sigh.. yes here i am online again.. i havent done my plan for my argumentative yet!!! bleah.. tmr early morning haf e test. argumentative. sigh. never written tat in my life. besdes e times tat TLL made it complusory to write..

church was ok today. talked abt mothers day. i realise tat sometimes wad ym needs are things tat wld relate to us. eg. today's service. u juz see how many ppl haf been touched by the sharing n sermon today. its nearly the whole congregation. *i nearly cried. thank goodness i din*

oh well.. juz read marcus's post.. rather 2 entries ago.. wad can i say... sigh.. n kw sms me juz now.. sigh. i'm tired of pushing on for all these things. i guess whats most important is that they can worship God. i realise youths in singapore are juz too panpared for choice at which church to go to. dun like dis, den go to tat. when u come here, yes, you get to choose, but it also depends on transport and all. and saying "i want to change" is not as easy as back in singapore. then you are in that sense forced to stay there and to like it dere *this is a very bad explanation but can't think of how else to put it for now..*

sigh. den u see e leaders. each and everyone is so passionate about serving. lets juz talk about cell leaders. *equivilent to small group leaders in ym* each and everyone of them are so dedicated. so enthusiastic, and as a result,influencing the youths too... if i were to equate it back to the commitment that they haf put it, sigh.. nvm nvm.. not nice to say.. oh well.. its juz e great difference i see here, and my mood juz gets so down when i think about back home, how the leaders are working.. okok.. if anyone reading this is angry or irritated, pardon me. juz stating my thoughts.

hmmm parents dun allow me to go for the thurs cell, so guess i'll b sticking to the friday one. yanjun's one.. went to see jon lai's hme stay today wif cheryl.. not too bad.. e ppl r nice.. place... can adapt one lar.. oh well.. i guess it'll b more convenient in terms of cell.. like can walk down wif jon n andy*tats wad i was told* and all.. hmmm.. cant wait to shift. another 1 more week.. started packing already.. dunno how i'm gonna move all my stuff dere though.. oh well.. so many things. mayb wld ask laura let me use e locker more first. den i can leave stuff dere n den bring it back again e following week.. oh well.. need to start planning..

sigh... feeling so stress up n all over hme stay cell ym school school work etc etc.. sigh.. i need some form of destressing.. ie. talk on e phone.. but i cant call now.. sigh.. oh well.. i miss e times i haf long hrs of talk on e phone.. esp wif e guys.. sigh.. i'm seriously seriously stressed up now.. argh...

Lord, help me to survive this, help me to let go of things and place them all into your hands. Please mould and refine my heart and use what ever i haf for your plans. I really want to stand in the gap between the living and the dead.

okok off to do my hw now. argh!!! fast food essay.. wad nonsense.. bleah.. n bio report*based on elaine's one*