the same way as you say i am unable to conduct respect from my sister, you are unable to conduct respect from me. i wish i stayed in perth. i should stay der more often.. sighs.

things have no changed. i still cannot stand your naggings. infact, i hate listening to it. and you know that. last yr, with jon, it was better.. or so u claim. i tried. sorrie. i still rather play dumb and shut everything off..

now you blame my friends. i am sorry, but i am happy where i am.

sigh.

internet!!! finally its working..

its been a week of headaches.. those who know what is gg on, thx for keeping me in ya prayers.. even though it has been a bad week, but i must say i had loads of fun with uwaZ and i oso learnt alot from the few of them..

tuesday arrived in perth.. thx let for letting me stay in ya hse.. i went to meet faith in e city, den let went to work. met her aft she was done, den we headed back home to preare for sports that afternoon.. it was a good time lar. i played bball and soccer. like honestly, i dun like these 2 gaems .but dey claim i can play them. weird eh.. hahs. anw. yea. the guys were very gracious to like let us have chances when we play. so it was a good time lar..

got results on wed.. wasnt that good. alot of admin work to complete.. so dat whole day was a day of stoning.. like sat at hme, watched show, kinda numbed to the world kinda thing.. faith noticed sth wrong. i juz told let straight, max msged. coffee at nite.. thx max for planning.. i noe dat it was partially for me to hang out and relax. it was really good..

went to sch on thurs to settle some admin stuff.. den met max and prepared for the bbq at kings park. was suppose to go to swan valley but i think got not enough time.. but yea. the bbq was good.. and i kena burnt lar!! haha. anw. we played games aft dat. catching first, den sup-fansup and den chop chilli chop den catching again.. it was great fun lar. act. i had alot more fun laughing at ppl.. hehs.. but yea.. bijia kena disturb e whole time by e guys. like dey made up a game who can poke her e most amt of time wins though she is the catcher.. hehs.. oh der was a pair of siblings oso. very cute.. dey were like wanting to join us. hehs....

friday was cell.. i wnet to sch in e morning to submit my admin stuff. but den mum called and said uncle david wld settle everything. so ok lor. nv do anything. but i felt really bad cause like he wanted to push e blame to mum n dad. but good thing everything turned out well.. cell was great. thx dorcas n francis..

on sat sent nic off.. it was so sad lar.. take care my brother. hehs.. anw. aft dat we wentto subi. guys wanted to cut hair but den it was close. went for a walk ard. den aft dat dey planned for a movie. i watched the guardian. originally everyone wanted to watch 007 casino royale. but i watch le. anw. it was fully booked. anw. the guardian was nice. it is similar to the canto drama "always ready".. like both abt rescue teams..

okok i htink max is coming. i shall finish abt sunday when i coem back frm my road trip to albany. chaoz.

sigh. results tmr.. how?!?!?!? sigh. as usual, suddenly start panicking again.. the usual procedure eh.. but as daddy said, i noe wad God has for me is a perfect plan.. sigh.. i really dun dare to open the page leh.. argh... faith eunice.. faith..

touched down this morning... max picked me.. wif josh.. gosh. thx so much max.. forever sending ppl.. bleah.. feeling really terrible now.. he is juz mr nice guy lar..

aft touching down, went to let's hse. my home for e next 2 weeks or so.. hehs.. went to set my com up, as well as took a short nap.. met faith in e city ard 12noon. walk ard, hand lunch, slacked until ard 2.30 when let finish work.. den we went to buy some stuff for cell refreshments..

came back aft dat to prepare for exercise in uwa. hehs... left e hse and headed for rec center.. played bball first.. it was interesting... and like its really fun playing with the guys cause like dey give you chance.. like dey really let u have the ball and all.. yea.. really.. aft dat, went to play soccer. i was super unwilling to play. cause i cant kick a ball for nuts. but max claim that i can play quite ok.. like for one dat nv play, can train up.. or so he says.. hehs..but it was fun lar. playing sports wif uwa ppl are always fun..

we had dinner at saigon aft dat.. i had like e broken rice with 7 meat.. and only ate 1/3 of it.. somehow din have appetite.. had my durain juice.. and den igelato after with let..

i really had a great time lar.. sigh.. i muz have faith!!!

AMAZING.. i can get onto blogger.. its been ages since it has allowed me online. gosh. anw.. currently in e airport using the internet.. its been ages since i have blogged. kinda miss it.. dad n mum are in the lounge eating. elaine n me stoning outside...

the rough one week i have in singapore has been interesting.. the kids camp was amazing.. like the kids were really great!!! hehs.. and i kinda miss em already. actually. i will miss isabelle anabelle, and inez naomi the most. the 2 pairs of sisters that are juz so cute!!! haha... will blog more on this when blogger BETA decides to let me in when i am home...

other than dat. have been doing my christmas gifts.. gonna get elaine to give em for me if i am not back for christmas.. and also finishing up my show!!! haha. i love canto shows.. oh yes. speaking of dat. i am gg back to perth w/o even meeting cheryl and passing her the dvd. oops...

this trip b ack has been a short one. ia hve barely enough time to catch up with everyone. *sigh* but oh well.. nvm. i shld b back soon.. i hope..

pray that my results are ok.. gosh.. it is so worrying..

okok. i juz cant wait to get b ack to perth now cause singapore seems so boring. perth seems more interesting. hehe.. kk muz go now. only left like 6 min to browse through other stuff n clear emails.. kekeke..

back in singapore. the past few days has been hactic. ever since exams ended, been in such a rush...

my last paper was last tuesday.. it was alright.. but jy was so funny. he was beside me and after the lab he ask me"eh i was letting you copy why din u?" haha.. oops.. anw. we had dinner at buddah's bar restaurant in subi.. it was very nice.. spicy too!! mmmm.. hehs.. oh yes. itwas to celebrate faith's bday.. *HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!* hehs.. yup. aft dat tot of gg to max's place to have movie wif eliz and dorcas.. but in e end ended up in northbridge wif faith mishi marianne n jasper.. had bubbletea at utopia.. den we saw mavis.. and we ended up joining them watching der singing session.. mavis is so cute!!! haha.. sing such songs....

on wednesday went to harbourtown and city. nth much der.. sians. but yea. happy cause i got my boost. hehs.. oh and den we had dinner at nite wif eliz nianchee dorcas and let. thx for driving let.. hehs... yea. it was fun. cuase we had buffet and plus eliz is der. haha. dat gal is crazy.. hehs.. eat so much still not full.. but yea had a good time. aft dat we drove back to tuart hill to send the gals back b4 gg home. den we decided to take photos in e car.. so fun!! hehs.. den continued outside der hse.. called diana out to join us oso.. haha super happy wif e photos. have been so photo deprived over the exam period..

thursday was harbourtown wif zion ppl.. but in e morning i went to see a hse.. was not nice. sobs. haha.. anw. i dun wanna stay wif priya.. went to harbourtown wif eufei jason weijun.. no i meant city. went to walk ard first.. quite fun.. the guys. really shop.. oh had lunch at mr samurai first as well... den we went to harbourtown and met jas and rynetta der.. hehs.. den we shop abit more and the guys bought ALOT of things. weird eh. rynetta oso.. but i din really get many things lar.. aft dat headed for e city.. and guess wad i saw?? BOOST IN CARILLON CITY!!! amazing rite. new outlet. now dun need to walk so far juz to get my boost. muahahaha.. kk i am crazy. yup aft dat we headed back home lar. muz preapre for dinner. went to atlantic restaurant wif mavis and nic.. so posh.. but i had a good time. thx mummy!! haha. yea. and she paid for our dinner oso. so sweet.. aft dat went to celebrate jamie's bday. it was CRAZY. she was like 2 hrs late. but had a good time sabo-ing her.. went home slightly earlier to pack my room..

friday was a crazy day as well.. met lydia hii gen karena and lydia hee for lunch. had taka.. satis fied.. den we went to buy stuff for nishant's bday. got some really crazy ideas.. like gave him the weirdest things. but glad he liked it.. dat is good lar.. he was saying he was touched or sth. funny guy.. lala.. den aft dat.. i rushed back and went for uwa retreat.. it was great!! enjoyed myself. and howboon intro some plan thing. good oso.. yea. oh yes the sermon was great i tell u. hehe... aft dat we went out to moon for coffee.. took max's car. den rite.. he allowed me to drive!!! *BIG GRIN* he remembered that i mentioned b4 i wanted to try to drive. like tis really nice to have such friends.. anw. he said my driving is ok. not bad *smiles* but den corrected my turning.. anw. we went for coffee.. den aft dat i headed home while the rest went to eliz's hse for games and movies.. let drive *hehe* so nice lar!! yays.. packed my room for the WHOLE night. like really whole nite. din sleep..

max picked me on sat.. went to pick eliz up so can send her off to airport.. amazingly, i survived.. like din fall asleep the whole day lar.. even though no sleep.. so sad lar. eliz left le.. uwaZ has one less crazy person. gonna miss her badly.. all the best in IMU gal... den aft dat we went to watch the redbull air race qualifying rounds. it was fun oso.. but got kinda boring aft dat. den we went for lunch at broadway.. den... went for ushering!!! hehs.. it was great, as usual.. dinner was in city.. guess wad.. max let me take his car out!! haha. cause he was tired. yea. so i drove it. so super happy..yea. dinner and bbt were all good. den went home to pack again.. dis rd i slept for like 3 hrs.. but still considered very little. i am crazy..

on sunday morning.. moved all my stuff over to max's place. den we went to meet the others at myers street.. we went to manduring.. some lake.. cnat rmb e name. but it was really nice. had a great time at the lake. the guys were crazy.. taking loads of random pictures.. lala.. we had a bbq.. the food was great. din noe josh can marinate food dat well.. aft dat we all went canoeing.. i was wif dorcas and crystal... gosh.. the guys were like so kancheong to capsize our boat that they ended up capsizing der own. so funny. but had i a good time lar.. we went swimming after.. and did some plunges and dives. super funny. josh lost my glasses when i asked him to bring it to shore for me. sobs. but nvm lar. gg to make new ones.. aft dat we went to clean up and den headed for pizza. the best pizza in the world/wa/perth apparently.. but yea. dey were good.. the squid one was my fav.. den aft dat, we went to marianne's place to eat. oh yes. dey had desert pizzas too!! chocolate one was the best *i think* haha.. watched some shows den went to pass mavis and nikki my canto and eng shows.. hehs.. lucky guys. got my shows to watch. haha.. yea den went to max's place wif dorcas and bijia to watch lord of the rings. but i was so tired due to e lack of sleep to end up sleepinnnnnng.. had bbt as well. nice. hehs...

