'm still young.. haha.. i'll b one yr older in 58 days!!! tats bad.. its so fast.. ok.. i remembered last yr i was like i wanna get older faster.. n now i'm sayin i dun wan.. k lar.. so contradictory.. but it is not a very nice tot of getting older, though i do wan to get to 21 faster.. heh.. cause 21 spells freedom.. oops.. heh.. okok shall go prepare for ARISE now lar.. chaoz.. n juz wishing everyone here a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

everyones over now.. n this ise 3rd time i'm blogging here.. after like 2 long entries, i'm still bored and wanna enter e 3rd one.. argh!!! lets see.. i haf 2 aunties, 1 uncle, 4 cousins, 1 cousin in law, 1 cousin in law to be and 1 niece here.. still haf more pple not here.. argh!!! its 7.. n i haf another 3 more hrs b4 they leave n i go to church.. argh!! n i'm bored.. lets see.. another 3 juz came.. argh.. bet they're gg to come n see this so i shall go off first.. ok another one juz walked in.. argh!! bored..

its e last day of e yr.. a good year for the year's "conclusion" haha.. influence from north korea... yup yup.. agree wif salt tat this yr has been bad.. though muz say haf some better times once in a blue moon.. hmm.. last day of my secondary school years.. lets see e thanx list...



4 prudence.. ok there are like 39 pple in e class lar. .but special thanx to north korea==salt, south korea==xt, peace keeping forces==chello, my partner==livia!!! u pple really made my days in 4pr much brighter.. yesyes.. still haf e rest of e pple.. though i wld say these pple really rock lar..



SCRCY... its pratically everyone.. gonna miss u all.. ying ghandi pot yak soo2 viv mana moo phi may2 jam xuan constance zhu char aud ursula hb phong nina adeline yup. got everyone down.. much as there were much politics, i still love u all.. thanx 4 everything man.. scrcy juniors.. all of u rock.. heh.. special thanx to suelin for being so nonsense.. n huizyi n jane n angie.. u pple haf in some way been an encouragement to me though u all may not noe ya? oh yes my 3 pl to scrcy juniors gloria cara n xuewen too... oh yes.. n its been great working wif u all for talentime this yr.. it was great!!!



ok.. other classes pple.. dawn.. my daughter ar.. so nonsense.. heh.. shuying eh.. i can't remember leh.. oh jac ong.. heh.. oh yes.. handbellers netballers metclubbers heh.. u all rock...



pple frm church.. from my class jessica *really had a great time planning stuff wif u..* stef*thanx for listening to all my nonsense* sam *u too* melissa *glad u're back* charlene *miss ya!* eh then shaun *thanx 4 everything man* bert *u too* nic, ziyang, jon, kw *glad to noe u* and of course.. LOO!!! thanx for everything man.. u're one great teacher!!!



from sml grp.. especially to e 3 sml grp leaders ber n dawn n denver.. thanx for everything.. really enjoyed sml grp under e 3 of ya..



from the usual grp tat stays back.. jess, clarissa, vivien*thanx for all tat teaching*, jacko*hope u've grown up*,yvonne n my sis..



eh other than tat grp.. abigail, tash, dinah, charlotte, clean, vicki, shane, eileen, mitchell, amy etc..



oh yes one camp grp.. especially.. grace and mrs seet *for your guidance in leading e grp* samuel*for being so cute* alex*nice talkin to u* sheryl* thanx for ya help man* melody*great noeing u* annette*u always so cute one* xinyu*great noeing u* jacko*thanx for being so smart (honestly)*



pple frm GAP camp.. graham n vivien*its been great workin wif u all* dinah*great noeing u better man* ber*for your guidance in e games* shaun&marie&clean*for planning games together* e whole camp com..



pple frm retreat.. all e SGLs.. abi yvonne bert shaun *thanx 4 e concern* kw n e guys *thanx 4 finishing e food (hahaha)* eh e whole retreat com..



oh i forgot tofu.. heh.. kw ben danson daniel dinah yiying faith*thanx for being so helpful*.. u pple rock.. really great workin wif u all man..



oh yes.. tution.. (sci) jaryl*for makin e lesson so fun* ben jianye david sam*for helpin me* jolene renling (eng) yuenkay n cindy n geraldine.. love u pple



muz say tat these events were like e "highlights" of the year.. e other parts were bad.. so these specific names.. *if i've left any name out, pardon me!!* heh.. will update if i realise i miss anyone.. heh.. ok.. chaoz..

woohoo.. juz finished cutting the carrots for the dinner tonight.. heh.. n my sis juz snacked on chips for lunch.. *naughty naughty* haha.. ok.. i'm seriously bored at home.. n i dun wanna stay at home e whole day!!! ok besdies leaving e hse at 1030 for watchnite... boring... i realise that i am e "weakest" psycologically, mentally and emotionally right in e morning.. heh.. i guess it gives me time to build up my "defences" for the day.. so i'll b prepared.. haha.. though i think bert won't agree to doing tat.. rite.. ok i'm not talkin sense.. argh.. waiting for dad to buy back lunch.. havent eaten anything since morning besides 3 slices of chips.. heh.. courtesy of elaine teo.. oh yes.. finally got e poc pics.. but then i can't upload it.. com got prob.. nvm nvm.. another day lar.. usin e other com.. i can't wait for sunday!!! argh!!! saturday is like ARISE.. n like wad elaine said, its all kids.. hope i dun sleep.. e songs r nice but e tot of all kids there.. n summore i dun even noe which kids frm pmc r gg.. nono.. not very good.. haha.. one afternoon wasted like tat.. sigh.. n wad a way to start off e new year.. oh yes.. lets see who i noe is gg to mjc.. eh.. only jaclyn chen n elaine.. one frm my pri sch, one my course mate.. sad sia.. oh n we're all in sci.. i seriously hope i can get into e 4 A level sub stream.. bleah!!! okok i think i shld go off now.. either help my mum cook or go read books.. n e weather is weird today.. keeps on raining since i've woken up.. on off on off rain.. sigh.. bleah.. bored.

woohoo!!! i'm BACK!!! in a slightly better mood.. not much better.. in e beginning of e outing, it was bad.. sorrie guys if i was very stone compared to normal poc outings.. but after tat, it was better.. heh.. really enjoyed myself today. watched the phantom of e opera at ps.. it was great.. least the singing was. xiuwen cheryl cedric n me cldn't get certain parts of it.. heh.. but later after some "talk" managed to figure it out lar... i wan e sound track!!! heh.. ok no rush.. nxt time then i buy.. oh yes.. met munching, xue wen, cara, jodie, grace, jane, charlene, rachel etc.. *not sure if i missed out anyone* today.. heh.. like suddenly see so many pple.. usually not tat bad..



aft tat, we went walkin abt.. went to hq.. heh.. met ma'ams n sirs there.. n they were so busy.. felt so bad disturbing them.. so took a photo for memory sake then left.. heh.. oh well then went back to ps to macs for awhile.. waited for cindy n then xw left for dance.. then we met hui hui at orchard mrt n then walked to forum to meet nisha at toys r us.. heh.. really enjoyed all e fun n laughter n disturbing.. woohoo.. then aft nisha was done, moved to far east to eat.. ate like 1/3 of my food.. no appetite again.. dunno wads wrong wif me.. these few days no appetite to eat.. unless e food has loads of flavouring then tat becomes bad lar.. ya.. so din eat much.. xw came back aft dance, n finally, we were able to meet as 7/7 = 1 POC com!!! heh.. all e while was 5/7 poc come... sigh.. but least managed to meet up lar.. woohoo... after tat, we took neoprints!!! haha.. took e card one.. as usual, cedric was e only guy.. we took it like 4 times.. so each one of us had at least 1 card.. oh yes laminated it too!!! then walked abt.. went to wisma n got hui hui e poc ring... oh yes.. muz go clean mine... then went home lar.. tats my day..



sigh... so sad.. cheryl leavin us liao.. gg to aust.. n refuses to tell when she is leaving.. nvm.. juz muz keep contact kz??? first time out as poc com had better not be e last.. heh.. love all of u man.. still remember those days of proposals n reports... *ok i shall stop this or i'll go on and on and on...* haha yes.. i love rc n i love e poc com.. i bet pple like soo2 has heard it tonnes of times from me already.. pity i doubt i'll haf e chance to go back to hq.. no time lar.. still got course... but rc hse looks nice now.. aft some changes.. much more presentable.. woohoo.. school is starting soon.. haha n all of us are like moaning away... Meredian.. here i come!!! haha.. i realise meredian is like one of e most strict jc.. sad.. haven't decided to crash or not.. see how.. oh well.. now tat i'm back home... dun feel like sleeping.. but haf to... oh yes surprisingly, there was no email in my 2nd yahoo account *e pleasegetyourown one .. was truely surprised.. hehe..



oh yes.. tmr got a family gathering.. i dun wanna go.. i'd rather go for e 17-up makan.. e gathering surely got alot of nagging etc.. aunties n uncles.. wad u expect rite.. sigh.. nvm.. shall b a good gal for once.. n hopefully.. i dun get into so much trouble wif my parents.. argh.. dunno wad kind of games there will b this sunday man.. i'm in like a bad place cause got like ushering duty too!!! heh.. ok nvm.. shall see how.. ok lar.. gg to pack stuff n prepare for tmr.. think some of them wld b over to help prepare from like 3 onwards.. e later e better.. unless it means they'd leave earlier, then all come earlier.. then i can go church earlier too!!! haha.. ok.. i'm off.. n still haven't tot of how to solve e prob.. yes bert.. leaving is one of e best solutions though my parents wld never hear of it.. so there u go.. e best solution gg down e drain.. *swoooooosh* washed away... wad a pity...

