woohoo.. i haven't updated a serious one for a long time.. always so crazy.. bleah.. no its not crazy its psychotic.. bleah.. paranoia == 78%. crazy gal u haf here.. bleah.. oh well.. i still dun think i'm very sane.. oh well.. lets see...



monday ~ hcl 1/2

tuesday ~ ss

wednesday ~ eng 1/2

thursday ~ lit/emath1

friday ~ amath



bleah.. e one i'm panicking most for is amath.. cause i noe in my mind, i have given up on it.. bleah.. oh yes listing it reminds me.. gotta go update e timetable schedule.. cause i missed out 2 pple's names.. plus.. i've gotta send it out.. woohoo... gg for dinner now... exams!!! sux.



i'm thinking.. what your comment would be. hmm.. i can guess what you think this is about.. anyway putting that aside? i'm wondering.. who can guess the real me? besides God.. who will know even sth close to the real eunice?? hmm ponders*

whee.. exams r over.. oh no.. i dunno wad i'm talking.. no exams r not over.. today told salt i'm having dinner when its lunch.. oh no.. my brain not working.. sigh.. sis angry cause mum dun allow her to watch vcd.. sigh.. i say i will study already liao wad.. bleah! oh no.. volcano eruption at home.. mum shouting dad ignoring sis angry.. oh no oh no.. bleah.. roy juz went home.. his results really bad.. bleah.. needa give loads of tution.. ok shall go off now..

another day gone.. but today was very figity.. i can't seem to study.. studied for like few hrs in e morning.. but in e afternoon i was totally restless.. oh well.. oh yes we had like quite nice tea today.. hotdog n bread wif cheese, wedges and ice cream..

well.. i suddenly realise and understand what amy was saying the other time i talked to her.. indeed seeing is believing.. well well.. after this week.. i guess i've understood another tiny step about the areas of ministry*in some way* ya.. ok lar. i think i'll have a short entry today..

woohoo.. ripped this off xt's blog...

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Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results Warmth |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Intellect |||||||||||||||||| 58% Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||| 46% Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Liveliness ||||||||||||||| 50% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 42% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Abstractness |||||||||||| 38% Introversion |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Openmindedness |||||||||||| 38% Independence ||||||||||||||| 50% Perfectionism ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Tension |||||||||||||||||| 58%

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Extroversion (44%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private. Friendliness (60%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (66%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Emotional Stability (44%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Openmindedness (38%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly practical, conservative, and conventional at the expense of curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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woohoo... finally got this com up n going.. the keyboard wont work juz now.. oh well.. today's physics practical was GREAT!!! *sorry bert* heh but ya.. i'm quite confident for my moments questions.. got 1.13 and 1.16 for those of u who took it too.. and for my electricity question, i got 8.3 ohms for my resistance, which according to bert is e "modal" answer.. oh well.. thank God for tat man.. compared to my prelims this round was much better.. okok muzn't get too complacent and muz work had for theory.. yay there is study camp tmr!!! love it.. e only place i can study man.. looks like nxt time i shld juz stay in which ever sch i go to and not come home *to study only of course* well well.. managed to get hb and soo ling to come tmr!!! i muz say today i'm feeling much better.. prob cause i dun think too much.. but i can bet wif u on sat/sun i'll b back to e same thing. hopefully it doesn't last cause my o levels starts e nxt day!!! bleah.. okok.. i shall go pack my bag for study camp tmr!!! whee!!!

i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod i'm paraniod sheesh.. i really think i'm going crazy crazy crazy.. bleah i hate this man.. like wad i told bert last nite, wad i wrote wld prob b "temp relieve" sigh.. nvm.. i feel silly.. sometimes i dun even noe why i'm worried.. mayb juz am.. i think i've become seriously paranoid.. or maybe, I AM PARANOID.. sigh.. now in school attempting to mug.. physics prac tmr.. hopefully i dun make careless mistakes again.. sigh.. ok i shall sigh out first lar..

argh!!! now, my mind, my heart, my soul, my whole body is not listening to my brain, me concience.. sigh.. sux lar.. anyway.. now i got sth else off cedric's blog... quite nice insightful stufff he wrote there... of course i'll change e sch name etc..