anw. here i am.. aft 5 hrs of flight which i slept for like 3.5 hrs of the flight. hehs.. gg to meet huibing and sooling soon. happy...

ramble ramble ramble. i feel like rambling. argh!!!!! dis is killing me. packing my room is a chore.. in fact, i find that i am panicking more now than i did for my exams.. argh.. i only got afew hrs to pack finish the last bit of my room before its time to head up to manduring with the fellow leaders frm zion.. and honestly, i am so so so dead.. got so muc ht odo. as in pack. seriously dunno how i am going to survive.. argh. i need to yak on and on abt it. bleah... i dunno how i am gg to survive tmr. but i guess.. i will.. some how, some way..

another paper down. left with one!! yays.. haha. today's one was not as bad as bmb.. though i wont say it was fantastic.. hahs. i feel so tired. wanna sleep. hmm... letitia is gg to stay over again.. 4/5th nite le.. hehs. dat gal ar.. haha. anw. i dun mind. make we wake up early oso.

i dunno if i shld move out of st caths. priya and amelea are asking me. but.. yea. not very comfortable wif one of em. so shld i? hmm. huimei nv reply me if she found a place already or havent yet. i wanna move!! haha. not really. but i sometimes feel that it is a waste of money staying in caths. like super ex.. staying out wld b cheaper. according to jason and let. but den. 2 of em. i dunno. God please guide me and show me what is best. why isnt any of the church ppl moving out?!?!?!?

attempting to study in the lib. but then i wanna take a break frm cvs and resp frm dis morning. dun feel like studying. so have been doing huibing's thing. some deco she ask me to do. lazy me rite. hahs.. oh well.. i cant wait for this time tmr. i wld b free and heading out to eat wif faith jas max isaiah edi charis*bert's fren* and i think mayb nat. taylors exams are over!! not fair!! haha.. nvm mine is gg to be done soon.. tmr!! hehs..

this is the first time. since i dunno when. that i talk so much to my parents. its good. really. its good.. a whole 2 hrs. wow.

lalala. new version of blogger. how much difference will it make?? hmmm... weird eh.. like dunno wad is e diff.. lala. oh well..

i seem to be making things worse. yea. it isnt getting any better. gosh. i think i juz made things worse both ways. sigh.

exams. i am suddenly panicking. gosh.

GREAT. eunice is so screwed. argh. bmb was terrible. and after reading the CVSnResp forum, i think its gonna b screwed as well. i need to mug big time!! gosh. sigh. and guess wad. i juz missed out on an assessment. like the lab demo say no need to do. now say ned. and i missed it. great.

i am dead tired. slept ard 3.30-4 last nite. woke up ard 7-7.30. well done. and i have been feeling sick due to the lack of sleep. plus jasper's driving reminded me of dad's.. dis is bad. oh i had icecream today. hehs. felt better aft eating kfc wif jas edi and let. plus the icecream. aust vanilla with cookie dough and choc fudge. yum..

guess wad. med dents and pods students are now learing how to do long division. gosh. i wish those are the kind of things i have to worry. instead of like how your heart works or sth. argh!! ain't good ain't good. bahs!! i really really really need my rest and need to study and need to mug and need to do well..

oh yes. juz got a letter of acceptance for orinetation group leading for next year. sigh. i am going to say yes in faith that i would get pass this, but den again, i am quite worried i would disappoint them in that i have to pull out last minute cause of my terrible grades. sigh. but den again, it wld look good on my CV. hahs. after all i seem to be so inactive in uni.. gosh..

kk i need to head back to study. let is staying over again. she gonna mug, i gonna sleep. HAHA..

to studying.. gambate!!!

well done. trust eunice to wake up late..

HEY its not my fault k.. hahs.. oh well.. yea. woke up late for my FIRST paper. how pro. actually i was awake at 7am. was talking to dad n faith on e phone. faith can still say i was awake.. meaning.. i WAS awake. somehow, someway, i dozed off. and the next time i woke up.. it was 9am. and my paper was.. 9am. well done eunice. had a major heart attack.. like 35.5K cld go down the drain all because of waking up late. i was panicking and rushing to sch. thank goodness i live opp sch.. got der by 9.15am. managed to get in. din loose too much time cause i cycled and preapred my stuff the night b4 and we oso get 10min reading time. the paper was not too bad. *i guess* notes were veyr helpful.. bubbletea still in the fridge. learn frm bijia..

renewed my driving licence ystday as well.. i cant wait to drive. the last time i drove jas's car, dey were saying i still not "stable" like not my fault k.. hahs. not enough practice?? kekeke.. rather.. not used to his car and aust's roads. i wanna drive!! hb getting her drivers licence soon. hoepfully b4 she goes back. meaning she can drive out next time!! yays!!

today is the melbourne cup. some horse racing thing. dunno wad e big fuss is all abt. but i muz say dat its good cause st caths gave us a buffet lunch. mussels, prawn, beef, alcohol.. haha. etc etc. it was a good lunch. not filing though.. but yea. no idea wad e fuss is all abt.. like i dun see em making a fuss out of like tennis or swimming, why horseracing? guess people juz cant put gambling out of der minds eh.. hahs..

i am attempting to study in the library. it aint working.. i dun understand BMB.. sigh. i need tution.. gosh. i think CVS and Resp is nicer. so is FCP. but FCP is over le..

i have this feeling inside me. something weird. i cant explain.. its juz nudging me. and for no reason, i suddenly nearly teared. whats wrong?

yes God.

bought some christmas presents. pleased with myself. gg to find more soon.. jasper n letitia said its nice. dey wanna do e same thing oso. haha..

thurs shopping aft my paper to give myself a break. subi having 90% discount clearance sale for very good brands. least jas says so. yup. dunno if let is gg, but i think i will make that trip down. at most dun shop dat much aft exams lar..

kk i need to go study soon..

half an hr left till we are leaving for dinner. dorcas cooking for us *sweet*

as i sit infront of my com, i ahve my cup of bubbletea infront of me, together with my stack of notes for tmr's paper. its kinda crazy rite. midnight and i am still studying. what to do.. too slack already.. i am so not prepared. but God will take me through it.. with the bbest i can.. really wanna thank God for the notes that he brought in. so timely. and so.. good.. hahs. yea. its good. thanks alvin. those notes were like.. amazing.. yea. so here i am trying to cramp as much into my brain as possible now. hahs. kidding. i will do abit more revision den its off to bed.

i juz came back frm church together. it was SO GOOD.. gosh. yea. nv regretted gg. the speaker was good. like simple but good. considering if i shld go buy his dvd. mayb i shld eh.. hahs.. oh plus ps teo's sermon. muz go buy too!! haha.. anyone in singapore wanna borrow, i can lend u. dey r really amazing sermons.. oh yes. ed silvoso's dvd i oso have. haha.. but that one got a long queue lar.. as in in perth oso got long queue.. i've been kinds slow in passing it ard.. oh ps patrick and ps joyce are gg to argentina!!! on ed silvoso's invite. so cool!! like dey r gg to see e prison. they are gg to b prayed for by the prisoners. its really amazing. that prison block. ok. back to topic. church together featured united live today.. yea. it was nice, good, but i only wish i had followed josh mishi nikki n iggy back.. i got to noe one more person today.. iggy. haha. act i think he send me back b4. juz dat nv talk much. but today was abit more lar. muz get to noe the older generation of zph. haha. rather. muz get to noe my mummy's cell leader. kekeke..

juz put down e phone wif stan. so sweet. collecting everyone's exam dates.. gosh. i really muz start doing that. yj!! see lar. not in ya cell den kena bad influence *jking*.. tot he wanted to talk abt yea. other stuff.. so wanted to tell him another day. but yea. good thing he din. if he doesnt bother, i wont bother as well.. my younger brother.. kekeke..

i juz saw a seminar i wanna go to.. mummy oso wanna book for me another one. i cant rmb wad. but yea. i wanna go.. its in jan.. the other one. dis one dat i juz saw is in early dec. juz nice. the week inbetween the thailand trip and the possible vietnam trip...

oh yea. huibing mayb gg thailand too!! so fun!! lala. i miss huibing and soo2..

kk randomness le.. i need to STUDY!!! haha..

laters.

argh. guess wad. exams in 2 days time. and wad is eunice doing? oversleeping!!! gosh. i am seriously so so so dead. but then again, i am seriously falling sick. dats prob why i am oversleeping. oh plus the late nights. but i muz say xman is really helping me to destress.. hahs..

maybe i should just go be a clown and make balloon craft for ppl.. *kidding* dad wld kill me if he hears this. not that it is bad. i think hilda oso. gahs. study eunice study!!

sigh. i suddenly felt very stressed. very stressed to pass everything. like u noe suddenly start panicking. sigh. if anyone is reading this, please pray for me. for understanding of my notes, for wisdom in studying and for accuracy in spotting wad to study.. yea.. it was a very stressful 5 min convo wif my dad. though like he din stress me out or anything, just checking on how my studies is going and all.. but den, i felt super stressed. like i need to pass this, den i need to do my sup papers, den can i go on to next year. and den, i will have another mind boggling year ahead if i go on. like i really wanna do med, but i seem to b so stresed out about it.

mission trip to cambodia is cancelled. sigh. i wanted to go. 2 times le. suppose to go but din get to in e end. not gg cause dad has work in thailand. oh well. but in place, i get to go to thailand!!!!!! haha. 6 days in thailand. how cool rite. hahs. den mayb will head for vietnam 1 week later. dad got work to do in those 2 places lar... *yay* wanted to go for mission trip wif zion to china during the youth camp, but i guess not. dad dun allow. he wan me to study for my sup paper. but i am so scared i dun get it. like really really scared. like scared until can cry if i think about it. sigh..

i really wanna b ogl and mentor n host day leader etc etc. but i guess.. if i really wanna win that one more soul for Christ nxt yr, i wld haf to do really well dis yr. ok concentrate n study eunice!!! Your comfort is in the Lord, whom gives you strength when you are weak, who lights your path in times of darkness..

ushering tmr for zion leaders meeting. better b a productive morning and afternoon..

