shoots.. argh.. when i try to put it down, things comes up.. nite n day.. thoughts wont stop pestering me. i wish i cld juz disappear to dunno where, and never come back, then leave a letter behind to clear everything.. its getting bad.. just yesterday ard 11 plus, i laid that issue at the feet of the cross, i survived yesterday, made progress, but not dis morning. there is seriously sth wrong.. i'm neither here, nor there. there is seriously sth wrong wif me. it was not as easy to put down than what i had imagined.. sigh.. burdens.. no.. not burdens.. its juz fantacy. i muz stop "indulging" myself in such things. no, i am not indulging myself. they juz wont stop pestering me much as i resist it.. sheesh. this issue had better stop soon, or i'll end up not being able to study.. argh!!! i mustn't screw up my jc life. postings are out on tuesday. means i hafta lead worship on monday.. bleah.. heh.. its ok lar.. its good anyway.. but.. my jc life mustn't screw up.. hmmm.. how about changing to a new environment? mayb it'll b better.. argh!!! Lord, please help me and guide me.