hmmm.. nearly a week has passed.. really exasperated in dis hme stay.. considering changing.. bleah.. cldnt tahan yesterday. so went to call dad n complain. heh. i think i made him panic.. oops.. really cant stand patrick. sigh. aunty selena is very nice. but her husband isnt n e prob is he is e hme husband kind. nv work, male verson of hse wife cause he is retired.. so he is like e person i see most often.. if it was aunty selena, i wont mind. bleah..

school has been ok.. quite enjoy it. juz tat i keep panicking over bio.. like cannot tahan lar.. it was like so complicated. till i was like shock. seriously, n like went hme tat day panicking... i need someone to explain to me SLOWLY all the things cause my teacher goes too fast.. sigh.. other than tat, everything is ok.. juz tat need to memorise alot of things.. english is ok. most hw given though. direct opposite of singapore. n chem is seriously slack. least the topic she is on lar.. really wish she wld change topic soon. to sth tat i dunno. den i can start learning. as for physics.. the teacher teaches like so messy.. juz e impresssion tat i get. but it s not too bad. cause he is nice n willing to help. actually, all e teachers r nice. ya.. juz whether they're good or not.. oh well.. hope i dun get a test too soon.

went to zion praise harvest today. listened to cheryl n claire. heh.. went down to haf a look.. i really like e service n all.. it was quite good lar.. somewhere inbetween pmc worship n the one at synerg!z. not bad.. quite like it lar.. n e thing is its for the youths.. k not tat much youths, but students.. so like can link. where as faith community church is like family church.. so like no link for me.. oh n e pastor is like wad jess wld say dressing very trendy kind. heh.. now e only prob is joining a cell grp dere.. hmm.. cause no particularly close fren dere. so its gonna b tough "integrating" into e cell grp.. oh well oh well.. we'll see how? jon lai's cell grp leader is very nice though.. like her hse mate steph. .both very nice. heh.. as for the rest of e ppl.. some r really nice.. e rest.. shant comment.. heh.. sigh sigh sigh. howz.. i wanna quickly settle into a church n a cell grp n not bother abt scouting for any more.. sigh.. so mafan. bleah.. so shld i go back to faith community church.. or stay here.. or go scount for another one??? bleah..

hmm.. today i oso finally see the importance of a welcome team. not ushers, but welcome team. ber, i'll give u all e support i can to get tat started back in pmc ym.. heh.. when u leave, you realise alot of things.. but now u cant do anything cause u're not dere. bleah.

argh!!! jon lai juz had to announce today to the ppl at church tat exams r comin, and tat is like a reminder for me lar.. bleah. abt 1 mth. how come its so fast??? d teachers told us we prob b sitting same time as dem. but like 1 mth.. its like juz 1 and half mth of lessons den i'm having my midterm already.. n its all counted to my final score. bleah.. i muz do well for course work. cuase i'm afraid i'd do badly for my eoy. bleah. oh yes. n i'm coming back ard mid nov.. no more mid dec.. cause exams end den.. ya.. so i'll rush back. .but den again.. wad am i gg to do man. sigh.. dere is nth for me to do in s'pore now rite??? heh.. n summore hb wld b muggin in aust den.. so cant go out wif her. n e rest wld prob b doing their o levels!!! heh.. oh well.. i need to do alot of muggin now, but i've got no tys wadsoever.. n i need help in bio!! if not i think i'll end up dropping it man. sigh..

ok dis post is for elaine n whoever wans to b nice n help me.. heh. since my msn is not working.. oh well.. n if i use msn, i wld use alot of money.. *cant imagine rite* sigh.. oh well..