"graduation,

the end of 4 years of memories. 4 yrs tht embrance u and give u an experience tht is beyond value and monetary terms or 4 yrs of void tht would seem nth more special to u den any ordinary day. it is how u wish to spend ur 4 yrs tht really count. true, the exams in e end play a significant impact in the development of ur attitude towards e moments tht give colour and shade to time written but ultimately it is still u hu has to be credited to ur episode here.

the sweet taste of victory in a competition, the lone company of the ever-looming halls of corridors, the bitterness of defeat and disappointment, the frustration and anguish in failure, the juvalation of accomplishment, the dull placating tones of endless mugging, the choas of incompatibility, the crazy ramblings of classes, the incessant chatter of people around you, the every so funny lame jokes, the moments of support and the standing by of friens. all part of memory, one cannot do without the other, they all exist lyk yin and yang, all swarming thr my conscience as i recall past memories. nostalgic? definitely. i could scarsely control my emotions as we sang the batch song for the last time in the atrium, a moment to relish. though we held the arms of strangers, we were together for the last time, giving our hearts and souls and devoting all our capacity to relinquish and recall together something tht has sticked together wif us for 4 well-spent yrs. together.

i will definately miss time spent here in SCGS. perhaps some ppl may proclaim me as some1 unwilling to move on but well i do treasure my history. ur hist is part of u, it gives u definition and experience. w/o a hist, we would hav no memories, no life to speak off. yet again, i'm so looking forward to going to jc. a fresh start, a new environment, new people, new concepts and a new experience. it feels entirely ironic, to both be joyous amd sad as we leave e portals of scgs, which has undoubtedly been e centre of my universe. a sc legacy. a sc resolution.

jc life. a much more complex and superficial yet deep life all at the same life. some ppl will change. a lot off ppl will change. e influence of the opposite sex is definately going to be a big impacting factor here. i dun tink any other point can be more precisedly set in stone den tht. yet tht is not all tht comes. more politics, more sense, more judgement, more reason and more maddness. a fresh burst of flavour frm all the different cornerstones of teenage life, intriguing. and it seems tht is wad ultimately appeals to me. a shift away frm the sterotypicality and subjugated boredom tht plagues the minds of everyone of us these days. perhaps i'll be biting off more den i can chew? i'll get more den i can possibily handle? perhaps. but this element of chance in life is wad gives colour and surprise to life isn't it?"



hopefully i've changed them correctly.. if anything wrong, juz read using your brains!

am i ok? no i'm not. then again.. i dunno if i am or not.. tats silly.. oh well.. isn't it obvious... bleah.. ok nono i'm not scolding you or sth if you are reading it.. and no, i'm not going to get anything out of your blog.. argh.. i dun even noe how i feel abt church today.. everything was fine... i guess.. heh.. so many things/ pple etc gone wrong.. actually, i'm e one tat has gone wrong, so viewing the situation with respect to eunice, others have gone wrong.. sigh this is so relative velocity.. sth with respect to sth.. oh well.. ok nvm.. i declare myself OK!!! jiang was quite fun today rather, it was freezing.. n i had a nice dinner, so it was quite a good ending to This Day. well.. i guess i shldn't be thinking about all these stuff.. after all, o levels are a week away.. and i still have like yuru jie2 birthday party on sat.. well well... i'm wishing for alot of things that won't come back, so oh well.. i dunno... oh yes.. i din go for service today too.. din feel like.. tats very bad, but... ... ... ... i dunno... ... ... ... bleah!

oh yes.. some pple r juz more pple orientated than you are, so dun act desperate pls.. i can't stand it anymore.. neither are you like my sis, so pls dun imitate them.. sigh. and pls dun b jealous of your own sibling.. its useless..

tats all for now i guess...

whee.. another day gone.. today, i pratically rotted my day at home.. besides in e morning going to acjc open hse and sajc open hse.. well.. i met robyn ma'am at e acjc open hse.. eh.. muz say i have a slightly better impression of acjc.. as for sajc.. i still think i wanna go there.. somehow, after 6 yrs in a mission sch and 4 yrs in a non mission school, i feel tat i prefer a mission school.. oh well.. shall see how.. oh yes.. met angel too.. as for e rest of e day, i pratically sat at home and watched tv while e interior designer talked to my parents.. i dunno wad colour to repaint my room!!! bleah.. okok i needa go check if imagestation is working.. needa upload photos!!!

argh.. some pple juz get onto my nerves by saying hi.. but nvm.. shan't let tat get into me...went for tpjc and hcjc open hse.. both weren't too bad.. but muz say hc one was more interesting in someway.. oh well.. nvm.. i can't get in anyway..

today was graduation!!! oh man... i miss sc so much...