argh.. ok i've only 10 minutes to rush out this entry b4 leaving to meet e guys.. oh well... mayb e best solution is juz to leave.. juz leave.. and leave everything behind and in some sense start afresh somewhere else.. but then again, tat is not a solution.. is that? sigh.. no my heart soul n mind is once again not functioning.. i'm rattling off nonsense again.. sigh... oh yes.. shaun ar.. now tat ya internet is up, i bet u can read this lar.. heh.. nono blog reading is dangerous.. mayb i shld juz stop all forms of blog reading. cause its juz plain dangerous.. muz thank michelle ma'am for sharing that wif me this yr.. sigh..



this is not going to be easy.. though it seems like it is. but then again, like i said, "by faith, i'll overcome it" sigh.. yes.. by faith.. but nth seems to be working.. sigh.. no nothing.. n i dun wan things to get worse.. it must not. so.. the best thing is TO LEAVE!!! but then again.. no i won't argh!!! this is frustrating.. i'm such a difficult problem.. this, cannot tat, cannot.. so wad.. e best thing is to leave everything behind??? then again, no i won't!!! oh yes.. i agree wif S n G.. wad u both said 2/3 yrs ago were right.. head on man.. sigh.. okok.. i shall leave it as this now.. sigh.. entries now adays are getting gloomy.. argh!!!

i'm tired!!! argh!!! slept for like only 5 hrs.. considering e previous nite i slept for abt 3/4 hrs... sigh... i'm tired.. today slept from like 3pm to like 7.. heh.. oops.. argh.. my new fav phrase.. "by faith, i'll overcome it" heh.. argh.. though its no better, but talking was good.. thanx bert.. heh.. actually its not only by faith, but by his grace too.. nvm... shall leave it like tat.. i'm weird.. heh..



tmr i'm meeting the poc com.. so long since e last time i've met them.. cedric, xiuwen, cheryl, huihui, cindy, nisha!!! u pple rock! heh.. missed e times tat were spent on e proposals man.. woohoo.. n i still love e binding for the proposals.. e most pro looking one tat i've done.. heh.. cedric is gonna b e only guy again!!! haha. ok i'm not talking sense.. quite poor thing actually.. but i guess hes used to it.. hehe.. ok shall go make calls now aft my mum is done wif e phone.. oh yes.. its so frustrating.. i dun haf pictures of my class as in in church tat class from primary 2 onwards.. only those kindergarden to primary 1.. sigh.. nvm mayb one day i'll go ask teacher alan or jessie if they haf.. i wan e pictures.. haha.. okok.. shall stop here for now..

i'm finally back from leaders retreat. haha nth wif e word finally.. juz felt like putting it there.. oh well.. now, i wld honestly say that the camp was GOOD. much as i said last night that it was very bad.. but now.. heh.. i muz say it was GREAT!!!.. heh.. oh well.. i muz say i've learnt much in this camp.. though i wont say there was tat "spiritual high" there, but i've learnt alot of dependence on PRAYER!!! yup.. heh.. n like really see the power of prayer. the dependence of God. heh.. woohoo.. ok though i wont say i am ok over everything that has happened since one mth plus ago..but least i noe tat prayer works miracles.. n when i pray (especially when i got into my mum's car), i felt peace in tat sense.. heh.. i muz say tat i've seen someone who is like a role model.. no i'm not denying that Jesus is not my role model but then i guess i've found someone i can look up to as in in recent times kind of thing.. woohoo.. haha.. oh yes.. ok sth else now.. e team building games were great.. thanx marcus n ber.. heh.. i've really taken back loads from this camp.. oh yes.. n e 3 songs below were e ones tat impacted me the most this camp.. yup.. mayb its cause we sang them after my thoughts were straightened out.. so it was wif meaning.. heh.. ok.. i'm quite crazy now.. quite high now.. slept at nearly 4 yesterday n woke up at abt 0745 lets see 4 hrs? abt there.. n i'm wild awake.. theres loads to do.. n mayb callin bert? duno.. mayb i wld mayb i wont woohoo.. i'm crazy lar.. chaoz..

argh!!! i forgot sth.. ok this is in a slightly more serious tone.. oh well.. i realise and admit the missing of shalom in the ym.. and ya.. the perfect shalom in relationship wif each other is not happening in the YM.. haha.. thanx to shaun n kw.. haha.. though muz say it originally hit me on a raw nerve due to my family probs.. but it was quite true.. suddenly remembered about the word SHALOM today!!! "SHALOM!!!" haha.. ok this is bad.. this is like a super post ONE camp syndrome.. haha.. woohoo.. online for so long already.. din realise.. nearly 1 hr.. *this is so not me cause i usually stay here for like afew hrs..* haha.. woohoo.. really gonna chao now..

Give us clean hands



We bow our hearts, we bend out knees

Oh Spirit come make us humble

We turn out eyes from evil things

Oh Lord we cast down our idols



So give us clean hands

Give us pure hearts

Let us not life our souls to another



Oh God let us be

A generation that seeks

That seeks Your face

O God of Jacob



Make a Difference



Won't You Lord take a look at our hands

Everything we have use it for Your plans

Won't You Lord take a look at our hearts

Mould it refine it as You set us apart



We want to run to the altar

And catch the fire to stand in the gap

Between the living and the dead

Give us a heart of compassion

For a world without vision

We will make a difference

Bringing hope to our land



We will answer the call

To build this Church without walls

Let Your Glory be shown

Bring salvation to the lost

To the lost



Make me more like Jesus



I want within my life

Desire beyond my own

To be like Jesus

But when i see my life

The distance from the throne

And my heart longs for You

Holy Spirit come

Consume me with Your fire



Make me more like Jesus

Until Your love can shine through

Let me be a reflection

Of the glory in You

woohoo.. Merry Christmas everyone!!! heh.. this christmas has been one interesting one.. first time gg for christmas service without my parents.. hope tat won't be e case for e nxt few yrs.. giving out presents n cards were very interesting.. especially for bert n shaun *rite elaine?* heh.. pink cards.. interesting.. haha.. heh.. ok.. oh well.. it was quite fun today lar.. e best surprise i muz say was mrs seet's present.. heh.. really din expect it.. came as quite a shock i muz say.. a book.. can't remember e title lar.. oh well.. ok shall go prepare for retreat.. haven't pack my stuff *n amy hasn't confirmed if its stay over* n haven't read finish e book of JOHN! heh.. ok shall go off now lar..

i'm very scared. i'm very scared. i dunno wads gg to happen. no.. why is it that mummy becomes the "head of the family". even daddy can't do anything. all i do depends on her approval. no its not respect you're getting. its fear. i'm seriously very scared. i dunno what to do. daddy is smashed between the children and the wife. what is wrong. i'm sure i'm correct. daddy allows me to go for the retreat too. but if he does, she will fall out wif him. so unreasonable. is it hate that is building up in me? could he haf been correct that i hate the person that brought me into this world? i dunno.. all i noe is that i'm very very scared. how? how? there is no one around to talk to. no i dun wanna talk it out. no. i'm too afraid. i'm scared. i dunno wad to expect out of her anymore. she is.. nono.. how??? i dun wanna talk wif her.. daddy.. save me. but i know you can't i know you dun wanna jepodise your relationship wif her.. but then i'm very sure i'm right. whats wrong??? there is something wrong with the connection in this family.. i'm so afraid. i'm so afraid the family would fall apart. nono.. Lord, please help me. please help this family please guide us. i'm scared Lord.

went out wif clean n nut today!!! finally managed to go out after dunno how many yrs.. abt like 3.. woohoo.. heh had mos burger!!! clean's first rice burger!!! heh.. yup n first ice milk tea!!! woohoo.. sigh.. now i'm thinking of going back to rc.. shld i? shucks.. tats e prob wif me.. wan too many things.. nvm shall see how jc first 3 mths are first.. oh well.. i've done up most of e wrapping for presents already.. heh.. yay!!! bert's one is nicely done by 2 gals.. woohoo.. okok i've gotta go do some stuff now.. chaoz..

thank you Lord for the friends you gave me, for the encouragement that you've shown me through my frenz.. woohoo.. u pple rock.. oh yes salt!!! thanx for e card. n e crazy picture.. dunno how i got to u.. but thanx! woohoo.. i'm crazy.

stoning.. argh.. i'm all worked up again.. i think my lifespan has shorterened drastically.. sigh.. since i get irritated everyday by the same person.. argh.. hope i can survive this man... argh... sigh.. i seriously need councilling.. see how.. mayb having a session later at mayb 11? sigh.. i dunno..

finally i'm using blogger instead of blogthis.. heh bert claims its working, so fine.. i shall use it.. argh.. i'm confused.. who is good n who is not.. who is real n who isn't.. nvm.. shan't think too much.. nvm.. oh yes.. i'm at home stoning now.. suppose to go to e gym, but no mood to. prob wont go for cycling oso later.. shall see how.. sigh.. but prob wld go for carolling prac tmr.. woohoo.. suppose to go scrub e walls now.. but its so difficult.. yucks.. e fungi don't look very nice.. so muz put a new coat of paint over e walls.. shall let elaine do e painting later.. shall go scrub e wall.. hehe.. chaoz.