*edited*

and if i can tell u that i am stressed, means i really am. a "haha" is not what i expect out of a close fren. only when i am close to my max then do i admit i am stressed. you're not helping. all the laughter and acting high are just a facade. a way to relieve this stress as well.. do u really think i am that happy-go-lucky?? "'

everyone wants to be heard. not only in issues that interest people, but in everything. i am no different. i want to be heard too. not only heard when the issue interests you, not only heard when you want me to hear sth frm u in return. this is not getting me anywhere is it? hahs..

anyway, really wanna say a big THANK YOU to another you. thankyou for listening to me. and at least i noe i do the same when u need a listening ear. thankyou for accompanying me so many times. thank you. though i noe to certain extent i do neglect you when i am super busy, i try. like i told bijia today, i am trying to balance them out. but really, thanks. thanks for correcting me and reminding me about areas that i am weaker in. thanks for being such a great friend.

exams are next week. and i have barely studied. sigh. my brain aint working. moreover, i was not feeling well dis morning. anyhow, muz mug again tmr!! reid library here i come!!

i do not understand. yes, i am getting used to it, but why is it you must make such a big issue out of it. i do not understand. something that is suppose to be personal to you, why must you announce it to the whole world, make people's life difficult and still insist on people changing when they refuse to? i see these as a sign of getting attention. the want for attention, the need for attention. as a fren, i wanna help, but you are the one that is making life difficult.

sigh. no comments..

anyway. i shall update later. got loads to update about our last day in sch as well as my sailing session!! woohoo!! oh n ushering too.

last week of schooll... how slack.. hehs.. had my last pbl yesterday. sigh i did badly for my portfolio as well as my mid semesters. sigh. how how how muz study!!! need to stop panicking and doing my part and leaving the rest to God. i notice, each time i panic, i start worrying, each time i think of leaving it to God, my heart calms down. ohyes. we had a party during pbl yesterday. it was quite funny. cuase i realisee the locals term of party is each one bring a small item. someone brought a pkt of gummies, another a pkt of twisties, another some mini chocs. and i came in with 3 1.25L soft drinks, a huge bag of chips, cups, biscuits. gosh. eunice is ks man. hahs. oh yes. and like it was like super weird cause we were eating during presentation, and not really having a party. more like snacking. den i brought back hte extras so i haf loads in my room now..

in e library now. suppose to go like in e morning to study wif rynettta, but as usual, woke up later. *lazy me* so i did 1 ilecture at home, and here i am doing the rest. hope can complete e others lar.. letitia came at ard 2.40, den jason wx ryn let jas n me went for coffee at 3.. had chai. nice! haha pity alot of ppl dun quite like it. hehs. i kena influenced by jamie n dorcas. yup studying now lor. have to do quite abit. muz finish my ilectures so that i can start on my revision. JIAYOU!!

during coffee juz now, jason was talking abt aft exam activities. sigh. everything planned for after i leave. why am i gg back so early? as i told mum. now i really see no point in gg back early. i shld haf juz stayed. if not for courtesy, to go back ealry to prepare for e camp, i wont haf bothered. let me tell u wad i am missing out. i am leaving on 19nov morning. on 19nov, dey r gg sailing for e whole day!! *I WANT!!!* and then on 20-21st nov, dey r gg rottnest island for a camping trip *I OSO WAN!!!!!!* and then, aft dat dey will find a day to go to the beach!!!! *BLEAH!!!* and def will haf stuff like rockclimbing etc etc. gosh. i am missing out on so much.. den when jason comes to singapore, on the 30nov to 7dec, i will b like leaving on 2dec for cambodia *i think* so which means if i wanna meet up, only got 30nov and 1dec.. he got so many things planned.. i dun think i can do much. like gg for the 360deg skiing thing, sentosa, ubin, etc etc. gosh. i oso wan!!

ok. now b4 thinking abt such stuff, i shld go study. hehs. back to ilectures and genetics.

hmm how right it is when they say that once you stay awake past a certain timing, you cant sleep. cause it is currently happening to me. i am tired but i juz cant sleep. got loads of stuff to do. like finish up miss heng's card and get it sent tmr. and finish my last pbl presentation..

the past 2 days has been great!! service was the bomb. ps dean harvey was like amazing. he spoke of something that really stirred my heart. ympact com. if you are reading this, and if sometime in your season as ympact com get to hear of him coming to singapore, invite him immediately. he is like gosh. the best. 30sth years in ministry. he really uses his own experiences to talk about God's greatness. at first when he told us abt his story, i felt indignant. i thought: why must God do this? yes, Jesus died, but he went up to be with his father. but ps dean's son died, and very likely ended up in hell. it isn't fair. that was what i told myself. then towards the end. he said "Why does it take our son's death to make the people who love us come back to us?" and his wife's reply was "Why then does it take Jesus death to bring people back to God." only then did it strike me. the broken heart of God. *that is the sermon title* God stoop down to make us great. its amazing.

today.. went to play badminton.. was suppose to go down at 3. but i din cause dere was no girls *besides sarah. this ps daughter that came down for holiday. 12 yrs old only!* yea. so i went ard 4.30 to go talk awhile den go play badminton. it was quite fun, though too many ppl.. but generally good. played till 7, then i went home to bathe while the rest headed to myers st, princess rd and the avenue to bathe, rest, etc. yup. den i met stan josh and let at the fish and chips place to buy the fish and chips.. were talking about some interesting stuff.. kekeke. it is just so interesting!! haha. as in like until now, i am still amused at it. though i know that it was a fact long ago. hehs.. yup den we headed for charles's place for SOCCER!!! kekeke. weird eh. since when eunice watches soccer. anyhow, i did. it was liverpool against manunited. manunited won 2-0. hehs. yup had loads of fun there playing with sarah and letitia. trying to guess intelectual games that i still do not know. *hrmph* hahs. yup after that we went on slacking der. watched bourne suprimacy *not sure if it is right* and then they conveniently changed it to bong suprimacy *ie. stanley bong* hahs. yea. then, we went to celebrate jeremy's birthday!! hehe. yup. busy rite. we got to his place at 12 midnight. just nice. hehs. had bijia doing her "thong dance" that was just so wrong. but anyhow, it was fun!!

yup here i am stoning, finished my lab and presentation, but i dunno if i can wake up tmr. gosh.

i just read yingmin grace and charmaine's blog (combined one). and it really touched my heart. especially entries by moo. it was. amazing. to see how God use His child to mould them, shape them.

then i thought about myself. how has my walk with God been. have i been having the kind of relationship he wants to have with me? have i been neglecting Him?

I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship.

hmm. time seems to past so fast here. like really, i seem to be getting very little done.. i think i should change my sleeping plan.. hmmm.. its like in a blink of an eye, everything seems to be over.. i need someone to make me discipline!! gahs!!

been away.. as in away from school. besdies for labs and tutes. have been studying in the library. seriously, i am quite worried about the finals.. like really got like alot to cover but i dunno how to cover. was actually thinking of justchanging courses. but den again. muz not let mum/ dad hear abt it. if not dey wld kill me. hehs..

confirmed my date of coming back. 18 nite. usual. hehs. so happy dis rd got no problems with the air tickets. hehe..

oh yes. celebrated eliz's bday on tuesday nite. had dinner at hogs breath. gosh. my pocket no money le.. haha. well.. we also got her a food basket... it was good lar.. quite happy wif it. shows that mummy taught me well in wrapping hampers leh. hehs.. yea. in e morning was actually studying wif rynetta and andrew till let came. den aft letitia *let* came, we went to get the gifts and den went mackers. hehs. i wanna collect the whole range of toys!!! lala.. anw. aft dat went to let's hse and we *plus sarah* did the "hamper" yup. it was wif a toy dog. so cute!! yup den it was the dinner.. it was really funny. cuase like max wanted us to find crowns/tiaras for the bday babies *eliz and edi (but only eliz one is the actual day. edi's one is much later)* oh and also get bibs for them. i din noe wad he wanted to do at first, but yea. after awhile i realised. we couldnt find the crowns/tiaras cause the shops were closed by the time he asked me to get it. so we made like crowns frm tinsels. juz one circle thing lar. cause we were at woolies. yup. and the bibs are just so cute!! i muz post em one day. hehs. yea. den der max made em wear both items. which was very very funny. but interesting as well lar.. oh der was a reverse sabo.. like eliz tried to make max drink some disgusting concoction *lift with salt, pepper, mustard, steak gravy, lamb gravy etc* and if max drinks it, she will do the salormoon action for 2 weeks. meaning when max shows the peace sign, she would have t odo that lar. yea it was was was super funny. because like max actually drank it. wincy let n me nearly puked. like just looking at him drink was bad enough. yea. but max did drink it.. and he claims he gets worse in army. waiting for friday. gonna b a great time sabo-ing eliz. hehe..

the week is gonna b quite busy.. today have valedictory dinner at nite. den have to cook oso cause need to preapre for cell. den after that tmr have lessons till 12 and its time to prepare for word!! gahs. cant believe i said yes to do word. bleah. dunno wad to say. but i guess i will survive.

sigh. i realise i wont have much time with my frens when i go back. actually one of the few ppl i wanna meet wld b like ruwei. kw shaun bert. jess abi yvonne. family ofcourse. and meet up wif the other zion ppl lar..

ok. off.weijun shld b coming to visit ryn n me in e lib soon. den we gg for lunch.

final conclusion: eunice should learn how to socialise abit more in parties. hehs.

i think parties are just not the thing for me. i would not go around being crazy, dancing, getting myself drunk. none of those above appeal to me. ie. i should learn. hehs. den again, i really just see it as making a fool of myself.. yikes. hehs. anw. i juz went to charlene *stcaths* 18 bday party.. it was like in a room where everyone was like dancing, dancing and dancing. afew were drunk n high, afew were making out *or so it seems* yadayada.. i would personally prefer to have a gathering wif afew frens and like b able to talk etc. not over loud noises. hehs..

anw. in e morning, i went for sailing. it was so fun!! i love sailing!! hehe. yea. it was like quite a challenge when we added in the front sail cause since der were only 2 ppl on e boat, cheryl n me had to manage the thing ourselves, not like last week got rachel. so like cheryl at first took the mail sail while i manouvered the boat.. yea. actually one person is suppose to do both. but cheryl wasnt confident so we juz splitted it. den when we added up the front sail, she had to take care of it. thus, i did both the main sail and the manouvering of the boat!! super cool! hehs. yea it was really fun lar. like u noe u try sth new. and like juz hearing the science of it is also quite enlightening. hehs. there are so many things that i wanna do. like as in keep on doing. mayb i will go for sailing 2.. sounds good rite? or stick to canoeing. actually i oso wanna do windsurfing. kekeke..

people change. so do i. all i can do is to embrace. and not think so much..

off to the library. muger!! hehs.

sigh. i dun understand, i dun understand.

all i did was help. nothing formal. all impromptu. what did i do wrong?

i think it is just so difficult to work things with people who are of a different wavelength from you. for eg. working with people who do not plan etc.

i guess it never occured to you that everything i am doing now is not stressing me, but what i am getting really stressed about is the inefficiency and inability and lack of planning of people around me.

maybe i am just a perfectionist. something i need to change because it is getting me into alot of problems.

