another year has come to an end.. so many things has happened in this year.

taylors
laura - thanks so much gal. the one accompanying me nearly everywhere in school until u met shawn? hahs jking jking.. love u gal. cya nxt yr. u've been a great fren.. enjoy ya stay in columbia. ivon - yoz yoz. super frenly one. thx 4 making e april intake so lively. gonna miss ya nxt yr. no noise ard. hehx. steph to - thx 4 being such a great fren. listening to my opinions in church and correcting me if i'm wrong. u're e best man. marcus - hi mr teo hows mrs teo doing? dun deny le lar.. anw. u've been great lar. thx for being so frank n all. appreciate it. april intake - though der are only 10 of us, but its really great being wif all of u. love ya.
christine - u've been great man.still surprised u were in rc. all e best in ya studies. gonna miss ya terribly dawn - yoyoyo.. hahs. still very fun to disturb u mrs teo. u're so cheerful e whole day, bringing life and joy to e ppl ard u.. irwin - STAR!! hahs. thx 4 being such a great fren. hahs. enjoy your STARy night. jon - aye. hsemate, fellow cell member. thx 4 teaching me so many things. gonna miss ya craziness man.. alfred - hey. thx for teaching me wad generosity is all abt. ipcheryl- oh no. so sorry i missed you out!! hahs. thx for being such a great fren. really glad that i knew someone in perth who i can trust even b4 i went der. hehs. looking forwar to another 3/4 yrs wif u. hehs

zion praise harvest
yanjing - hey.. thx for being e BEST cell leader i've ever had. learnt ALOT from u. thanks for everything. ailing - yoz. e best cell helper man. always so crazy n noisy!! hehs.. in a good way i mean.. so sad. your last yr in perth le..

australia
huibing - you silly girl.. whole day party n holiday one. hahs. anw. thx for being der for me to listen to my complaints and stuff in aust. really glad that u went over. heh. miss u. pls study hard for your exam. and no more holidays till your exams are over ar!!

singapore
dinah - thx so much for keeping in contact gal. so happy for u.. got good results. jia you ar! vivien - hahx. someone forgot to reply my email once u entered uni!! hahs. thx for listening though kw - thx for those calls man. heh. so nice being able to tok to singapore ppl shaun - thx 4 helping n listening.. u've been a great fren bert - thx 4 caring. n e email too. rachel&yiying - hey gals. so sorry. hafta leave like 4 mths into e year. but it was great being ya sgl for such a short period of time. anyway, itsvery encouraging to see you all serve. love ya.

misc
elaine - hahs. yes i needed e colours for this.. anw. so happy see u grow up le. ok abit only lar. but still better than nothing. still as pampered. hehs. jking. jiayou!! and dun give up on chemistry. chem rocks!! hehs

*if i've missed out anyone, pls pardon me*

ip. u're right. its very difficult for ppl to understand our situations. oh well.

anw. gathering at jon's hse today. hahs. enjoyed myself.. well. most of em wld b heading for uni of melb or monash uni.. so.. won't b seeing them anytime soon i guess.. so sad.. so many of em heading there dis yr man.. gonna miss all of u.

i hate you i hate you i hate you. time and time again, you bring upon the 3 of us unhappiness. you are the one that is breaking this family apart. you have caused him to be at a lost. you insulted your daughter, you hurt her. i hate you. i should never have forgiven you when i left in april. i should never have. you have not changed. i hate you. some times i wish i would never see you again. but out of due respet *which you are losing soon* i try to pull myself closer. i should never have done that. i should never have come back to singapore. sometimes i wonder why you would do what you have done. out of duty? argh.

i dun like it when u bring up this topic. no matter how you sound. it turns me off. how?

"When you miss a person, you miss who the person WAS, not who the person IS"

heh. taken frm christine's msn nic. how true.. yes yes. currently missing loads of ppl..

i realise i'm lacking something. really am.. after reading someone's blog. really realise that i am holding on by my own strength..

relatives came over yesterday.. spent most of my time babysitting. heh.. so called lar. beginning was entertaining ppl. den aft dat was e kids. den aft dat was john. heh.. my 4 yr old cousin lar.. he super cute.. but take care of him very tiring.. took afew pics too.. man. he is so cute. den aft dat when i took my laptop down to show grace n joy e superdoc photos. den dey were having fun wif bert on skype grace n joy still can rmb ah teck n kiki. hahs. so cute man. those kids..

woohoo. christmas might not be that screwed after all *i hope* anyway.. i juz realise its such a small world!! heh..

had caroling today. it was fun.. had loads of fun man.. heh. n den went for candlelight service. den carolled outside church. n guess wad. ailing came. dat silly gal was "dancing" and prancing infront of me.. made me laugh n can't sing properly lar. sheesh. heh. anw.. kah hon n jon lim came too.. n den. i realise dat jon lim is related to ber some how. n i think to ryan somehow too.. interesting rite. heh..

hmm. its gonna b a busy nite. muz pack my room for tmr.. n write fininsh my cards. yawn..

looks like i'm gonna haf another screwed up christmas this year. same reason as last year, *more or less* the same cause, the same person that is causing it. argh. must it always be christmas.

went out wif my scrcy ppl yesterday. really miss those days dat u go out wif 1 big grp of gals, and make so much noise u dun care abt e ppl ard u. and be so unglam but not care.. man.. miss those times.. and everyone hasn't changed.. guess its cause everyone is still in singapore.. man.. miss those scgs days.. nv regretted gg to a girls sch.. miss em..

oh my goodness.. GOD IS GRACIOUS man.. heh.. i got into medicine!! heh.. amazing. originally it was dentistry interview.. in e end i got in for med. heh.. *happy*

hmm.. apparently this topic on what part wld u play in e ym b.. ironically, i seem to wanna help, but am stuck.. n dunno where to help or where i can be of help or of use or of aid. sigh..

some how, u haf e capability to touch sth inside of me. i really wonder if what you said stands till now. things have changed drastically.. i can see it. it is clear to me, but i really wonder how much of wad you said is still true. many times, i only see the rough and hurting side.. i wonder if there is any of e opposite side left? i need assurances, that you are still there. i don't understand why only for u it is so tough to do so. you gave me affirmations.. do they still stand?

i'm not as strong as you think *** i don't take negative, i take positive *** i don't take hard, i take soft

i'm sorry. i'll keep quiet frm now on.. all i had was good intentions. to help improve stuff.. anyway. i guess God wld haf his own timing for me ya??

i can't do it. i just can't. after today. seeing the new sec 1s.

my passion is for the youths.

i just can't do it.

[ 16 Dec ] do you know the amount of pain you've inflicted on me? time and time again. now you turn people against me what on earth is your aim here? i really dunno.. i really wish that one day you'll mature and stop such nonsense. sigh. my hope placed on you is slowly fading.. can you please do something.

i give up. gonna give myself a timeline. if nothing is done, move. till then, i shall juz do my best in everything..

sigh.. more n more confused.. feel that i shld juz stay put in one place.. sigh.. argh.. so lost lar.. i miss cell group.. i miss the fellowship of believers. i miss the kind of encouragement you get.. sigh.. i came back assured dat sth wld b done.. but nth is.. you gave me the assurance and confidence that i won't miss cell.. apparently not. sigh.. this is making me run dry.. sigh.. mayb i shld never had came back so early. sigh.. argh..

how??

have i lost you you and you?? i may have gained you you and you.. but den again, i dun wanna loose the rest of you.. sigh.. does it mean that since i have left, i lose it?? was it all but a dream too?? how many dreams of mine must be dashed?? argh.. sigh..

Jesus you're my superhero
You're my star *jumps*
My best friend!!

hahs.. Superdoc camp was great.. bits n pieces of unhappiness, but overall, super fun!! woohooo.. jump jump jump into the light light light..hahs. ok. these 2 songs r stuck in my brain. all frm hillsongs kids. heh.. day 1 was super tiring. dunno why.. but another thing is at like 2am in e morning, michelle *one of my grp member* was singing and jumping around the room *can't sleep!!!!!!* hahs.. anw.. ya.. i had a great grp lar.. they were a handful, but had great fun lar.. like grace whom i had to carry around *joy rides* and like wad.. she jumps onto me and clings on like a monkey. i dun even hafta carry her lar.. hahs.. and like zven who was a headache but was very nice after u noe him better.. den like james who willingly acted as a gal.. and all. man.. miss all of em.. heh..

anw.. another camp coming soon.. hmm.. *tired*

i'm slacking like crazy in isngapore. feel so unproductive.. watching da chang ji the whole day... hahs.. camp in 2 days. cant wait.. heh. lala..

haha. now i can blog freely after 2 days.. heh.. now dat e rest noe dat i'm back.. heh.. e bbq was fun.. but not much of fellowship..