BOWLING!!! heh.. yes.. christmas bowl was yesterday.. it was fun, though some silly guys juz din haf e brains n common sense.. yes.. too dense ya? sigh.. nvm.. besides tat.. it was quite fun.. elaine ended up wif a broken nail plus sprained ankle *its always sprained* heh.. yup yup.. talked to shaun till like quite late, then followed up by amber.. in e end, went home like 1 1/2 hrs past my curfew time.. *oops* heh.. nvm nvm.. tat one can be settled.. oh yes.. in e morning went to sch to see e juniors perform.. e dances were nice.. juz tat steps not coordinated.. as for e other items, alot of practice needed.. but its great effort!! oh ya.. then went to parkway to support vivien.. she was playing for yamaha music school.. i tot we missed it at first.. then later end up they started super late.. heh.. i've no idea how they coordinate their hands n legs etc.. heh..



lets see.. for today.. it was a bad day.. started off bad at home.. bad in the car, and it was disgustingly fake in church.. i can't stand it when its like tat.. cldn't stand it already.. so sms dad to ask him when he was coming back.. hope i din scare him or anything.. juz needed to talk to him.. heh.. yup yup.. din haf e mood to day anything today *not tat i'm in e mood now, but ya..* oh n was really edgy today.. so sorrie amy.. heh.. muz haf scared u or sth. heh... oh yes.. sgl training today was quite ok.. learnt quite alot, though i was so figity all e way.. not in e right frame of mind today lar.. sigh.. n my bible cover has all e stuff tat bert attempted to get out of shaun's hair *yucks* muz thank sam for informing me.. argh!!! heh.. ok lar.. i dunno how long more i'm going to survive here.. juz hope it'll keep me long enough for me to turn 21 or sth..

results are out!!! as ryl ma'am said, it'll b out ard like 8 plus.. n like really, i checked.. n e results were like out.. heh.. i'm in meredian. past few days sort of haf e feeling i'll end up there.. missed sajc by abt 1/2 pts.. shld i appeal??? i dunno or shld i stay? i'm lost. oh yes.. salteh n ocs are both in sa.. haha lovey dovey couple!!! hehe.. oh n orphelia got acjc.. n of course our dear 2 pointer xt-eh got into hcjc *duh* hehe.. juz smsed mrs lai.. see how fast she replies..



ok back to yesterday.. we had the gathering at jianye's hse.. ben sam n myself met jianye at mrt then made our way to his hse.. wah i walk in was pretty long.. oh yes.. sam went for the SU camp this yr!!! heh.. n she noes james n breanna n loyce.. hehe.. so cool rite.. oh yes.. we attempted to teach ben bridge.. but as we taught half way, jaryl came.. so taught them over again.. but.. gave up after awhile cause they din understand.. so we played signal.. such a silly game.. but it was fun.. heh. n then mrs poon came.. so we played another game.. dunno how to explain, but it was very funny.. in e end aft 2 rounds, ben n jaryl had to do a forfeit.. so they did a mini "fight".. lets see.. lunch was really over supplied.. cause i brought finger food, while jaryl brought sushi, e rest brought chips n jianye provided most of e other food.. e sushi got like loads of wasabi lar.. *yucks* heh.. i dunno lar.. in e end, all e food was left in jianye's hse.. oh yes.. jaryl.. hurry up upload e photos.. e one on e last day of tution.. heh.. ok lar.. shall go off now.. chaoz

woohoo!!! back from visiting Mrs Lai.. she is so nice.. heh.. gave christmas present n baked scones the tea she made was quite nice.. mayb i'll drink those kind of tea from now on. woohoo!!! i tell u.. lorraine and justin are so cute!!! heh.. especially lorraine.. so talkative.. and her english is like quite accurate.. heh like my mum said, muz see who the teacher is.. n since its Mrs Lai, she is like a superb teacher, so ya.. expected.. heh.. i think junli last minute not going is actually a blessing in disguise. managed to talk to Mrs lai quite abit. actually, she gave loads of advice.. i din really talk much lar.. but then if junli went, these stuff wont b said. so.. its a blessing in disguise!! heh. ok lar.. shall go off now..

oh sigh.. life is so difficult. i dun like it. i dun like when all the problems juz start streaming in. why can't things just stay the way it is. why why why ??? ??? ??? why muz u appear? why must we grow up? why must we change? things are getting so complicated. as time goes by, respect is lost for people. relationships are built. the negative side of characters are seen. so many things happen. why can't we just stay the way we are now? i'm satisfied. i don't want to move on. but i have no choice. argh.. what shld i choose???

saw this link on yingmin's nic.. really nice song. go listen to it plus read e stuff written about it... http://ecards.worshiptogether.com/soldierStory/relaunch.html go see go see!!! heh.. i liked e song..

braces!!! i haf gotten braces already.. heh.. and my mouth feels so weird.. its in like e completely wrong place.. nvm.. least it doesn't ache tat much.. can eat more solid food.. oh well.. hope the ache goes off soon.. oh yes.. tmr visiting Mrs Lai wif junli.. oh well.. its good lar.. can see them again.. oh sigh.. i've wasted tonnes of sms lor.. wasting my money.. oh well.. okok.. shall go watch tv!!!

oh well.. i've completely lost confidence in you. no. its trust. its gone. i've held you in one of the highest esteem since i've known you. but then.. oh sigh.. nvm.. you managed to smash it in 1 simple camp... plus of course some other activities.. oh well.. ok mayb i've over reacting.. hopefully after a sleep, i'll b well..

after ONE camp till now, suddenly i hear alot of stuff about other pple.. of course negative lar.. n its not very encouraging to hear it.. i'm upset lar.. so many pple tat i've held in high esteem have all suddenly "disappeared" in that sense.. oh well.. nvm nvm.. eunice, ignore it.. ignore ignore ignore. life has to go on.. sigh sigh sigh..

on a lighter note.. TMR I'M GG CYCLING!! oops.. ok.. thats abit off... juz sth crazy to change the mood abit.. oh well.. watching tv now. n my mum wanna use this in like 1 hr tmr.. after she took it away frm me at 730. bleah.. ok.. shall make it quick.. sigh.. ok.. oh yes mr bertrand tan, your birthday is on the 19 of july. i noe k.. i noe e whole class's b-day lor!!! nonsense..

TOFU!!! ar.. i miss it.. i miss e time wif e grp.. sitting in the monorail stoning, the gals chatting, talking to faith, running abt e island, taking pictures.. oh yes.. swimming in the sea!!! oh yes.. my grp members that acted like a family *only e guys* daddy cum mummy cum lover to daniel = kangwei, plus danson and ben... heh.. they're like super cute lar... so fun!!! oh yes.. the excellet photo tat daryl took.. haha shaun.. *hint hint* ok no his com is down.. haha.. out of point.. i'm abit psyco now.. ignore me.. really enjoyed myself yesterday.. i think it was one of the few that i really enjoyed myself.. heh.. i'm serious yvonne!!! heh.. ok.. i shall stop here.. woohoo..

woohoo.. finally back from going out.. i've 1 hr b4 i rush out to mayb go to church.. oh well.. lets see.. i went to e gym juz now for abt an hr.. then we went down to tecman for quie awhile.. finally got my study bible n a cover.. oh plus loads of stuff.. uz remember tat my mum is paying not me.. oops heh.. oh well.. i've ta rush out stuff to send to yvonne and the 2 buggers are not helping me in anyway.. they're ONE hr late in passing me the stuff.. bleah.. ok i give up. do my best can already.. shall go do work now lar..

oh well.. today was not too bad.. found out my tofu grp.. got loads to do.. i muz really thank God for such a wonderfull committee last year.. love ya pple!!! its 0030 in e morning!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!! heh.. called her juz now.. oh well.. tofu is this sat.. a little excited but ok lar.. I WANNA GO TECMAN TMR!!! hope mum brings us there.. wanna get my study bible as well as mayb books etc. i dunno wad to get for christmas presents.. bleah.. oh yes.. kw juz called e cow "shauny" so disgusting can.. oh well.. on a different note, some pple wanna take up responsibilities to look big, to be ahead/ onpar wif their frens.. but when it comes down to responsibilities, they dun do it.. its frustrating.. nvm nvm.. as i told kw juz now. no point getting stressed cause in e end e oen tat is being hurt is yourself.. ok calm down.. oh yes.. i think now someone owes me a slap.. or is e e other way round. ok nvm ignore me. medicine is taking effect.. woohoo.. oh yes.. christmas cards.. muz hurry rush out!!! chaoz..

today was really bad lar.. everything was wrong.. in e morning, it was ok.. went for a check up for my skin.. got like 9 medication now.. oh sigh.. n i'm on steriods for like 2 weeks.. oh well.. then i met soosoo to buy ryl ma'am's present.. then met abi n yvonne to shop.. bought like 2 pairs of earings. one stars n one treble clef.. nice.. oh n i met jaryl at ps.. oh well.. e not nice part came after tat..

we went to ps to meet e rest.. then there was some miscommunication n we ended up like unhappy wif each other.. juz as we settled tat, and went to e arcade to play, jess lost her wallet n hp.. and then, i realise i lost my camera.. this sux lar.. i can't believe it.. oh sigh..nvm.. ignore.

oh yes.. this sat i can't go to see my juniors full dress rehersal.. got tofu.. oh sigh.. nvm nvm.. everything is going wrong..

whats happening?? the pple around me seem to become very fake.. it seems like during the camp, i've seen their true colours or something.. people are so different.. so shallow now. even the people that i thought would be the last to actually be like that are becoming fake.. this is bad.. sigh.. shaun n gzerrel were right. yvonne n abi are right. sigh..



ok besides that.. i'm beginning to miss my group and some of the pple like eunice fu.. and of course my grp members.. nv expected to even end up missing them but i am.. oh well.. nvm.. my mind is in a whirl again..