maybe i should just not bother about anything at all. doesnt that sound a whole lot better?

people change. and i just cant keep up with that change. just as i manage to cross over that problem in singapore, i am faced with the same problem 2 yrs later in australia.

maybe i should have just kept quiet. be the quiet and shy girl that josh mentioned i was in the beginning of the year. was that not better?

why rise up so fast and end up being inefficient? i rather it slow but steady.

i miss yanjing amanda steph joey ailing jon beef..

but i am told i will never be able to go back there.

i should never have moved? or should i?

maybe it is all just about pride. the downfall to everything.

what will be my decision for the next few years?

maybe i should start concentrating on my studies and less on church.

maybe i should hang out more wif my med frens den my church frens.

i wish i have the equivilent of the PPG*kwshaunbert* in PMC over here in zion.

suddenly a thought occured to me. why did i go to zionfellowship for 1 mth last yr? pastor is right. everywehre you go, u will experience problems. am i going to run away from it or stay and solve it. i need to remove this perfectionist thing. this efficiency thing. i cannot take it anymore.

hmmm.. internet is down. rather. my com is down. so i cant connect to internet. according to bob *st caths in charge for com stuff* its due to the viruses in the com. sigh. this sux lar.. no msn no emails etc.. gosh. and e worse thing is no webmail and webct for me to do my ilectures!!! gosh. i really wanna cry le.

faith has been complaining dat i nv update one. hahs. she is no better.. so dun talk faith. hehs... anyhow.. yes yes now u see your name here. happy?? hehe

people change. dun u agree?? like everyone changes. and sometiems for the better, sometiems for the worse. and the wrose thing is taht it is sometimes very dfificult to accept them for who they are. gosh. i am getting quite sadistic aint i?? well...

exams are coming. i ahve 4 in total. aint dat bad. but den again, alot to study. MUG..

so fast.. and another week is gone. sigh. where did my week go to?? it went to SEARCH FOR A STAR!!!!!! that was the highlight of the week.. it was really great!! the performances were great, the preperations were great.. i enjoyed every single part of it. in fact, it took like almost all my week away.. it started with like monday.. with me having to collect money and all.. hehs.i t was quite alot of work. but it was fun lar. den tuesday and thursday i had choir practice.. we sang somewhere over the rainbow i believe i can fly and a moment like this. it ws really a great experience.. from practices to like the actual performances.. wed and friday i had my exam.. those 2 were bad. hehs. but hope cna pass lar.

the night before sfas was alright.. but was doing some tabulating of the info dat i only slept at like 5 am. oh cause like i kept writing wrongly.. even faith hear me until she wanna cry le i think. like suddenly i had extra money, nxt moment i was missing money.. woke up at 7am for sfas. so was kinda tired through e day..

search for a start itself was good.. went der super early juz to prepare.. and i got my attire from faith cause she was helping me borrow frm her fren and i oso borrowed some frm her lar. it was a good thing dat she had.. if not i wld haf looked like a working lady.. hehs.. went to garbo during our break.. got my boost and den we all bought stockings. hehs.. looks better wif e attire.. and den we went to angeline's hse to chill and to prepare for the performance itself..

all of us got der by ard 6pm.. i took a few pictures den wen to change int omy ushering attire.. yup. ushering was good. enjoyed every part of it. so was choir.. infact, i am starting to miss choir.. but i'm sure nxt yr's sfas wld b even greater!! we went out for dinner after.. hehs. and yea. only got to bed at 3am.. had 5 hrs of sleep and had to wake up for service.. speaker was good! hehs.

coming week gonna b interesting. i haf an exam on wed. thurs haf a lab to hand up. i had better start on all of em. bahs!!

hmm.. time seems to fly so fast. like the one week of hols are over.. had my lab exam. seriously, it was terrible. i really need to start studying. like its kinda weird cause i always wanna study what i juz had exam for. like tonight i am suppose to study for like my friday paper, but i feel like studying for my already over lab. *weird me*

the holidays were the slackest. i can't really rmb wad i did. though i will try. monday i rmb gg to northbridge. went to buy stuff.. it was good lar. cause i managed to like get stuff dat i wan n miss.. den tuesday i went to study *surprise surprise* haha. yea. i studied. it was alright *i guesss* went to araluen on wednesday!! haha. dat was like nice lar. the place was nice. turnips were so pretty.. really had a great time der lar.. thursday. i think i wasted my day. cant really rmb wad i did. but i noe on friday i had combine cell!! haha. yea. i made the desert dat i learnt frm shaun. heh. it was very popular lar.. hehe. everything was very good. so i'm very happy.. hehx. n as usual, we went for bbt after. served on sat. mostly mavis's team so not much diff. yea. dat was roughly my break..

sfas is on sat!! hahs. i am like quite excited. the songs we're singing are stuck in my head. cant get em out. hehs.

i realise i have pulled myself away frm ppl. it becomes harder to connect oso.

i miss home.

i realise i will not b able to spend cny wif my family!! i wanna go play wif my cousins.. haha.

haiz. sian. mummy not happy with me doing stuff in church. like i juz told her 10% of wad i did n she started nagging. imagine if she found out 100% of wad i did. i think she will scream her lungs out. anw. shant bother. anyway. i juz found out dat my uncle died. passed away this morning. like so sudden. gosh. died of cancer of the liver.. and then when mummy told me abt the whole process. like how frail he look and all. it was all of a shock. sigh.. mum doesn't wan me to fly back. she wans me to stay in perth. cause the funeral is dis wednesday.. well.. though he was not very close to our family, but then he was after all my dad's brother.. even though der were disagreements btw e brothers, but in the end, all was good. i am so glad. that least 2 weeks b4 he died, he accepted the lord. its such a miracle. first grandma, den him. God is really doing a great thing in my family!! amen!

oh gosh. i think i screwed up today's ushering. i feel like i've done a terrible job. sians.. briefing seemed bad. least derell made it sound so.. and everyone came up to me like saying " u very tense isit?" yea. i am. stressed by ppl i guess.. surprising janice n me find the direct opposite ppl stressful to work wif. but either way. thx gal.. for making me feel much better. least i did aft talking to you. and rynetta too.. crazy little gal. hehs. anw. gahs. mavis. dun go for anymore footy matches. i wan u to lead!! haha. somehow, i seriously think its a problem wif like being the 2nd newest member. like i feel that the older members do haf problems wif submission? i guess it muz b earned. but i seriously find it difficult. gosh. nvm. thank goodness nxt rd its nic's turn!! muahahaha.. oh yes. and now we've got to get started on our report *since when does ushering haf reports to do rite??* kekeke. anw. yea. juz in case u chance by this blog mavis, nic n me are gg to do a report. or so he says. kekeke. at most juz call u lar.. den again, i dun think e report wld b done. kekeke..

so blessed. so blessed. thanks to max and cell.. 2nd they blessed me with a love gift. something that comes in so handy. something that really touches your heart. its amazing isn't it? least i find that it does.. like they never come late.. only early. and yea. though i really dun think dey shld haf done dat, but ofcourse it did help. and amazingly, only max wld think up of such ideas. hmmm.. speaking of that, i dunno whre it went to. somewhre in my pile of mess in my bedroom .hehs.. anyway. thanks again max!! for e card as well..

okies .gg to church tmr again. its been so long since i've given carol my word to go to actually go.. follow murZ or usha's cell? kekeke. i dunno e ans. i'll see tmr lar.. it wld b good to catch up wif e murdoch ppl as well. hmm e option is open. thanks everyone.

bleahs.. in uni now using e express terminal. was very sian while studying den decided to come ehre to take a break.. sigh. mayb you dunno me dat well aft all.. welll.. i really dun like it when ppl include you as a second option thing. or like wan u to b included but yet dun wanna include u in discussions. i know such things are trivial. but i juz dun quite like it lar.. anw.. i'll figure it out. isn't that always the case? when i'm upset abt anything. if u talk to me der n den, i wld b upset. talk to me afew days later. i wld prob b e most amicable person ard... forgive and [forget]

besides that, i've got an exam tmr. and i simply dun haf e mood to study. sians lar. i need to start studying. i see mto b living under the shadows of the eunice in taylors college. different.

so many ppl r leaving for overseas.. juz my senior batch of scrcy.. mich chan mm is leaving *i think today* for uk. yiffy mm leaving for london. jean mm in aust.. and i think got one more senior in murdoch uni.. oh and karen mm away i cant rmb where. oh well.. wonder if my batch ppl wld also end up all over.

kk i had better get back to studying. ta.

hmm i am suppose to be studying. but somehow, i am just very disturbed. like it really struck me last night that no one is perfect. even one who seems so perfect in so many areas will nver be always perfect. there will be some areas that he/she stumbles in. and i dunno. i just find it very disturbing. my image of ppl muz b close to perfect.. if not, i find it difficult to work with/talk to the person. maybe thats why i tend to push many things to the back of my mind so that i dun think of it and i will just continue to treat the person the best i can? i oso dunno. this is bad lar.. gosh.. i need to learn. to not bother about these things. cause they only do more harm than good to me. sians.

juz came back frm mamak nite.. i dunno how to say it was. i found it terribly difficult to take care of my own visitors. or should i say cause it is my responsibility, i find it difficult. in fact, i wld rather take care of like the younger ones. gosh. why am i dumped wif all the older ones. crystal!!! haha. anw. yea. i am glad though. that chinloon like managed to win the mamak idol. and he has tickets to sfas!!! haha. good excuse for him to come rite!! hehe.. i was kinds hoping dat he wld get it. and yea. its good dat he did.. *yays* oh yes. i muz say dat God is really good.. i was hoping for like one more ticket for willie. den lkke 10 min later i got a reply dat max got an extra ticket. so that was good..

well.. as for the rest of the stuff.. rego was ok. fun i wld say.. juz transport. i tell u. i dun haf e patience for these kind of ppl. ie. uwa leaders. kk. i shant elaborate more here, but faith, u can happily do it yourself. i shall stick to ushering and choir. but anw. yes. i'm sorry if i offended anyone juz now.. i was juz super irritated.. anw. thx huibing. for like always being der to listen to me and my complaints.. gosh.. i juz love u to bits. why muz u b so far away in canberra.. gosh.

and i miss yanjing!!!!!! kekeke. kk e good thing is i dun think like der r ppl reading my blog. as in aust ppl lar. as in zion ppl.. so yea. dats good.. but juz incase, i shall not write anything stumbling. or crystal wld come after me *jking* anw. yea. i miss yj. i miss murdoch zone.. i miss cell grp. yj, beef, stephwong, ailing, jon, alfred, ben, etc etc.. and i miss my discipleship grp.. amanda n stephwong!! gosh. it seems like uwa ppl never ever haf discipleship.. whereas murdoch does it every fortnight.. faithfulness!! haiz.. mayb like wad yj said.. that cell was really like the ideal cell that does not happen in most cases.. and i really miss talking to yj.. least i think she is one of e few ppl dat can give like good advice. and her way of doing this is quite similar to mine!

