hmmm.. nth much to say.. juz tat i've been on a crazy shopping spree.. as if australia has NO clothes n accessories to buy.. juz feel like pampering myself.. n i insist on ppl taking neoprints wif me. hrmph. in a odd mood today.. abit high.. yet not high. and abit low, yet not low. how to describe.. sigh.. tats why when u asked me to describe "odd mood", i couldn't.. wld u understand this? yet to another you, the bottom post is for you. heh.

yikes.. i've spent so much money!!! spent on.. my small group, my sister*the most summore* sooling, huibing.. eh.. whoelse ar? those guys? nono buggers.. eh.. nvm lar hor. heh..

the thought of going over is very scary.. like.. all alone.. friends back in s'pore.. but all along, the only one giving me the strength is my Heavenly Father.. helping me, guiding me, etc.. oh man.. i'll miss u ppl.. i juz need to think abt missing u all, and i can easily change my mind of going.. but the only thing that is persevering on, is God's assurance that He'll be with me.

i love you too much to say anything. i love you too much to hurt you. i love you too much that i think of your welfare over mine. i love you more than i love myself. sometimes even, i put you before God. its high time to change all that. i must. i must prioritise.. i'll still love you like before. i'll still be the same as before. just that, God reigns above all that. and His plan for me has to move on. yes. its decided. we've prayed over it. i guess i'll be saying goodbye to you soon.. i remembered pastor benny ho once said, the difference btw affectuation and love is that affectuation is short term. love is long term.. maybe it'll show me seriously, how much you mean to me.. isn't it so? oh well.. yes yes.. its time to let go.. i'll miss you.. definitely.. oh well.. but how much will that be, no one wld know until i go there. i bet you dunno who you are. n i bet u all dunno who i'm refering to. with the exception of a random few.. oh sigh.. letting go.