my life is in a mess.. complete mess.. i had everything planned out on how to study well n mjc.. no no. its not gonna b executed now. i'm gg on to srjc.. with all my plans ruined.. have to replan, reschedule.. everything has to be redone.

i nearly flooded srjc today.. thank goodness it didn't start. if not, it wont end. i haf loads to compare abt srjc n mjc.. but i think i had better not go into e details before i flood my house instead.. sigh..

why has God put me here? why has God put me in this situation? i don't know. really lost. mayb i'm starting to get a glimpse of why things happen.. have i really "engage" myself in it that the one of the ways to get me out of it is to change me from mjc to srjc? hmmm.. i wonder. i'm worried too.. oh well.. for the nxt 2 yrs or so, i think i'd b mugging all e way. dere is nth much to do in sr anyway. n i'm NOT gonna join in any major planning. cause srjc planning cannot make it.. sigh.. concentrate on God, studying, cca, church, Red Cross. full stop. thats all. sigh..

oh yes.. i forgot to put it down yesterday, but Rexx juz died.. *sobz* i don't want to imagine him bleeding to death.. sigh.. so many things in my life has gone wrong.. oh no..

is the situation really that bad now? i thought it was ok. but that is e only reason i can think of that i am being thrown into srjc.. irritating me..

argh!!! eunice.. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! !!! !!! once A levels are done, u'd b free!!! (den again, who else wld b free? everyone else wld b studying den..) *goodness.. dis juz shows me how much councilling i need.. yes.. i think i need to undergo councilling.. argh!!!

ruined.