i need to run back to the heart of worship
i need to know where i am going.
i need to live my life for you.
i need to do everything for you
i need to lift everything into your hands
i need to get up n praise you

i feel so tired *emotionally* and i feel like taking a break off everything. including church.. suddenly, i'm reminded of shaun and abi.. a little more shaun cuase abi is slightly diff case.. the countless number of times saying "i wanna take a break" and i there insisting that there should never be a break.. oh well.. now its my turn that wants a break. but i'm not allowing myself cause i noe there shldnt b such things.. haha shaun.. so no such reason for u either.. for e rest.. neither is "ponning" church acceptable..

oh well.. i need a spiritual revival.. dunno if it is biblically correct, but i juz feel so down n out.. n i dunno who is trustable here.. kz dere are a handful.. who live in very close proximity wif me. but e thing is not close. not to that extent.. oh well.. i miss my long phone calls of "soul pouring" that phrasing was very bad. juz cant think right now to get e correct word.. hmm..

and when my world is falling down
in you i will be found

i suddenly have an idea of how to keep my neoprints. juz tat some mayb spoilt now. heh.. n i'm very tempted to post pl sch song. den tmr ym benediction but nvm shant.

hmm.. pls dun tell me that there is a replica of shaun here man.. heh.. those ppl in pmc wld noe.. k mayb not but some wld lar.. i think pastor jon can go get a twin here.. son is shaun rite.. ya so shaun can go get another father.. heh..

oh well.. bio test/exam tmr.. dun feel like studying. feel like juz not doing anything. eng presentation oso tmr. die already.. sigh.. *eunice feels super negative now*

Glad that I live am I,
That the sky is blue;
Glad for the country lanes
And the fall of dew,
After the sun the rain,
After the rain the sun
This is the way of life
Till the work be done.
All that we need to do,
Be we low or high is to
see that we grow nearer the sky.

hmm.. ok prob not all wld understand what dat is. but ya.. its a very nice song don't u agree? heh.. of course i'd say its nice. cuase its my sch song! hehe... oh well.. was juz looking at the webpages, wishing i cld go back to the PL days. and the SC days. oh man.. heh. how i miss Red Cross and Handbells.. and a little of Netball.. heh.. am contemplating of joining e 2 alumni.. shall see.. but it was great. i meant e days in e schools..

ok back to the present times.. today everyone else presented e oral presentation on an issue. all but laura n me. n i think i'm dead.. seriously. i was told e rest did very well. still can get full marks.. n i muz not get any lesser. ok guess its juz e high expectations.. math test. nearly failed. n tat is bad.. muz do well for tmr's test. if not i'm dead too.. plus. bio exam *sort of* on thursday n friday. this is insane! i havent started studying!!! hope she includes scientific methods into e paper. den it'll b free marks for me man. heh. ok lar. least tat is e most common sense thing in bio. heh.. oh yes. i nearly "gave away" my bio tb.. den after the whole thing den i realise i have a paper too. but praise God that she found her book. heh.. i got e birthday present for e july babies.. heh.. shall send whatever is needed back asap. heh.. okok.. better go off first lar.. needa study n do my projects!!!

oh my goodness... its super funny.. hb called me, den use her singapore line to call soosoo*in singapore*. den we talking on 2 phones. so cool.. n like wah.. hear soosoo's voice. oh man.. i miss u ppl!!! heh.. poor hb.. she hafta pass e message to n from soosoo n me. heh.. i miss all of em!!!

hmm.. somehow.. i feel very low now. emotionaly spiritually etc. as in like even if i'm "happy" i dun feel really happy.. kind of thing. like dere is a facade.. oh well.. heh.. but anyway.. yes i noe my Lord is still wif me.. n QT emphasised that point again.. started on the book by doug fields abt youth ministry.. its seriously good.. not e purpose driven ym one.. another book.. its like wow.. so many practical things.. heh.. shall finish it first.. n if its really good.. may tell others in s'pore abt it.. heh.. but ya.. its totally not wad i expected.. really cool..

i'm in no mood to do work now.. dunno why dun ask me.. juz no mood.. mayb i'll do chem later. muz returm marcus his "bible" asap..