oh yes. juz a side note.. today while talking to weiyue, marcus "popped" by and like ok cause he doesnt noe me.. so like intro lar.. like name and shake hands.. den he was like "OH so u're eunice.." and i was like *stunned* like where on earth did u hear abt me and wad abt me. gosh. i tell u. i muz really haf a bad reputation in curtin.. he heard abt me even b4 knowing me.. and apparently he heard abt me AFEW times.. gosh.

okok i haf 1 pbl 2 lab reports and 1 midsem exam coming up.. gosh. i need to STUDY..

hmmm.. its currently like 1.45am.. and its raining outside.. i am so supposed to b in bed. but duh i am not. now that i haf unlimited internet, my com is like on 24/7 downloading stuff.. well.. st caths decided that we wld b better on an external server.. so dey r trying it out.. n for us, its foc. hahs. so like free downloading and all.. and the best part is... its unlimited!! haha.. yes yes. now everyone is stuck to things like limewire.. kekeke..

anyway, last saturday, i was ushering.. mavis asked if i wanted to do like the assigning of who to sit where and holy communion as well.. i was like anything. den she said its my call.. so i told her if someone gives me, i will do lar. so yea i did it in e end.. suppose to share e load wif nic. and nic said he wanted to do it. so he did e seating part, i did e holy communion part.. sadly, i made some terrible mistakes.. but mavis did correct me lar. like when i am talking to people, look em in e eye. dun look around. i realise i haf dis terrible habit of looking everywhere but at the person. terrible habit.. but yea. i muz correct it. i reckon nxt time one of us wld hafta lead again.. so yea. muz muz learn n change. oh n muz talk slower. hehs.. yeap!! oh and like i tell u.. i haf been so so so silly.. like keep making silly mistakes like hearing mavis wrongly and all. argh.. but yea muz b more attentive lar..

on sunday, went to crystal's new place for lunch wif e leaders.. as usual, the princesses were late.. so we started first. i like what crystal shared about the leadership. its so true, yet many dun see e importance of it.. but yea.. it was great!!! as in the meeting. managed to get info across to e cell leaders oso.. after that we had choir.. "someWHERE over ther rainbow, skies are blue [ooh ooh ooh] and the dream that you dare to dream really [ooh ooh ooh]" kekeke yea we're preparing for search for a star.. and its gonna b great!!

well.. nth much on monday tues n wed.. like normal lor.. on tuesday had choir practice.. it was great too!!

today (thursday) we went to play paint ball! haha.. it was good fun.. like laser quest, but u can cheat here, and it actually hurts when u r shot.. and it is like wif paint lar. yea. i rmb shaun mentioned to me b4 abt it. and it was very expensive rite shaun?!?! enlighten me on e cost in singapore.. yea but it was fun.. hehs.. enjoyed myself.. but as a result, i haf a bruise on my head, one on the front of my shin, and one on my upper arm. gosh. it hurts. like currently, i can only find these few, but i am terribly sure der r more..cause i was whacked so many times.. hehs. but den again, cannot compare wif e guys lar.. half e time i was juz der camping. nv choing as much as e guys. but not as bad as some of e gals either. hehs.. yea. i wanna go again. when i haf e money. hehs. aft dat we went for dinner at northbridge. the usual lar.. it was good. den bbt - tea fusion as usual. n i had my honeydew. kekeke.. bought home cause all of us were kinda in a rush to get back home.

oh yes. der has been a book sale gg on in uwa today. its for the cancer foundation for children or sth like dat. e last time i went der, i spent like $22 on 3 magazines and 4 novels. today, when i went cause it was like e last day, everything was priced at $10 per box. it includes old records! if only i have a gramophone.. i would have bought some of em. like e classical pieces and the sound of music.. a pity.. a pity.. but still, i got a very good deal out of it.. i paid like $26 for a huge box of books etc. i got a golf one.. a gym one.. *you can figure who they are for* and like sewing and craft for myself! heh.. as well as some cooking for myself as well. oh yes. and also got quite a handful of novels.. *happy happy* looking forward to next year! kekeke

mamak nite is on saturday!! uwa's sales are FANTASTIC!!! haha. even curtin side can't believe it.. all glory to God!! like ard 150 in total. which is just great lar. seems like curtin n murdoch side sales not as good. hmmm.. *ponders* haha. mayb its cause letitia took all e curtin business?! haha jking jking. but i am so excited for it. muz rmb to bring my camera. i already forgot to bring it today for paint ball.. muz not forget again! haha.. if not loose even more photos.. okok i should should get to sleep. its like 2 am plus plus and i haf a 9am lecture..

woohoo!!! singstar!!! haha. juz came back frm wing function.. we had singstar.. aka. karaoke.. and soda and icecream.. woohoO!!! haha.. quite funny... the singstar.. was like got competition.. den like will show u e pitching.. hehs. i think its good. let singers.. know how off they are. haha.. quite funny.. muahahahaha.. lalalala..

anw. i learn how to make the straw star! kekeke. finally.. nice! now i got 4 pink stars! haha.. thx lydia n cheryl!! kekeke...

as far as i like to be living in the present, i also like to reminisce the past; i just opened my box of memories. literally, the one i keep hidden beneath my stack of backpacks, under my table. first thing i see is the picture of me with my pockets turned out, in the wooden photoframe from audrey. it makes me happy :) i think everything in that box makes me happy.ok. only five minutes has passed and i take that back. the things in the box makes me sad. because they are in the box. the box kept under the table. because they are things from the past. the past that no longer exists. relationships that no longer exist. connections that no longer exist. purpose that no longer exists. and meanings that no longer exist. half the box is filled with words. words that have probably been forgotten. words that no longer show anything. words that no longer hold the same meaning. i wouldnt want to get lost in that world of words.the other half of the box? at first glance, i see pictures, photos, gifts, presents; memorabilia. at second glance, i see relations, values, promises, secrets; connections. at third glance, i see emptyness, vacuous, void, replacements; nothing.if looking at the things in the box could make me feel like how i felt when i first saw them, i will look forever. -shifan-

you know, the thing about scrcy is that you'll come hate it so much but at the same time, you can't help but love it as much. strange isnt it. was reading cara's reflection and i thought about the four years ive been in sc. scrcy was a huge part of my sc life & through this, i've actually met some of the most amazing people i'll ever meet in my life. & the fact that her batch just passsed out just occured to me that it's been quite a while since ive last met up with my crazy level mates and i really do miss them. like a lot a lot. i miss those times we did stupid things i miss those times we stayed up till very very late at night to prepare for ttime. i miss those times we did drills till we died. i miss those times where we came together and complained abt meetings and such. i miss those times where we would just sit together every recess without fail. i miss those times where we suffered and survived through camps together. i miss those times when we cried and laugh with each other. i miss those times where everyone had one common goal and was out to achieve it together. i miss those times where we just all hung out at yak's place eating her food, watching scv, making a lot of noise, bbq-ing and having pool-dunking sessions, sneaking out at night & getting attacked by transverstites. i miss preparing for poc (though it's always a sad occasion). i miss sitting in the room complaining about the ruined old metal cupboards and run-down comp, snatching for the two couches, having spring cleaning sessions cos we're always messing up the room and all.i miss everyone. i miss those times. and yes, i miss scrcy. :(sigh, won't it be nice if the next time we all meet up, EVERYONE in our level can be there? -aud-

well... both of em kinda summarised all my feelings. like really everything.. u noe. its been a long time since i've caught up with my secondary school frens. of course there are exceptions like huibing who i talk to ever so often.. ppl like soling who will confirm keep intouch wif me. ppl like phelicia who tries to meet up wif m e whenever she goes back.. ppl like moo who will send an email once in a blue moon. ppl like ying who will catch up wif me once in a blue moon too. haha. but den again, der are the countless of ppl who i dun talk to anymore. i was just talking to huibing last night about how fast time flies. like the girls who were sec 1s when we were sec 4s are NCOs now. how i wish i could stay n see how they mature and grow. how they change from sec 1s to sec 4s. i somehow still can't believe. i really regret not joining HQ. because i really want to return sth that i got out of my 4 years to scrcy. charles mention that admin is a gift. but i dun think so. i think it is my training from 4 yrs of red cross. the way i do things. ppl say i am capable. i think it is just the kind of character scrcy has instilled in me. though i had my share of unhappy memories from there, but in e end, they can be forgotten. in the end, it is really what you have gotten out of it that makes you who you are today. maybe God wants to use me for something greater. maybe God has a different plan for me. whatever it is, scrcy has really been a blessing. thank you girls.

gosh that was fast. 10 days gone just like that. and to think i tot i juz blogged 2/3 days ago.. the past week has been ok.. quite fun. had cell on thurs.. kinda weird cause i am not used to it. in e end i tot i din haf class e following day. hahs. anw. yea. aft dat friday we went to watch youth alive concert - Adrenaline. itwas good. as in der were alot of different kinds of acts that really catered to the younger generation. just that half the songs we did nnot know.. i guess zion is too hillsongs already.. haha.. yea.. but overall , it was good. guy sabestian was der.. derwere some other dancers that were der as well.. looked like the shane kind of dance. but not the elaine kind of dance lar.. den one of e pastors frm hillsongs *i think* went to preach.. so many came to christ/ rededicated der lives tochrist. that was nice.

on sat.. went for creative arts ministry vision day. we had a speaker. steffie sth.. and i tell u.. she was good. as in her voice lar. if i haf e chance one day, i wanna take lessons from her. seriously. juz dat its prob gonna cost me a bomb... she also did a workshop for all the choir members as well as the vocalist.. it was good lar. juz dat her "minnie mouse" singers were not minnie mice.. dey were e kind that sing very loud and i personally think is abit difficult to blend in wif e choir? hahs. mayb i'm wrong.. been given an impression by like e choirs in singapore dat i mayb stereotyping.. hahs. anw. yea. it ended really late so i left first. edwin was sending jon to uwa, so he sent me to e city first. picked rynetta on e way. we had lunch.. i had subway while rynetta had sushi.. n den we both had a pure n natural smoothie while waiting for our dearest faith yeo..