Glad that i live am I, that the sky is blue

Glad for the country lanes, and the fall of dew

After the sun the rain, after the rain the sun

This is the way of life, till the work be done

All that we need to do be it low or high

Is to see that we grow nearer the sky..

This this school songs really has a lot of meaning to it… for once this year, I sang the whole thing properly..

oh well.. as usual, I have some one sitted next to me.. irritating.. never want her to see my blog.. oh well.. today the graduation was quite ok.. it started off a little boring.. but after that I was quite ok.. Stephanie’s speech was quite interesting, but carmen’s was more “human” to a certain extent.. oh well.. eh.. other than tat, e rest were quite fun… when I went to get my cert, dad went all e way up to take photo.. heh… I managed to take photos wif many of my frenz and of course teachers.. wad to do.. mrs tsoi and mrs low won’t be at prom cause they have something on.. so sad.. oh well.. e funniest thing is tat I lost my cert.. was taking photos when it dropped out of my bag and I din even noe.. only after I left e hall then I realized, but I couldn’t find it.. good thing mana found it for me.. woohoo.. we got a pen for grad, plus a book on” family matters” quite a nicely put together book cause it consists of stuff tat sc gals wrote on our families.. e saddest one was on a family tat e father was warded in hospital.. oh well.. its all over now.. gonna miss sc.. much as my mum not being happy tat I’m there, I’m very happy tat I had this chance to be there as sc taught me a lot.. Thanx Lord for putting me there.. today at the grad, it suddenly dawned on me again the main reason I am doing everything.. not for my own glory etc, but for God.. heh..

well.. silence seem broken, but I dunno if it really is. no more of you? no unless I follow the footsteps of M.

woohoo. i'm online at such weird hrs.. only dawn n some ohters r online.. i'm gonna pop by tpjc open hse today wif salt and xiujun.. then later hcjc.. woohoo.. everything i like moving so fast..sigh o levels wld b here soon..

chem prac.. it was ok lar.. i got a totally off metal.. i got aluminium when most pple got sodium.. QA was quite easy i muz say.. cation and anion test.. simple ones summore.. heh.. oh well.. besides tat.. today i got cursed by Mrs neoh.. dunno why pple still can tell me that she is nice.. i din even do anything to offend her and she juz scolded me.. i worried i bumped into her and said sorry.. she said sorry no use.. then she said.. never mind.. god will punish you when the day comes*i put small letter 'g' cause i dun believe wad she said* ya it sux lar.. for no reason curse me.. and thats not all.. she also said that next time when i go out to work, my boss would surely give me the red letter.. i assume its firing me.. goodness lor.. i haven't even started working and i get cursed by her.. sheesh..

oh sigh.. i kana nagging again.. sux lar..bleah.. i'm in a bad mood now cause of tat nagging.. oh well.. and pple aren't picking up their phones.. i can't contact them.. sigh..

hmm... good.. i love getting a cold shoulder.. then i won't think anything.. i won't do naything i won't think so much.. good. very good..

sux sux.. all i needed b4 my chem prac today is for my dearest tution teacher to go complain to my mum about my chem n physics.. say i nv do my work.. bleah.. i no mood to study liao... argh..

anyway.. today was very good lar.. as in study camp.. a pity we had to waste our morning having graduation practice... oh sigh.. well well.. my mind was more concentrated today.. not to bad.. i guess i can like work like tat till after my o level.. then again.. mayb i shld juz put tat tot totally out of my mind.. and not bother.. heh. .then i won't be distracted at all.. even after my exams.. oh well.. if not, i wld b like now.. so paranoid. and read too much into things.. someone on e phone, i can read alot out of it.. bleah.. this is bad lar.. sigh...