weirdly.. juz after that entry yesterday, i was asked to go attend some other church's activity.. mayb its all by coincidence.. den again.. someone else is prob reading my blog.. heh.. i can see lor.. thx to mk for reccomending me e website. heh.. oh well. either way.. shall see how.. shaun says stay. me? i dunno.. wanna go tok to others first.. plus pray abt it.. yes prayer works wonders..

stress stress.. ok lar.. i think its not really stress. but more of like my brain n mind have gone into a state of panic. such that i feel stress over everything. mayb its cause of dis morning. i dunno. mayb its cause of school work.. sigh. oh well.. been doing my bio project.. den realise that i've been staring at the silly com for more than 3 hrs not finding anything useful when i haf a very good book juz under my desk (ie. daryl's bio book) juz took it out juz now n decided to flip thru.. n true enough, its dere.. oh well.. silly me. so i've decided to do on 3 topics, n half way, see which one i decide to drop. heh. silly me again rite. oh well.. wad can i say.. shall go do on e rest now.. min 4 pages each. that includes pictures. so shld b rather easy rite.. i'm not too sure about it.. n i juz realise i haf an english presentation this week.. prob on tues i think. bleah i'm screwed. topic chosen but i havent structed my presentation.. bleah. n tmr got eng listening midcourse too. completely forgot abt it till i was like trying to recall if i had any other hw besides bio project tat i rememberd.. bleah.

today's sermon was good. in fact, edu-cell and sermon for me linked together.. mayb its cause my mind keeps going back to reaching out/ impacting people.. frm school lar.. but either way, the sermon was good. heh... but.. other than that.. i dunno.. was sms-ing shaun.. ask him if i shld change church.. but den again, where to change to.. i like zph. i like e way dey do stuff. i like e structure n all.. i like worshiping dere and i haf learnt loads frm dere. but den comes other factors. hmmm.. but if i change, where to change to? not fcc. dun quite like it dere.. other churches?? eh nv bothered to find.. i need somewhere which can "accept" me e way i am.. or mayb its juz cause i din step out of my comfort zone. and am overly quiet.. mayb? i dunno.. it takes me yons to be comfortable in a church. like pmc.. ehz.. to b comfortable enough in e ym.. took me.. 2-3 yrs.. of course wif e help of my dear bible class... oh yes. n back to wad shaun's reply was.. he said to go back to pmc. sheesh.. wad helpful reply was tat? i oso wanna go back lar.. den again, mayb when i go back, things wld haf changed? i dunno.. oh well.. for a split second, i was so tempted not to go to church. den again, i remembered what i've been taught, what i haf taught, what i've been told and what i've been telling others.. hmm.. no thats not an option.. how? Lord, please guide me.

hmm. finally home! ok. homestay i mean. heh. haf been wif my paretns for e past 4 days. *plus elaine duh* ehz.. thurs went shopping at garden city. tried finding elaine's bag as well as mine. but cant find any nice ones.. so in e end i took dad's timberland bagpack for my tonnes of school books.. friday went to uncle garkbin's hse for dinner.. met his children.. cldn't recognise isabelle.. oh well.. nv see for 4 yrs. wad u expect rite. heh.. anw.. dere was a jam going up north.. n e ride was bumpy.. wasnt feeling very well.. but ok lar.. when reach dere.. had dinner.. den watch abit of tv.. den talk awhile den went back to he apartment.. i took e bed away from elaine. heh.. cause she smaller size than me wad.. hehe..

today.. went to fremantle first in e morning.. took e bus rd it.. went to e markets etc.. n surprisingly, we met charlotte *chia* and family.. such a coincidence.. heh.. hmm collected all e goodies that parents n elaine bought back. den went off.. went to koorong to look at e sales.. wah. i tell u.. we spend $100 at koorong itself. heh. i myself am guilty of spending like abt 1/5 of it. heh.. very happy. got a book *your first 2 yrs in youth ministry* kz it does not apply to me, but was juz interested to see e material.. n since it was on offer, so i decided to get it! heh. got some evaluation inside can do.. it seems quite good lar.. oh yes.. den went to harbourtown for any other last minute shopping... bought 2 tees.. now i lack bottoms. oh well.. we'll see how. heh. worse come to worse go shop again.. but i'm rather tired of shopping.. since parents came over haf been shopping non-stop.. heh.. oh yes.. i oso got elaine a wooden frame thingy.. ya. n dad got both of us e hp cover.. billabong one. heh. elaine got e balck one i got e pink one.. dunno if i'm even gonna use it. heh..its pink! very pink..