ok.. i'm back.. had a nap juz now.. anyway... here is a "glimpse" of my camp...



on the first day, we had amazing race.. e games they play are.. no comments.. haha alot planned by ber.. oh well.. had some time knowing my group pple.. though many of them refused to talk.. heh.. oh yes met jane on the way as well.. heh.. my group was lucky.. we din hafta haf our faces painted etc.. but we had to carol at orchard road.. it was quite fun!!! tribal council was quite thought provoking.. went about the games without thinking about the pple's salvation.. but as the end of e whole thing, during tribal council, it really taught me to think about it..



the second day, besides workshop etc, i think the concert of prayer was really interesting.. the terrorist attack plus the stations.. i think e terrorist attack was very interesting.. quite real oso lar.. kana screamed at was quite bad.. but nvm.. learnt sth at least..



third day, went out wif yvonne abigan and james to meet 4 of their frens.. had quite an interesting time then aft tat met mrs seet while waiting for the rest of my group to come back from doing their survey.. well.. i realised tat my grp sort of bonded through this activity.. oh ya.. n the p5 guy in my grp got himself 2 fathers in our group.. got eamon n alex.. haha so funny.. oh well.. we oso celebrated nic's birthday..



oh well.. on day 4, the non-messy games were quite ok.. though e game masters for station A were not very good.. aka mgs gals.. ok i dun haf anything against them but they seriously din do the stuff properly.. it was quite badly done.. e games messy games were better.. really disgusting.. yucks!!! heh.. watermelon wif papaya wif orange wif bread wif slime n tofu.. yucks.. ok.. no comments.. e e concert at night was quite nice.. jerry ong came to share his testimony, plus the "singapore idol" annabel was good.. belinda chio belinday chio belinda chio belinda chio belinda chio belinda chio belinda chio.. haha tat was who my grp was suppose to support..



bleah.. now my voice is gone!!! no more voice.. lost it in e camp.. oh well.. i think i'll b missing my grp.. oh well.. nvm..

i'm back from camp!!!woohoo!!! ONE camp was quite fun.. i like my group.. though initially it seemed like one of e worse grp, but now.. it is really nice.. got melody sheryl annette xinyu jacko samuel and his 2 "fathers" alex n eamon.. oh well.. it was seriously interesting when the whole group starts to talk to each other.. really loved them lar.. generally it was fun, with the exception of a number of hiccups along the way which i wont bother to elaborate.. oh yes.. e speaker is like very entertaining.. though i felt that the sessions were kind of short.. ya.. they were..oh well.. oh yes my hse looks quite nice now.. i like my room!!! e curtain goes nicely with the rest of e stuff.. oh well.. i'm tired, but i can't sleep now.. cause if not i wont sleep at night.. shall go spend my time ard lar..

i juz kana shot last night. ok.. not shot to do sth, but more of shot about my present pathetic situation.. makes loads of sense. blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. counciling.. hmm.. was quite ok.. not too bad.. made me regain my senses.. oh i went out with jessica and yvonne and clarissa to buy berms.. heh.. it was like cheap and nice!!! woo hoo!!!

oh today went out wif elaine n ber to buy stuff.. it as quite fun lar.. went to bras basar complex to buy stuff again. its like much cheaper over there.. tmr gg to 3rd place to pack stuff.. oh yes.. my camp grp.. i shall not comment lar.. heh.. ok lar chaoz..

bleah.. theres like loads to talk of now.. but juz no time to blog.. i dun wan my hse to b under renovation.. its bad for everyone.. u noe.. my skin n all.. bleah. nono not good..

prom was great.. had loads of fun.. juz no time to link my pictures to this blog.. wld prob talk more abt it another day.. rushing for time now..

class bbq was fun too.. i like this class the way it is.. a good mixture of e diff pple.. how i wish we din hafta change class.. been wif them for like 4 yrs.. and 3 yrs under loo.. dun wanna change.. but nxt yr got lg. bleah.. we've been splitted up.. sad.. oh sigh... anyway.. e bbq was great... though ended up wif e guys cooking and iwas like running all over e place.. but it wasn't too bad.. juz tat we din haf time to sit down and talk much.. oh well. played bridge untill 0130 b4 my dad chased me off to bed.. bleah. nvm..

oh e games day was quite ok.. e gals in my grp were so cute. heh.. oh yes.. e p6 gal is frm SCGS!!! woohoo!!! haha.. oops ok i'm crazy.. ya wld upload e photos later.. ok needa go out now. chaoz

bleah.. ok i feel bad writing tat now.. oh well.. juz went to cut my hair.. it was ok.. i pity tat guy tat had to cut my hair.. mum kept insisting that the length of my hair is still too long.. think he recut my fringe like at least 3 times. bleah.. attempting to do the christmas cards now.. but i still have alot of things to pack in my room.. they're starting the painting of the wall tmr.. and my room stinks of vanish now cause they juz applied a layer on my door.. argh!!! this is not nice... bleah ok gonna pack my room now! chaoz

goodness.. both sister n mother are throwing tantrums*honestly* and dad is away.. argh!!! run away from the shooting!!!

oh well.. first week after exams ended.. n i'm only in my 2nd day.. sigh.. oh a brighter note, yesterday was quite fun.. went with salt, dawn, xt, orphelia, mingyan, yunru n jeremy for lunch at seoul garden.. heh.. it was quite fun lar.. burning ice kachang... eating spagatti with the satay sauce etc.. oh n salt's birthday present from 3 of them was.. eh.. no comments.. haha got pic of her wif it.. oh yes.. n salt's cake.. tat most pple din finish.. oh well.. later shopped for prom stuff.. i think like 1/4 of e sc gals r getting their prom dresses frm Daniel Yam.. oh well i hope some pple's dresses r like to e ground cause mine is but alot of pple ones aren't.. sigh... nvm shall see this thurs..

i'm still stuck in this home that stinks of paint and turpentine.. bleah.. e painters are taking ages to finish up the painting.. worse still, the whole living room has been torn down.. this house looks weird now.. my room is not any better.. i'd better hurry pack them.. n i've got loads of paper to file up.. one thick stack of it.. ok i shall go off now.. gotta get my hair cut..

all hope is gone.. shattered.. then again.. my mind doesn't give up.. oh sigh.. no i dun like this.. its back.. Lord please take it away.. gone.

oh no!!! i juz mistook xt-eh for dawneh online.. oops.. heh sorrie ar!!! oh well.. exams r over.. n here i am trying to fill up the form tat suppose to send back to amy by today!! oops.. no time liao.. sigh.. chem was quite easy.. some difficult!!! sigh nvm its all OVER!!! xt say i'm crazy.. haha.. no i dun think i am. but it think i'd better hurry go fill up tat thing..

1 more paper!!! heh.. n today was the last day for tution!!! so sad... heh.. i think i'm gonna miss this tution.. e 2 tution i'll miss.. sciences and english.. oh well.. heh e guys today were so sweet.. bought card on behalf of e class.. brought cam to take photo.. heh elaine called them sissy.. first time seeing guys do these kind of things.. oh well.. anyway.. tmr gg out wif hb n sooling for dinner... then hafta go home...pack my room.. oh sigh.. e painting and "construction" starts on saturday.. so muz hurry up.. i think i'm watching alot of movies aft my exams.. oh well.. nvm.. waste more n more $$$ heh.. ok shall go off now.. tmr morning still hafta mug for chem!

my hair is standing.. olinda juz sang a song by theresa teng.. oh well.. nvm.. argh.. hb ask me to go wif her for aikido class.. but then mum n dad say the origins of it is budhist.. as in e actions.. then they not very keen of it.. oh well...

God works in ways we cannot see.. BUT He will make a way for me!!! woohoo... just as i wanted to pull out, you take one step forward. thank you Lord.. woohoo... i feel like i have an answer already!! do i?

oh sigh.. nono i'm not well.. in fact, i'm going down e hill.. on everything.. sigh... it seems tat all of today's messages were related to me.. wad Loo taught, wad paster Dianna said made some sense to this life of mine, and wad Poh Kiang shared today.. how true.. faith? trust? do i know these words? the eunice that reads too much into actions is back. and it is like all negative thoughts.. negative to me lar.. and negative enough to make me feel so upset n all.. bleah!!! and once again, i dunno how to put them down in words.. sigh.. oh well juz found out tat after my exams, 2 whole weeks can't use com cause shifting to GH. and no phone there too.. so everyone has to contact me through my hp.. sigh.. oh well.. my life sux now lar..

sigh.. nono life hasn't been good.. took bus to church today.. n on e bus.. my mind was like wondering away again!!! sigh.. fell sick like yesterday.. now slightly better.. of all times.. in e midst of my exams!!! whee!!! sigh.. nono.. shall not attempt anything funny..

i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * i wont think about it * sigh.. the my mind is working, but not my heart.. sigh... oh e only encouraging thing is my emath was well done!!! woohoo!! uncle raymond checked for me.. only 1 mark gone.. silly mark. forgot tat e shear is a NEGATIVE!!! sigh.. nvm.. bert. if u dun believe me.. fine.. live in self denial.. haha..