when she finally came, we went to koorong.. i got presents for dad n mum.. couldn't find anything for elaine though.. rynetta and the biggest "shou huo" she bought so many stuff lar. hahs.. oh when we were der,it was raining and der were puddles of water EVERYWHERE. and guess wad. i was wearing white pants!! gosh.. and a terrible time trying to not walk into the puddles.. anw

we went for service and yea. i sat wif alfred.. cause i tot i saw a hole down der.. and i din wanna sit too high up.. leave those places for those who r really late.. so anw. yea. den ended up beside yanjing as well.. woohoo!! murdoch zone!! haha.. yea. but it was good. aft service... talked to afew ppl, listen to pastor talk, and den yea. we went for dinner lar. at first we din haf enough cars. den max offered his car for charles to drive *thanks max!!* aft dinner. went to tea fusion for bubbletea.. met the kells court girls.. as in usha ailin may n julie. n julie's fren.. yea. it was quite fun. taught em some games.. and yea. i am really amazed. as i see the innocence yet maturity, i dunno how to say, but i am juz so envious at der pure minds.. hahs. yea.. anw. yea dat was pretty much my last week..

this week.. i needa start studying!!! haha. dats why i am in e library wad. rite. heh kk shall go study.

oh my goodnes.. word was TERRIBLE.. yea. dorcas said it was ok at e beginning. den i started panicking and i ended up like trembling towards e end and not making sense of myself!! sians. eunice is not fitted to do word. make me do admin stuff, i'd gladly do it.. anything other than that, no thanks.. hmm.. anw. crystal n dorcas both claim its not e last time. but oh well.. i can only dream that it is lar. after cell.. dorcas wanted to go for coffee. but no one was listening. so josh jason ning alvin letitia started playing poker.. while dorcas jeremy n me played monopoly *world cup 2006 version* hahs and i dominated teh whole game! muahahaha. kk *randomness* den aft dat josh walked dorcas back while jeremy n me went back since we stayed near each other..

today..i kinda did nothing in the morning. was really lazy.. went for ushering today.. 4th time ushering in a row.. but at least i do listen to sermons when i usher lar.. yea. curtin plus uwa combine service.. woohoo!! speaker was good man! but a pity. i got quite irritated at like some ppl.. so it wasn't that good after all.. must learn how to control my expressions.. i suck at it.. oh yes. n den that max n charles.. dey were like "yes eunice, what do you want me to do?" but yea. anw. at first told em i no needa help faith dis week. den when i went out n saw dat gal so busy. so i went to help agian. i somehow just can't understand how some people can't do simple things like talk to people and collect names for dinner at the same time. like please. haf u ever seen max not doing his job as a cell leader talking to members n visitors? like no. and yet he can give the list of names super fast. like pls. can't you guys just have some sense of urgency? hahs.. maybe we should all send them to undergo scgs red cross training.. no need for like ncc or npcc.. red cross is enough. then u get results like me *oops* hahs. yea. but honestly.. i just dun understand. ok. second thing *though this happened first* like i can't stand it when ppl dun think dey can learn anything from what they do. pls. ego at work! maybe it is good that i am wif dis cell eh? i dunno.. i still like the tuart girls *out of point* but yea. bad attitude. and i cannot stand such attitude.. like rynetta's attitude.. willing to learn. even myself i am trying to learn each time i do sth frm those more experienced than i am. but honestly, if you don't bother trying to learn.. i dun see any point in putting effort in you. waste of my time. shoo. go away. and another one oso.. escaping services.. gosh. mayb shld tok to dorcas abt this. mayb more appropriate.. but yea. one starts, all follows. den u see a whole group of ppl lingering downstairs. no comments. worse thing is. you are my responsibility. gosh.

ok. that was ALOT of ranting. ignore if it doesn't make sense. woohoo. i needa go running!! *randomness* i am suppose to be sleeping! hahs. tmr is working day. muz do work!!

gosh. its been ages since i've posted sth. no wonder ppl hafta come ask how i am.. well.. firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE & MUMMY!!!!!!

life has been.. ok.. as in school.. its been quite busy. in that i start early, end late, wif loads of time wasted in between.. well.. but i haf learnt stuff.. but i realise the preparation i haf for my lessons r juz not enough. muz start working harder frm now on!!

river cruise(29/07) was good. running up n down disturbing ppl. but it was fun! heh.. had a good time catching up wif e murdoch ppl as well.. apparently david was der. but i din see him. a pity.. nv tot he wld haf agreed to go.. but e performance was good. super funny.. and yea. had a good time..

ed silvoso came to speak after (29/07). honestly, i was not really listening.. cause i was on for ushering that day. hehs. but yea. frm wad i see. he is a good speaker! muz haf our ministry in our marketplace!! yeap. and i bought his dvd. watched 1 "episode" its amazing how God can transform cities and prisons etc etc..

on sunday (30/07), had mark anderson, the founder of impact world tour *sort of* to speak to us. his was really impacting the new believers and touching us.. like to haf a heart for the others.. and yea. apparently, iwt is coming to perth AND singapore. least ympact has one of der workers to go as a speaker for one of e sunday service. yea. dats good lar. after that had a session wif crystal n e other leaders and we came up wif ideas of how to reach out to uwa.. sort of like being relevant in our own marketplace - uni. and wow. our leaders can thinK! hahs. came up wif loads of ideas. out of which one was put into place in the following week..

that week end was really a powerpack week end!! busy.. but quite satisfying..

on tuesday (01/08), we gave out coffee and milo in the student guild. the response was great! at first ppl came like kind of worried abt our intentions of giving out drinks. but like as time pass, ppl juz keep coming.. and yea. it was very successful. managed to talk to ppl and inform dem abt freshies welcome on saturday and sunday. which was really very very good.. missed st caths lunch cause of dat. but it was a good experience. think we're gg to do it again sometime soon..

throughout dat week, had loads of things to do. infact, i was super inefficient dat week. first, had zion leaders meeting, den had choir practice, den had to arrange like cell stuff.. oh and also had to go take a chest xray. cause apparetly, i haf some hepB virus in me or sth. gosh! yea. dat week was like my most inefficient week. i kept forgetting stuff.. and yea. it was bad. but i guess i got through that week. and things are better now. hehs. but den again, more things are coming cause i juz agreed to do ticketing for 2 events for uwaZ. yea.. wad to do. only can go by faith..

cell on friday was good. good in the sense that lydia came for cell. super happy that she like asked if der was cell and said she would come. oso very glad that she can blend in well wif e members lar.. yea. was celebrating her birthday that night. we delayed in moon for a LONG LONG time so that cheryl can blow up e balloons and decorate her room. but yea. it was a good thing though....

freshies welcome was over e weekend.. it was great! choir was great on saturday.. sunday was.. got some probs lar..but it was good!! hehs. *happy happy* sense of acheivement man! hehs..

over the weeekend, jerline oso got sent to e hospital. ming called me at 8am!!! saying that jerline was in e hospital and ask me to like prepare to go over or sth. yea. but i guess.. it was ok lar.. as in she was ok. she came back n rest. but got sent again on monday nite.. her bf came and left over e ndp break. but good thing she is gettin better..

yesterday was national day!!! i miss ndps.. hahs. jon marching.. so cooL!!!!!! hahs. though he may disagree wif me.. hahs. but yea. i went to e tav to watch ndp. dey screened e preview though.. and gave out little things. which were quite cute lar! hehs. yea. but din stay long cause i had agm in st caths..

i hafta do word dis week.. and htis is bad.. but like yj is happy. dorcas is happy.. sians.. hahs. i bet if like e ppl in s'pore hear.. eg.. jon and irwin.. dey wld b laughing now lar! sheesh! argh.. like i am preparing now and.. cannot make it lar!! dorcas is insisting dat i can make it lar!!! oh well.. juz gonna embarass myself tmr!! okok. gotta go. update soon..

oh gosh. there is sth majorly wrong wif me. *i think faith agrees* i've missed 2 morning lectures. one at 9, one at 8. and each time, i'll wake up like when the lecture just started or is in progress.. honestly. this cannot go on man.. argh! and i need to study!

last week has been a whole week of orientation.. busy week for me aye. calling and all. i've used up 100 bucks for my phone bill. and it is crazy. why can't aust haf a better plan. like singapore! hahs. is it really that expensive to transfer a call? hmm.. but! i am getting a new phone! hahs. ya. so things like calling dorcas.. huibing.. faith.. etc etc wld save me money!!! muahahaha.. kk i am abit crazy...

anyway, orientation was ok.. we've got a contacts of quite afew freshies. juz need to follow up. and like met alot of sept intake ppl.. hehs. e next intake i wld noe wld b feb intake. n den dats all. unless more joins us at zion!

cell group was ok. it will b ok! hahs. first formal cell is tonight!! its gonna b great! as long as i dun hafta do word. hahs. *yes dorcas*

ok. down for breakfast.

CRISIS!!!

i must stay strong. i can't let this affect my mood.

Lord, please give me strength and guidance.

we will pull through this.

i will b praying for u.

was damn pissed off juz now.. regarding wad, i think huibing n faith knows. but anw.. ya. i guess it was a build up thing. like first my results, den that thing happened.. i guess wad i went through today was juz too much for me to handle.. esp e talks wif e dean n all.. sorry all for my terrible attitude. what amazes me is that some ppl r like so responsible that even if its not der fault, dey still apologise n sort things out. and some ppl. when everything is der fault, dey dun even seem to know. weird eh? but i guess it juz shows that those ppl who are so responsible can be relied on, while the others can't. and i guess it is just the different gifts that God has given us.. like one can talk to freshies but cant think for others for nuts. one amazingly can do both etc.. i guess it is all about us embracing em rite.. hahs. eunice learns sth again..

back in perth for my 3rd day. feels like i never left. its so good to be back. then again, how long will this last? i wonder. life has been sort of a roller coaster these few days.. the lows being the periods i was so afraid and worried about having to leave perth. i still am though. the highs being when i was out wif my church frens and i completely forget the kind of "torture" i am going through. kinda like self denial huh.

went for cell on friday. due to my lack of sleep on thurs nite.. i was dozing off during combined cell.. generally it was good.. oh yes. dorcas came to pick me.. and ofcourse stanley came along *sweet*.. anyway.. ya. den we picked letitia n she came to help me move stuff and unpack *thanks gal. really appreciate it!!*

originally din haf anything on on sat.. was suppose to send ruwei off. den later was suddenly told we were gg to have lunch. yup.. fish n chips *yes elaine(or was it mum) i had my fish and chips here and i still dun think i wld haf regretted having em in singapore* at freo.. letitia joined us aft her work at freo den we went to send ruwei offf.. goodbye gal. i'll catch up wif ya in singapore.. gonna miss u ard here loads!!! visited winnie and laura at currie hall and to "deliver" mooncakes to em as well as to sherilyn and frens *e taylors ppl* yup.. so glad e mooncakes mum n i made were so popular *muahahaha*

service today.. everything was... ok... speaker was very good.. we had great fun! pity letita was sick... poor gal.. went for dimsum after service! hehs.. miss dimsum so much.. anw.. it was a great lunch.. den faith came over and we talked for most of e time she was here.. den we headed off to dorcas's place for prayer meeting.. it was great! hehs. God is gonna move in uwa! *amen!* met a "freshie" but not first year lar.. max's fren isaiah. yup. and aft dat we had dinner! hahs broadway pizzas *nice* dats like always e best lar.. kk i mean i prefer dat to dominos.. and max rented a movie to watch as well.. and of all movies he could rent. he rented TITANIC. like omg. super funny lar.. e whole time during e show we couldn't stop commenting and all.. 3 long and draggy hours.. but we completed it in e end! yup. and here i am in my room aft dat.. gotta go type e orientation stuff out.. lalalala...