oh yes.. its kind of far ahead, but i sort of found wad i wanna get for christmas presents.. heh. i noe its fast but oh well.. ya.. found some stuff. quite nice.. n during this whole trip, i haf been pampered quite abit. by mum n dad. as for elaine.. ehz. as ususal.. i'm e one tat pampers her.. and dey juz kept throwing me all der reminders to me. hrmph. heh.. like shampoo.. fruits.. vitamins.. all juz "thrown" to me. so now my room is offically FULL.. no more space for anything. heh.. oh well.. kzkz. now that dey haf gone back. it means i hafta get on wif my work!!! sigh.. i've got like 1 report due in 2 weeks.. e draft ard nxt week. bio exam nxt thurs n friday.. bleah. n bio report.. argh.. okok.. shant complain.. work hard for 5 more mths.. heh...

eunice is falling deeper and deeper into a bottomless pit. dear Lord, please lift me above all theses and help me soar on eagles wings and see your great plans for me.

yummy.. heh.. tat sounds so huibing-ish anyway. juz had a nice warm bowl.. nono.. its cup. of soup. heh.. mummy reminded me of it. so yes.. eunice is nice warm n fuzzy now. ok. tat last one was out of point. i'm sitting infront of my desk, attempting to study for the physics exam tmr. oh well.. i've been rather stressed up lately.. dun ask me why.. today was panicking each time i cant do a single question that mr kuran gave us to do.. bleah. not a nice feeling. thx hb.. for listening to my rambling.. rather.. reading.. was in e library after all my lessons, attempting to do mr kuran's questions that he just went through. den hb sms me. so ya. tat gal got all my rambling. heh..anyway. she had her share of rambling abt eng hw too! heh.. oh well.. i badly need to do a revision on ALL my formulas and applications. others r ok. juz that. if i noe those, i can do e qns.. juz now jon said its gonna b as hard as e paper mr rowlands gave.. bleah.. means i'm dead.. it seems ok.. but i'm not too sure.. oh well.. how how how? heh. juz now when i told shaun i panick. he tot i din study at all.. oh well. wad can i say. heh.. n i've gotta do my bio project. plus get my chem notes organised n keep em organised.. i desperately need help in that area man.. really cmi.. heh.. oh well.. wad can i say?

anw.. needa go sleep early today too. cause gotta wake up really early tmr.. so i dun cause ppl to not b able/rush using e wash room.. sigh.. gotta wear alot tmr. cold gym. hrmph. exam. bleah.

eunice hardly cries. *parents impression*
eunice barely cries unless she is super stressed *fact*

and guess what. eunice is very stressed now. go make your own reference of what happened in school. its rather obvious. heh. anw. feeling much better now. thx steph n hb! heh. as in for e care lar. heh.. today was a bad day. my teacher's had a major communication breakdown. so... my lessons were affected. n i got rather stressed over it. plus some teachers being uncooperative. oh well.. tats e rough story lar..

oh well.. ok eunice feels much better now. heh.. hafta force myself to smile for e rest of e day. plus mr enright's constant "taunting" that i'm stressed. heh. hafta force myself to smile.. heh.. oh well.. kzkz.. shall end eunice's stress here for e moment. tmr surely kena reminded by my dear april intake. but oh well.. we'll see how tmr lar...

juz came back frm teacher evelyn's hse. had dinner wif her n gzerrel. wif my family of course. heh. had a good time.. cant wait for tassha to come. more pmc ppl. heh..

was listening to hillsongs united latest album "look to you". found the songs oddly familiar.. den realise zion praise harvest (zph) has been seeing these songs. juz tat i din noe its frm dis album. heh. nice nice. as in e songs lar..