oh yes.. i din go for tution today.. was like super tired.. and plus a very bad headache.. so.. i slept till like veyr later lar.. okok shall go do some timetable on whos having their exams when.. chaoz

today's school was a total waste of time man.. i went to sch for study camp in the morning.. then i went for ss whcih was boring.. then i had chem which was half e time boring.. then back to study camp again.. sheesh.. then had physics tution and then jiang again.. heh as usual met rongshan.. and actually.. alot more pple.. juz tat rongshan is e only one i talk to if i meet her.. e pple in my class are like dunman high and cedar dominated.. and like they signed up as a group.. and they talke chinese all e way.. so off... oh well... i think i saw elizabeth... xin yi and this gal frm 5&6 charity.. can't remember her name though.. oh well.. tmr is gonna b another day of wasting time.. i have like graduation ceremony rehersal.. sheesh.. its like a total waste of time.. i rather be at the study camp..

i juz realise tat study camp is fun.. SALT!!! why u nv join us. heh xt-ie say she wanna join us nxt week.. but she did so well.. bleah.. mrs kwan is like super nice too.. keeps replenishing the food and then ask wad we like then she will go buy for us.. n she doesn't mind if we eat in e room.. heh. .but when mrs lim or e other teachers comes in then it means no food lar.. heh.. oh well.. i feel so sianed now.. dun feel like working.. feel like stoning..

my mind and brain and heart haven't been working very well with each other today.. i think i have to change e music and stuff tat i do.. mayb i shld follow wad M did... wad she did mayb my solution.. but of course for diff reasons.. but then again, i can't bring myself to do tat.. cause after all, pple have warned me abt tat coming.. then again.. nono.. i can't let this mistake carry on.. no.. it shall not ruin my life. nor my exam.

sux lar!!! i'm so irritated.. sometimes my brain listens to me, but sometimes it doesn't.. sometimes, my mind, brain, heart etc all doesn't listen to me.. seeing some stuff tat makes me recall my past *so to call* i get all frustrated. then again.. sometimes, i can control my mind.. which is good lar.. heh.. oh sigh.. lets see.. today i went for study camp.. it was quite good.. in a sense.. at e beginning it was super noisy and wif everyone like being so irritating making alot of noise.. so i did sth illegal lar.. heh.. i took my hp out and listened to music.. but of course i used headset... then aft everything has settled down, it was much much better.. well well.. lessons today were ok.. so tat one was not a prob.. oh yes.. e study camp provided like xtra lot of food.. heh after all we pain $30 for them.. got pie, eclaire, puffs, sweets, raisins, sweet drinks, plain water, biscuits, and i think other stuff oso lar.. heh.. well well.. oh yes.. APPLES!!! nono, not tat i like it, but its juz tat there were alot of left overs.. in e end, we had to bring it home.. heh.. oh well.. but it was quite a good time of studying.. mrs chua really helped alot for geog.. she went through e basics lar basically... yup yup.. i'm very happy about it.. oh well.. throughout the whole study camp, my mind was working half e time lar.. e other half of e time, i dunno wad happened to me.. nono, musn't let it affect me.. muz study for e o levels and muz study hard.. muz do well.. muz get eh.. *if possible* 6! heh.. ok i'm crazy now..

sux lar!!! i'm so irritated.. sometimes my brain listens to me, but sometimes it doesn't.. sometimes, my mind, brain, heart etc all doesn't listen to me.. seeing some stuff tat makes me recall my past *so to call* i get all frustrated. then again.. sometimes, i can control my mind.. which is good lar.. heh.. oh sigh.. lets see.. today i went for study camp.. it was quite good.. in a sense.. at e beginning it was super noisy and wif everyone like being so irritating making alot of noise.. so i did sth illegal lar.. heh.. i took my hp out and listened to music.. but of course i used headset... then aft everything has settled down, it was much much better.. well well.. lessons today were ok.. so tat one was not a prob.. oh yes.. e study camp provided like xtra lot of food.. heh after all we pain $30 for them.. got pie, eclaire, puffs, sweets, raisins, sweet drinks, plain water, biscuits, and i think other stuff oso lar.. heh.. well well.. oh yes.. APPLES!!! nono, not tat i like it, but its juz tat there were alot of left overs.. in e end, we had to bring it home.. heh.. oh well.. but it was quite a good time of studying.. mrs chua really helped alot for geog.. she went through e basics lar basically... yup yup.. i'm very happy about it.. oh well.. throughout the whole study camp, my mind was working half e time lar.. e other half of e time, i dunno wad happened to me.. nono, musn't let it affect me.. muz study for e o levels and muz study hard.. muz do well.. muz get eh.. *if possible* 6! heh.. ok i'm crazy now..

