hrmph.. TIRED!! hahs. nah not dat bad.. juz came back frm a jog wif brenda jon n irwin. it was bad lar. no stamina liao.. havent ran for like 5 mths.. e last rd was jc's field n netball training.. goodness.. half way through cannot tahan liao. n it was not very far.. bleah.. if not for having e guys running behind, i wld haf stopped.. lala. hehe.

anw.. muz say dat the run was timely lar. last nite oso. got called out to go out for a "run" when i only had intentions of saying hi. hahs. but end up only a short sprint.. lalala.. but ya.. it was good today. cause i was in a terrible mood. hahs. as laura wld noe.. even she encouraged me to go out so i can take things off my mind. but i muz say it was good and "refreshing" in some sense.. but i still wonder.. how many frens here in perth r really frenz? how many actually play you out? how many only befriend u cause dey haf sth u want? i wonder...

ok.. enough of dat.. aye. exams in lesser than 2 weeks time and guess wad??? i havent started studying! crappy rite.. sheesh.. as i juz told lydon today.. i think i'm gonna screw up my trails.. and he was saying to go study without all distractions.. hahs. he suggested putting my laptop in jon's room.. and rolling my bed up. ok e 2nd one is extreme, cause dat cant happen. aye i needa study. dats e main point.. i miss those study sessions in church.. lalalala..

anw. my throat is bad. dunno wads wrong. bleah.. n i juz realise i haf like tonnes of stuff here. like a whole bottle of vitamins.. man.. i'll never finish all these stuff b4 i get hme.. bleah..

crap.. i dun like physics. least for the topics i'm on now.. haf been really busy for e past 4 hrs or so.. chatting here n dere.. refusing to let go of conversations. till irwin gave up getting me to study.. heh.. oh well.. today was a terrible day. cause physics completely ruined my day. dunno how to do one qn. as a result, got mental block regarding the rest of the questions. argh!!! its 0030. and i'm online. attempting to do my phy.. crap. sigh. dis assignment.. surely fail.. even jon n jeffery haf probs doing it. wad more abt us? man.. argh.. looks like tmr is gonna b a mass photocopying session in school..

yesterday was good though... as in saturday.. had discipleship wif amanda n steph wong.. quite a good session.. and aft dat came home.. managed to finish my essay!! hehe.. and attempted doing some physics. den gave up cause i really dunno. bleah.. wish i cld juz dump it away. argh! dis sub is killing me.. looks like my chances of doing well in exams is 0%.. bleah..

aye.. i'm so sian.. dun feel like doing anything.. actually.. dun feel like doing physics. i'm in e mood to write more letters to e editors though. heh. quite fun. better than analytical essays. i realise too that if i juz switch off my wireless, i can concentrate much better.. heh.. kz. if i can study alot during e week, i'll take a "short break" on sat. go out. heh.. lala..

thank God my anger has subsided. hope it'll stay down. i can't afford to be mean or anything. sigh. i mean.. i muz always remember wad i shared during discipleship.. "the posture of a servant" which includes looking up to God and the fruit of the Spirit. oh well.. my aim dis week : love. as wad i said i wld aim for... hahs.. yes. and wif love comes patience too.. and of course shall try to keep to wad ps joyce challenged us dis week. commitment. the best thing is i juz ran out of credit. ie. no calls or sms till tmr aft 5 pm.bleah.. my usual weekly sms wld hafta wait till tmr i guess. sorry guys. hehe

thought i'd post one for now, just to pen down my thoughts.

this week has been a rather big hassle. mainly for the uni application forms. been a big mess. oh well.. alll the rush and commotion. oh well.. but it was ok lar. better safe than sorry. *my new motto*

dis week has been rather bad for me as well.. nearly *slapped/spewed out vulgarities* at someone. thank goodness i din. *self-control*. i walked out of class *ofcourse with permission* and went ard e college to pray and calm down b4 gg back. [ my apologies to those who had to hear my ramblings *you know who u ar* ]. been rather crazy and high to cover up for that anger.. hrmph. i need patience man. loads of it.

anw.. new september intake is here. made afew frenz.. one singaporean. wanjie frm tkgs.. yup.. and others too.. qutie a nice bunch of ppl. i found it really silly dat u noe. some girls came specially in skirts today.. hahs. n der reason is to impress e new intake. my goodness.. lalalala. think its rather silly but nvm..

hmm.. i think its my turn to go thinking about frenz.. is it worth putting the effort, investing into frenz. when ultimately, when u seriously need help, dey can't b bothered? recent events really made me think twice. sigh. kz off now..

dis week has been quite good.. managed to finish alot of stuff dis week..