I MISS PERTH. seriously.. i miss everything der. heh. from ppl to like church n all.. man. i wanna go back..

it all seems so weird. can i revert to the the past??

suddenly, i seem to have forgotten EVERYTHING. all the principles i tried sticking to. all gone. sigh. whats wrong man.. i found the principles that i want to stick by. yet, i seem to be loosing them now. argh.

i spent such a long time overcoming it. i recall the times i spent trying to treat you as you are. following ___'s example. i seem to have succeeded, but i have no idea how you managed to bring those memories back to haunt me. i feel as if i have reverted back to my oldself. i feel like i am at a lost. i start worrying over what i should do when i see you. i really don't know. i feel like locking myself out when dad is out as well and only coming back when dad comes back.

i know as ___ said today "children obey your parents" but how difficult it is. to obey and "protect" yourself at the same time and try to act normal at the same time. when will you realise that i am no longer that primary 5 or secondary 3 girl you had yons ago? when? i long for a freedom to learn to be independent. i thank God for this wonderful experience where i have learnt so much more in this period than in my whole life. gratitude. each time i study/work next time, i am sure to look back at this living example. WWJD.. ironic in its own way isn't it? *dun read into dat sentence* but really.. What Would Jesus Do? sigh. i dunno..

side note: i will miss all in perth. much as i haf a mixture of fearful, joyful, etc experiences, i will miss each and everyone of them. as i was watching a movie wif jon n ailing last nite. while at the park wif irwin n jon today. i'll miss each n everyone of you. *serious* i'll miss the times we've shared. and as i finally bid goodbye, not knowing where i would be next yr, i pray for all the times i've had wif all of you, all the lessons i've learnt from all of you.

i don't wanna relieve those days of fear. fear of you. why? i dont want this to happen. Lord, help me..

i've got my licence for driving!! *haha kw!! i can drive earlier than you!!* HEHE..

why is it you. i always seem to lose. to fail. it is always against you. why do i use you as my "cut" why? why must things always turn out this way? why? maybe i just havent done my best. sigh..

lalala.. exams are over!!! heh. ok. dat was like one week ago news.. eh.. ya.. exams over, been slacking, haf been having terrible dreams about my exams. that i did very badly.. heh.. okok dat is e boring part..

went down south wif jon marcus dawn leon brenda n carol.. heh.. it was quite a fun trip.. first day juz slacked ard in e common games room and also did some grocery shopping, cooked and enjoyed in our own spa. heh. 2nd day went to busselton jetty and caught 1 squid 3 crabs and 9 fishes.. out of which 3 were caught by carol, 6 by jon.. heh.. den we cooked em at nite.. 3rd day did all e buying of stuff. n 4th day went mandurah to crab again.. heh..

the whole trip.. dawn keep on getting teased by them. terrible lar.. me also, but i think to a lesser extent.. anyway.. ya.. had loads of super funny videos to watch and all.. muz go rename em n burn em too some time soon.. heh..

hmm.. i juz realise.. taylors is so screwed.. gonna tell those who wanna come to aust dun come taylors(perth)*least for nxt yr* oh well.. so thankful my batch stillgot quite good teacher.. okok.. dun judge. hrmph..

bio exam.. can give up liao. heh. ok.. shant do dat. kena nagged at by some many ppl alrady.. shall start tmr. today is for me to pack my room.. i wanna go back singapore!! hehe.. lala

past week has been bad.. first was exams.. screwed up physics.. prob get e result on monday.. think i cna forget getting medicine. so i'll b stuck wif science education nxt yr.. sigh.. unless i slack ard singaproe for a year. sigh.. argh!! how..highly depressed now.. guess wad ppl said really brought my confidence to get an interview really high.. but i forgot dat ppl r always smarter than i am and it wont b my turn so soon.. signapore or here..

sigh.. mayb i'm thinking too much. or is it a vicious cyclel.. mayb its all God's will..

been having a headache for the past few days. sigh..

i realise... walking at night alone is super nice.. just that its rather scary as well.. as in it can be scary.. but walking at nite is nice.. ALONE. heh.. listen to music, think, walk, think, listen to music, walk... heh.. oh yes. sms. heh.

hrmph.. dis exams period has been a crazy one man.. i still went to garden city this afternoon to walk.. heh.. den last nite slept so late. den tmr morning gg to wake up super early for driving lesson.. sian lar..

anw.. i'm waiting for the rain to stop!! then i can go out to e library.. needa do some last minute revision for physics b4 tmr's paper.. i need to get the formulas into my brain n remember them!! ARGH..

hmmm.. ok.. i think e rain stop liao. least its only drizzling.. shld b feasible to walk.. chaoz.

its freaking early in the morning!! what on earth am i doing online man.. can't seem to sleep.. looking at photos.. ie.. memories.. sigh..been thinking alot. infact, too much..



anyway..i must blog this.. argh.. kena bullied so many times by mr jonathan lai today can.. first was in the car.. he stuck his leg out to the frong right in my face!!! hrmph. i screamed, n christine carol n irwin got e after effects of jon's doing.. after dat, jon took my walled n placed it on the road when we were leaving sch!! nearly drove off w/o my wallet!! hrmph!! den.. aft studying in murdoch *which was not very fruitful today* he went on his famous jerk rides.. hrmph...



n i realise sth.. ppl who go overseas r all qutie mature one. heh.. n e ppl back hme.. *pmc ym 1988 batch in particular guys* are rather childish. heh.. k nvm dat was generalisation.. so ignore it. hahs.. i'm not making sense. mayb its e time dat it is now.. i still dun feel like sleeping.

screwed.. argh. having another panic attack now.. hrmph. i'm so dead for my sciences. cant seem to get anything into my head. den come to library see everyone mugging.. argh!!

i feel like giving up now. seriously. i just feel like giving up. Lord, give me strength to pull thorugh.

ok. my blogging has been like lesser and lesser.. cant even remember when i last blogged. if it was long ago or not.. anyway. eng n math over. teachers said both were ok.. *prays* hope so man.. muz start on physics chem n bio soon.. i realise my physics really cmi..

anyway.. was reading a devotion on friday morning.. about tolerating ppl and all.. and showing God's grace to ppl who irriate you.. really good man.. really learnt alot frm it..

hmm.. today was oso a day of "revelation" realise who in singapore are your true friends. who do not only come to you when they need help, but when u need help, they are there too.. i give up on some ppl already.. ungrateful some may say.. i'm juz disappointed..

on a side note: i realise guys can have extreme moodswings too.. sometimes even worse than girl's.. sigh..

crap.. juz as i tot my english was ok, i realise i could have gone out of point!! argh.. dunno wad to say now.. crap. dunno lar. looks like medicine is slowly becoming a dream only.. sigh.. lets hope i cna even enter uni.. uwa requires 60 for eng i think.. *prays*

1 down, 4 to go.. argh..

last week of sch is over. no more lessons.. it din hit me till jon was announcing it after his last english lesson.. *sobs* gonna miss taylors college man..

anyway. valedictory dinner was last nite.. it was fun lar.. e performances.. the photo taking etc etc.. the skit was good.. went well. the song was good. upsetting though. was on e verge. but i din. heh.. took loads of photos.. man.. i'm gonna miss all of em.. sigh.. especially the fantastic 3 [4 including the casualty] hahs n cheryl juz gave em another name. the draco malfoy grp. hahs 3 bullies. hahs. n e harry potter is cheryl n me.. muahahahaha.. hehe.. lalalala... now the powerpuff guys got ppl to compete wif already.. *right kw??shaun??bert??* haha.. anyway.. i'm gonna miss everything badly man. heh..

alright i shld go off now. tmr hafta go early to church.. *yawn*
________________________

If We Hold On Together

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far don't throw it away
Live believeing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a stars hold on to the end
Valley mountain there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, somebodys praying
Please let us come home to stay

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I.

DINAH IS SO SWEET.. heh.. ok for those in perth. she was my 14 yr old *dats why i say she is so sweet* cell member last rd.. anw. ya.. man.. she replied e letter can.. heh.. sent a bookmark, card, some cert, letter, plus TISSUE PAPER. haha. so sweet lar.. man.. miss her.. heh.. anw. some other ppl were suppose to send stuff over huh *ahem kw.. bert.. ahem* haha..

anw... last week of sch le.. bio teacher manage to irritate me today. so i switched off n went to do my cards.. sigh. muz mug bio lar. cannot let her destroy my future *exaggerated i noe..* oh well. ok.. to murdoch library soon..

anyway.. submitted my hostel form liao.. stcath!! heh.. dunno i will get in not.. but havent heard too good stuff abt currie hall. so i guess dats e next best choice..

okok.. off now.. got loads to do man.. today.. shall do eng math n chem. my 3 fav subs. heh.. lala. physics wld come soon. bio.. can juz go n die lar *jking* *will do it soon lar* heh..

hmmm.. i've learnt alot today. serious... learnt alot about humility. sigh..

anyway.. exams are nearing. end of yr is nearing. time we all leave and go our seperate ways *for some* is nearing. sigh.

this hols back hme is gonna b boring. *i think*

hmm in sch now.. lala.. so sian.. math test in like half n hr time.. and we haf international tea later.. i'm thinking of skipping it n gg home to sleep.. *yawn* stayed up till rather late last night.. heh..

anw.. yesterday learnt sth very very very impt.. it reminded me so much of how i wld handle situations back home.. and i realise how wrong i haf been in doing wad i had been doing.. muz start chagning my "strategies" muz remember its God first. heh..

anw. first week of school for term 4.. all lessons are so dead boring *ok lar not dat bad* and like nearly failed my eng.. i simply cant do analytical lar..

anw. i dun think i can go for the kids camp. sigh.. dats if i get my interview.. argh. gonna slack in perth rotting away.. doing nth.. heh.. oh well. alrights away to some last minute revisions!!