hmm.. nxt 3 days. got 3 papers. eng phy eng. oh well.. i shall survive.. my Gods is an awesome God! heh.. Mr enright said some of e feb students forgot to chagne their calculators to rad/deg mode,so e whole paper was done in only one mode.. ie.. alot of mistakes.. *poor dem* heh.. i better remember to change during my paper man.. ok shall go off to do chem. needa sleep early too. tmr gotta get to sch by 8. to make up for today's mess. irritating..

woohoo. takinga short break frm packin.. den going back to continue packing all my stuff.. i feel as if i cld open a mini herbal stall selling those herbal drinks. mum bought, aunty bought. oh man. my whole room is FULL.. whoever wants those kind of drinks, get frm. me. *seriously. mum said so too* heh

it feels as if a long tiring day has finally ended.. finally seeing my family. thats e feeling i get.. though it was tiring. making myself b as happy as i can for that 2 days even thoguh i was tired, it was good.. oh well.. dey brought so many things over!!! n we continued to buy more things! heh.. bought a shirt. *nice* mayb i shld wear it tmr? oh well.. will see how.. i have so many things to pack. sigh. dying. dunno how i'm gonna bring dem back. e good thing is that dis rd, most of e stuff tat were brought over are like bottles of stuff.. n like magazines, food items etc.. so... my bag shld b relatively lighter.

tuesday having dinner at teacher evelyn's hse.. thursday got phy exam. oh yes wed n fri eng exam and thurs fri haf math test. how nice is that? oh well.. wad can i say. cant complain oso.. heh.. kzkz i shld go off now to pack my stuff. if not dun needa sleep now. tmr morning still muz wake up in time to catch my phy ws. heh. *jking*

hmm.. in 1 year, 2 ppl whom i hold the same respect for said things along the same line.. kz. obviously one was tonight.. if not i wont even remember. both r e same age too! *this spells trouble*

anw.. i think jon said while valy was fetching us back tat its better if no one knew abt ___ heh.. reminded me of bert.. heh.. so bert.. remember to keep it to yourself for goodness sake.. heh..

parents coming over. dey r at e airport now. flight in 1 hr. woohoo.. finally.. more clothes n all. but now i'm worrying how to bring dem back.. actually.. i think i needa get dem to bring some stuff back. heh. tats why dey r passing me a HUGE luggage to take my clothes out frm n to put other stuff into. heh. my rm is gg to b packed..

tmr gotta wake up early! bleah. heh. n oso need to start mugging!!! woohoo!!! hehe..

Joy is a characteristic of all who walk the road of faith. Christian Joy is completely independent of circumstances and the JOY of the Lord is constant...

another timely reminder.. was juz panicking over my bio n chem test. both done very badly... oh well.. i guess i'll juz haf ta survive it.. anw. was rather down today.. was panicking e whole day for my silly chem test.. 2 test so far, and in both, made silly mistakes tat robbed me of my 90%.. bleah. sux lar.. for bio.. kz i havent gotten e paper back, but did ask my teacher how it was. not good either. juz scraped through.. i told myself if i fail i drop. but i din. hmm.. anw. was rather upset abt tat too.. den.. did my QT. *bam bam* hit my straight in e head.. The Joy of the Lord is CONSTANT and is completely independent of circumstances.. hmm.. time for some reflection eunice.. heh..

woohoo.. juz watched another movie. bride n prejudice. heh.. eh "reward" for muggin in the day? nonsensical rite? oh well.. picked it off e shelf cause really din noe wad else to watch.. n it was quite nice.. e dance n song part reminded me of Red Cross Talentime. oh man.. i miss all of thse dance n all.. i dun even noe where my tape went to.. muz go find when i go home in nov.. muz go burn it into cd. oh man.. insanity complex!!! heh. n come on over!!! yikes.. miss red cross so much.. n ofcourse.. footdrill &formation!!! ndp03! heh. okok. i think i juz needa go write evertyhign down one day.. heh...