Write 4 pages on each subject. choose 2 out of e the following. artificial insemination, cloning, in vitro fertilisation, gene splicing, dna fingerprinting, use of genetic engineering, ethical concerns of genetic engineering. the commas are the division btw diff topics.. choose 2, do a research, and structure using the following.. introduction, background genetics, genetic techniques, social issue, bibliography. yup.. help me!!! heh..

oh crap.. sigh.. my msn is not working!!! as i said, the computers n stuff juz doesnt like me!!! sigh.. first was e wireless.. give me so much prob. n like in my homestay, the person wif e most knowledge abt coms n all is me. imagine it.. sigh.. yes. so now dey ask me for advice on coms.. heh.. like i'd b e last person ppl usually look for help on coms.. dis juz goes to show how backwards aust is in technology man.. heh.. oh well.. dis is like a break frm my long list of work.. dis is terrible.. sch ends at 1630 daily. den by e time i go home.. sigh.. abt 5. den i still haf a long list of work!!! bleah. eh.. haf finished 2 eng hw n physics havent touched bio math chem n one last eng hw.. sigh.. n i haf a bio research to do. imagine it.. bleah.. anyone wants to help me? dis score is like 10% of my end of yr results.. very impt to see if i get into uwa.. n she said we cld get help!!! heh..

lessons were ok today.. first time i get so many worksheets tb and all for english.. like 3 books, 1 dic, 3 study guides. goodnes.. tats juz for english.. sigh.. n of course loads of handouts.. bleah.. my other teachers r ok.. physics teacher is a new one, so he din noe we were new too.. had to specially look for him.. heh.. i like my bio teacher.. she is nice. heh. hope i get her for mentor teacher... heh.. i've got loads of reading up n research to do!!! even more than what i get back home. sigh.. oh yes. for math today, mr enright spent like more than half e lesson talking abt deriving the derivative :: dy/dx.. i was wondering what weird formula he was trying to teach, only to realise at e end of e day, he was talking abt dy/dx.. heh.. oh well.. tmr is gonna b a rather relax day for me.. *least its suppose to b..* but now i haf bio!!! so i end at like 1440.. wednesday is suppose to b my early day!!! bleah.. *sobz* heh.. i'm waiting for dad to call.. den hopefully can settle dis silly msn thing.. its irritating me!!! bleah.. sometimes i wish a day had more than 24 hrs.. 24 hrs is simply not enough.. not when i need 8 hrs of sleep.. if not i'll b dozing off in class... good thing lessons here starts at like wad.. 0855? heh.. so i wake up at like 0700 or 0730 and leave e hse at 0825... n i'll still b early... alot of time left still.. heh..

oh yes. did i mention.. my dad wanted to pluck out some berries frm e tree in e college n eat *for fun* and my mum scolded him.. n today, i saw a student juz stand dere n pluck e berries n eat! heh.. so cute rite.. ok.. i'm crazy.. dis msn thing is e one driving me crazy.. n i'm freezing in my room here.. its brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... cold!!! i wanna go shopping tmr!!!

this is eunice frm perth!!! sigh. missing ppl so much.. felt os deprived without com yesterday. but now not too bad.. managed to make ard 3 calls back to s'pore too.. dad expected it to b expansive.. heh. so dey bought me more money in card.. hehe.. so i shall call back more often!!! hehe.. oh well.. tmr moving to home stay.. dunno how it'd b like.. i need my webcam to work!!! argh! n i need to get a mike too! bleah. oh well.. okok i shall go do my packing now! missing everyone back home!!! heh.. gonna hafta change church too.. been in pmc for so long.. can't imagine being in another church.. it'd b like.. weird.. sigh.. starting frm scratch! hehz.. i guess.. i guess.. i'd learn much lar.. sigh... okok mum chasing me to go bathe.. will update summore another day.. bleah.

argh.. irritating. bleah.. firstly, my webcam is spoilt! argh! n secondly, i feel very bad!!! sigh.. my grandma juz spent loads on me.. sigh. n msn oso got prob.. bleah. why is it so irritating.

oh well.. i'm very tired now.. argh.. its 1405 n i'm online at this unearthly hour.. sigh. what to do. this is the consequence of my choice of going out with my frenz.. have been doing some packing.. mostly are done.. juz some sad cases like i lost my toothbrush meant for my braces ones.. prob left dem at dr shaun dere.. oh well.. my luggage is completely packed, and i still do not have enough space!!! argh! irritating. think i'll b bringing another luggage along.. tat does not include my parent's own luggages. oh well.. been really busy, and have been spending loads of money. heh.. n taking alot of neoprints!!!

