irritated. pissed off.



i'm always the middle man.



getting so tired of all these.



i wanna go home.



*yesterday went well. [praise God]*

i sense the hypocracy.

i'm gonna take a risk later.

i hope everything goes well.

*my internet is working*

sigh.. argh!!! how?!? got back results. its not bad. but its not very good either.. sigh.. so demoralising.. hahs. [mice: i'm doing ok.. not too bad. juz not very good.. ]

juz had a very boring bio lesson which no one was listening.. juz eating while teacher was talking... so irritating..

huibing is coming over!!!! hahs. i dun care. i'm gonna miss lessons juz to go out wif dat gal man. heh.. silly girl. still haven't book ticket yet.

ok lar.. better go off now.. some irritating ppl like jonathan lai and marcus teo are being irritating!!! hrmph

juz sent irwin off to e airport.. finally.. internet is up n working.. heh.. miss my internet.. oh well.. hahs.. i'm finally back to my usual routine.. lalalala..

anyway.. since exams are over, haf been doing nothing much.. had discipleship on sat morning. which was qutie good.. heh.. got outing soon!! lala.. and after dat was dimsum. hehe. i tell u.. i think e amt of dimsum i eat here is much more than e amt i eat back hme. hahs.. den aft dat went to harbour town.. I WANNA GO SHOPPING THERE!! heh.. now dey haf e winter sale.. so i shall go down dere n shop one of e days in e hols. hahs.. lala.. and after dat pool *which i suck at* but den again, it brings back memories of castor 3 *dey were e ones dat taught me pool dis yr*.. and how the members are just so willing to help, and accepts you as you are.. its amazing lar..

ok. on a more serious note, i've been thinking lar.. i juz realise dat at e end of dis yr, u'll prob nv see some of your friends ever again.. sigh. and how unappreciative of them i have been.. and how much i've learnt from taylors college.. man..

finally. the internet is up. rather e wireless is working!! lala. anyway.. exams are over!! been slacking for the past few days. dvds are like a vital part of my life for e past few days. cant wait for myself to get out of the "post exam" mood. den i'll seriously start studying. hahs.. anyway.. aft exam, i went to make shephard pie. an attempt to prove my homestay mum i will NOT blow up her kitchen, sth she is so worried abt. it was *supposedly* a success according to my cell members.. but the presentation was crappy. muz go home and ask mum how she does it. bleah.

anyway.. got like 2 results back this week.. one was the math exam *mr enright juz told use e score* it was ok.. but cld haf been better. for math for me, that was like average. *sigh* eh.. 2nd was umat. *that was oso ok* i guess its ok cause i dunno wad e requirement for entering uni is. so i juz hafta wait i guess..

anyway.. discipleship tmr. den laser quest aft dat in e eveing *to be confirmed* hehe.. kk monday muz start mugging.. got physics project due soon man.. ARGH..

hmm. back from bio!! same as physics, it was easy, but i din study hard enough. *well done eunice* sigh... so frustrating..

anyway.. oh juz realise tash n jean ma'am are in the same cell group. my goodness.. hahs such a coincidence. heh.. [its a small world after all] and today was at video ezy wif laura n christine. den dey were playing the song in one of e musical [ love (sth) medley ] i remembered jean ma'am and maria ma'am singing that for talentime. my goodness.. hahs i miss those times man.. lala

anyway.. chemistry!! i needa start mugging.. but b4 dat. heh.. i'm gonna sort out my notes man. heh. file em nicely n start mugging!!

hrmph.. my hse mum juz barged into my room. no knocking or anything. now i noe wad she does when i'm not at hme man. *cause she apologised, cause she tot i wasnt home* hahs good thing i juz cleard my room yesterday. not neat, but ok. sigh.. no repect for ppl in dis hse man. hahs..



anyway.. i dunno wad on earth is wrong with blogger. its not working!! bleah. taking ages to upload.. sigh.. bio exam tmr. i am so going to fail.. i dunno how to study it. bio is in such a mess.. cause my teacher herself is a mess. bleah.. i really shouldn't have taken bio. shld haf taken like accounts or sth.. sigh..i'm so screwed.. so super worried lar. i was close to panicking and breaking down juz now.but its much better now anyway.. oh well..



Search for A Start was yesterday.it was good i muz say.. the items i mean. heh. super funny.. some of them.. i wanna learn hand signing!! heh.. learn half way den stop. so frustrating.. heh *speach therapist* [betty] *excellent!!* hahs.. inside joke.. ignore me those of u who haf no idea wad it stands for. but it was great lar.. i got e dance down.. wanna send back hme. heh.. let em see. lala.. oh well.. oh yes.. why do choirs always like to sing the same song? zph choir same the same songs as wad michelle chan ma'am's batch sang for their final yr in RC for talentime.. goodness... tonnes of recollections man.. heh..



i shld shld shld go do my QT. i tell u.. i haf beeen in a horrible state for the past few days/weeks.. sigh.. relying on my own strength, and not of God's. and now when i am seriously dying even at the thought of biology, den i turn to him for help. sigh.. i needa snap out of this bad habit. ppl may say i wld do well in e end, but i tell u.. this stage of panicking is terribly torturous.. the thought that i'll do badly. my goodness.. *horrible* sigh.. okok. i better go do my QT after my lunch or sth.. bleah..