oh well.. tmr got a practice physics test. n since it wasnt counted, eunice juz din haf e motivation to study.. *quite sad rite* heh.. oh well. last minute mugging AGAIN. b4 i run to my warm warm bed.. ok i sound like hb now..

its a small world after all..

heh.. juz realise jolynn wong (castor 3!!!), caleb (uno!!!) and jaryl (sci tution!!!) knows each other in sajc. such a small world huh.. oh man.. miss mj so much already.. heh.. some how, the cheer list came to aust wif me too!!! weird huh. heh.. but ya. saw it juz now. so many memories.. oh man.. MJC rox. heh..

hmmm.. my mums super busy now.. going back n forth getting things for me tat i realise i need.. passing marcus's mum things. collecting books frm her fren *dunno for wad*, collecting things for me that my aunts wanna pass to me *nice family rite heh..* and e easiest is to wait for jon's parents to bring over stuff.. heh.. she very poor thing. one day can receive like 6 plus sms frm me.. like listing wad i need n all. heh.. feel so bad now..

anyway.. i really wonder how i'm gonna keep all my stuff.. weird huh.. all my winter stuff.. hmm.. i think firstly, muz use finish those bottle stuff tat can b thrown away.. like soap shampoo moisturiser etc. den there wld b more space to bring stuff back! heh..

oh yes!!! huibing is coming over to australia tonigh!!! yay!!! so happy.. heh. finally i can say closest fren? k one of dem lar.. is coming over!!! heh.. got someone to grumble to on the phone already!!! heh.. so happy... oh well.. but i think shes having problem now. as in like her flight is like in 4 hrs time. betshe wld b super kan cheong now.. oh man.. cant wait for tmr.. when she comes.. she had better remember to sms me. den we can talk on e phone when i'm free.. heh.. woohooo!!! so excited!!!

my room is in a mess!!! oh man. dunno how i'm gonna survive.. oh well. guess i wld some how.. wif more stuff coming. heh..

for once, i'm looking forward to going to bed.. cause my bed is warm!!! hehe.. bought electric blanket today.. was on offer.. got 3 kinds.. e most basic, the slightly more advanced one n e much more advanced one. heh. took the middle one. now i can enjoy the comfort of a warm bed.. *nice* hehe..

juz watched collateral. picked it off the shelf cause i think i heard shaun talking abt it.. n i juz cldnt find any other movies.. was quite nice. hehe..

mid-course exams is stretched over like 5 weeks. english on the first week.. math n bio on the last week.. e rest are yet to b confirmed.. heh.. either way, i needa start mugging. got physics test n math test dis week. den aft tat.. i think its juz study all e way. plus all my projects n all. argh!!! sigh.. so worried.. hope i cna finish dem in time. mainly is bio now.. muz go do my research!!! hehe..

i've got so much to do on my list.. from mum's birthdya present, to bio project, to english n phy project. n of course.. packin my room. n my 3 oral presentations. oh man.. suddenly dere is juz so much to do.. bleah. irritating n stressful can.. hmm kzkz tmr shall go mug in sch. den come back do project.. heh.. oh sigh. sudden realisation tat i haf loads to do... yikes. if i havent replied any of your emails, pardon me..

argh!!! i did something really silly today. feel so malu. mei lian jian ren. argh!!! to think that so many ppl saw it. n i wld b seeing these ppl for like the rest of my stay here this yr. argh!!! oh no oh no.. sigh. muz try to forget it as in e incident n not to do it in e future. bleah. den again. i wonder how many ppl actually saw it. oh welll..

eh today had 2 test. i dun haf a very good feeling abt dem cause i think it was done rather badly. both i mean. but i do hope my chem wld b done better than e first one. den i can get higher percentage. as for bio. my teacher refuse to let me drop it. sigh.. bleah. oh well.. shall see how dis test goes. bleah..

it was super cold today. my teeth were chattering uncontrollably.. n it wasnt nice at all.. e last time i felt so cold was during baptism. but dat was when i was wet. oh well... i kept running for tea. as in frm macs. cause tat was e warmest thing u cld get. i think e vending machine ran out of some hot drinks. so hadta go out of sch.. sigh.. dey said dis is gonna b e coldest winter in 10 yrs *isit 10? not sure* oh well.. n tat is not good for me!!! heh.. cant wait for parents to come n bring me warmer clothing.. bleah..

problem solved. least i guess n hope so. hope he understands man. it was a misunderstanding. heh.. yes my fault. language barrier. oh well.. i'm getting very pessimistic towards ppl ard me. oh well.. i shld head for my books n bury myself in books. but den again, no motivation. i have 2 tests tmr. i cna safely say i barely studied for them. sigh. how.. hope i can remember something tmr. bleah.