whee went to vjc today!!! it was fun!! met lets see who.. eh sheldon first.. ya.. then aft he went to report for duty, then i called ryl ma'am said hi and then went to walk about.. oh then saw mich ma'am n her bf.. heh.. then said hi and then i saw wei wei formerly frm cedar.. heh her name kinda slipped my mind at first*oops* till i got ryl ma'am to refresh my memory.. well.. i met a whole load of pple.. my classmates, school mates, and of course my primary sch frens!!! whee!!! heh.. ya then i met dawn some time later.. we were suppose to leave, but she suddenly came.. so we went for rock climbing and flying fox.. so fun manz... heh.. then when we finally left, then met andrew.. oh well vjc open hse was indeed more fun than like nyjc.. sigh.. heh.. aft tat took a long way back to church n studied.. oh well i haf jiang tmr.. i dun wan it!! but i need it.. oh sigh.. o levels r coming.. i wish it was over n tat i got the score i wanted.. vjc was so nice tat i wanna go there now.. but i can't.. oh sigh.. ok gg off for a bath.. chaoz

oh sigh... back from tution!!! woohoo... talking to ryl mm now... hmmm.. tmr gg for vj open hse tmr.. she say its fun.. so shall see how... well.. today went to nyjc open hse.. boring.. they din do anything.. juz left us to rott.. ok lar.. shall go off now.. chaoz..

oh sigh... nono.. i muzn't b over sensitive.. i've been reading into too many things.. sheesh!!! okok besides tat.. well.. i've been rotting in school e whole day.. argh!!! we've been doing autograph e whole day.. whee.. i'm quite high!!! i hope things wld b ok soon.. byes!!!

sux lar.. this come get e "funny" virus.. my dear sista ar.. oh sigh.. juz managed to send e testimonials to xt-ie.. thanx gal.. so sorry for e trouble.. oh sigh.. now all my photos r gone.. including those tat i got frm like ryan.. argH!! so irritating.. i din haf time to save them somewhere else n 'pop' its gone! argh! oh well.. i'm waiting for sf mm to reply so i can help her settle some article thingy..

whoohoo.. my hse is gonna have some upgrading.. a nicer living hall, and wad e designer calls "cozy corner" yup yup.. oh yes.. i can't wait for nxt mth to come. of course its after e o levels.. have my church class outing.. yup.. forgot to ask them if they wanted to sing karaok.. heh.. okok i shall go off now.. chaoz..

argh.. its so irritating.. my moderation exercise has juz ended.. bleah.. i only moderated by 3 points!!! so little!!! some pple can moderate like 7 points *its not bertrand is my sch mates*.. not fair!!! argh.. i dunno where i can head to now.. summore my chinese still fail.. din manage to moderate to apass.. so as of now.. including moderation and bonus, i have 13 pts.. i doubt sa wld take me, but mayb will try.. oh sigh.. its juz so irriating.. i can miss some subs moderation by afew marks!!! bleah. ok mayb i shld look at it in a diff light.. i shld b thankful tat i even got moderation.. *smiles* oh sigh.. i oso hafta go for study camp!!! sheesh... looking at my busy plan, there is totally no time to go for e study camp.. thank goodness mine is optional.. well.. i still have tonnes of tution daily.. some days even haf like 2.. cause i haf a new chinese tution. it goes on for like 5 days per week.. sunday to thurs.. so.. everynite i wld b at tution.. hope i find someone i noe.. bleah.. its so irrritating... oh sigh.. oh yes.. my blog is done... heh.. did it in like 1/2 hr last nite cause i cldn't stand to see the disgusting error as my background.. heh.. okok i shall go find sth else to do b4 my timeslot here ends.. chaoz..