ENGLISH WAS BAD!!! bleah. i din noe wad to write. hand no plot to write for a title "Flight" no thoughts on the other plot. din wanna do descriptive on a shopping center cause it muz b big. e only one i cld think of was taka. not like i noe taka very well.. last 2.. either on school uniforms or if both parents shld work when child is still young. did e latter. though it was my first time doing such an essay, but better than having no plot i guess... bleah. compre wasn't exactly easy. loads of inference. i'm dead! bleah! i can't afford a B muz get A.. hope my oral can pull my grades up.. sigh.. i wan o levels to end right now.. bleah.. emath tmr.. nth much to study.. lit.. i've never studied for it b4 so.. here i am online! sigh... argh! i have a feeling i'll do very badly for o levels!!! summore ryl ma'am juz wrote a testimonial for me.. saying muz get 6 pts n go vjc.. sigh... no.. i'm dying.. vjc is a confirm no already.. sigh... hope can still hit sajc.. sigh...

oh sigh.. 3 papers down. many more to go.. bleah! oh well.. haven't been very good these few days.. closest word to use is surviving.. hmm.. mayb i shld change it to struggling to survive.. bleah! eng tmr.. and i'm half way down this week.. my amath is still dying.. did like 8 questions only noe how to do like 2 questions.. sigh.. oh yes.. i've msged tassha.. bleah.. after talking to like 5 pple.. heh out of which like 3 talked sense.. whee!! oh no why is tat word there.. found this poem..



Faith



If you think you are beaten, you are

If you think you dare not, you don't

If you like to win, but you think you can't

It is almost certain you won't



If you think you'll lose, you're lost

For out in the world we find

Success begins in a fellow's will

It's all in the state of mind



If you think you're our classed, you're

You've got to think high to rise

You've got to be sure of yourself

Before you can ever win a prize



Life's battles don't always go

To the the faster or stronger man

But soon or late

The man who wins

Is the man who thinks He Can!



whee.. love this.. oh well shall try to download some games etc into my phone!

woohoo.. i haven't updated a serious one for a long time.. always so crazy.. bleah.. no its not crazy its psychotic.. bleah.. paranoia == 78%. crazy gal u haf here.. bleah.. oh well.. i still dun think i'm very sane.. oh well.. lets see...



monday ~ hcl 1/2

tuesday ~ ss

wednesday ~ eng 1/2

thursday ~ lit/emath1

friday ~ amath



bleah.. e one i'm panicking most for is amath.. cause i noe in my mind, i have given up on it.. bleah.. oh yes listing it reminds me.. gotta go update e timetable schedule.. cause i missed out 2 pple's names.. plus.. i've gotta send it out.. woohoo... gg for dinner now... exams!!! sux.



i'm thinking.. what your comment would be. hmm.. i can guess what you think this is about.. anyway putting that aside? i'm wondering.. who can guess the real me? besides God.. who will know even sth close to the real eunice?? hmm ponders*

whee.. exams r over.. oh no.. i dunno wad i'm talking.. no exams r not over.. today told salt i'm having dinner when its lunch.. oh no.. my brain not working.. sigh.. sis angry cause mum dun allow her to watch vcd.. sigh.. i say i will study already liao wad.. bleah! oh no.. volcano eruption at home.. mum shouting dad ignoring sis angry.. oh no oh no.. bleah.. roy juz went home.. his results really bad.. bleah.. needa give loads of tution.. ok shall go off now..

another day gone.. but today was very figity.. i can't seem to study.. studied for like few hrs in e morning.. but in e afternoon i was totally restless.. oh well.. oh yes we had like quite nice tea today.. hotdog n bread wif cheese, wedges and ice cream..

well.. i suddenly realise and understand what amy was saying the other time i talked to her.. indeed seeing is believing.. well well.. after this week.. i guess i've understood another tiny step about the areas of ministry*in some way* ya.. ok lar. i think i'll have a short entry today..

woohoo.. ripped this off xt's blog...

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woohoo... finally got this com up n going.. the keyboard wont work juz now.. oh well.. today's physics practical was GREAT!!! *sorry bert* heh but ya.. i'm quite confident for my moments questions.. got 1.13 and 1.16 for those of u who took it too.. and for my electricity question, i got 8.3 ohms for my resistance, which according to bert is e "modal" answer.. oh well.. thank God for tat man.. compared to my prelims this round was much better.. okok muzn't get too complacent and muz work had for theory.. yay there is study camp tmr!!! love it.. e only place i can study man.. looks like nxt time i shld juz stay in which ever sch i go to and not come home *to study only of course* well well.. managed to get hb and soo ling to come tmr!!! i muz say today i'm feeling much better.. prob cause i dun think too much.. but i can bet wif u on sat/sun i'll b back to e same thing. hopefully it doesn't last cause my o levels starts e nxt day!!! bleah.. okok.. i shall go pack my bag for study camp tmr!!! whee!!!

i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod sheesh.. i really think i'm going crazy crazy crazy.. bleah i hate this man.. like wad i told bert last nite, wad i wrote wld prob b "temp relieve" sigh.. nvm.. i feel silly.. sometimes i dun even noe why i'm worried.. mayb juz am.. i think i've become seriously paranoid.. or maybe, I AM PARANOID.. sigh.. now in school attempting to mug.. physics prac tmr.. hopefully i dun make careless mistakes again.. sigh.. ok i shall sigh out first lar..

argh!!! now, my mind, my heart, my soul, my whole body is not listening to my brain, me concience.. sigh.. sux lar.. anyway.. now i got sth else off cedric's blog... quite nice insightful stufff he wrote there... of course i'll change e sch name etc..



"graduation,

the end of 4 years of memories. 4 yrs tht embrance u and give u an experience tht is beyond value and monetary terms or 4 yrs of void tht would seem nth more special to u den any ordinary day. it is how u wish to spend ur 4 yrs tht really count. true, the exams in e end play a significant impact in the development of ur attitude towards e moments tht give colour and shade to time written but ultimately it is still u hu has to be credited to ur episode here.

the sweet taste of victory in a competition, the lone company of the ever-looming halls of corridors, the bitterness of defeat and disappointment, the frustration and anguish in failure, the juvalation of accomplishment, the dull placating tones of endless mugging, the choas of incompatibility, the crazy ramblings of classes, the incessant chatter of people around you, the every so funny lame jokes, the moments of support and the standing by of friens. all part of memory, one cannot do without the other, they all exist lyk yin and yang, all swarming thr my conscience as i recall past memories. nostalgic? definitely. i could scarsely control my emotions as we sang the batch song for the last time in the atrium, a moment to relish. though we held the arms of strangers, we were together for the last time, giving our hearts and souls and devoting all our capacity to relinquish and recall together something tht has sticked together wif us for 4 well-spent yrs. together.

i will definately miss time spent here in SCGS. perhaps some ppl may proclaim me as some1 unwilling to move on but well i do treasure my history. ur hist is part of u, it gives u definition and experience. w/o a hist, we would hav no memories, no life to speak off. yet again, i'm so looking forward to going to jc. a fresh start, a new environment, new people, new concepts and a new experience. it feels entirely ironic, to both be joyous amd sad as we leave e portals of scgs, which has undoubtedly been e centre of my universe. a sc legacy. a sc resolution.

jc life. a much more complex and superficial yet deep life all at the same life. some ppl will change. a lot off ppl will change. e influence of the opposite sex is definately going to be a big impacting factor here. i dun tink any other point can be more precisedly set in stone den tht. yet tht is not all tht comes. more politics, more sense, more judgement, more reason and more maddness. a fresh burst of flavour frm all the different cornerstones of teenage life, intriguing. and it seems tht is wad ultimately appeals to me. a shift away frm the sterotypicality and subjugated boredom tht plagues the minds of everyone of us these days. perhaps i'll be biting off more den i can chew? i'll get more den i can possibily handle? perhaps. but this element of chance in life is wad gives colour and surprise to life isn't it?"



hopefully i've changed them correctly.. if anything wrong, juz read using your brains!

am i ok? no i'm not. then again.. i dunno if i am or not.. tats silly.. oh well.. isn't it obvious... bleah.. ok nono i'm not scolding you or sth if you are reading it.. and no, i'm not going to get anything out of your blog.. argh.. i dun even noe how i feel abt church today.. everything was fine... i guess.. heh.. so many things/ pple etc gone wrong.. actually, i'm e one tat has gone wrong, so viewing the situation with respect to eunice, others have gone wrong.. sigh this is so relative velocity.. sth with respect to sth.. oh well.. ok nvm.. i declare myself OK!!! jiang was quite fun today rather, it was freezing.. n i had a nice dinner, so it was quite a good ending to This Day. well.. i guess i shldn't be thinking about all these stuff.. after all, o levels are a week away.. and i still have like yuru jie2 birthday party on sat.. well well... i'm wishing for alot of things that won't come back, so oh well.. i dunno... oh yes.. i din go for service today too.. din feel like.. tats very bad, but... ... ... ... i dunno... ... ... ... bleah!

oh yes.. some pple r juz more pple orientated than you are, so dun act desperate pls.. i can't stand it anymore.. neither are you like my sis, so pls dun imitate them.. sigh. and pls dun b jealous of your own sibling.. its useless..

tats all for now i guess...

whee.. another day gone.. today, i pratically rotted my day at home.. besides in e morning going to acjc open hse and sajc open hse.. well.. i met robyn ma'am at e acjc open hse.. eh.. muz say i have a slightly better impression of acjc.. as for sajc.. i still think i wanna go there.. somehow, after 6 yrs in a mission sch and 4 yrs in a non mission school, i feel tat i prefer a mission school.. oh well.. shall see how.. oh yes.. met angel too.. as for e rest of e day, i pratically sat at home and watched tv while e interior designer talked to my parents.. i dunno wad colour to repaint my room!!! bleah.. okok i needa go check if imagestation is working.. needa upload photos!!!

argh.. some pple juz get onto my nerves by saying hi.. but nvm.. shan't let tat get into me...went for tpjc and hcjc open hse.. both weren't too bad.. but muz say hc one was more interesting in someway.. oh well.. nvm.. i can't get in anyway..

today was graduation!!! oh man... i miss sc so much...