1. send of xt's card
2. contact philicia *who surprisingly was in singapore*
3. hand up the money for the ball photos
4. start my uni applications

and the list goes on..

my week started off on a good note. heh.. surprisingly *its true* i did well in my math test.. neither am i lagging behind in the present topic. so thats good. but apart frm dat, my other subs r dying. only math n chem are surviving.. i still haf a physics project to rush out later. dunno how i'm gonna do it in 1 hr when laura started like 1 week ago n jon spend dunno how many hrs.. *oops*

yesterday was quite a good day for me i wld say. though it wld b quite a contradiction to say so. but i guess its good cause i learnt alot from it and did some stuff dat i dun normally do, but it was ok lar... i finally can understand where the ppl back home are coming frm. their kind of activities and habits. though i noe ppl tell me it was bad, but i guess i still learnt alot out frm it. and i din regret going i muz say.. hehs. for those of u who noe wad i'm talking about, do give me ya comments..

anyway. trail exams are drawing near. in fact, promos, prelims, n levels, o levels, a levels are all nearing.. one yr has past so fast. as i was mentioning during dinner, i dunno wad i wld b doing in the few mths back home. i'll prob b rotting away.. mayb i shld go find work.. hmm.. shall talk to mum n dad abt it again.. lala..

God WILL Provide.

sometimes, i wish i had a tree that grows money..

ok. i must must must go mug now.. can't afford to waste the money. feeling very guilty now.. sigh..

back to my past 2 days.. on sat went for dimsum wif ivon marcus steph n milenda.. suppose to go to joy garden. but it was pack. so went to jade dynasty instead.. surprisingly, met e hk gang dere too. celebrating aixin's b-day.. n den later ivon's sista came wif afew frenz. so we had 3 tables of "relation" dere.. went nxt door *sort of* for bubble tea n watched one of e chi variety show.. nv watched dat for ages.. heh.. aft dat went hme n prepared for combined service.. combined service was good.. speaker was michael battersby.. very good speaker. spoke to e non-believers as well as the leaders... i bought some of his cds. heh.. n signed up for e 40 hr fast as well.. lalala.. had games aft dat.. aft dat had dinner n den games.. heh.. was quite fun. cuase we were cheering for our zone rep.. ie jon. heh.. in e end, he won.. n e fact dat he managed to ans e last qn was rather amusing. heh.. anw.. went to mackers to slack ard aft dat lar..

hm. today. had plt.. was very good session too. john c maxwell's session was good lar.. learnt loads. but very sian to blog.. but it was good lar.. went for dimsum *again* aft dat.. heh.. oh well.. den here i am stoning.. attempting to study chem which is not working.. cause i was worryin.. but now i think ok liao. so shall go back to my studies. heh..

Faithful

Deeper than all the deepest seas
Thats how much Your love's got a hold on me
You're my shelter in the storm
You're the fire in my deepest darkest night

You formed the world with Your mightly hand
Lord You rescued me so I'd understand
I don't have to be afraid
'Cause You are the rock beneath my feet
Lord You're with me all the way

Chorus:
You are so faithful, faithful
Faithful Lord
You are so faithful, faithful
Let all the earth adore You
Faithful, faithful
Faithful Lord
And You're closer than a brother
So worthy to be praised.

by Michael Battersby

hmm.. e choir sand dis song on sat. n its stuck in my head now.. lalala.. its a nice song aft all rite. heh..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!! !!! !!!

celebrated national day wif some of e fellow singaporeans *plus 2 others* at marcus's hse. heh.. had loads of fun despite not being able to watch ndp *but i watched it e nxt day* yup.. was very thankful that i din hafta eat the odd concoction made by the guys while playing the guessing no game. and the hand game *thought by jon as expected.. heh..* but saw e videos after that.. was super hilarious.. heh.. lalala..

hmm.. interview wif monash yesterday. it was ok. i muz say the front part went rather well. but the last qn screwed me up big time.. guess this is what u hafta pay for not listening ATTENTIVELY during chem lessons. sigh.. this is bad lar.. goodbye monash for me.. but i muz say that hilda n zaneta n vinisha were of great help to me. thx loads.. if i were to get into e umet one, i'll surely look for u guys. heh.. lalala..

cell last nite was great too.. was a "taylors" cell. heh.. i think 9 of us frm taylors ar.. lalala..

eunice needs a break through in her life.

past few days has been ok.. school ball for one was quite fun.. went shopping for stuff *though i din buy any* and also ponned bio.. haha. first lesson i actually missed. *i really cldn't take it* heh.. the whole thing frm e prep to e post ball stuff were fun lar.. but as a result, i lacked sleep badly..

went to zph today.. i think i've gotten an answer.. did mention to amanda but i think she sounded rather shocked. so dunno if its ok or not. heh.. but anw.. we'll see how..

tmr.. sigh.. its national day celebrations back home PLUS SCRCY POC 05!!! !!! another batch of juniors that i've seen "grow up" is taking over.. oh man.. haha.. i'm juz so glad for em.. hehe.. dunno how to explain lar..

for a second, i was freaked out. then, fear came over me. and then i panicked. Lord, please annoint me and guide me in everything that i do. give me the wisdom and strength and guide my tongue and my heart and my soul and mind. i need this breakthrough. thx 4 praying yj.