argh!! sc is irritating.. they insist on an excuse for our absence if not no moderation.. wad threat is tat? some classes can have like 20 plus pple not come and yet still no action taken.. today, juz 6 pple not here, and boom.. no moderation for u.. goodness. this sux.. thank goodness i called salt.. mum shld b writing letter later.. heh

oh sigh. my msn is down.. silly sista went to accept some virus.. sux lar.. i'm so pissed off. e only good thing is tat my testimonial is more or less done.. mrs lim did it for me.. whee!!! ok... i shall go off now.. chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh... i'm home.. n i'm bored!!! i'm waiting for my testimonial from mrs lim but it doesn't seem to be coming.. oh no.. looks like tonight i'll b slogging away to do e testimonial.. i'm tired n sian.. i dun wanna study... sigh.. elaine is out e whole day!!! good and bad lar.. ok lar... chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh!!! i'm trying to study, so please don't disturb me!!! i am very sure you know what you need to know.. but you are just there making a whole load of trouble and talking a whole load of rubbish.. i mean.. everything has been explained out to you already.. but you just want attention.. i really dunno wad to do with you.. wad shld i do? i tried putting all these kind of things out of my mind.. but no.. u keep pestering me.. pester pester pester.. u think its very nice isit.. i am just down here tolerating.. no i am not going to waste my sms and my study time on u. but then again.. i can't just let you do tat. it is not good for you.. yes. you know wad is good and wad is not for yourself.. but u juz simply refuse to listen. wad on earth do u wan? i am seriously getting very tired of listening to you.. to i mean.. yes as a friend, it is my duty.. but u r juz so exasperating.. i am seriously thinking of giving up.. but i can't i juz can't after being infurated for awhile, i'll juz give up.. and go back into helping you.. but i do not i repeat, i do not.. want this silly thing to drag because it is tat simple.. u noe.. tat simply as ABC. you are much mature than wad pple think you are, but why are you doing this.. sigh.. writing this is no use.. cause you do not come online anymore.. oh sigh...



today.. i juz realise tat my relationship btw chello n me is like btw _____ and me.. sigh.. i think i really must learn to be more patient.. ok tats out of point.. rather.. tats wad we learnt during the prog meeting on sat.. on patience.. yeap.. n i seriously need it.. oh sigh... i juz finished 4 boring lessons.. nearly slept in them man.. sigh.. still got 2 more lessons then i'm released and can go home.. elaine's exams end this week.. argh!!! tat means i wld only see pple ard me partying!!! i dun like it!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]i thought i was over sensitive.. but no.. i haf lost the little respect i had for u.. gone.. just like tat.. mayb i read into things or i may be a perfectionist in certain areas, but anyway.. gone.. its all gone.. you too.. it was actually gone long ago.. but the respect crept back.. but suddenly.. looking at your actions.. it was gone in a flash.. i sincerely hope i don't enter the same jc as u do.. i wld juz die in there.. ok mayb i am exagerating. but then again.. lastly, you. i haf totally no comments wad so ever.. hints shld b obvious enough tat i am irritated.. if u ignore or haf ya own plans again as usual.. i dun care anymore.. btw.. all 3 "you"s are different..

sigh.. yes i am gonna heed amy's advice.. concentrate on "o" levels and not bother about anything else.. after o levels i can do wad i want.. lets see wad i wanna do.. actually.. besides gg for e keyboard lessons.. i wanna go for drum lessons.. spurf, xt-ie and salt-ie wanna go too.. yay can go together.. eh then oso got prep for prom.. n i guess i actually wanna catch up wif my reading.. i wanna go to e library and read e whole day.. sounds so secluded kind of stuff.. but i really wanna catch up.. lets see.. alot of stuff oso lar.. to read.. sigh.. okok.. i shall try to go and do sth first.. chaoz

