crap.. juz as i tot my english was ok, i realise i could have gone out of point!! argh.. dunno wad to say now.. crap. dunno lar. looks like medicine is slowly becoming a dream only.. sigh.. lets hope i cna even enter uni.. uwa requires 60 for eng i think.. *prays*

1 down, 4 to go.. argh..

last week of sch is over. no more lessons.. it din hit me till jon was announcing it after his last english lesson.. *sobs* gonna miss taylors college man..

anyway. valedictory dinner was last nite.. it was fun lar.. e performances.. the photo taking etc etc.. the skit was good.. went well. the song was good. upsetting though. was on e verge. but i din. heh.. took loads of photos.. man.. i'm gonna miss all of em.. sigh.. especially the fantastic 3 [4 including the casualty] hahs n cheryl juz gave em another name. the draco malfoy grp. hahs 3 bullies. hahs. n e harry potter is cheryl n me.. muahahahaha.. hehe.. lalalala... now the powerpuff guys got ppl to compete wif already.. *right kw??shaun??bert??* haha.. anyway.. i'm gonna miss everything badly man. heh..

alright i shld go off now. tmr hafta go early to church.. *yawn*
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If We Hold On Together

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far don't throw it away
Live believeing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a stars hold on to the end
Valley mountain there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, somebodys praying
Please let us come home to stay

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I.

DINAH IS SO SWEET.. heh.. ok for those in perth. she was my 14 yr old *dats why i say she is so sweet* cell member last rd.. anw. ya.. man.. she replied e letter can.. heh.. sent a bookmark, card, some cert, letter, plus TISSUE PAPER. haha. so sweet lar.. man.. miss her.. heh.. anw. some other ppl were suppose to send stuff over huh *ahem kw.. bert.. ahem* haha..

anw... last week of sch le.. bio teacher manage to irritate me today. so i switched off n went to do my cards.. sigh. muz mug bio lar. cannot let her destroy my future *exaggerated i noe..* oh well. ok.. to murdoch library soon..

anyway.. submitted my hostel form liao.. stcath!! heh.. dunno i will get in not.. but havent heard too good stuff abt currie hall. so i guess dats e next best choice..

okok.. off now.. got loads to do man.. today.. shall do eng math n chem. my 3 fav subs. heh.. lala. physics wld come soon. bio.. can juz go n die lar *jking* *will do it soon lar* heh..

hmmm.. i've learnt alot today. serious... learnt alot about humility. sigh..

anyway.. exams are nearing. end of yr is nearing. time we all leave and go our seperate ways *for some* is nearing. sigh.

this hols back hme is gonna b boring. *i think*

hmm in sch now.. lala.. so sian.. math test in like half n hr time.. and we haf international tea later.. i'm thinking of skipping it n gg home to sleep.. *yawn* stayed up till rather late last night.. heh..

anw.. yesterday learnt sth very very very impt.. it reminded me so much of how i wld handle situations back home.. and i realise how wrong i haf been in doing wad i had been doing.. muz start chagning my "strategies" muz remember its God first. heh..

anw. first week of school for term 4.. all lessons are so dead boring *ok lar not dat bad* and like nearly failed my eng.. i simply cant do analytical lar..

anw. i dun think i can go for the kids camp. sigh.. dats if i get my interview.. argh. gonna slack in perth rotting away.. doing nth.. heh.. oh well. alrights away to some last minute revisions!!

SOMEONE in this house came into my room, threw my platic bags on the ground, moved my towel rack, messed up and toppled my soap and shampoo, and moved my rags. IRRITATING. and the person just doesn't know how to put it back. hrmph! dun think its jon *trust him* so der is 4 person left. hrmph. still want to complain my room is in a mess. look who just messed it up??? sigh. no RESPECT..

anyway. shant let dat person spoil my mood. heh.. just did my essay. rather happy.. service today was awesome. but still have some qns in mind.. shall wait n see who*that i'm willing to ask* is willing to answer me.. but the speaker was really good..

past week or so has been good. i miss horse riding!! miss the 4 horses i rode.. argh.. i wanna go back dere some day.. oh yes. on fri, when we went down, we missed e first bus cause we were buying breakfast n lunch. den we decided to go up and sit down for a proper breakfast, and when we realised that time was up, we missed the 2nd bus!! so frustraing. but den one of e bus uncle offered to send us dere, since he was gg in that direction as well *super nice can* so we were online *praise God*

beach on sat was good too.. but pity i din bring a change of clothes*i'm so not prepared for the beach*. so in e end juz stayed on shore. heh.. but the weather was good. *praise God*

okok.. exams r coming.. muz start mugging.. argh!!

i was juz pondering over wad someone said.. do we "over fellowship" till we end up scaring ppl away??

back from 2nd day.. heh.. horseriding. super fun can. heh.. aiden was my first horse. but it was lazy. but it was a nice horse lar.. chestnut.. super nice. den wendy *my instructor* changed for me to anotehr horse called dasher. also super slow.. but easier to ride lar..

anw.. dun feel like blogging. cause i'm sick. heh.. prob blog another day lar.. oh yes.. saw tasha on e bus. heh.. n i'm officially sick agian. sigh..