SOMEONE in this house came into my room, threw my platic bags on the ground, moved my towel rack, messed up and toppled my soap and shampoo, and moved my rags. IRRITATING. and the person just doesn't know how to put it back. hrmph! dun think its jon *trust him* so der is 4 person left. hrmph. still want to complain my room is in a mess. look who just messed it up??? sigh. no RESPECT..

anyway. shant let dat person spoil my mood. heh.. just did my essay. rather happy.. service today was awesome. but still have some qns in mind.. shall wait n see who*that i'm willing to ask* is willing to answer me.. but the speaker was really good..

past week or so has been good. i miss horse riding!! miss the 4 horses i rode.. argh.. i wanna go back dere some day.. oh yes. on fri, when we went down, we missed e first bus cause we were buying breakfast n lunch. den we decided to go up and sit down for a proper breakfast, and when we realised that time was up, we missed the 2nd bus!! so frustraing. but den one of e bus uncle offered to send us dere, since he was gg in that direction as well *super nice can* so we were online *praise God*

beach on sat was good too.. but pity i din bring a change of clothes*i'm so not prepared for the beach*. so in e end juz stayed on shore. heh.. but the weather was good. *praise God*

okok.. exams r coming.. muz start mugging.. argh!!

i was juz pondering over wad someone said.. do we "over fellowship" till we end up scaring ppl away??

back from 2nd day.. heh.. horseriding. super fun can. heh.. aiden was my first horse. but it was lazy. but it was a nice horse lar.. chestnut.. super nice. den wendy *my instructor* changed for me to anotehr horse called dasher. also super slow.. but easier to ride lar..

anw.. dun feel like blogging. cause i'm sick. heh.. prob blog another day lar.. oh yes.. saw tasha on e bus. heh.. n i'm officially sick agian. sigh..

hmmm.. its only ten o'clock.. hb is gg to sleep already.. so early lar. heh.. hb came to taylors today. left her in e piano room first while i had chem. den aft dat we went for lunch.. n den, headed for fremantle. both of us bought loads of sweets.. i bought much less though. den aft dat headed for arcade. she saw sth she liked, so we played. spent close to 100 bucks to get 1 pin point dunno wad thing, 2 of the newton pendulum thing, 3 flower keychains, 1 ball n bat *no idea*, 1 egg magic thing, 1 rubber ball and 1 rubber ball wif string. oh. n took neoprints. heh.. hmm.. aft dat, had boost *again* and headed for cottosloe beach *not sure of spelling* had fun taking photos. n hb collected seashells. heh.. oops. i juz realise we havent washed it.. well done. its gonna b so dirty and its right beside my bed. argh. heh.. tmr better go wash man.. speaking of tmr.. gonna go horse riding.. *excited* and i will also b back hme. heh. come to think of it, i miss it. getting rather used to my own space..

well well.. holidays are almost over.. i needa mug more man. think i gg to end up doing badly if i dun study. heh.. hmmm...exam stress setting in sia..

hmm... i cant wait to go back to singapore.. was gg through the picture wif hb juz now.. miss everything back home man.. heh.. but den again, i'm gonna miss a whole load of stuff in perth too.. especially PEOPLE.. in particular those who r gg to diff uni or are entering NS.. sigh.
ok. enough of it. i'm getting tired.. wanna sleep.. hb's cousins juz came home.. dunno if dey r gg to check on us.. shall see.. den again, i dun feel like sleeping.. can't cause i'm falling sick..throat, nose, etc etc.. argh.. how ..

i suddenly am dreading having to meet huibing. not that i dont want to, but its just such a chore. hafta plan how to meet her and all.. plus her cousins here.. so difficult to do things cause i dun like it when dere are adults around. argh. everything is such a mess.. i think i wont stay over on thurs lar. think i'll juz go home or sth.. sigh.. MAFAN.

hot hot hot hot hot hot hot.. argh.. juz had dinner. and it was super spicy.. good thing i din hafta eat it at e dining table *cause dey went out for movie* came into my room, took e packet of pork floss dat my aunt gave me b4 i left *incase i missed singapore food* and dumped 2/3 of the packet onto my noodles.. it helped a little lar.. heh.. n oso finished 2 cups of herbal tea. hehe.. dats how spicy it is man..

church today.. dr cheong and pastor goldie *not sure if its how its meant to be spelt* were super funny.. but i felt dat there was like no link in what dey r doing. but it was a very different way of preaching lar.. heh.. managed to do some chem today too.. gonna finish up e rest tmr as well..

hmm.. hb is coming over!! hehe.. her holiday.. yay!! lalalalalalala.. beach, horseriding, staying over, shopping, fun!! lala..

last week of hols already.. muz start mugging .exams are drawing near!!

heh.. juz came back frm combined cell.. was not bad today.. as in cell. learnt qutie abit. alot of reminders too.. its amazing on how God speaks huh? glad carmen n ken came too..

oh well.. was looking at marcus's pictures.. really miss pmc ym..and pmc itself as well!! cant wait to go back. but now dere is the passion retreat thing. so i dunno when i'll b gg back.. argh!!!

anyway... celebrated cheryl's birthday today.. haf been telling loads of lies to her for the past few days to prevent her frm suspecting..glad it sort of worked out.. hmm.. pictures!! cheryl!! i wan picures!! hehe..

i need to start mugging soon.. ok.. tmr.. shall start after discipleship..

been rather sick of outside food.. i miss home food..

hostels.. how? which one?? currie hall?? or st caths?? lala.. can't decide.. heh.. n nxt yr hafta change zone *i think* heh.. so mafan.. lucky for those whos gg to taylors like next yr. cause its in uwa. easier to transit. if not now like a major shifting of our stuff frm hmestay to uwa.. mafan!!

juz read alfred's blog.. dunno why, but its reminded me of how fortunate i am.. and how i shld juz b happy wif wadever results i got..

realise i've been super slack ever since after PSLE *honestly* i feel that i'm not performing up to my potential.. even during PSLE. and now too.. sigh..

sigh.. felt dat i've started studying abit more in perth.. *after wasting 4 yrs of my life* but den again, i feel like its not enough.

i guess i can't blame anyone but myself for such grades. for such score for such bands.

i guess i juz hafta work harder.

then again, my grades are not extremely bad. juz not up to my expectations.. still, considering the factors, i've really been blessed by God and His Grace has been more than sufficient for me.

thank you Lord.

UPSET

hrmph.. trail exam report is out. english was e worse for my "effort" grade. rather upsetting.

hmm.. not fun!! mummy found out dat i'm learning driving.. bleah. hahs.. nah lar. its actually ok.. juz no mroe surprise for her. heh.

mum is crazy.. when she asked that question, i noe wad she was thinking about already. sheesh..

anyway... was thinking of gg to murdoch library like at nite alone n walk back alone *cause no guy dat i noe dat lives near enough to follow me dere* anyway. den juz read mum's email. hahs. i gave up. not gg to do dat arleady. .too scary.. but still muz start mugging!! heh..

i really wonder. is taking photos with your good friend more important or the chance for someone to go for baptism more important??

sigh.. i'm so critical n objective..

today was ushering for curtin service. *first time* hahs. was treated like a completely new person. *start frm scratch* hahs. but was quite interesting.. completely new perspective to loads of things. heh..

holidays *dat are not really holidays* are here. sian..

at marcus's now.. juz finished cooking. heh. left afew more.. but only can cook slightly later. if not later it turns cold not nice. heh.. getting bored here.. wanna go play games soon.. heh..

hostel.. which on to choose?? sian lor.. dunno which to choose.. but good thing is least i've narrowed it down to afew already..

hmm.. sent jon off arleady. heh.. marcus gg off too. hahs. as christine said. i'll b free frm all e teasing.. haha..

i wanna go home!! hahs..

irritated. pissed off.



i'm always the middle man.



getting so tired of all these.



i wanna go home.



*yesterday went well. [praise God]*

i sense the hypocracy.

i'm gonna take a risk later.

i hope everything goes well.

*my internet is working*

sigh.. argh!!! how?!? got back results. its not bad. but its not very good either.. sigh.. so demoralising.. hahs. [mice: i'm doing ok.. not too bad. juz not very good.. ]

juz had a very boring bio lesson which no one was listening.. juz eating while teacher was talking... so irritating..

huibing is coming over!!!! hahs. i dun care. i'm gonna miss lessons juz to go out wif dat gal man. heh.. silly girl. still haven't book ticket yet.

ok lar.. better go off now.. some irritating ppl like jonathan lai and marcus teo are being irritating!!! hrmph

juz sent irwin off to e airport.. finally.. internet is up n working.. heh.. miss my internet.. oh well.. hahs.. i'm finally back to my usual routine.. lalalala..

anyway.. since exams are over, haf been doing nothing much.. had discipleship on sat morning. which was qutie good.. heh.. got outing soon!! lala.. and after dat was dimsum. hehe. i tell u.. i think e amt of dimsum i eat here is much more than e amt i eat back hme. hahs.. den aft dat went to harbour town.. I WANNA GO SHOPPING THERE!! heh.. now dey haf e winter sale.. so i shall go down dere n shop one of e days in e hols. hahs.. lala.. and after dat pool *which i suck at* but den again, it brings back memories of castor 3 *dey were e ones dat taught me pool dis yr*.. and how the members are just so willing to help, and accepts you as you are.. its amazing lar..

ok. on a more serious note, i've been thinking lar.. i juz realise dat at e end of dis yr, u'll prob nv see some of your friends ever again.. sigh. and how unappreciative of them i have been.. and how much i've learnt from taylors college.. man..

finally. the internet is up. rather e wireless is working!! lala. anyway.. exams are over!! been slacking for the past few days. dvds are like a vital part of my life for e past few days. cant wait for myself to get out of the "post exam" mood. den i'll seriously start studying. hahs.. anyway.. aft exam, i went to make shephard pie. an attempt to prove my homestay mum i will NOT blow up her kitchen, sth she is so worried abt. it was *supposedly* a success according to my cell members.. but the presentation was crappy. muz go home and ask mum how she does it. bleah.

anyway.. got like 2 results back this week.. one was the math exam *mr enright juz told use e score* it was ok.. but cld haf been better. for math for me, that was like average. *sigh* eh.. 2nd was umat. *that was oso ok* i guess its ok cause i dunno wad e requirement for entering uni is. so i juz hafta wait i guess..