oh yes.. past week had 3 papers. eng was average.. hope i can get like 80? but prob wont get it. math.. muz get 90 and above. but havent heard any good news frm mr enright, so expecting the worse.. physics was an easy paper, but i din study hard enough. *sigh* TERRIBLE.. i must score well man..

hahs.. dis is highly amusing.. soosoo.. if u read dis, do tell me.. i'll fill u in on wads happening.. anw.. hahs.. hb had a very interesting day i can say. i think its super funny. but ok shall b nice n help me *if i can* muahahahaha

anw.. i've made a resolution.. *get to noe winthrop better* cant stand the fact dat i dunno e area i'm staying in. bleah.. *reaches for the map to study* hahs... but dat will hafta come after my exams..

speaking of exams.. physics tmr!! its a killer lar.. i'm seriously dead. *honest* *not lying* i dunno anything. n mr kurian went hme already by e time i reached sch.. so... eunice is so dead.. so screwed up.. sigh..aft physics.. hahs.. a short break den its off to bio.. argh..

hrmph.. i'm slacking at hme.. rather irritated at myself today lar.. so, decided to slack at hme while e rest mug in e library. may pop by library later if jon is gg.. hrmph.. dis is irritating me.. i wanna drive a car soon!!! i wan my own car i mean. cheryl!! i needa learn frm u like wad u said to b independent. i needa b completely independent.. argh!! dis is highly frustrating..

anw.. i bought huibing's keychain already!! hehe.. and mine too!! shall use it when i get back hme. lala.. heh.. oh well.. kzkz off to "relax" i'm so frustrated... sigh..

exams.. hrmph.. exams are like nxt week.. and tats bad.. bleah.. i juz haf a bad feeling abt it man. kk.. someone is stressed man.. hahs.. anw.. past week has been a rather hectic one.. studies and tests and all... oh well.. hahs..

been sick dis whole week man.. horrible lar.. frm sore throat to blocked nose to flu to dunno wad. hrmph.. juz b4 exams.. how nice.. bleah..

was suppose to meet mrs lai somewhere during dis week, but she has been so busy.. today oso. din haf itme to meet up.. so tmr gg to her church in e morning to visit. den its off to murdoch to study!! woohoo..

today went to utopia to celebrate marcus's and brenda's birthday.. hahs.. all vegetarian food man.. heh..very odd chicken and lamb they serve. hahs.. and e whole of today kena suaned by ppl.. not really suan but juz disturbed.. hahs.. been quite awhile since i've gotten such stuff.. hahs.. reminds me of the ppg back hme.. muahahaha..

anyway. i think i shld get into e habit of writing down or keeping note of things that haf happened. as in like how e week has been. i realise i got alot to write.. but juz cant recall. oh well.. hahs..

hmm. juz came home from murdoch library.. i shall make dat my 2nd hme frm now till finals *if i can actually commit to it* it was not bad i muz say. as in e study session *so called* i suddenly realise that exams r like nxt week. sigh. i think dis is e first exam i am so not prepared for.. oh well..

anw.. got back my isat score.. it was terrible.. i'm DOOMED as wad rachel shawn n laura wld say. hahs... aye. wad can i say man.. its so terrible.. so.. science/education here i come!!! !!!

bleah.. u noe wads e worse thing? to fall sick juz b4 ya exams. i seriously hope it doesnt happen to me. but apparently, it is. sore throat now, topped wif flu. how nice. plus late nights.. bleah.. i'm like trying to write essay lar. if not later hilda not happy. hahs.. and i realise i haf loads of stuff here like vitamins and some chinese herbs which i haf never taken. bleah. hafta start taking man.. haha..

this is highly amusing. my father's company found out that some other organisation has been tapping into their frequency or sth. and haf been using it to show online.. so.. my dad was suppose to go check it out and see wad to do wif it.. and e funny thing now is dat he is asking me to go use that programme so dat i can watch tv online *he noes i dun like to watch frm hmestay* haha.. now my only worry is e download rate wld b too high.. so tried once for like 3 seconds and switched it off.. lalala.. heh.. i still think its very funny..

anw.. dis week has been a yo-yo for me.. or as some know it.. the sine curve.. gg through the common phase of simply "thinking too much" oh well. i'll get over it soon. heh.. laura as usual, has been very nice to play along wif me. or mayb i shld stay like dis. make everyone happy.. heh..

went out wif cheryl today.. makan at tea cafe.. was suppsoe to go to koorong, but came to e conclusion dat i din haf time. so sat dere for awhile getting free entertainment frm the couple sitting across me *winks* b4 i left for hme.. hahas

hmm.. i need motivation to start studying for my trails. i still dun haf e motivation.. argh..

anw. my hmestay sis juz made the cornflake thingy.. like wad teacher jessie used to make.. man.. do miss em ppl back hme. hope i can meet mrs lai here..