hmmm.. its only ten o'clock.. hb is gg to sleep already.. so early lar. heh.. hb came to taylors today. left her in e piano room first while i had chem. den aft dat we went for lunch.. n den, headed for fremantle. both of us bought loads of sweets.. i bought much less though. den aft dat headed for arcade. she saw sth she liked, so we played. spent close to 100 bucks to get 1 pin point dunno wad thing, 2 of the newton pendulum thing, 3 flower keychains, 1 ball n bat *no idea*, 1 egg magic thing, 1 rubber ball and 1 rubber ball wif string. oh. n took neoprints. heh.. hmm.. aft dat, had boost *again* and headed for cottosloe beach *not sure of spelling* had fun taking photos. n hb collected seashells. heh.. oops. i juz realise we havent washed it.. well done. its gonna b so dirty and its right beside my bed. argh. heh.. tmr better go wash man.. speaking of tmr.. gonna go horse riding.. *excited* and i will also b back hme. heh. come to think of it, i miss it. getting rather used to my own space..

well well.. holidays are almost over.. i needa mug more man. think i gg to end up doing badly if i dun study. heh.. hmmm...exam stress setting in sia..

hmm... i cant wait to go back to singapore.. was gg through the picture wif hb juz now.. miss everything back home man.. heh.. but den again, i'm gonna miss a whole load of stuff in perth too.. especially PEOPLE.. in particular those who r gg to diff uni or are entering NS.. sigh.
ok. enough of it. i'm getting tired.. wanna sleep.. hb's cousins juz came home.. dunno if dey r gg to check on us.. shall see.. den again, i dun feel like sleeping.. can't cause i'm falling sick..throat, nose, etc etc.. argh.. how ..

i suddenly am dreading having to meet huibing. not that i dont want to, but its just such a chore. hafta plan how to meet her and all.. plus her cousins here.. so difficult to do things cause i dun like it when dere are adults around. argh. everything is such a mess.. i think i wont stay over on thurs lar. think i'll juz go home or sth.. sigh.. MAFAN.

hot hot hot hot hot hot hot.. argh.. juz had dinner. and it was super spicy.. good thing i din hafta eat it at e dining table *cause dey went out for movie* came into my room, took e packet of pork floss dat my aunt gave me b4 i left *incase i missed singapore food* and dumped 2/3 of the packet onto my noodles.. it helped a little lar.. heh.. n oso finished 2 cups of herbal tea. hehe.. dats how spicy it is man..

church today.. dr cheong and pastor goldie *not sure if its how its meant to be spelt* were super funny.. but i felt dat there was like no link in what dey r doing. but it was a very different way of preaching lar.. heh.. managed to do some chem today too.. gonna finish up e rest tmr as well..

hmm.. hb is coming over!! hehe.. her holiday.. yay!! lalalalalalala.. beach, horseriding, staying over, shopping, fun!! lala..

last week of hols already.. muz start mugging .exams are drawing near!!

heh.. juz came back frm combined cell.. was not bad today.. as in cell. learnt qutie abit. alot of reminders too.. its amazing on how God speaks huh? glad carmen n ken came too..

oh well.. was looking at marcus's pictures.. really miss pmc ym..and pmc itself as well!! cant wait to go back. but now dere is the passion retreat thing. so i dunno when i'll b gg back.. argh!!!

anyway... celebrated cheryl's birthday today.. haf been telling loads of lies to her for the past few days to prevent her frm suspecting..glad it sort of worked out.. hmm.. pictures!! cheryl!! i wan picures!! hehe..

i need to start mugging soon.. ok.. tmr.. shall start after discipleship..

been rather sick of outside food.. i miss home food..

hostels.. how? which one?? currie hall?? or st caths?? lala.. can't decide.. heh.. n nxt yr hafta change zone *i think* heh.. so mafan.. lucky for those whos gg to taylors like next yr. cause its in uwa. easier to transit. if not now like a major shifting of our stuff frm hmestay to uwa.. mafan!!

juz read alfred's blog.. dunno why, but its reminded me of how fortunate i am.. and how i shld juz b happy wif wadever results i got..

realise i've been super slack ever since after PSLE *honestly* i feel that i'm not performing up to my potential.. even during PSLE. and now too.. sigh..

sigh.. felt dat i've started studying abit more in perth.. *after wasting 4 yrs of my life* but den again, i feel like its not enough.

i guess i can't blame anyone but myself for such grades. for such score for such bands.

i guess i juz hafta work harder.

then again, my grades are not extremely bad. juz not up to my expectations.. still, considering the factors, i've really been blessed by God and His Grace has been more than sufficient for me.

thank you Lord.

UPSET

hrmph.. trail exam report is out. english was e worse for my "effort" grade. rather upsetting.

hmm.. not fun!! mummy found out dat i'm learning driving.. bleah. hahs.. nah lar. its actually ok.. juz no mroe surprise for her. heh.

mum is crazy.. when she asked that question, i noe wad she was thinking about already. sheesh..

anyway... was thinking of gg to murdoch library like at nite alone n walk back alone *cause no guy dat i noe dat lives near enough to follow me dere* anyway. den juz read mum's email. hahs. i gave up. not gg to do dat arleady. .too scary.. but still muz start mugging!! heh..

i really wonder. is taking photos with your good friend more important or the chance for someone to go for baptism more important??

sigh.. i'm so critical n objective..

today was ushering for curtin service. *first time* hahs. was treated like a completely new person. *start frm scratch* hahs. but was quite interesting.. completely new perspective to loads of things. heh..

holidays *dat are not really holidays* are here. sian..

at marcus's now.. juz finished cooking. heh. left afew more.. but only can cook slightly later. if not later it turns cold not nice. heh.. getting bored here.. wanna go play games soon.. heh..

hostel.. which on to choose?? sian lor.. dunno which to choose.. but good thing is least i've narrowed it down to afew already..

hmm.. sent jon off arleady. heh.. marcus gg off too. hahs. as christine said. i'll b free frm all e teasing.. haha..

i wanna go home!! hahs..