argh.. i feel so out of placed.. everyday, i use to go to school, meet castor 3.. sit wif 05S224.. now.. i'm gg wif sc ppl.. its very different, and i miss mjc environment terribly already.. argh.. emily, peilin, kelly, caroline, all guys n gals in 05S224.. i'll miss u all like crazy man.. argh.. i can't stand it.. u noe e song from planetshakers new album "always and forever".. i can relate to the part "and when my world is falling down..." after that, everything stops.. nth after that can i relate to.. sch is falling apart.. RELATIONSHIPS will HAVE to FALL APART, not that i want it.. but it must happen. if not, i'll b hindered here. bleah. oh well.. whats wrong with me? i wish i have keyboard lessons everyday.. how nice tat wld b.. so soothing n all.. dun even noe if i can rush for e last lesson or not.. bleah.. i'm not looking forward to sr.. i miss my frenz too much.. 1430 tmr.. mayb i'll rush back straight. honestly not looking forward to it dere.. i keep thinking of emily.. of peilin.. of castor 3.. of my class.. argh!!! dis is irritating me.. sometimes i juz wish i wont b so ill-fated.. bleah. "let the weak say.. (i give up)". don't tell me that word now.. for i'm the total opposite.. argh..