Lord, help me be less judgemental. help me be more open to others, help me to love others weaknesses as well. oh well.. i cant wait for my family to come over. actually. i juz cant wait for tmr to b over. den i can concentrate on things like my math n physics midcourse exams.. oh yes. n my 3 english oral presentation. i'm so screwed for them. havent even started preparing. how to survive man..

heh. parents coming over. told me that all my stuff. like stationary n all takes up like 1 BIG luggage. heh.. *paiseh* dunno how i'm gonna bring them back to singapore man.. oh well.. i feel like i'm moving my hse over here. i guess its cause its winter.. so all my iwnter colthes takes up alot of space *i hope so* n i haf 3 textbooks from singapore.. heh.. oh well.. if if if i can choose my physics topic b4 my parents leave, i can get dem to bring back hme 2 of e tb. n if if if i drop bio, my last tb can go back to singapore too!!! bleah. but i noe daryl wld say dun drop bio. afew of my frenz oso said tat. hilda siad to take it till i catch up. if still cannot den drop. how? bleah. dis is irritating.

oh man. thats e prob wif language barrier. i think i need those blog tat can sms.. so i dun sms frenz. but i sms e blog n all. nvm or nxt time i juz type on my phone n come home n blog. thats why blogs r good. can "throw" all my thoughts etc dere. goodness.. i think i juz created a huge mess!!! wont blame e person. cause i noe its my fault for forgetting dere is a language barrier. n for forgetting tat e person is not e crappy kind. but e serious kind. so. yes. its my fault. i guess i learn a lesson here. sigh. tmr gotta go clear e mess.. argh!!! i dun like clearing messes.. bleah..

sigh. feel lazy. finished my official hw already. need to study for bio n chem. AND need to do phy n math practice for e mid yrs. sigh. oh well.. oh well.. i'm so cold.. wearing a shirt, plus like my thickest jacket. n 2nd thickest windbreaker. tat is crazy lar. cant wait for family to come over. that is like wad. 7 more days? heh..

muahahahahaha.. ok i feel mean.. trying to be nice though. heh. called marcus to ask abt tmr nite. n guess wad. e first thing i heard even b4 he said "hi" was "switch off the lights" from a girl in the background. wah. from den on i was like almost breaking out in laughters man. heh. cldnt ask him e stuff properly oh man. heh n like duh it was dawn.. heh.. oh well.. kk thank goodness majority of e ppl tat read my blog r in singapore. e few in aust r those tat link frm cheryl's blog.. so i think not tat bad lar. heh..

oh well.. i've got loads to do!!! tmr gonna b home for a rather long time. ya.. got discipleship den makan at nite. yup yup.. den e rest of e time is spent stoning at home.. hmm.. tuesday.. may go watch movie. see how. exams rd e corner anyway. unless tat is a break. means now i hafta start mugging!!! heh..

chem test was a disappointment. even my frenz noes tat i cant afford to get tat marks.. bleah. tonnes of careless mistakes n all. oh welll.. now tat dere is a chem retest.. muz go mug for tat too. plus. i haf bio test on e same day. hafta mug for both. bleah. muz do better than wad i did.. oh well..

eunice needs to be more level headed and remember "W.W.J.D."

hmm.. been 2 days since i've updated. weird huh. suddenly so busy wif stuff tat i dun haf time to update.. hmm.. its getting COLD here in perth.. goodness.. pratically dying.. heh good thing i noe tat my aunts back hme haf like bought jackets n things for me. heh. hope dey r e appropriate one. den by e time mum comes over, i'll have 3 more! heh.. its like 0730 in the morning. n i'm online blogging. wad nonsense is tat man. heh. anw. having breakfast wif steph n ivon later. so can afford to sit in my room, sip my tea n blog. heh..