oh yes.. went out wif my class again.. class as in mjc one.. oh well.. thanx guys for e gathering.. n for paying for my food. heh. met up wif yuenkay cindy n geri today too!!! you guys rock man. n i'm gonna miss all of you!!! oh yes.. n clean n nut too! heh..

was wif hb for some time today.. n caleb too. her nephew.. oh man. he is so cute can.. his mum said to call me jie jie but hb insisted on aunty, and in e end, caleb listened to his auntie instead of his mum.. n he is super fun to play wif .. heh.. oh yes. met cheryl ng ma'am too. heh hb din recognise her, but i did.. so juz said hi lor..

goodness.. i'm so super busy these few days.. today suppose to call mrs lai at 11pm. n i forgot!!! argh! feel so bad.. will try to call her tmr i guess.. bleah. n tmr got castor 3 outing!!! last time i can meet dem b4 i leave i guess.. den i haf dinner at grandma's hse too.. n i guess continue packing after that..

my photos are taking ages to upload!!! been waiting for an hr plus already.. oh well.. mayb wld juz upload half of it, n redo e rest e nxt rd. i need my sleep. if not tmr during baptism n membership class, i surely fall asleep one. bleah. okok.. i think i had better go off now.. bleah. unearthly hours now.. shld b sleeping.. *yawn*

oh well.. i'm tired.. have been spending alot on going out.. argh!!! heh. tmr got 3 grps of ppl to meet. tat doesnt include hb in e morning. oh well.. heh.. taking loads of neoprints too.. i feel like this is even better than holiday. pity its ending.. count down to e day i'm leaving.. 4 i think.

hmm.. went out wif my mum to do some last minute shopping.. heh.. n den aft tat met salt dawn n ocs.. went to eat a little.. den we went off.. oh yes.. last minute, 2 stops b4 dawn alighted, we realised tat we havent taken a photo.. so 3 of us took.. in e train. heh. n ocs took for us lar. first one was wif flash.. so funny. all e commuters turned to look at us.. 2nd one not so attention seeking lar. heh.

met xiuwen n cedric later.. waited for cedric to finish his campaigning stuff den went to mos to eat.. ced was pretty obvious in writing the note lar.. heh. so decided to make his life easier by gg to e toilet.. den aft i came out, xw dragged me in again. say accompany her.. n i told her "ced needs more time rite?" heh.. ok me trying to act smart, but i was correct.. heh.. anyway.. thanx xw n ced.. heh.. i was abt to buy a new pencil case.. but u all got me one. heh.. n quite nice.. blue n shiny.. heh.. yay!!!

its amazing how God has been working in my life in all the small little areas.. even if i dun put dem into my prayer, its still amazing how he does it for me.. thank you Lord..

oh man.. i juz love my dad to bits.. iTalk is great. very good. heh. downloading songs into ipod like crazy now...

hmm.. juz came back from a shopping spree of some sort. bought 3 pants, 1 jacket, 1 pullover, 4 shirts, 1 blouse, 1 wallet.. hmmm.. usually dun spend so much.. n my clothes totalled to like $300 plus.. tats wif 50% discount. imagine if i din haf tat discount.. dad oso got me 1GB flashdrive, and a microphone for my ipod to use for lectures.. heh.. if lets say e guys hear dis. i think i'd b killed.. dunno how to use oso get for me. heh.. oh well.. its exactly 1 week b4 i leave. so many ppl to meet.. argh!!!

juz read wad lisa ma'am emailed me when she saw tat i was down during my period as vice-chair of scrcy.. very nice n encouraging. oh well.. will miss her.. hmmm... today went out wif those guys.. accomplished half of wad i wanna do. neoprints r done.. left phototaking wif individual ppl.. heh.. yes yes.. today's photos r more of gg out photos. nxt week will b really busy.. hmm haf loads to catch up wif ppl.. n plus get dem to fill up my book.. argh!!! irritating rite.. bleah.. mayb nxt week wld go earlier. get those ppl at e prayer meeting to write first. n take photo! heh.. i love u ppl man..

oh well.. it was ok i guess.. a little awkard, a little overboard. but i stoned most of e way so i guess i survived. oh well..

it was great.. nono i'm sounding like someone.. oh well.. forget it den..