Glad that i live am I, that the sky is blue

Glad for the country lanes, and the fall of dew

After the sun the rain, after the rain the sun

This is the way of life, till the work be done

All that we need to do be it low or high

Is to see that we grow nearer the sky..

This this school songs really has a lot of meaning to it… for once this year, I sang the whole thing properly..

oh well.. as usual, I have some one sitted next to me.. irritating.. never want her to see my blog.. oh well.. today the graduation was quite ok.. it started off a little boring.. but after that I was quite ok.. Stephanie’s speech was quite interesting, but carmen’s was more “human” to a certain extent.. oh well.. eh.. other than tat, e rest were quite fun… when I went to get my cert, dad went all e way up to take photo.. heh… I managed to take photos wif many of my frenz and of course teachers.. wad to do.. mrs tsoi and mrs low won’t be at prom cause they have something on.. so sad.. oh well.. e funniest thing is tat I lost my cert.. was taking photos when it dropped out of my bag and I din even noe.. only after I left e hall then I realized, but I couldn’t find it.. good thing mana found it for me.. woohoo.. we got a pen for grad, plus a book on” family matters” quite a nicely put together book cause it consists of stuff tat sc gals wrote on our families.. e saddest one was on a family tat e father was warded in hospital.. oh well.. its all over now.. gonna miss sc.. much as my mum not being happy tat I’m there, I’m very happy tat I had this chance to be there as sc taught me a lot.. Thanx Lord for putting me there.. today at the grad, it suddenly dawned on me again the main reason I am doing everything.. not for my own glory etc, but for God.. heh..

well.. silence seem broken, but I dunno if it really is. no more of you? no unless I follow the footsteps of M.

woohoo. i'm online at such weird hrs.. only dawn n some ohters r online.. i'm gonna pop by tpjc open hse today wif salt and xiujun.. then later hcjc.. woohoo.. everything i like moving so fast..sigh o levels wld b here soon..

chem prac.. it was ok lar.. i got a totally off metal.. i got aluminium when most pple got sodium.. QA was quite easy i muz say.. cation and anion test.. simple ones summore.. heh.. oh well.. besides tat.. today i got cursed by Mrs neoh.. dunno why pple still can tell me that she is nice.. i din even do anything to offend her and she juz scolded me.. i worried i bumped into her and said sorry.. she said sorry no use.. then she said.. never mind.. god will punish you when the day comes*i put small letter 'g' cause i dun believe wad she said* ya it sux lar.. for no reason curse me.. and thats not all.. she also said that next time when i go out to work, my boss would surely give me the red letter.. i assume its firing me.. goodness lor.. i haven't even started working and i get cursed by her.. sheesh..

oh sigh.. i kana nagging again.. sux lar..bleah.. i'm in a bad mood now cause of tat nagging.. oh well.. and pple aren't picking up their phones.. i can't contact them.. sigh..

hmm... good.. i love getting a cold shoulder.. then i won't think anything.. i won't do naything i won't think so much.. good. very good..

sux sux.. all i needed b4 my chem prac today is for my dearest tution teacher to go complain to my mum about my chem n physics.. say i nv do my work.. bleah.. i no mood to study liao... argh..

anyway.. today was very good lar.. as in study camp.. a pity we had to waste our morning having graduation practice... oh sigh.. well well.. my mind was more concentrated today.. not to bad.. i guess i can like work like tat till after my o level.. then again.. mayb i shld juz put tat tot totally out of my mind.. and not bother.. heh. .then i won't be distracted at all.. even after my exams.. oh well.. if not, i wld b like now.. so paranoid. and read too much into things.. someone on e phone, i can read alot out of it.. bleah.. this is bad lar.. sigh...

oh yes.. i din go for tution today.. was like super tired.. and plus a very bad headache.. so.. i slept till like veyr later lar.. okok shall go do some timetable on whos having their exams when.. chaoz

today's school was a total waste of time man.. i went to sch for study camp in the morning.. then i went for ss whcih was boring.. then i had chem which was half e time boring.. then back to study camp again.. sheesh.. then had physics tution and then jiang again.. heh as usual met rongshan.. and actually.. alot more pple.. juz tat rongshan is e only one i talk to if i meet her.. e pple in my class are like dunman high and cedar dominated.. and like they signed up as a group.. and they talke chinese all e way.. so off... oh well... i think i saw elizabeth... xin yi and this gal frm 5&6 charity.. can't remember her name though.. oh well.. tmr is gonna b another day of wasting time.. i have like graduation ceremony rehersal.. sheesh.. its like a total waste of time.. i rather be at the study camp..

i juz realise tat study camp is fun.. SALT!!! why u nv join us. heh xt-ie say she wanna join us nxt week.. but she did so well.. bleah.. mrs kwan is like super nice too.. keeps replenishing the food and then ask wad we like then she will go buy for us.. n she doesn't mind if we eat in e room.. heh. .but when mrs lim or e other teachers comes in then it means no food lar.. heh.. oh well.. i feel so sianed now.. dun feel like working.. feel like stoning..

my mind and brain and heart haven't been working very well with each other today.. i think i have to change e music and stuff tat i do.. mayb i shld follow wad M did... wad she did mayb my solution.. but of course for diff reasons.. but then again, i can't bring myself to do tat.. cause after all, pple have warned me abt tat coming.. then again.. nono.. i can't let this mistake carry on.. no.. it shall not ruin my life. nor my exam.

sux lar!!! i'm so irritated.. sometimes my brain listens to me, but sometimes it doesn't.. sometimes, my mind, brain, heart etc all doesn't listen to me.. seeing some stuff tat makes me recall my past *so to call* i get all frustrated. then again.. sometimes, i can control my mind.. which is good lar.. heh.. oh sigh.. lets see.. today i went for study camp.. it was quite good.. in a sense.. at e beginning it was super noisy and wif everyone like being so irritating making alot of noise.. so i did sth illegal lar.. heh.. i took my hp out and listened to music.. but of course i used headset... then aft everything has settled down, it was much much better.. well well.. lessons today were ok.. so tat one was not a prob.. oh yes.. e study camp provided like xtra lot of food.. heh after all we pain $30 for them.. got pie, eclaire, puffs, sweets, raisins, sweet drinks, plain water, biscuits, and i think other stuff oso lar.. heh.. well well.. oh yes.. APPLES!!! nono, not tat i like it, but its juz tat there were alot of left overs.. in e end, we had to bring it home.. heh.. oh well.. but it was quite a good time of studying.. mrs chua really helped alot for geog.. she went through e basics lar basically... yup yup.. i'm very happy about it.. oh well.. throughout the whole study camp, my mind was working half e time lar.. e other half of e time, i dunno wad happened to me.. nono, musn't let it affect me.. muz study for e o levels and muz study hard.. muz do well.. muz get eh.. *if possible* 6! heh.. ok i'm crazy now..

sux lar!!! i'm so irritated.. sometimes my brain listens to me, but sometimes it doesn't.. sometimes, my mind, brain, heart etc all doesn't listen to me.. seeing some stuff tat makes me recall my past *so to call* i get all frustrated. then again.. sometimes, i can control my mind.. which is good lar.. heh.. oh sigh.. lets see.. today i went for study camp.. it was quite good.. in a sense.. at e beginning it was super noisy and wif everyone like being so irritating making alot of noise.. so i did sth illegal lar.. heh.. i took my hp out and listened to music.. but of course i used headset... then aft everything has settled down, it was much much better.. well well.. lessons today were ok.. so tat one was not a prob.. oh yes.. e study camp provided like xtra lot of food.. heh after all we pain $30 for them.. got pie, eclaire, puffs, sweets, raisins, sweet drinks, plain water, biscuits, and i think other stuff oso lar.. heh.. well well.. oh yes.. APPLES!!! nono, not tat i like it, but its juz tat there were alot of left overs.. in e end, we had to bring it home.. heh.. oh well.. but it was quite a good time of studying.. mrs chua really helped alot for geog.. she went through e basics lar basically... yup yup.. i'm very happy about it.. oh well.. throughout the whole study camp, my mind was working half e time lar.. e other half of e time, i dunno wad happened to me.. nono, musn't let it affect me.. muz study for e o levels and muz study hard.. muz do well.. muz get eh.. *if possible* 6! heh.. ok i'm crazy now..

whee went to vjc today!!! it was fun!! met lets see who.. eh sheldon first.. ya.. then aft he went to report for duty, then i called ryl ma'am said hi and then went to walk about.. oh then saw mich ma'am n her bf.. heh.. then said hi and then i saw wei wei formerly frm cedar.. heh her name kinda slipped my mind at first*oops* till i got ryl ma'am to refresh my memory.. well.. i met a whole load of pple.. my classmates, school mates, and of course my primary sch frens!!! whee!!! heh.. ya then i met dawn some time later.. we were suppose to leave, but she suddenly came.. so we went for rock climbing and flying fox.. so fun manz... heh.. then when we finally left, then met andrew.. oh well vjc open hse was indeed more fun than like nyjc.. sigh.. heh.. aft tat took a long way back to church n studied.. oh well i haf jiang tmr.. i dun wan it!! but i need it.. oh sigh.. o levels r coming.. i wish it was over n tat i got the score i wanted.. vjc was so nice tat i wanna go there now.. but i can't.. oh sigh.. ok gg off for a bath.. chaoz

oh sigh... back from tution!!! woohoo... talking to ryl mm now... hmmm.. tmr gg for vj open hse tmr.. she say its fun.. so shall see how... well.. today went to nyjc open hse.. boring.. they din do anything.. juz left us to rott.. ok lar.. shall go off now.. chaoz..

