stress stress.. ok lar.. i think its not really stress. but more of like my brain n mind have gone into a state of panic. such that i feel stress over everything. mayb its cause of dis morning. i dunno. mayb its cause of school work.. sigh. oh well.. been doing my bio project.. den realise that i've been staring at the silly com for more than 3 hrs not finding anything useful when i haf a very good book juz under my desk (ie. daryl's bio book) juz took it out juz now n decided to flip thru.. n true enough, its dere.. oh well.. silly me. so i've decided to do on 3 topics, n half way, see which one i decide to drop. heh. silly me again rite. oh well.. wad can i say.. shall go do on e rest now.. min 4 pages each. that includes pictures. so shld b rather easy rite.. i'm not too sure about it.. n i juz realise i haf an english presentation this week.. prob on tues i think. bleah i'm screwed. topic chosen but i havent structed my presentation.. bleah. n tmr got eng listening midcourse too. completely forgot abt it till i was like trying to recall if i had any other hw besides bio project tat i rememberd.. bleah.

today's sermon was good. in fact, edu-cell and sermon for me linked together.. mayb its cause my mind keeps going back to reaching out/ impacting people.. frm school lar.. but either way, the sermon was good. heh... but.. other than that.. i dunno.. was sms-ing shaun.. ask him if i shld change church.. but den again, where to change to.. i like zph. i like e way dey do stuff. i like e structure n all.. i like worshiping dere and i haf learnt loads frm dere. but den comes other factors. hmmm.. but if i change, where to change to? not fcc. dun quite like it dere.. other churches?? eh nv bothered to find.. i need somewhere which can "accept" me e way i am.. or mayb its juz cause i din step out of my comfort zone. and am overly quiet.. mayb? i dunno.. it takes me yons to be comfortable in a church. like pmc.. ehz.. to b comfortable enough in e ym.. took me.. 2-3 yrs.. of course wif e help of my dear bible class... oh yes. n back to wad shaun's reply was.. he said to go back to pmc. sheesh.. wad helpful reply was tat? i oso wanna go back lar.. den again, mayb when i go back, things wld haf changed? i dunno.. oh well.. for a split second, i was so tempted not to go to church. den again, i remembered what i've been taught, what i haf taught, what i've been told and what i've been telling others.. hmm.. no thats not an option.. how? Lord, please guide me.