hmmm.. nth much to say.. juz tat i've been on a crazy shopping spree.. as if australia has NO clothes n accessories to buy.. juz feel like pampering myself.. n i insist on ppl taking neoprints wif me. hrmph. in a odd mood today.. abit high.. yet not high. and abit low, yet not low. how to describe.. sigh.. tats why when u asked me to describe "odd mood", i couldn't.. wld u understand this? yet to another you, the bottom post is for you. heh.

yikes.. i've spent so much money!!! spent on.. my small group, my sister*the most summore* sooling, huibing.. eh.. whoelse ar? those guys? nono buggers.. eh.. nvm lar hor. heh..

the thought of going over is very scary.. like.. all alone.. friends back in s'pore.. but all along, the only one giving me the strength is my Heavenly Father.. helping me, guiding me, etc.. oh man.. i'll miss u ppl.. i juz need to think abt missing u all, and i can easily change my mind of going.. but the only thing that is persevering on, is God's assurance that He'll be with me.

i love you too much to say anything. i love you too much to hurt you. i love you too much that i think of your welfare over mine. i love you more than i love myself. sometimes even, i put you before God. its high time to change all that. i must. i must prioritise.. i'll still love you like before. i'll still be the same as before. just that, God reigns above all that. and His plan for me has to move on. yes. its decided. we've prayed over it. i guess i'll be saying goodbye to you soon.. i remembered pastor benny ho once said, the difference btw affectuation and love is that affectuation is short term. love is long term.. maybe it'll show me seriously, how much you mean to me.. isn't it so? oh well.. yes yes.. its time to let go.. i'll miss you.. definitely.. oh well.. but how much will that be, no one wld know until i go there. i bet you dunno who you are. n i bet u all dunno who i'm refering to. with the exception of a random few.. oh sigh.. letting go.

A girl wont cry easily, does she?

A girl wont cry easily
Except in front of the person who she love the most,
she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she love you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please hold herhands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you
for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin her life.

When she cry rite infront of you
,When she cry bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And bcoz of you?

She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain,hurt,n agony have become too big
a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out 2 you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

To my friends...Ponder this message seriously.Dont do dis to a girl,You may regret for the rest of your life.Maybe in your life,she's the onli one that love YOU the most.Remember this lesson..

got this from cheryl's blog. n she got it from her fren's blog.. quite liked it. heh..

oh crap

i'm getting very emotional. bleah.

strong as i may seem. oh sigh.

juz realise that one of the pple i'll miss most is elaine.. much as i quarrel alot wif her. argh. sigh..

goodbye s'pore, hello auzzie.. ok tats not like confirm, but more or less lar.. got e letter frm taylor today... paid e money. waiting for visa. got into a quarrel. getting emotional. trust in GOd. thats the only thing possible now i guess.. sigh..

each time i see you all doing that, i think about how immature u all are. like what many of dem said, we need to pray for all of you. i agree.. sigh. many people dream big for the youth ministry, but how many of them actually put things into action. i hear people say this and that, dreams dis n tat. but how much do you all actually try to do sth? i really don't understand, and it is getting very exasperating. oh well..

had pizza hut wif my family.. of course we ate qutie little, knowing us. we shared a combo for 2. heh. plus baked rice.. hmm.. oh yes. i'm so happy.. bought 2 pants n 2 shirt n 1 belt today. nice nice. i'm happy. heh.. plus 2 of tat wristband to support the world vision. heh. elaine got e same belt, n e same wristband. looks like we'd b wearing e same things qutie often. good or bad? sisters attire ar? heh.. oh well..

tmr got keyboard. worship dynamics 1. so happy.. but dunno if i can continue or not. sigh. oh well..

everyone is in a bad mood. argh.. Lord, please give me the patience to deal with everyone.

i am tired. i am having a headache. heh. training was good.. first was netball, den track. ran 2.4km ard e track. plus all e other runnings.. oh well.. i guess its good for me.. wah. dun wanna go to e details for e training lar. sigh..

mum applied to taylors college n monash.. dunno why suddenly monash came into e scene but was juz told lar... oh well.. by monday shld noe.. hmm..