anyway.. discipleship tmr. den laser quest aft dat in e eveing *to be confirmed* hehe.. kk monday muz start mugging.. got physics project due soon man.. ARGH..

hmm. back from bio!! same as physics, it was easy, but i din study hard enough. *well done eunice* sigh... so frustrating..

anyway.. oh juz realise tash n jean ma'am are in the same cell group. my goodness.. hahs such a coincidence. heh.. [its a small world after all] and today was at video ezy wif laura n christine. den dey were playing the song in one of e musical [ love (sth) medley ] i remembered jean ma'am and maria ma'am singing that for talentime. my goodness.. hahs i miss those times man.. lala

anyway.. chemistry!! i needa start mugging.. but b4 dat. heh.. i'm gonna sort out my notes man. heh. file em nicely n start mugging!!

hrmph.. my hse mum juz barged into my room. no knocking or anything. now i noe wad she does when i'm not at hme man. *cause she apologised, cause she tot i wasnt home* hahs good thing i juz cleard my room yesterday. not neat, but ok. sigh.. no repect for ppl in dis hse man. hahs..



anyway.. i dunno wad on earth is wrong with blogger. its not working!! bleah. taking ages to upload.. sigh.. bio exam tmr. i am so going to fail.. i dunno how to study it. bio is in such a mess.. cause my teacher herself is a mess. bleah.. i really shouldn't have taken bio. shld haf taken like accounts or sth.. sigh..i'm so screwed.. so super worried lar. i was close to panicking and breaking down juz now.but its much better now anyway.. oh well..



Search for A Start was yesterday.it was good i muz say.. the items i mean. heh. super funny.. some of them.. i wanna learn hand signing!! heh.. learn half way den stop. so frustrating.. heh *speach therapist* [betty] *excellent!!* hahs.. inside joke.. ignore me those of u who haf no idea wad it stands for. but it was great lar.. i got e dance down.. wanna send back hme. heh.. let em see. lala.. oh well.. oh yes.. why do choirs always like to sing the same song? zph choir same the same songs as wad michelle chan ma'am's batch sang for their final yr in RC for talentime.. goodness... tonnes of recollections man.. heh..



i shld shld shld go do my QT. i tell u.. i haf beeen in a horrible state for the past few days/weeks.. sigh.. relying on my own strength, and not of God's. and now when i am seriously dying even at the thought of biology, den i turn to him for help. sigh.. i needa snap out of this bad habit. ppl may say i wld do well in e end, but i tell u.. this stage of panicking is terribly torturous.. the thought that i'll do badly. my goodness.. *horrible* sigh.. okok. i better go do my QT after my lunch or sth.. bleah..



oh yes.. past week had 3 papers. eng was average.. hope i can get like 80? but prob wont get it. math.. muz get 90 and above. but havent heard any good news frm mr enright, so expecting the worse.. physics was an easy paper, but i din study hard enough. *sigh* TERRIBLE.. i must score well man..

hahs.. dis is highly amusing.. soosoo.. if u read dis, do tell me.. i'll fill u in on wads happening.. anw.. hahs.. hb had a very interesting day i can say. i think its super funny. but ok shall b nice n help me *if i can* muahahahaha

anw.. i've made a resolution.. *get to noe winthrop better* cant stand the fact dat i dunno e area i'm staying in. bleah.. *reaches for the map to study* hahs... but dat will hafta come after my exams..

speaking of exams.. physics tmr!! its a killer lar.. i'm seriously dead. *honest* *not lying* i dunno anything. n mr kurian went hme already by e time i reached sch.. so... eunice is so dead.. so screwed up.. sigh..aft physics.. hahs.. a short break den its off to bio.. argh..

hrmph.. i'm slacking at hme.. rather irritated at myself today lar.. so, decided to slack at hme while e rest mug in e library. may pop by library later if jon is gg.. hrmph.. dis is irritating me.. i wanna drive a car soon!!! i wan my own car i mean. cheryl!! i needa learn frm u like wad u said to b independent. i needa b completely independent.. argh!! dis is highly frustrating..

anw.. i bought huibing's keychain already!! hehe.. and mine too!! shall use it when i get back hme. lala.. heh.. oh well.. kzkz off to "relax" i'm so frustrated... sigh..

exams.. hrmph.. exams are like nxt week.. and tats bad.. bleah.. i juz haf a bad feeling abt it man. kk.. someone is stressed man.. hahs.. anw.. past week has been a rather hectic one.. studies and tests and all... oh well.. hahs..

been sick dis whole week man.. horrible lar.. frm sore throat to blocked nose to flu to dunno wad. hrmph.. juz b4 exams.. how nice.. bleah..

was suppose to meet mrs lai somewhere during dis week, but she has been so busy.. today oso. din haf itme to meet up.. so tmr gg to her church in e morning to visit. den its off to murdoch to study!! woohoo..

today went to utopia to celebrate marcus's and brenda's birthday.. hahs.. all vegetarian food man.. heh..very odd chicken and lamb they serve. hahs.. and e whole of today kena suaned by ppl.. not really suan but juz disturbed.. hahs.. been quite awhile since i've gotten such stuff.. hahs.. reminds me of the ppg back hme.. muahahaha..

anyway. i think i shld get into e habit of writing down or keeping note of things that haf happened. as in like how e week has been. i realise i got alot to write.. but juz cant recall. oh well.. hahs..

hmm. juz came home from murdoch library.. i shall make dat my 2nd hme frm now till finals *if i can actually commit to it* it was not bad i muz say. as in e study session *so called* i suddenly realise that exams r like nxt week. sigh. i think dis is e first exam i am so not prepared for.. oh well..

anw.. got back my isat score.. it was terrible.. i'm DOOMED as wad rachel shawn n laura wld say. hahs... aye. wad can i say man.. its so terrible.. so.. science/education here i come!!! !!!

bleah.. u noe wads e worse thing? to fall sick juz b4 ya exams. i seriously hope it doesnt happen to me. but apparently, it is. sore throat now, topped wif flu. how nice. plus late nights.. bleah.. i'm like trying to write essay lar. if not later hilda not happy. hahs.. and i realise i haf loads of stuff here like vitamins and some chinese herbs which i haf never taken. bleah. hafta start taking man.. haha..

this is highly amusing. my father's company found out that some other organisation has been tapping into their frequency or sth. and haf been using it to show online.. so.. my dad was suppose to go check it out and see wad to do wif it.. and e funny thing now is dat he is asking me to go use that programme so dat i can watch tv online *he noes i dun like to watch frm hmestay* haha.. now my only worry is e download rate wld b too high.. so tried once for like 3 seconds and switched it off.. lalala.. heh.. i still think its very funny..

anw.. dis week has been a yo-yo for me.. or as some know it.. the sine curve.. gg through the common phase of simply "thinking too much" oh well. i'll get over it soon. heh.. laura as usual, has been very nice to play along wif me. or mayb i shld stay like dis. make everyone happy.. heh..

went out wif cheryl today.. makan at tea cafe.. was suppsoe to go to koorong, but came to e conclusion dat i din haf time. so sat dere for awhile getting free entertainment frm the couple sitting across me *winks* b4 i left for hme.. hahas

hmm.. i need motivation to start studying for my trails. i still dun haf e motivation.. argh..

anw. my hmestay sis juz made the cornflake thingy.. like wad teacher jessie used to make.. man.. do miss em ppl back hme. hope i can meet mrs lai here..

hrmph.. TIRED!! hahs. nah not dat bad.. juz came back frm a jog wif brenda jon n irwin. it was bad lar. no stamina liao.. havent ran for like 5 mths.. e last rd was jc's field n netball training.. goodness.. half way through cannot tahan liao. n it was not very far.. bleah.. if not for having e guys running behind, i wld haf stopped.. lala. hehe.

anw.. muz say dat the run was timely lar. last nite oso. got called out to go out for a "run" when i only had intentions of saying hi. hahs. but end up only a short sprint.. lalala.. but ya.. it was good today. cause i was in a terrible mood. hahs. as laura wld noe.. even she encouraged me to go out so i can take things off my mind. but i muz say it was good and "refreshing" in some sense.. but i still wonder.. how many frens here in perth r really frenz? how many actually play you out? how many only befriend u cause dey haf sth u want? i wonder...

ok.. enough of dat.. aye. exams in lesser than 2 weeks time and guess wad??? i havent started studying! crappy rite.. sheesh.. as i juz told lydon today.. i think i'm gonna screw up my trails.. and he was saying to go study without all distractions.. hahs. he suggested putting my laptop in jon's room.. and rolling my bed up. ok e 2nd one is extreme, cause dat cant happen. aye i needa study. dats e main point.. i miss those study sessions in church.. lalalala..

anw. my throat is bad. dunno wads wrong. bleah.. n i juz realise i haf like tonnes of stuff here. like a whole bottle of vitamins.. man.. i'll never finish all these stuff b4 i get hme.. bleah..

crap.. i dun like physics. least for the topics i'm on now.. haf been really busy for e past 4 hrs or so.. chatting here n dere.. refusing to let go of conversations. till irwin gave up getting me to study.. heh.. oh well.. today was a terrible day. cause physics completely ruined my day. dunno how to do one qn. as a result, got mental block regarding the rest of the questions. argh!!! its 0030. and i'm online. attempting to do my phy.. crap. sigh. dis assignment.. surely fail.. even jon n jeffery haf probs doing it. wad more abt us? man.. argh.. looks like tmr is gonna b a mass photocopying session in school..

