2 persons asked me the direct opposite question today. one asked why you sound different (negative way) the other asked why you seem so.. smiley. oh well. interestingly enough, both are like related.. go figure by drawing your mind maps n all.. sigh..

"da shi teng, ma shi ai" how true does tat mean? i dunno. i'm lost. struggling. surviving? i hope so.. i feel like i'm changing. or is it changed? suddenly, i feel so sian. u noe.. sian. sigh.. whats keeping me gg? i dunno.. but it shld b my purpose of doing everything, my purpose of living this life. oh well.

sometimes, i feel that my spiritual support from everyone is gone.. k. not spiritual support only.. everything. i feel like nth is done/learnt in this life of mine.. everything revolves ard studying. oh well.. this is life i guess..

o level results out soon.. oh man..

i feel so sian of everything.. u noe.. juz plain sian.. juz a simple.. i feel like not caring, yet this heart n mind of mine wont let me stop.. i'm still moving on.. the only consolation is that once i do it, i do it right. after that, what ever i think/ feel is a different case.. i hope i'll "du guo" this sian period..