life has been ok here. tiring i guess.. as in everything is so rush. hilda keeps being so kancheong over evertyhing, n so we oso kancheong, and she gave us tonnes of work n all.. she makes it sound little, but its actually alot. oh well.. n our dear teachers who originally said we didn't have to take the midcourse exams now say we have to. so i hafta go mug for math now. so worried i cant catch up. math is a "muz do well" subject.. as for physics, e chpters dey r testing is not too bad. den still got mr kuran's notes n study guide. so i'll survive i guess.. oh yes. daryl passing me his bio book.. heh.. so nice. elaine wld bring it over for me i guess.. so that is more or less settled too. oh well. i realise i'm gonna haf trouble bringing my stuff back home.. dunno wad i'll do man. for one thing, i'll surely exceed the weightlimit. cause when i came here, dere were 3 ppl. heh.. oh well.. i guess i hafta dump alot of my stuff to my parents b4 dey go back. haf started packing already..

goodness. its raining outside. n i hafta go to sch like in 10 minutes. hope the rain goes away.. i haf like no shelter here. heh. umbrellas juz wont stay the right side up cause it doesnt like e wind. hrmph. oh well i'm VERY COLD!!!

*eunice needs to MUG!!!*

hmm. its a new week. ok not exactly new, but ya. its already the 2nd day of e week.. approaching the 3rd day. time flies so fast anyway. my english personal essay is still rotting away.. sigh. no mood to do it. today's temperature was disgusting. ok. its rather cooling n nice. juz tat it was cold.. n knowing myself frm singapore, i cant even stand some cold days in singapore, what more here? tmr's attires gonna b real warm n snug. *least i hope so* its supposedly gonna b even colder tmr. oh well. its winter. wad to expect? sch was ok today. juz the bad news that i'm gonna b taking the physics mid course exam wif e feb intake. but the questions on things like light n waves, i wont b tested lar. thank goodness. if not surely fail one. heh..

yesterday was another day to stone, especially in the afternoon. heh. that was after lunch wif some ppl frm cell.. morning did some work.. *so that i feel that i did sth* but through out the rest of e day, i din do much. its like so much time gone to waste. oh well.. but i guess it was a good break. now its back to mugging!!! heh..

oh well. i juz remembered i hafta answer marcus's question. sigh. who can help me man.. ppl like shaun n bert arent online. neither is ber nor marcus. *all guys? weird* oh well. hope i can settle it man. its great to have someone so hungry for the truth.. ok off to attempt my essay lar..

anyway in perth literally anyway. cause i noe alot of ppl whom i dunno reads my blog.. anyway. i plead that you all keep me distracted from the 9th to the 12th of june which is next week. if not, i will get rather distracted on my own.. and thus resulting in me getting rather depressed or sth. so pls pls pls juz keep me distracted. i think i'll b borrowing loads of dvds nxt week.. ok it sounds extreme, but. no. i'm not taking any chances. sigh. how how how? ok i shld start pulling myself away frm it. den i wont get upset over it.. anyway. juz keep me busy kz pple?? thanx!

hmm family is having a gathering now!!! bleah. as in family back home lar. even my cousins tat i only see during new yr (grace, joy, john) are also over!!! argh!! miss dem! heh. actually, i miss kids generally.. come to think of it, especially ppl like isabelle. heh.. cant wait to see her. actually. she quite poor thing. in 2 mths oso dun haf tassha to play wif her. heh.. anyway.. ya.. juz talked to my 2 aunts plus roy *cousin*.. plus mum n dad lar. *duh* heh. dey coming over!!! but tat period i got alot of things on.. but i think i'll only b seeing dem like 4 days.. ya ard dere lar.. heh..