yesterday was good though... as in saturday.. had discipleship wif amanda n steph wong.. quite a good session.. and aft dat came home.. managed to finish my essay!! hehe.. and attempted doing some physics. den gave up cause i really dunno. bleah.. wish i cld juz dump it away. argh! dis sub is killing me.. looks like my chances of doing well in exams is 0%.. bleah..

aye.. i'm so sian.. dun feel like doing anything.. actually.. dun feel like doing physics. i'm in e mood to write more letters to e editors though. heh. quite fun. better than analytical essays. i realise too that if i juz switch off my wireless, i can concentrate much better.. heh.. kz. if i can study alot during e week, i'll take a "short break" on sat. go out. heh.. lala..

thank God my anger has subsided. hope it'll stay down. i can't afford to be mean or anything. sigh. i mean.. i muz always remember wad i shared during discipleship.. "the posture of a servant" which includes looking up to God and the fruit of the Spirit. oh well.. my aim dis week : love. as wad i said i wld aim for... hahs.. yes. and wif love comes patience too.. and of course shall try to keep to wad ps joyce challenged us dis week. commitment. the best thing is i juz ran out of credit. ie. no calls or sms till tmr aft 5 pm.bleah.. my usual weekly sms wld hafta wait till tmr i guess. sorry guys. hehe

thought i'd post one for now, just to pen down my thoughts.

this week has been a rather big hassle. mainly for the uni application forms. been a big mess. oh well.. alll the rush and commotion. oh well.. but it was ok lar. better safe than sorry. *my new motto*

dis week has been rather bad for me as well.. nearly *slapped/spewed out vulgarities* at someone. thank goodness i din. *self-control*. i walked out of class *ofcourse with permission* and went ard e college to pray and calm down b4 gg back. [ my apologies to those who had to hear my ramblings *you know who u ar* ]. been rather crazy and high to cover up for that anger.. hrmph. i need patience man. loads of it.

anw.. new september intake is here. made afew frenz.. one singaporean. wanjie frm tkgs.. yup.. and others too.. qutie a nice bunch of ppl. i found it really silly dat u noe. some girls came specially in skirts today.. hahs. n der reason is to impress e new intake. my goodness.. lalalala. think its rather silly but nvm..

hmm.. i think its my turn to go thinking about frenz.. is it worth putting the effort, investing into frenz. when ultimately, when u seriously need help, dey can't b bothered? recent events really made me think twice. sigh. kz off now..

dis week has been quite good.. managed to finish alot of stuff dis week..

1. send of xt's card
2. contact philicia *who surprisingly was in singapore*
3. hand up the money for the ball photos
4. start my uni applications

and the list goes on..

my week started off on a good note. heh.. surprisingly *its true* i did well in my math test.. neither am i lagging behind in the present topic. so thats good. but apart frm dat, my other subs r dying. only math n chem are surviving.. i still haf a physics project to rush out later. dunno how i'm gonna do it in 1 hr when laura started like 1 week ago n jon spend dunno how many hrs.. *oops*

yesterday was quite a good day for me i wld say. though it wld b quite a contradiction to say so. but i guess its good cause i learnt alot from it and did some stuff dat i dun normally do, but it was ok lar... i finally can understand where the ppl back home are coming frm. their kind of activities and habits. though i noe ppl tell me it was bad, but i guess i still learnt alot out frm it. and i din regret going i muz say.. hehs. for those of u who noe wad i'm talking about, do give me ya comments..

anyway. trail exams are drawing near. in fact, promos, prelims, n levels, o levels, a levels are all nearing.. one yr has past so fast. as i was mentioning during dinner, i dunno wad i wld b doing in the few mths back home. i'll prob b rotting away.. mayb i shld go find work.. hmm.. shall talk to mum n dad abt it again.. lala..

God WILL Provide.

sometimes, i wish i had a tree that grows money..

ok. i must must must go mug now.. can't afford to waste the money. feeling very guilty now.. sigh..

back to my past 2 days.. on sat went for dimsum wif ivon marcus steph n milenda.. suppose to go to joy garden. but it was pack. so went to jade dynasty instead.. surprisingly, met e hk gang dere too. celebrating aixin's b-day.. n den later ivon's sista came wif afew frenz. so we had 3 tables of "relation" dere.. went nxt door *sort of* for bubble tea n watched one of e chi variety show.. nv watched dat for ages.. heh.. aft dat went hme n prepared for combined service.. combined service was good.. speaker was michael battersby.. very good speaker. spoke to e non-believers as well as the leaders... i bought some of his cds. heh.. n signed up for e 40 hr fast as well.. lalala.. had games aft dat.. aft dat had dinner n den games.. heh.. was quite fun. cuase we were cheering for our zone rep.. ie jon. heh.. in e end, he won.. n e fact dat he managed to ans e last qn was rather amusing. heh.. anw.. went to mackers to slack ard aft dat lar..

hm. today. had plt.. was very good session too. john c maxwell's session was good lar.. learnt loads. but very sian to blog.. but it was good lar.. went for dimsum *again* aft dat.. heh.. oh well.. den here i am stoning.. attempting to study chem which is not working.. cause i was worryin.. but now i think ok liao. so shall go back to my studies. heh..

Faithful

Deeper than all the deepest seas
Thats how much Your love's got a hold on me
You're my shelter in the storm
You're the fire in my deepest darkest night

You formed the world with Your mightly hand
Lord You rescued me so I'd understand
I don't have to be afraid
'Cause You are the rock beneath my feet
Lord You're with me all the way

Chorus:
You are so faithful, faithful
Faithful Lord
You are so faithful, faithful
Let all the earth adore You
Faithful, faithful
Faithful Lord
And You're closer than a brother
So worthy to be praised.

by Michael Battersby

hmm.. e choir sand dis song on sat. n its stuck in my head now.. lalala.. its a nice song aft all rite. heh..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!! !!! !!!

celebrated national day wif some of e fellow singaporeans *plus 2 others* at marcus's hse. heh.. had loads of fun despite not being able to watch ndp *but i watched it e nxt day* yup.. was very thankful that i din hafta eat the odd concoction made by the guys while playing the guessing no game. and the hand game *thought by jon as expected.. heh..* but saw e videos after that.. was super hilarious.. heh.. lalala..

hmm.. interview wif monash yesterday. it was ok. i muz say the front part went rather well. but the last qn screwed me up big time.. guess this is what u hafta pay for not listening ATTENTIVELY during chem lessons. sigh.. this is bad lar.. goodbye monash for me.. but i muz say that hilda n zaneta n vinisha were of great help to me. thx loads.. if i were to get into e umet one, i'll surely look for u guys. heh.. lalala..

cell last nite was great too.. was a "taylors" cell. heh.. i think 9 of us frm taylors ar.. lalala..

eunice needs a break through in her life.

past few days has been ok.. school ball for one was quite fun.. went shopping for stuff *though i din buy any* and also ponned bio.. haha. first lesson i actually missed. *i really cldn't take it* heh.. the whole thing frm e prep to e post ball stuff were fun lar.. but as a result, i lacked sleep badly..

went to zph today.. i think i've gotten an answer.. did mention to amanda but i think she sounded rather shocked. so dunno if its ok or not. heh.. but anw.. we'll see how..

tmr.. sigh.. its national day celebrations back home PLUS SCRCY POC 05!!! !!! another batch of juniors that i've seen "grow up" is taking over.. oh man.. haha.. i'm juz so glad for em.. hehe.. dunno how to explain lar..

for a second, i was freaked out. then, fear came over me. and then i panicked. Lord, please annoint me and guide me in everything that i do. give me the wisdom and strength and guide my tongue and my heart and my soul and mind. i need this breakthrough. thx 4 praying yj.

i'm happy.. haha. not really. but i guess its juz dis joy in me. hehe. remember. e joy of e Lord! heh. even though i'm still confused over e church issue. oh well. hehe.. anw.. today went to zf.. it was ok lar.. rather confused over e sermon. but anw. it made sense still. heh.. went to joy n grace's hse aft dat wif dawn carol n marcus.. dawn n carol got der ball dresses! hehe.

anw.. sch starting again. so fast. i seem to ahve like tonnes of undone work.. and chem exam coming up. argh!

i'm so unworthy. so unworthy of God's love and grace and mercy..

hmm.. today was a busy day.. started off wif koorong wif dawn.. which was quite ok lar.. managed to buy alot of stuff.. so i'm like happy. heh.. den aft dat walked ard city while waiting for e time to be up.. heh..quite fun..

after that was river cruise.. it was quite fun lar.. cause we din manage to get 2 boats, so it was super packed. yupyup..but it was fun lar.. skit, games, food.. heh.. n most importantly, fellowship!! hehe..

after that, i walked from barrack street jetty all the way to the east end of hay street.. it was a super long walk.. heh.. but i reached dere faster than dawn n carol who were walkin frm city. heh..kk dat doesn't make a diff. but yar was super tired after that.. hmmm did play a little pool today. n it was terrible.. oh man. i sure do miss julianna's coaching and all.. argh!!!still remember the first time i picked up pool.. so cool.. argh!! hehe.. i miss home! heh. anw. went for dinner at taka *finally* after pool.. n den went b ack to the hse. had one of the most interesting talks i reckon.. hmm.. hehe...

anyway, its rather confusing today too.. a little lar.. its like what u think of yourself is one opinion, while what people think of you is another.. and sometmes, u juz dunno who to believe.. like on friday, i mentioned i need patience, and today i was told that i ahve loads of patience. it just contradicts. heh.. i dunno lar.. juz feel so unworthy now.. hmmm...