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*] i took this "somehow, i have lost all respect for you. i know its not fair to you for me to say this.and ppl, this is NOT the you that i always refer to. different one. but somehow, i have lost that respect for you. maybe not even just you. the both of you. i know this is probably not a fair statement to you at all. but thats jus the way i feel. i dun feel that i can talk to you anymore. i dunno. give me time to sort my mind out. " out of bertrand's blog.. tats wad i'm feeling now.. but i'm lazy to type it all out... sigh.. i oso dunno why it is like tat, but i'm in a very bad mood now..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]oh sigh.. juz had like 4 lessons.. this is not bad.. i'm using e com during recess then at night dun use, but study.. shall try tat.. though i'm sure i wld use it tonight again.. heh.. physics and eng and amath were BORING!!! it was chinese that was really nice.. ok tat is e first time i wld ever give tat comment man.. today lao shi came up to me and ask me to work harder.. first time in my 2 yrs wif her tat she said sth positive..then she say muz at least get a c6 n tat she was quite pleased with my this round's results.. i guess its because i did get my usual 25% but rather 40% though it was not good.. heh.. i tot sth happened to her.. like she went for some talk on being positive and all tat.. heh but salt said she was nice all e while.. heh.. i'm in quite good moods today!!! whee!! shall go try n play some silly games like pinguin and this french game callled wagenschenke quite cool games.. heh.. but very stupid at e same time.. okies chaoz..

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]argh!! yes i'm in school again.. doing some student survey n waiting for livia to finish using e pen b4 i do e student leader survey.. heh i feel so negative wrote alot of negative stuff for my survery... well... my l1r5 is 18 now.. they rounded up our results.. i'm waiting!!! argh! shall blog again during recess!!!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]i'm finally home after tution and all... well.. today's acjc talks were quite ok.. quite informative, but it was not very convincing.. well. saw may and zechen's picture under choir.. heh.. then for vjc talks, had dawn's pic during the vjc talentime.. well... heh.. i nearly cldn't recognise her.. heh.. well well.. i din stay long for tution today.. only for about 2 hrs.. well then the interior designer came over today to do up the house.. heh.. okok.. i htink i shall go watch tv now...

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]heh i'm in school now.. and i'm breaking a rule to use the com for such purposes, but i dun care!!! juz had acjc talk as well as watched the Alvin Aillie(can't remember how to spell) dance performance at the Kallang Theater.. it was ok lar.. quite nice.. but as usual.. cause of the dark settings.. i nearly fell asleep.. they gave us a t-shirt which was quite nice.. well.. well.. its recess now n i'm juz bored. juz lugged 7 goody bags up to class while e rest went for recess.. sigh.. i'm having vjc talks later.. i dun think i can make it anywhere.. mayb yjc or srjc.. heh..acjc din sound too bad.. oh ya orphelia asked me to ask how to appeal into ac.. heh.. sigh.. my sch had better moderate my score or i wont get into anywhere.. okok i think i shld go check other stuff now b4 e librarian comes and check on me and i'm banned from using e com...

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]oh sigh!!! failed my social studies... nvm but still got a 4.. so i guess not tat bad.. my L1R5 b4 moderation is 19.. guess muz thank God tat at least i got into jc... sigh!!! well... i am very.. sigh.. not much of feeling lar.. juz tat i'm not very happy about my mother's rxn.. sigh.. bleah

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]Praise e Lord!!! heh.. though i din do very well for my subs.. eh physics got B4, but my lit got e highest for e first time.. heh i got a2.. *smiles* k though it doesn't mean my combined is confirm an A, but least even if i fail ss, i'll still get about a B for my combined.. so its not at bad!!! i think can get like 18 b4 moderation aft moderation mayb 14? i hope n pray.. heh... ok.. shall go off now

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]woohoo!!! another week gone... heh had some pple come and "kai jie" me.. got dawn then jacque then vivien then eileen.. heh.. feeling slightly better.. least i can laugh it off.. but then... sigh... another prob.. bleah.. i really feel like strangling someone.. irritating.. knows tat i can't stand half way info n purposely does tat!!! freak!

[*[PaTiEnCe Is A vIrTuE]*]hey thanx pple.. especially cedric for knocking me to my senses.. He would not forsake me and He is fair and just.. i would not end up where He doesn't want me to go to... sigh.. failed geog. e paper tat i studied e hardest for.. sad case lor.. sigh... muz continue mugging man... met angel at macs at novena square today wif her boy fren darren... heh both in schs tat i wanna go.. vjc & sajc.. well well.. looks like i'll have to go through 2nd intake.. bleah