oh sigh... nono.. i muzn't b over sensitive.. i've been reading into too many things.. sheesh!!! okok besides tat.. well.. i've been rotting in school e whole day.. argh!!! we've been doing autograph e whole day.. whee.. i'm quite high!!! i hope things wld b ok soon.. byes!!!

sux lar.. this come get e "funny" virus.. my dear sista ar.. oh sigh.. juz managed to send e testimonials to xt-ie.. thanx gal.. so sorry for e trouble.. oh sigh.. now all my photos r gone.. including those tat i got frm like ryan.. argH!! so irritating.. i din haf time to save them somewhere else n 'pop' its gone! argh! oh well.. i'm waiting for sf mm to reply so i can help her settle some article thingy..

whoohoo.. my hse is gonna have some upgrading.. a nicer living hall, and wad e designer calls "cozy corner" yup yup.. oh yes.. i can't wait for nxt mth to come. of course its after e o levels.. have my church class outing.. yup.. forgot to ask them if they wanted to sing karaok.. heh.. okok i shall go off now.. chaoz..

argh.. its so irritating.. my moderation exercise has juz ended.. bleah.. i only moderated by 3 points!!! so little!!! some pple can moderate like 7 points *its not bertrand is my sch mates*.. not fair!!! argh.. i dunno where i can head to now.. summore my chinese still fail.. din manage to moderate to apass.. so as of now.. including moderation and bonus, i have 13 pts.. i doubt sa wld take me, but mayb will try.. oh sigh.. its juz so irriating.. i can miss some subs moderation by afew marks!!! bleah. ok mayb i shld look at it in a diff light.. i shld b thankful tat i even got moderation.. *smiles* oh sigh.. i oso hafta go for study camp!!! sheesh... looking at my busy plan, there is totally no time to go for e study camp.. thank goodness mine is optional.. well.. i still have tonnes of tution daily.. some days even haf like 2.. cause i haf a new chinese tution. it goes on for like 5 days per week.. sunday to thurs.. so.. everynite i wld b at tution.. hope i find someone i noe.. bleah.. its so irrritating... oh sigh.. oh yes.. my blog is done... heh.. did it in like 1/2 hr last nite cause i cldn't stand to see the disgusting error as my background.. heh.. okok i shall go find sth else to do b4 my timeslot here ends.. chaoz..

argh!! sc is irritating.. they insist on an excuse for our absence if not no moderation.. wad threat is tat? some classes can have like 20 plus pple not come and yet still no action taken.. today, juz 6 pple not here, and boom.. no moderation for u.. goodness. this sux.. thank goodness i called salt.. mum shld b writing letter later.. heh

oh sigh. my msn is down.. silly sista went to accept some virus.. sux lar.. i'm so pissed off. e only good thing is tat my testimonial is more or less done.. mrs lim did it for me.. whee!!! ok... i shall go off now.. chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh... i'm home.. n i'm bored!!! i'm waiting for my testimonial from mrs lim but it doesn't seem to be coming.. oh no.. looks like tonight i'll b slogging away to do e testimonial.. i'm tired n sian.. i dun wanna study... sigh.. elaine is out e whole day!!! good and bad lar.. ok lar... chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh!!! i'm trying to study, so please don't disturb me!!! i am very sure you know what you need to know.. but you are just there making a whole load of trouble and talking a whole load of rubbish.. i mean.. everything has been explained out to you already.. but you just want attention.. i really dunno wad to do with you.. wad shld i do? i tried putting all these kind of things out of my mind.. but no.. u keep pestering me.. pester pester pester.. u think its very nice isit.. i am just down here tolerating.. no i am not going to waste my sms and my study time on u. but then again.. i can't just let you do tat. it is not good for you.. yes. you know wad is good and wad is not for yourself.. but u juz simply refuse to listen. wad on earth do u wan? i am seriously getting very tired of listening to you.. to i mean.. yes as a friend, it is my duty.. but u r juz so exasperating.. i am seriously thinking of giving up.. but i can't i juz can't after being infurated for awhile, i'll juz give up.. and go back into helping you.. but i do not i repeat, i do not.. want this silly thing to drag because it is tat simple.. u noe.. tat simply as ABC. you are much mature than wad pple think you are, but why are you doing this.. sigh.. writing this is no use.. cause you do not come online anymore.. oh sigh...



today.. i juz realise tat my relationship btw chello n me is like btw _____ and me.. sigh.. i think i really must learn to be more patient.. ok tats out of point.. rather.. tats wad we learnt during the prog meeting on sat.. on patience.. yeap.. n i seriously need it.. oh sigh... i juz finished 4 boring lessons.. nearly slept in them man.. sigh.. still got 2 more lessons then i'm released and can go home.. elaine's exams end this week.. argh!!! tat means i wld only see pple ard me partying!!! i dun like it!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]i thought i was over sensitive.. but no.. i haf lost the little respect i had for u.. gone.. just like tat.. mayb i read into things or i may be a perfectionist in certain areas, but anyway.. gone.. its all gone.. you too.. it was actually gone long ago.. but the respect crept back.. but suddenly.. looking at your actions.. it was gone in a flash.. i sincerely hope i don't enter the same jc as u do.. i wld juz die in there.. ok mayb i am exagerating. but then again.. lastly, you. i haf totally no comments wad so ever.. hints shld b obvious enough tat i am irritated.. if u ignore or haf ya own plans again as usual.. i dun care anymore.. btw.. all 3 "you"s are different..

sigh.. yes i am gonna heed amy's advice.. concentrate on "o" levels and not bother about anything else.. after o levels i can do wad i want.. lets see wad i wanna do.. actually.. besides gg for e keyboard lessons.. i wanna go for drum lessons.. spurf, xt-ie and salt-ie wanna go too.. yay can go together.. eh then oso got prep for prom.. n i guess i actually wanna catch up wif my reading.. i wanna go to e library and read e whole day.. sounds so secluded kind of stuff.. but i really wanna catch up.. lets see.. alot of stuff oso lar.. to read.. sigh.. okok.. i shall try to go and do sth first.. chaoz

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] i took this "somehow, i have lost all respect for you. i know its not fair to you for me to say this.and ppl, this is NOT the you that i always refer to. different one. but somehow, i have lost that respect for you. maybe not even just you. the both of you. i know this is probably not a fair statement to you at all. but thats jus the way i feel. i dun feel that i can talk to you anymore. i dunno. give me time to sort my mind out. " out of bertrand's blog.. tats wad i'm feeling now.. but i'm lazy to type it all out... sigh.. i oso dunno why it is like tat, but i'm in a very bad mood now..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]oh sigh.. juz had like 4 lessons.. this is not bad.. i'm using e com during recess then at night dun use, but study.. shall try tat.. though i'm sure i wld use it tonight again.. heh.. physics and eng and amath were BORING!!! it was chinese that was really nice.. ok tat is e first time i wld ever give tat comment man.. today lao shi came up to me and ask me to work harder.. first time in my 2 yrs wif her tat she said sth positive..then she say muz at least get a c6 n tat she was quite pleased with my this round's results.. i guess its because i did get my usual 25% but rather 40% though it was not good.. heh.. i tot sth happened to her.. like she went for some talk on being positive and all tat.. heh but salt said she was nice all e while.. heh.. i'm in quite good moods today!!! whee!! shall go try n play some silly games like pinguin and this french game callled wagenschenke quite cool games.. heh.. but very stupid at e same time.. okies chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh!! yes i'm in school again.. doing some student survey n waiting for livia to finish using e pen b4 i do e student leader survey.. heh i feel so negative wrote alot of negative stuff for my survery... well... my l1r5 is 18 now.. they rounded up our results.. i'm waiting!!! argh! shall blog again during recess!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]i'm finally home after tution and all... well.. today's acjc talks were quite ok.. quite informative, but it was not very convincing.. well. saw may and zechen's picture under choir.. heh.. then for vjc talks, had dawn's pic during the vjc talentime.. well... heh.. i nearly cldn't recognise her.. heh.. well well.. i din stay long for tution today.. only for about 2 hrs.. well then the interior designer came over today to do up the house.. heh.. okok.. i htink i shall go watch tv now...

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]heh i'm in school now.. and i'm breaking a rule to use the com for such purposes, but i dun care!!! juz had acjc talk as well as watched the Alvin Aillie(can't remember how to spell) dance performance at the Kallang Theater.. it was ok lar.. quite nice.. but as usual.. cause of the dark settings.. i nearly fell asleep.. they gave us a t-shirt which was quite nice.. well.. well.. its recess now n i'm juz bored. juz lugged 7 goody bags up to class while e rest went for recess.. sigh.. i'm having vjc talks later.. i dun think i can make it anywhere.. mayb yjc or srjc.. heh..acjc din sound too bad.. oh ya orphelia asked me to ask how to appeal into ac.. heh.. sigh.. my sch had better moderate my score or i wont get into anywhere.. okok i think i shld go check other stuff now b4 e librarian comes and check on me and i'm banned from using e com...