hmm... haven't updated dis blog for like 5 days already.. been busy [watching dvds] ok. not that bad. a little only.. i needa snap back in to the [study mode].. been very slack for this week.. 2 days i took the 0830 bus. one day cause i wasnt well. e other, i was pure lazy.. and guess wad. was late.. both times. wif steph n ivon.. n dats bad.. muz muz muz get back to the usual routine... argh. kzkz.. soon.. i will..

umet on wednesday. diasater. was [bad]. got an iset coming up..

hmm.. have been [forced] *sort of* to the ball.. dad n mum rushing my dress over. hrmph..

eunice is happy!!!!!! hehe.. confused, but happy!!! least happy enough that my nic sounds happier too. heh.. anyway.. i'm still confused over churches and all. and over certain things that haf been happening and are still happening. but.. i juz feel happy. heh. as in despite all these "problems", i'm still smiling and all. heh.. aiya. eunice is juz happy lar..

anyway. sch starting tmr. sigh.. i havent packed my bag, my room etc.. argh!! heh.. n math exam back tmr.. *scared*

sigh. what on earth is wrong wif me.. i'm becoming so bitchy.. ok.. not in that sense. but yar. it is rather irritating. but its juz so frustrating to see and feel the fakeness in ppl.. i wld rather juz keep to myself n only tok when dere is a need to. hmm. i feel so secondary sch like.. talking abt fakeness. den again, it is everywhere in this world. u can't escape from it.. i'm getting rather sick at smiling at everything. Lord, give me the patience, the perseverance, the courage and strength..

hmm.. oh man.. i've spent my whole nite doing the online test. heh.. hope all goes well.. hmm..

today was a rather slack day.. went to murdoch uni in e morning to give out fliers for river cruise. heh.. met quite alot of the freshies that went for the dinner last nite.. heh.. so it was quite good. oh yes. met tash n her frenz too. heh.. den aft dat aft lunch, went to sch to do some math wif milenda while steph mug for econs.. not too bad lar. quite frutiful. but i desperately need help.. rahter worried abt e math exam on friday. i muz get a good score.. hrmph..

oh yes. b4 i forget.. happy birthday bert! hehe.. hope e stuff got to u in time man..

*eunice needs a tight slap to wake her up. anyone wants the honour of doing so?*

^"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galations 5:22-23

thats something i lack badly today.. i highlighted those in green that i lacked today.. n its like EVERYTHING!!! was ok at first. den aft e consistent teasing. especially when its done only when a particular person is there.. wah.. i tell u ar. its crazy lar. kzkz muz remind myself. as long as other ppl find joy or its fun for em, its ok. *learn from shaun.. hehe* oh well.. yes yes. patience is what i need now.. bleah.. oh well.. wad can i do man..

steph asked me the same qn again. pls dun tell me it seriously looks so.. cause if it is. den i muz "control" myself and drift away. dun like such things.. seriously. i dun like such things lar.. i'll get super irritated.. oh well.. one is like settled already. e other one.. some ppl mentioned b4. so i muz muz muz go change it.. sigh..

hmm.. i'm feeling slightly better. guess cause like one big grp of frenz. i cant show anything funny rite. hehe.. but yar. much better now.. still need to sort things out.. but least its better lar..

dinner tonight wif e freshies.. hehe.. den mayb tmr gg down to murdoch uni to help out wif some stuff.. hmm.. time flies.. sigh.. so fast lar.. 2nd week of hols already..

hmm.. first time in my life i actually din feel like gonig to church. and i din go. mind was in a whirl. subconcious mind oso in a mess. if i had went, wld i haf felt better? i doubt so.. so took jess's advice. take a day off n rest..not that i din like it, but its juz a subconcious thing thats burdening me. though i'm really sorry to miss the praise n worship.. sigh.. me shall go pray n see what comes out of it. took like 2 hrs to decide to go or not. it felt rather terrible. i din haf a good sleep too. sigh.. n had to trouble irwin to come get karyn's present too *sorry*... sigh.. whats wrong with me? i can sense sth is wrong. but i dunno what. hrmph.. 2 others called too. one frm each church. sigh. i dunno lar..

hmm i wish i wish. i wish i didn't feel such burdens. how carefree life would be. and sometimes, its e timing that such problems comes.. hmm. mayb i'm over sensitive. mayb i'm going crazy.. i dunno..

i realise what i need. i need a phone line! hehe. did i mention? jon juz enlightened me yesterday dat i haf a phone line in my room. so.. we shall activate it! hehe.. den i can tok to ppl back hme.. n mayb i'll juz find someone who can hear tehse worries out. mayb i juz need to say n talk it out. but dere aint no one in perth. even if dere is, i'll prob b worrying for e person.. afew ppl liao.. hmm.. sigh.. oh well..

the most ironic thing is that cell yest juz toked abt worrying. i feel that i'm drowning. and yet i cant relax. how? okok.. i shall clear dis first. i'm not worrying about planning the dinner on monday! ok. its all about other stuff.. hmm..

oh yes. got a good idea. mayb i shld juz withdraw myself frm e grp of frenz. den dere wld b no trouble.. hmm. mayb i shld yar? shall go consider it. hmm..

hmm.. juz came back from dinner.. had dinner wif dawn,marcus,karyn and ivon.. yup.. suppose to b marcus n ivon only den dawn n karyn joined us after they shopped.. yup.. den went northbridge for dinner.. hmm.. was quite ok lar.. my mind was juz in a mess after dinner. dunno why. so suddenly become so quiet.. heh.. *sorry* had bio lessons today. was super sleepy.. kept falling asleep.. heh.. den had chem test. n aft dat went for lunch.. oh yesh. played pool today! at marcus's hse.. yupyup. but i suck at it..

yest.. went to sch for phy.. den aft dat went to dawn's hse. had bbq. sadly, it rained aft like half n hr when we started bbq-ing. so went back to her hse.. was quite fun. seirously. as in i like serving others n all.. and cleaning up.. was very fun. seirously.. i miss planning for such things!! hmm. mayb shall plan one for e april intake?!? *smile smile* and kw. remember u said u wld plan ar.. lets see if u really do sth. hehe...

hmmm.. my subconcious mind has been so busy. not that i know what i'm thinking, but i can feel it. it is very tiring.. oh well.. what can i say.. in e sch lib now. showed milenda some stuff juz now so decided to put a post first. watched bewitched today wif emma n ivon. it was ok... den had lunch n came to sch to do some math.. yup yup.. dis hols is juz so busy. so many things to do.. muz study!!! hehe.. okok off to continue my mugging session

[added 2150] hmm.. back again. i'm so tired of searching through 12 820 photos for my english project. it still feels very biology cause all e terms i'm getting are that of biology. bleah.

had a nice talk with milenda juz now. good practice for my chinese.. heh.. n oso good talking session lar.. managed to like understand some ppl more n all.. n hear her opinion n all.. it feels good to be honest n sharing. heh..

guess wad. i forgot to return my library book. for nearly a mth. n e fine is $1 per day. imagine how much i hafta pay. bleah.. gotta settle e bill tmr! argh!..

hmm.. i wonder who reads dis blog.. ya lar its public.. den again, heh juz wondering.. hehe..

hmm yest nite n dis afternoon had 2 very amusing convo.. one wif dawn one wif steph.. i tell u. i still trying to recover from it. it was so crazy lar.. kzkz it had better stop. if not, i wld. n i dun wanna do so.. if not i'll shirnk into my shell again.. either dat or another amusing convo wld come up.. oh well.. heh..

hmm.. found out i was suppose to lead worship dis fri. but thank goodness somehow or other, it was changed to jon.. heh.. k lar.. not dat its bad to do so.. but yar.. hmm.. heh..

goodness. .i juz realise i start each para wif "hmm" heh. habit already.. tmr watching movie wif ivon. den its shopping at kuroong wif steph wong n andy plus a lunch.. sigh.. andy so fast gg back to thailand for good.. so sad lor..

lead me where you want me to go. show me the way. lead me out of the wilderness oh Lord.

hmm decided to post dis too. tok to ivon n she found it amusing too. heh. anw.. aft church went for lunch wf e guy who was formerly frm e hmestay i'm in now. n another gal oso. eh. dat guy.. din haf a good relationship wif me hmestay. anw. ya he decided to go eat e fishnchips at kardinya. n amusing enough, i had fish n chips for dinner. FROM THE SAME PLACE.. heh.. if i had his msn i wld haf disturbed him abt having e same taste as em. but kzkz shall b nice.. heh.. can agar expect the reaction liao.. heh..

hmmm... i'm tired! heh.. abit lar at least. so much so for not taking afternoon naps..

today went to zion fellowship. a church up in joondalup.. yup.. hmm.. i guess i wld never know which one i am suppose to b in till i pray.. anw.. it was quite nice.. feels like pmc ym when dey were up in peace cove. kz not tat i was dere. but i can imagine. ya. juz tat dis is a mixture of adults youths n children. but ya. its so like dat.. guess i took an "agar-ration" from my sec 1 yrs n wad i heard frm e older ones.. it was good lar.. sermon was good too.. i MAY consider gg back dere for e nxt few weeks.. hmm.. dunno wad marcus told dawn. but ya.. least i noe dat if i go dere, dere wld b no trouble made. heh.. hmm.. i really dunno if i shld or not change.. i guess i haf diff opinions for diff churches.. hmm.. anw. e songs we sang today. oh man.. love it. its e kind we use to sing like before hillsongs n planetshakers were "introduced" big time in ym.. ok its not dat big but ya.. * n i haf nth against hillsongs n planetshakers* its juz another "agar-ration" yup yup..