tmr gotta go see e person in charge. pray that i get a positive reply pls.

as i see em.. one pair of siblings-in-christ.. one couple.. i think its juz so sweet..

hmm... for those of u who know, i failed 2 untis for dis sem.. dying le.. muz hurry go back to meet e dean of student affairs or sth to see wad to do... hope dun hafta repeat a yr or sth..

leaving tmr for perth le.. gonna miss those ppl.. as in pmc ppl.. i may not b coming back for a yr.. *mayb*

next sem is gona b challenging.. God pls bless me wif love for your ppl.. guide me and help me to be your light..

whats wrong? what should i do? i am so screwed.

results out in 6 hrs. damn scared.

youth sunday.. the speaker was good. something like ps patric.. we need more of such pastors not only to pastor the youths, but also for the traditional cngregation.. can see the traditional service ppl enjoyed themselves as well!!! praise the Lord!! hahs. but she was really good... no wonder the rapid increase in membershi of her church rite.. performances were good as well.. so niceto see your own sis dance. hehs.. one problem is that isabelle was like super duper late. couldnt pass her some stuff b4 i leave. good thing got elaine to help me.. dinah got baptised otday!!! hehe.. dat gal is so sweet man.. anw. super glad for her..

was standing outside at the photo board when i heard two kids go "where is kiki?? find kiki!!! KIKI IS HERE!!!" hahs. was super amused by that. bertrand's reputation with the kids are still there. eh bert.. mayb u shld consider going to help out wif e kids eh.. hahs..

had a talk during 9am service. Shaun. as i told u. it wont work out. no point i wate m time effort and breath talking. anw.. what is e other prob wif e other person u were mentioning?

A: if u continue wif ya choice, i dunno what they wld become of. they are not ready. *my opinion*

on the MUCH more fun side of my day, went to plaza sing*again* to meet the murdoch zone ppl.. ailing camille jon and ahgoh.. it was a good time of catching up.. enjoyed myself.. and we were crazily taking photos *ailing rather* hehs.. den aft dat we went to paragon to walk ard.. *yays* now got 2 ppl same flight as me.. ailing and faith. the silly thing is that all 3 frm zph but all 3 stay in e 3 diff zones.. so 3 diff cars frm zph hasta come down to pic 3 of us.. silly eh.. if only i still stay in murdoch.. anw.. aft dat the guys said they needed to go far east to shop *or sth like dat* so der we went.. oso took neoprints! hahs.. gosh dis holiday.. took tonnes and tonnes of neoprints!!!

aft e meeting of that grp, jon n me went to scotts foodcourt to meet christine cheryl irwin and may.... it was quite good time of catching up.. the same nonsense we get in taylors last year.. sth i miss ALOT in uwa medicine. the ppl r juz so different. u dun get good fun anymore.. but anyway.. it was good.. as in the gathering.. after that, it was neos again.. muahahaha.. we managed to get jon to take *he agreed willingly* irwin and may din wann take though. but anw. it was quite fun as well. these neoprints are all so crappy.. as in silly as well.. but quite nice in e end.. yups.. really had a good time...

world cup. in half an hrs time. will i stay up for it? hahs.. elaine suppose to wake me since she is waking clarissa.. see if i do wake up lar..

oh gosh. what should i do? someone pls tell me. i feel like i should move on. i am not gaining anything here. i mean. it does not cater to overseas students at all.. yet. it is my "alma mater" and i feel that i hafta do sth for her. *lost* changing my mind so often is not helping at all. gosh!

i have 4 mths to think about it b4 i hafta face give an ans again.. dorcas invited me over. shld i go? ceds invited me over. shld i go?

i feel like i am a completely different person in 2 different places. last yr, i still thought that i cld bring e fire back. boy, how wrong i was. when i see the attitude of the heads.

teach me Lord

went for "the journey" today.. it was.. kinda a waste of time i think.. like everything was so extreme.. i really wonder if isabelle and anabelle understood what it was all about.. 2 small girls gg on der own. hope jocelyn n vivien's mum and ber and marcus did not terrorise them.. even sec sch gals got so freaked out.. gosh. no comments.

met up wif xw ced and cheryl today.. oh gosh.. had this whole discussion-argument about if boys should carry bags for girls or girls should be all "independent" hahs. but it was quite funny i must say.. i honestly cant rmb e convo.. but ya. if interested. i think cheryl may have posted them up.

tmr is youth sunday. something to think about.

i hate you i hate you i hate you. i guess my worry of coming back was right. i should never have came back. maybe i will not come back at the end of the year. its gonna b so much worse.. 3 months!!! what the!!! i thought things were getting better when i first came back. WRONG. i thought things can go back to what it was when i was still young n innocent. WRONG.

I HATE YOU!!!

was suppose to go cable ski park. sians. but it rained. so din go.. but anw. thurs was good. managed to meet like afew ppl.. like hb n soosoo for lunch and den walked abt. den oso met faith aft dat.. suppose to meet e other uwaZ ppl but den only josh n david came. anw. we went to chomp chomp to eat.. not bad. hehs...

hmm. friday was kinda boring at first. nth to do.. but met hb n soosoo aft lunch.. lingered around heartland mall.. met quite a number of ppl.. like rachel and alicia, sweedy etc.. yup. but nth much to do lar.. den went to meet amy n teacher alan for e rick warren seminar. it was ok...

ice-skating!!! woohoo!!! hahs. quite fun!!! went ice-skating today wif amelea olivia and benedict.. all e med ppl suppose to come but dey din.. chinloon came late and nish n jy came AFTER we finish.. hahs. anw. we had lunch first.. den aft dat we went to iceskating.. first time.. but quite fun eh.. was playing wif e support thing. look so silly.. olivia got e pics. muz get frm her soon. hehs. den benedict insisted on getting me away frm e railing.. and ya. so like 4 of us linked hands and went afew rounds. anw. i think i kinda got e hang *i hope* and hope can get a chance to go again..

went for elaine's sch talk.. oh wells.. met mrs tsoi.. and mrs tsoi asked me back to scgs to give a talk to e students. hehs.. super funny.. not as if i wan to lar. weird eh.. like i go back. talk wad man! crazy... anw. elaine's sch talk was ok lar..

went to buy dinner later.. frm pasar malam. *nice* and my sis oso got quite abit of stuff.. n i bought durain as well!!! hahs. anw. guess wad. most unlucky.. mum's car no batt.. so sis n me walked home first.. and here we are lor.. durain was ok. *yays*

gg cable ski park tmr! yays!

cycling!!! haha!!! have been out cycling!!! yup. went to cycle wif my caths frens today. pity lydia couldn't make it. but cheryl and rachel were der. we cycled for 2 hours.. rather. rachel bladed. and guess wad!!! we saw the cable ski park!!!! OMG!!! so cool!!! we're gg der on thurs. hehs. i din noe der was such a thing lar. till like today. though it was up like since last yr.. yay yay yay.. we're gg on thurs!!! hope lydia can join us.. dis grp of frens so nice. hehs. den nxt monday we gg to sentosa to paddle.. cool!!!

was listening to the radio today on e way to return the rented vcds to videoezy.. i think ar.. the talk shows now adays are nonsensical.. i tell u.. dey debate if sports athletes should wear wrist bands and why they wear wrist bands. and if sports athletes shld keep long hair and tie up der hair. omg. i changed e channel immediately..

saw our ym cheerleading. haha. so worried for kelyn.. anw. dey seem to b having fun so i guess it is ok. shaun ar.. u better take care of e gals or else.. haha.. jking..

[shaun] huh. wad temperature?

reply to the tags.. [rach] eh. i dunno. it was a side comment. no gal. u haven't changed. no worries.. [clayton] counter strike [stef] eh. lazy ar. hehs.. [shaun] yes i am having nightmares abt it. gosh [ipcheryl] hahas i know.. my bestfren:aircon [irwin] for one, we are girls. and another thing. we are not pampered lar. sheesh. try staying in perth in winter. gosh. not as if u haven't hehs.. and it is so freaking hot here...

can't believe its saturday already. one week in singapore already.. another 2 more to go.. haf been rather lazy these few days.. but i haf only 8 hrs of sleep lar.. been stuck with canto shows till my mum just complained today that its too much. hehs.. finished Always Ready today. quite like that show.. on helicopters.. nice.. and i tell u.. the boy is so cute!! he has acted in so many shows.. gosh. such a cute little kid. hehs..

only "appointment" today was meeting lingleong [irwin n may], cheryl and jon.. nice to see e 2 guys aft 1 sem in perth.. as i always say, i miss college days.. suppose to meet cheryl at orchard mrt at 1845 but at 1830 she called asking me to head for tangs. hehs. so as i get der at 1840... settled sth.. den irwin called.. *yes i was supposed to be "at home"*... met jon at the venue and had dinner at Pepper Lunch.. 4 of us ordered e same thing lar. except for may. hehs.. dinner was ok.. aft dat went to cine for neos.. *much to the disagreement of the guys* hahs. but ya.. took neos and den had desert b4 jon had to leave to book in.. hahs. wad a good life these policemen get... timetable even more relaxing than my uni life. gosh. hahs. anw.. yes.. we shall haf another gathering when the rest gets back in december kz? hehs..

watched superman yesterday wif cheryl n cedric.. had lunch wif cedric b4 meeting cheryl.. walked around b4 dat.. bought some craft at spotlight... hehs.. after cheryl came, we walked around. and as usual, cedric had to follow us around.. also went to e arcade and played some driving game.. gosh. i suck at it man.. any kind.. but anw. e mario one was good fun and silly *yes it was fun irwin...* got a pic of us.. hehs.. anyway.. ya.. superman was ok.. not fantastic i guess.. aft dat headed for home.. last episode for e 7pm show.. sweet. all the shows on channel 55 i haf all watched b4.. so it isnt as nice.. now only left channel 8 show.. hehs.. and the other one oso finishing nxt week.. wanna start on a new tvb drama.. and now i prefer to watch em in e original language.. like last rd i was watching da chang jin in perth and i think it in korean is nicer.. hehs.. so is tvb dramas nicer in canto.. chinese like very fake..