hmm.. been at home today. cause e rest had things on. so went to kardinya wif steph cause she said she wanted to get sth. n at e same time i went to get some groceries. good thing i din hang my clotehs b4 i went out cause it was raining. but now its ok lar.. heh.. den did math n abit of english. dun feel like doing anything now. but i guess i hafta go do some bio n all.. heh. n i juz realise bio test is coming up. I'M SERIOUSLY SCREWED FOR IT!!! honestly. i dunno if i can cope. its like needs ALOT of knowledge WHICH I LACK. sigh. n there is simply so much to study. dunno if i can remember all.. but what i do know, is that if i fail it, i wld most likely drop bio.. since i came, already 2 ppl frm e feb intake dropped bio. sigh.. muz start muggin for bio. its like following monday. bleah.. *VERY SCARED* seriously. bleah..

heh.. anyway. everything has been ok here. parents coming, all i'm worried is that i kena scolded for staying out late. heh. i mean like ppl send me home n its not often. so hope its ok. yupyup. heh.. mum was asking me what to get for dem.. heh. how i noe wad dey need rite.. *but htink she will get some cooking stuff for aunty ervinna* den again, chan brothers may haf it anyway. heh.. sigh.. ok ok. i needa go do my mum's b-day present already.. heh..

hmm.. an update for the day! heh. its becomming a habit or sth i guess.. put my thoughts down or sth. one day i muz go download e whole chunk n save it somewhere. heh.

was rather embarassed today. hilda keep asking me like how long i spent on e report and all. den keep comparing e rest wif mine. hrmph. dun like tat. bleah. but ok lar i like e marks.. guess how much i got??? 5/5 heh. its like WOW! cannot imagine. i though it was crap though. first said my intro was good. goodness. i copied n pasted abit here n abit dere n still say good. juz add abit plus one para. okok shant go on later some pple chance on my blog say i arrogant. but ya. it was a plesant surprise. bio wasnt too bad. felt it was crap as well, but ok lar. the score she gave was like way too high man..

anw. i realise i havent blogged abt seeing my senior here. ok she isnt in tyalors, but in uwa. but was frm taylors last yr. heh. jean ma'am very zai can. model student heh. hilda keeps showing us her work. *which reminds me i got 1 essay n 1 oral presentation coming up* sigh. heh..

hmm first of june. officially, winter is here. as for the weather. its ok i guess. n i haf like the thinnest clothes here. sigh. cant wait for mum to bring things like indoor slippers here. my feet are freezing. heh. socks will do for now i guess..heh. other than that, overall the weather is ok lar. but moving in n out of classes is horrible. as in the sudden change in temp. caused me to b falling sick. like all e kids except jon in e hse r sick. how nice can tat b. guess cause e 3 of us rm near each other? germs spread? heh. i dunno lar. thank goodness i'm on e road of recovery. not too bad now lar. heh

God has been merciful to eunice once again. honestly, its like i never expected such results. honestly. indeed God's grace has been on the markers and on me as i do the test. sigh. no one believes me i haf been careless n all. sigh. oh well. but i guess its good. now its like haf expectations to keep up to. bio is e worse. heh. she keep saying i'm keeping up well enough when i noe myself i am not. n e scores. sigh.. all an attempt to keep me going. but i noe i'm not doing well. least i noe wads going into my brain. i rather remain invisible and go on working without being seen. hrmph.

i'm "vetting" through letter for guys again! heh if u guys read it, u'd noe u arent e only one. hafta go vet yet another letter. "love letter" u can say. heh. *i din mention names!!!* haha. oh well. wad can i say man. hehe.

anyway. currently stuck to e book mao's last dancer. very nice book. heh. and found out tat e teacher tat got us to read dis i my host mum's fren. heh. how coincidental can tat get???

yanjing asked me to plan icebreakers. i dun like it. no not tat i dun like planning n stuff. juz dun like planning games n all. remember so many times back hme i simply wont do it. made shaun or someone else do it. sigh. shld i do? hafta reply by tonight. heh. sigh.. **argh i'm in school editin this entry now. havent replied yj yet. i dun wanna plan. even my sch ppl say i look very stressed up over it. sigh. no i dun like it. i rather do some admin kind of planning. miss ulc planning. no games. sigh. how how. anyway.. english was good. amazingly. heh. hilda was very generous. gavem me good grades. heh. tats e only good thing to day i guess. heh.. **