school tmr.. e rest r on hols! e feb ppl haf either gone home or are gg down to mandura tmr.. i needa mug.. mug for chem math bio phy eng. ok dats everything. today needa do abit of eng. cause i wanna take tues off to go down to e bookshop n catch a movie wif ivon. n i oso haf a bbq *least i think i'm gg* on wednesday.. yup. so muz mug today n tmr. den tue n half of wed off.. hehe...

hmmm been out since morning n juz came back. spent e whole day at yirang's place.. eh.. cook. den watch a bit of million dollar baby.. etc etc.. was quite a fun time lar.. oh well..kinda glad i'm more or less over it. kz not really. but in some sense.. not as touchy as before.. i still cant stand e reporters.. hrmph.

i suddenly miss singing hymns alot.. its like hillsongs n planetshakers nearly everyday is not very nice.. somehow hymns are soothing.. nice.. really miss it. kzkz if e hymns r sung nicely.. hehe.. yesterday aft cell was waiting for joey to send e rest of em back first. so steph andy jon n myself were sitting on the steps cause dere was a blackout in dat area.. den jon started singing all e hymns.. so nice.. kzkz someone frm choir wad.. but ya.. e fact is rite. putting away e way ppl sing it back home, hymns r actually very nice. n yet u see. each time pastor opens to the hymnal, wah... e groans from the youths are so audible.. heh.. but honestly, hymns are nice..

i suddenly miss singapore alot. esp my fav hang out for e first 3 mths aft sch at mj.. white sands. plus e kopitiam ard church.. kzkz.. its a good 5 mths b4 i'll b back.. woohoo!!!

whole week of sch.. sigh. i'm trying to get stephs n andy down to kuroong. least i remembered those ppl wanted to go down.. i wanna go down too. heh. wanna buy stuff.. cause dat day is e only free day of e week for me.. so wanna take a break. heh. other than tat, e other days r pack.. pack wif sch work.. sigh.. n lessons.. oh well.. yes yes.. this aint good...

sigh.. i've been weaving in n out of sanity today.. pity ppl like laura n marcus.. kena e most frm me.. esp laura who hasta follow me ard e whole day.. sorrie gal.. heh n marcus.. thx for the "chocholates that will make you happy" oh well.. i'm ok when i'm busy n talkin to other ppl n all.. once i'm given time to stone, i'm not. hmm.. today. i think it was either wendy siehee or elaine tat did e presentation on a person who nearly commited suicide. sigh..

oh well.. i juz realise tat not many ym ppl were affected by dis.. lets see.. only bert, stef n myself tat i noe of.. like shaun said, "i dunno him" sigh.. was toking to stef last nite abt it.. argh.. not nice.. nvm nvm.. shall go on.. anw. dis morning, a song came into my head "you give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name" what striked me was e last part.. oh well..

crap.. stef juz tok 2 me.. found out e cause of death n all.. sigh.. n its so big. in e newspaper summore.. sigh...

why? why? why? why did it have to happen? he is very young and still has so many things in life waiting for him. i feel like marcus now. i'm repeating everything he said today for the english presentation. but its so true. his was within 1 week that it happened. mine was? 1 day? i duno.. as in *snap* and its gone.

i feel very bad. i feel bad about not taking the initiative. i feel bad about leaving him there. i feel bad not talking when i felt the slight nudge of God to do so. i feel bad over the fact that i had so many chances as an usher to do so, but never did. it is no more than a year ago. dear Lord, i'm so sorry. i know its all my fault. please forgive me.

i have no idea how i'm going to do my english presentation tmr.. "courage and endurance" what if i talk n den.. i break down.

dear Lord, i'm having a hard time reminding myself that all thigns happen for a purpose. help me Lord.

bio exam is over. but i'm still equally busy.. past few days has been good.. friday's cell was good. jon. u're a good preacher man.. heh.. n today went up north to some orchid place.. i dunno e name. but ya. juz went. was a little skeptical at first.. cause like i dunno e ppl n all.. ya.. but after awhile of getting to know u.. i'm quite comfortable wif dem now.. n ya overall it was great lar..

ehz.. hadta wake up rather early.. but it was ok. cause more or less e usual time.. den dawn came n fetch me ard 0750 den went up to her church. den up to e orchid.. was fun lar.. as in e activities. a very good break from studies i gues.. n got to know alot of ppl lar.. *ok for me its counted alot* hmmm... after that, aft sending vina back hme, marcus n myself went to city to meet fumiko n ivon.. yup. had dinner.. which was quite nice.. but its e same place again.. den again, e food is nice lar.. though marcus said it looked dodgy.. heh.. den aft tat sent fumiko home.. was suppose to go her hse n play pool n bball.. but ken n vincent asked her go movies so ivon marcus n myself ended at swan river.. goodness. it was freezing lar!!! sheesh.. like what the.. heh. we sat dere for like nearly an hour.. wah.. my hands n face n body were frozen by e time we went off.. anw.. sat dere n talked.. heh.. so nice.. as in like u noe.. do these kind of things.. not like go mackers or sth... den so noisy n all.. heh..

i'm rather confused.. mayb i need a break. a break away from that. a break to calm my heart down, to recollect my aims and goals, to help me to focus on the right things, not the many things.. oh Lord, help me..

i've found another role model. heh.. oh well.. its juz like here n dere n everywhere.. such a great encouragement.. juz tat i need constant reminder and all.. hmm oh well. what shld i do? i dun wanna do thigns for e wrong reasons.. it has happen so many times.. no, no more of those..

i need to run back to the heart of worship
i need to know where i am going.
i need to live my life for you.
i need to do everything for you
i need to lift everything into your hands
i need to get up n praise you

i feel so tired *emotionally* and i feel like taking a break off everything. including church.. suddenly, i'm reminded of shaun and abi.. a little more shaun cuase abi is slightly diff case.. the countless number of times saying "i wanna take a break" and i there insisting that there should never be a break.. oh well.. now its my turn that wants a break. but i'm not allowing myself cause i noe there shldnt b such things.. haha shaun.. so no such reason for u either.. for e rest.. neither is "ponning" church acceptable..

oh well.. i need a spiritual revival.. dunno if it is biblically correct, but i juz feel so down n out.. n i dunno who is trustable here.. kz dere are a handful.. who live in very close proximity wif me. but e thing is not close. not to that extent.. oh well.. i miss my long phone calls of "soul pouring" that phrasing was very bad. juz cant think right now to get e correct word.. hmm..

and when my world is falling down
in you i will be found

i suddenly have an idea of how to keep my neoprints. juz tat some mayb spoilt now. heh.. n i'm very tempted to post pl sch song. den tmr ym benediction but nvm shant.

hmm.. pls dun tell me that there is a replica of shaun here man.. heh.. those ppl in pmc wld noe.. k mayb not but some wld lar.. i think pastor jon can go get a twin here.. son is shaun rite.. ya so shaun can go get another father.. heh..

oh well.. bio test/exam tmr.. dun feel like studying. feel like juz not doing anything. eng presentation oso tmr. die already.. sigh.. *eunice feels super negative now*

Glad that I live am I,
That the sky is blue;
Glad for the country lanes
And the fall of dew,
After the sun the rain,
After the rain the sun
This is the way of life
Till the work be done.
All that we need to do,
Be we low or high is to
see that we grow nearer the sky.

hmm.. ok prob not all wld understand what dat is. but ya.. its a very nice song don't u agree? heh.. of course i'd say its nice. cuase its my sch song! hehe... oh well.. was juz looking at the webpages, wishing i cld go back to the PL days. and the SC days. oh man.. heh. how i miss Red Cross and Handbells.. and a little of Netball.. heh.. am contemplating of joining e 2 alumni.. shall see.. but it was great. i meant e days in e schools..

ok back to the present times.. today everyone else presented e oral presentation on an issue. all but laura n me. n i think i'm dead.. seriously. i was told e rest did very well. still can get full marks.. n i muz not get any lesser. ok guess its juz e high expectations.. math test. nearly failed. n tat is bad.. muz do well for tmr's test. if not i'm dead too.. plus. bio exam *sort of* on thursday n friday. this is insane! i havent started studying!!! hope she includes scientific methods into e paper. den it'll b free marks for me man. heh. ok lar. least tat is e most common sense thing in bio. heh.. oh yes. i nearly "gave away" my bio tb.. den after the whole thing den i realise i have a paper too. but praise God that she found her book. heh.. i got e birthday present for e july babies.. heh.. shall send whatever is needed back asap. heh.. okok.. better go off first lar.. needa study n do my projects!!!

oh my goodness... its super funny.. hb called me, den use her singapore line to call soosoo*in singapore*. den we talking on 2 phones. so cool.. n like wah.. hear soosoo's voice. oh man.. i miss u ppl!!! heh.. poor hb.. she hafta pass e message to n from soosoo n me. heh.. i miss all of em!!!

hmm.. somehow.. i feel very low now. emotionaly spiritually etc. as in like even if i'm "happy" i dun feel really happy.. kind of thing. like dere is a facade.. oh well.. heh.. but anyway.. yes i noe my Lord is still wif me.. n QT emphasised that point again.. started on the book by doug fields abt youth ministry.. its seriously good.. not e purpose driven ym one.. another book.. its like wow.. so many practical things.. heh.. shall finish it first.. n if its really good.. may tell others in s'pore abt it.. heh.. but ya.. its totally not wad i expected.. really cool..

i'm in no mood to do work now.. dunno why dun ask me.. juz no mood.. mayb i'll do chem later. muz returm marcus his "bible" asap..