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]oh sigh!!! failed my social studies... nvm but still got a 4.. so i guess not tat bad.. my L1R5 b4 moderation is 19.. guess muz thank God tat at least i got into jc... sigh!!! well... i am very.. sigh.. not much of feeling lar.. juz tat i'm not very happy about my mother's rxn.. sigh.. bleah

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]Praise e Lord!!! heh.. though i din do very well for my subs.. eh physics got B4, but my lit got e highest for e first time.. heh i got a2.. *smiles* k though it doesn't mean my combined is confirm an A, but least even if i fail ss, i'll still get about a B for my combined.. so its not at bad!!! i think can get like 18 b4 moderation aft moderation mayb 14? i hope n pray.. heh... ok.. shall go off now

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]woohoo!!! another week gone... heh had some pple come and "kai jie" me.. got dawn then jacque then vivien then eileen.. heh.. feeling slightly better.. least i can laugh it off.. but then... sigh... another prob.. bleah.. i really feel like strangling someone.. irritating.. knows tat i can't stand half way info n purposely does tat!!! freak!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]hey thanx pple.. especially cedric for knocking me to my senses.. He would not forsake me and He is fair and just.. i would not end up where He doesn't want me to go to... sigh.. failed geog. e paper tat i studied e hardest for.. sad case lor.. sigh... muz continue mugging man... met angel at macs at novena square today wif her boy fren darren... heh both in schs tat i wanna go.. vjc & sajc.. well well.. looks like i'll have to go through 2nd intake.. bleah

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh!!! as i predicted.. my grades are dropping by the day.. got chem today.. got a B3.. sigh.. goodness.. these kind of score wld not get me anywhere.. sigh... sux lar... argh!!!

today's lessons were ok.. towardz bad.. more of boring.. tmr getting back 2 more papers.. sigh.. n long xia is coming tmr too.. dunno how to tell her bleah!!! me wont be continuing wif her lessons.. how to tell lar u tell me.. bleah.. ok i think i shld be starting to mug again.. muz go do tys.. parents not home now.. they went to watch Mamamia... went to watch without me lor.. but ya i noe.. i can't go.. sigh.. okok.. shall go off now lar.. chaoz

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]shit.. english got an A2.... sad case argh!!! tmr onwards i'm going to get papers tat r horrible!!! dying lar..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]shit.. english got an A2.... sad case argh!!! tmr onwards i'm going to get papers tat r horrible!!! dying lar..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]SHIT SHIT SHIT!!! !!! !!! my results are out... so many mistakes in my exam.. argh!!! my emath was like disgusting.. argh!!! i can't go anywhere now with my kind of score.. english wasn't any better... argh!!! sigh... no comments.. dunno where i can go now..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]oh sigh... i dun feel like blogging.. but i shall juz put down afew pov.. well... on sat, soo soo hb n me went to Escape Theme Park... then aft tat met shane n his kindergarden fren marianne.. n then went to church for 17-up on Salvation.. not bad.. sigh.. then today was jane's b-day.. went to church n did e usual stuff.. oh sigh.. i've so much on my mind again.. tmr i'm getting my results!!! sigh.. i seriously very scared!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]well well first schooling day after my exams!!! it was horrible!!! i woke up wif my whole body tired frm walking i think.. sigh.. then i had chem prac first in sch.. and guess wad.. forgot my testtubes.. sigh.. second time already... well.. it was quite ok.. june paper.. hmm.. but mr wong got the chemicals tat had impurities in it, so we had to redo some sections.. well well.. we were oso given this form to fill up, stating our acheivements etc... heh.. also have the section on your weakness and strength and interest. heh.. makes us feel so ego.. well.. we passed it ard lar.. n got some nonsence written.. like i'm e cause for their diabatic situation.. and some other pple had the interesting of stripping in public.. i tell u.. they're seriously super nonsence.. heh..

after tat, i had a 2 1/2 hr break.. huibing went to set up my bluetooth and other stuff.. heh so i managed to get my phone going and receive stuff from her.. after tat when she had to go for bio, i went to e library and rotted away.. oh yes.. i got my first autograph back.. heh livia did it last night and today.. its super cute.. xt-ie suggested framing it up.. mayb i'll use it as the cover page thingy.. well well.. so i juz spent most of my time rotting away...

after tat we had the checking of our cca marks.. heh guess wad.. i got 12 points!!! but inspite of tat, the teachers still forgot alot of activities like beach cleaning and talentime and my courses.. good thing is tat e major events like netball com was there.. oh i din noe public performance like for handbells is counted.. so cool... well.. had physics after tat.. it was ok.. it was last yr paper.. actually i realise tat wad mrs poon taught us can actually be used here.. it helps!

i'll b gg to escape tmr!!! like at 10.. hope sooling wakes up!!! argh!!! heh.. then wld go wif jess in e evening to church lar.. see how.. k lar.. super tired now.. wanna SLEEP!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] i feel so bad now!!! argh! i juz got a new phone.. a nokia 6230.. not tat its not good, but its like my dad said he wld get 6610i and then like suddenly get me a phone tat is 4 times the price of the other!! argh... i feel so bad!!! bleah... elaine got a blue one n me a silver one.. heh so funny tat my dad wan both of us to have e same phone to save on any arguments.. heh...

well.. amath today was a killer.. i did my identities question wrongly, resulting in me not having time to do the other questions.. bleah.. and mrs low talked about moderation today.. i sure hope i wld get moderation for my subjects..

well sooling huibing and me was suppose to go to Escape Theme Park today! so irritating.. it was actually closed. and people actually remembered going on a week day! sigh.. but in e end, we went to bowl and it was one of the worse bowling experience i ever had.. well the good thing is tat sooling had 2 games free plus free rental of shoes.. heh cause its her birthday today! well.. we walked about after tat... we were suppose to play pool at pavillion today.. but cause like 3 girls go there.. all were not very comfortable, so ended up walking about TM. well.. went to e arcade, and then after tat i went to Life bookshop to look about and the rest followed me.. well.. i got a book Footprints for Teenagers.. as well as writing pad and a bookmark for sooling.. heh she said she liked it so got it for her.. hope her mum doesn't scold her or sth.. well.. after tat we went to huibing's hse to play well... after tat we oso had dinner there and watched 2 hrs of tv before going home.. well.. so here i am infront of the com now...

tomorrow is gonna be such a boring day!!! i have like chem in e morning then physics in e early afternoon and before tat i dunno wad to do!! bleah.. ghan say its not an official day so i have alot of time on my hands.. shall see how lar.. well well.. dunno why e teachers made our timetable so nice.. i think my class has e weirdest time table! sigh... i think i shall go try work my phone.. kzkz.. chaoz

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] LAST DAY!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT... TMR IS THE LAST PAPER.. AND ITS AMATH... if it was emath it wld b even better. dun needa study... BUT STILL!!! WHEE!! I CAN GO OUT AFTER TAT.. GOING TO PASIR RIS.. HEH!!! oops.. too much in caps.. looks scary.. bleah.. oh yes.. its soosoo's b-day tmr! shall go n wrap her prezzie!!! bleah.. i can't believe it.. she has like 20 over bucks due of fine to pay for library books.. can't imagine how long she din return heh.. sigh.. tot i was suppose to get phone today.. but looks like my father got e date wrong.. its tmr.. bleah.. can't wait to change.. heh.. oh yes.. today's physics paper.. it was ok lar.. e multiple choice questions some i did b4 at mrs poon.. some r like i dunno how to do lar.. and e worse thing is the step-up/down transformer.. i forgot tat the velocity is inverse to the no of turns and the current!!! argh!! i think 3 marks gone.. so yuan wang!!! argh! oh yes.. but generally it wasn't as difficult as i perceived it.. but seeing the amount of careless mistakes.. i dunno if i can do well.. sigh.. ok i think i really shld get going to revise my work.. tmr is PARTY TIME!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] exam! had amath and chinese today.. died for both.. bleah.. chinese was like i din noe anything that i had to study.. and then ya amath wasn't any better.. it was better than my mock, but generally not any better.. i love trigo now.. but i dun like differentiation.. bleah! okok.. i still have physics tmr.. hope things wld turn out fine.. worried for physics.. muz get my 1. i think i'm ending up in serangoon jc.. not tat it is bad, but it is juz not as good as the others.. ya.. sigh.. dad mayb changing my phone tmr.. shall see how lar.. oh ya..jamie juz gave me the believer music booklet.. wld prob take one of the modules up.. see how after my exam lar.. bleah.. ok.. i think i shld go to my physics website to take a look.. chaoz

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] today was a slack day. i slacked the whole day.. heh.. managed to cancel the tution in the morning.. and then went for dMaster. bleah.. 3 more days of exams!!! heh.. i cant wait for it man... well well... juz came back from tution.. met reena ma'am there.. well.. happy birthday ryan and amanda!!! heh... wishing u all a blessed birthday! sigh.. blogger is not working.. i still can't use bloger to update.. using blogthis.. bleah. ok lar.. i shall go watch tv n then go study for chinese.. heh..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] whoo hoo.. a new blog! heh... yes juz reactivated this blog after one year plus... well... i am still in the midst of my prelims.. and the first few papers are quite a killer.. and i believe the few up coming papers will be very bad too.. looks like i have found a new place to ramble alot of nonsence... well.. as for now, i can't wait for thurs cause that is the last day of my prelims.. suppose to meet clean for tea, and on saturday meet mana and the rest to watch the talentime finals the ij dance, sc dance drama and song.. wheee!!! may go for 17-up. shall see how lar... i think some rascal is trying to call for a meeting cause i shall see how my timetable fits it.. i think i need to go and study something for chinese cause long xia lao shi is coming tomorrow... its at 8! bleah. have to wake up so early and haven't learnt my lesson. sigh. my parents want a holiday, but i dun. i wanna go for acoc and vip... but acoc clash with one camp.. shall see if i can even get in for one camp. hehe... okok.. i better go study... chaoz