weirdly.. juz after that entry yesterday, i was asked to go attend some other church's activity.. mayb its all by coincidence.. den again.. someone else is prob reading my blog.. heh.. i can see lor.. thx to mk for reccomending me e website. heh.. oh well. either way.. shall see how.. shaun says stay. me? i dunno.. wanna go tok to others first.. plus pray abt it.. yes prayer works wonders..

stress stress.. ok lar.. i think its not really stress. but more of like my brain n mind have gone into a state of panic. such that i feel stress over everything. mayb its cause of dis morning. i dunno. mayb its cause of school work.. sigh. oh well.. been doing my bio project.. den realise that i've been staring at the silly com for more than 3 hrs not finding anything useful when i haf a very good book juz under my desk (ie. daryl's bio book) juz took it out juz now n decided to flip thru.. n true enough, its dere.. oh well.. silly me. so i've decided to do on 3 topics, n half way, see which one i decide to drop. heh. silly me again rite. oh well.. wad can i say.. shall go do on e rest now.. min 4 pages each. that includes pictures. so shld b rather easy rite.. i'm not too sure about it.. n i juz realise i haf an english presentation this week.. prob on tues i think. bleah i'm screwed. topic chosen but i havent structed my presentation.. bleah. n tmr got eng listening midcourse too. completely forgot abt it till i was like trying to recall if i had any other hw besides bio project tat i rememberd.. bleah.

today's sermon was good. in fact, edu-cell and sermon for me linked together.. mayb its cause my mind keeps going back to reaching out/ impacting people.. frm school lar.. but either way, the sermon was good. heh... but.. other than that.. i dunno.. was sms-ing shaun.. ask him if i shld change church.. but den again, where to change to.. i like zph. i like e way dey do stuff. i like e structure n all.. i like worshiping dere and i haf learnt loads frm dere. but den comes other factors. hmmm.. but if i change, where to change to? not fcc. dun quite like it dere.. other churches?? eh nv bothered to find.. i need somewhere which can "accept" me e way i am.. or mayb its juz cause i din step out of my comfort zone. and am overly quiet.. mayb? i dunno.. it takes me yons to be comfortable in a church. like pmc.. ehz.. to b comfortable enough in e ym.. took me.. 2-3 yrs.. of course wif e help of my dear bible class... oh yes. n back to wad shaun's reply was.. he said to go back to pmc. sheesh.. wad helpful reply was tat? i oso wanna go back lar.. den again, mayb when i go back, things wld haf changed? i dunno.. oh well.. for a split second, i was so tempted not to go to church. den again, i remembered what i've been taught, what i haf taught, what i've been told and what i've been telling others.. hmm.. no thats not an option.. how? Lord, please guide me.

hmm. finally home! ok. homestay i mean. heh. haf been wif my paretns for e past 4 days. *plus elaine duh* ehz.. thurs went shopping at garden city. tried finding elaine's bag as well as mine. but cant find any nice ones.. so in e end i took dad's timberland bagpack for my tonnes of school books.. friday went to uncle garkbin's hse for dinner.. met his children.. cldn't recognise isabelle.. oh well.. nv see for 4 yrs. wad u expect rite. heh.. anw.. dere was a jam going up north.. n e ride was bumpy.. wasnt feeling very well.. but ok lar.. when reach dere.. had dinner.. den watch abit of tv.. den talk awhile den went back to he apartment.. i took e bed away from elaine. heh.. cause she smaller size than me wad.. hehe..

today.. went to fremantle first in e morning.. took e bus rd it.. went to e markets etc.. n surprisingly, we met charlotte *chia* and family.. such a coincidence.. heh.. hmm collected all e goodies that parents n elaine bought back. den went off.. went to koorong to look at e sales.. wah. i tell u.. we spend $100 at koorong itself. heh. i myself am guilty of spending like abt 1/5 of it. heh.. very happy. got a book *your first 2 yrs in youth ministry* kz it does not apply to me, but was juz interested to see e material.. n since it was on offer, so i decided to get it! heh. got some evaluation inside can do.. it seems quite good lar.. oh yes.. den went to harbourtown for any other last minute shopping... bought 2 tees.. now i lack bottoms. oh well.. we'll see how. heh. worse come to worse go shop again.. but i'm rather tired of shopping.. since parents came over haf been shopping non-stop.. heh.. oh yes.. i oso got elaine a wooden frame thingy.. ya. n dad got both of us e hp cover.. billabong one. heh. elaine got e balck one i got e pink one.. dunno if i'm even gonna use it. heh..its pink! very pink..

oh yes.. its kind of far ahead, but i sort of found wad i wanna get for christmas presents.. heh. i noe its fast but oh well.. ya.. found some stuff. quite nice.. n during this whole trip, i haf been pampered quite abit. by mum n dad. as for elaine.. ehz. as ususal.. i'm e one tat pampers her.. and dey juz kept throwing me all der reminders to me. hrmph. heh.. like shampoo.. fruits.. vitamins.. all juz "thrown" to me. so now my room is offically FULL.. no more space for anything. heh.. oh well.. kzkz. now that dey haf gone back. it means i hafta get on wif my work!!! sigh.. i've got like 1 report due in 2 weeks.. e draft ard nxt week. bio exam nxt thurs n friday.. bleah. n bio report.. argh.. okok.. shant complain.. work hard for 5 more mths.. heh...

eunice is falling deeper and deeper into a bottomless pit. dear Lord, please lift me above all theses and help me soar on eagles wings and see your great plans for me.

yummy.. heh.. tat sounds so huibing-ish anyway. juz had a nice warm bowl.. nono.. its cup. of soup. heh.. mummy reminded me of it. so yes.. eunice is nice warm n fuzzy now. ok. tat last one was out of point. i'm sitting infront of my desk, attempting to study for the physics exam tmr. oh well.. i've been rather stressed up lately.. dun ask me why.. today was panicking each time i cant do a single question that mr kuran gave us to do.. bleah. not a nice feeling. thx hb.. for listening to my rambling.. rather.. reading.. was in e library after all my lessons, attempting to do mr kuran's questions that he just went through. den hb sms me. so ya. tat gal got all my rambling. heh..anyway. she had her share of rambling abt eng hw too! heh.. oh well.. i badly need to do a revision on ALL my formulas and applications. others r ok. juz that. if i noe those, i can do e qns.. juz now jon said its gonna b as hard as e paper mr rowlands gave.. bleah.. means i'm dead.. it seems ok.. but i'm not too sure.. oh well.. how how how? heh. juz now when i told shaun i panick. he tot i din study at all.. oh well. wad can i say. heh.. n i've gotta do my bio project. plus get my chem notes organised n keep em organised.. i desperately need help in that area man.. really cmi.. heh.. oh well.. wad can i say?

anw.. needa go sleep early today too. cause gotta wake up really early tmr.. so i dun cause ppl to not b able/rush using e wash room.. sigh.. gotta wear alot tmr. cold gym. hrmph. exam. bleah.

eunice hardly cries. *parents impression*
eunice barely cries unless she is super stressed *fact*

and guess what. eunice is very stressed now. go make your own reference of what happened in school. its rather obvious. heh. anw. feeling much better now. thx steph n hb! heh. as in for e care lar. heh.. today was a bad day. my teacher's had a major communication breakdown. so... my lessons were affected. n i got rather stressed over it. plus some teachers being uncooperative. oh well.. tats e rough story lar..

oh well.. ok eunice feels much better now. heh.. hafta force myself to smile for e rest of e day. plus mr enright's constant "taunting" that i'm stressed. heh. hafta force myself to smile.. heh.. oh well.. kzkz.. shall end eunice's stress here for e moment. tmr surely kena reminded by my dear april intake. but oh well.. we'll see how tmr lar...

juz came back frm teacher evelyn's hse. had dinner wif her n gzerrel. wif my family of course. heh. had a good time.. cant wait for tassha to come. more pmc ppl. heh..

was listening to hillsongs united latest album "look to you". found the songs oddly familiar.. den realise zion praise harvest (zph) has been seeing these songs. juz tat i din noe its frm dis album. heh. nice nice. as in e songs lar..

hmm.. nxt 3 days. got 3 papers. eng phy eng. oh well.. i shall survive.. my Gods is an awesome God! heh.. Mr enright said some of e feb students forgot to chagne their calculators to rad/deg mode,so e whole paper was done in only one mode.. ie.. alot of mistakes.. *poor dem* heh.. i better remember to change during my paper man.. ok shall go off to do chem. needa sleep early too. tmr gotta get to sch by 8. to make up for today's mess. irritating..

woohoo. takinga short break frm packin.. den going back to continue packing all my stuff.. i feel as if i cld open a mini herbal stall selling those herbal drinks. mum bought, aunty bought. oh man. my whole room is FULL.. whoever wants those kind of drinks, get frm. me. *seriously. mum said so too* heh

it feels as if a long tiring day has finally ended.. finally seeing my family. thats e feeling i get.. though it was tiring. making myself b as happy as i can for that 2 days even thoguh i was tired, it was good.. oh well.. dey brought so many things over!!! n we continued to buy more things! heh.. bought a shirt. *nice* mayb i shld wear it tmr? oh well.. will see how.. i have so many things to pack. sigh. dying. dunno how i'm gonna bring dem back. e good thing is that dis rd, most of e stuff tat were brought over are like bottles of stuff.. n like magazines, food items etc.. so... my bag shld b relatively lighter.

tuesday having dinner at teacher evelyn's hse.. thursday got phy exam. oh yes wed n fri eng exam and thurs fri haf math test. how nice is that? oh well.. wad can i say. cant complain oso.. heh.. kzkz i shld go off now to pack my stuff. if not dun needa sleep now. tmr morning still muz wake up in time to catch my phy ws. heh. *jking*