england is playing wif portugal now.. for a strange reason, i wan england to win. same as i wanted germany to win yesterday's match. weird me huh.. few more minutes into extra time. gosh. i need my sleep.

oh my goodness.. of all things, i hafta see 2 terribly gory stuff today. firstly, der was a lizard dat was on my laptop!!! omg. i tell u.. i screamed man. and itwas like 11pm. gosh. my dad was so irritated.. and 2ndly, my mum sent me an email of infections dat arise frm not washing new clothes. and der was a pic of a person's breast.. that had larva in holes on the breast. omg dat was freaky. until now i still haf thoughts of it. and i like cna die soon. cause i dun think i cna sleep.. and like the picture is still in my head!!!

dear Lord, i pray for your hand of protection to be over all of us, to keep us away from all sorts of harm, injuries, infections, whatsoever.

woohoo!!! i'm back! yup. surviving the heat with my house's aircon on 24/7.. mum say the bills r gg to increase by the hundreds cause of me. hehs.. oh well.. things have been fine.. it wasnt dat bad after all.. but somehow, i feel like a different person back home. its just so different.. *ponders*

been really lazy for the past few days.. my wake up time is nothing earlier than 11.. dis is bad.. terribly bad habit man.. finally got my books on monday. and my teeth hurts.. dr beng tightened my retainers.. and it hurts badly. gg to ask him later if it is right..

been making appointments wif ppl.. my weekends are drained.. *oh no* but still got my week days lar.. been too lazy le..

can't wait to get back to perth! missed plt yesterday and today already. *hrmph* and while i cld b doing sth fruitful in perth, i am slacking and wasting my time in singapore. gosh!!

i'm going back soon. back to singapore i mean. i really dunno how i wld cope wif it. i mean. like der r so many changes ever since i left. things have changed. ppl haf changed. and somehow, teenagers arent stable eh? hehs.. where i am where i am the youngest, i am now to be the oldest. maybe like what dorcas suggested.. i shld move.. shld i? oh gosh. this is such a headache..

past week ever since wednesday has been hactic. trying to pack my room within afew days is no fun. went to taylors on wednesday. sad. most teachers are gone. how nice rite.. gosh.. like. ya. very sad lar.. only left mr enright *still strong as usual*, mrs williams *the one dat keeps away frm politics* and mrs caverly *who is supposedly quitting* the kurians haf left *sad sad*..

went to koorong on thursday to buy stuff. gosh. spent alot.. was quite happy.. dey had a 15% sale storewide.. den oso did a psych experiment in e morning and met chloe in e afternoon to pass her some taylors mags.. oh yes. accompanied cheryl for grocery shopping!!! hahs. and at nite.. ard like 10pm..went over to myers street hsehold for supper.. first passed june some balloon sculpture frm letitia n myself. den went to myers street hsehold.. did some pizza thing.. den played CS. hahs. yes. it was like 3 gals.. dorcas letitia n myself. den like each one using one of e guy's room lar. super funny. mayb i'll get hooked to it?? hehs.. den aft cs we watched the australia vs croatia match. my e time i cycled home, it was 5.30pm... sort of sent letitia n dorcas home first. cuase i had a bicycle after all. hehs.. gosh. my hands were FROZEN and so were my feet..

friday. only had cell. was suppose to do experiemtn but i din make it. cuase i was too tired.. went for a korean dinner and den bubbletea.. met lynn's cell as well.. wif like joey and zhengyi and karen etc etc.. yeaps.. and oso met afew other uwa/curtin cells.. den came back n pack again lar. nth much yesterday..

saturday *ie today* was SUPER busy. in the morning sent my bike to josh's place for 'safe keeping' den went over to the princess road household for breakfast.. the leaders were suppose to haf breakfast together.. yeaps.. and as usual, everyone was late. so. i helped clear up, cook etc. den aft e whole thing, we rushed to ruwei's baptism. *congrats gal!!!* hahs. so nice can.. and so sweet. everyone was tearing.. aft e baptism... came home, preapred for ushering. was ushering again dis week cuase d other team lacked ushers.. yup.. did e briefing and realise kevin is quite a good leader sia.. hehs. ya anw. was pastor assistant today *again* and i tell u. it was hactic. gosh. kettle had problem, made me run up and down.. den today had holycommunion, but overall was ok. cuase cause of e prob. i din like do the other roles *oops* yup. but all was fine.. dinner was at viet hoe.. it was ok. not bad. *full* and here i am...

wanna take a nap. duno if i can wake up. joshc said he wld give me a wake up call. hope i do wake up..

i am so gonna miss perth. seriously. i really dunno how singapore wld b like now.. i think the only thing i cna do is to trust in the Lord.. *amen*

juz came back frm letitia's place.. have been der for e past 2 nites slacking...

anyway.. EXAMS ARE OVER!!! muahahahaha.. kk i know der r ppl out der who havent finished yet.. hehs. dats why i was so nice to go down to Corica yesterday after my paper to get apple strudel cause cheryl mentioned she nv eat b4.. yup. so came back.. cut for her rachel and lydia.. den i decided to b nice to dorcas n josh.. sent it to e myers street household and ofcourse gave the other 2 hsemates as well.. and yup letitia had her share as well.. dats why i was over der.. watched everybody loves raymond wif her as well and talked qutie abit. nice friendship i see building here. hehs. anw.. ya. its always nice talking to her. like finally someone my age *not dat i despise the others* anw. ya. i oso dropped by harbourtown to get some stuff.. hehe.. shopping spree dat was not very fruitful in dat i din feel like i haf shopped *sad* anw. ya.. went to harbourtown b4 gg to corica.. den aft getting e apple strudel, had red rooster wif letitia.. den took 24 back.. nv knew dat bus goes to e city.. yup.. dat was yesterday...

for some strange reaosn, i woke up today at 5am and felt that i had enough sleep.. so i went to bathe *i never bathe so early in e morning its simply too cold. dunno wad got into me today* den watched shows and did my laundry at an unearthly hour of 7.30am.. gosh. did my psych experiment at 9am to 11am. how silly i was to go to the wrong building. wasted my time.. went to koorong wif letitia n janice today only to find that the sale was only on frm tmr onwards. gg back on thurs. hehs.. den we headed for harbourtown to get a waterbottle and to walk around abit.. and den for subi to get boost. hehs. havent had boost for quite awhile *bet faith is jealous now* hehs. anw. yup. den went back. i was watching my show at ard 5pm when i dozed off. only to wake up at 6.40pm. gosh. almost e end of dinner. rushed down and joined e others.. the restulst of waking up early.. aft dat went to letitia's hse again and passed her e real player and also watch last yr's search for a star.. hehs. super funny.. yup. n here i am lar..

busy busy busy. so many plans for the week.. only tmr i most free.. gg taylors to disturb mrs amy's class. muahahahaha..

hmm.. suddenly realise sth.. i seem to be taking ages to adjust into uni life.. especially since in med it is an "exclusive" course (not that it is better but that it does not mix about with other courses.. like our units are fixed and all.. suddenly, i feel distanced and all.. as compared to last yr.. maybe its all in God's plan for me? to learn something out of it. like i mentioned last rd, i seem to have less probs or least less probs that i end up worrying and panicking over.. can i see it as i have matured? or i am running away/distancing myself from things? oh wells..

last paper tmr. past few papers haf been.. dunno no comments. shant comment. results out on 11 july so am not looking forward to it. fahb tmr.. havent studied much. dying. what they teach is far frm wad dey test. like u needa study more on your own to do well..

i've been too lazy to study for the past 3 days. ever since fmc ended, have been packing my room.. gosh. my luggage space is... i've cleared lesser than half of my wardrobe.. and half my huge luggage is gone. meaning my clothes has to go into trash bags. dun exactly wan dat to happen. my bed sheets and stuff toys r already gg into trashbags..

the soceroos are playing wif brazil in 10 min!!! i wanna watch!!! see how brazil trashes australia. hehs.. *its a fact not biased* but got exam tmr. so cant watch.. the last match dat letitia dorcas bijia n myself watched at myers street household was a shocker already. better not have another one..

thanks so much jon.. for teaching me so much last year. for some strange reason, i feel that those conversations where i was "complaining/whining" about all the small little stuff.. and the reminder "why am i turning to man and not to God" really struck me.. and it stuck to me n haf helped me many times.. thanks so so so much...

thanks lydia n cheryl for listening to my ramblings.. for encouraging me when i really wanna give up studying already.. for just being there to listen.. even though u gals prob dunno u're doing it.. thx..

by e time i type finish this.. the match has started. everyone is watching it. while i head for my bed *sad* hehs.

i dun feel like going back. i think its the same problem as last yr. fear. i don't think i had a very big problem that couldn't be solved. it was not as bad as compared to other people. yet, it has left a huge shadow in my life. fear, irritation. could it be cause i have not forgiven? or maybe i just have not broken from the strongholds of that incident. then again, der was nth serious about it.

each time i call, i only have questions for u. or to tell u how my day went. i don't want you to talk. because i know if you do, things may turn sour. it nearly did just now. i don't want it to happen. last year i called u and it broke up in an arguement.

*scared*

i miss you dad, i miss you elaine.

fahb prac.. i tot was good. apparently not. fmc today. dun feel like studying.. feel like going out n shopping. hehx.. my room is in a complete mess from packing.. need need need to go and get more boxes.. not enough for my stuff here.. lydai is getting a tv!!!! haha. meaning i cna go watch when i wan! hehx.. aust vs brazil on sunday..*interesting* hehx.. kzkz off to study for fmc.

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satisfied?

i think i understand the kind of hurt u felt when i was young n impulsive. i still am. please forgive me. maybe i was wrong. u're still the young impulsive one i once was. now u r stabbing 2 at once. smart.

shaun. i think u r right. but i am helpless. prayer works wonders?
as learnt frm a fren today. siblings are prob not the nicest to talk to eh? or maybe its just me?
[shaun] thx man.. [jon] hey.. thx.. hope i dun hafta repeat first yr.. snails? eh. u think i not traumatised enough? hehs.

exams. exams. exams. tmr is sort of my first paper.. and 2nd as well. sian. one at 9am one at 2pm. this is crap. exams was on my mind as i sleep. was on my mind when i woke up. oh gosh. exams r such a torture. i am so scared i dun make the grade.. will they allow me to retake the year? or is it out of medicine i go? gosh. dis is bad. how how how..

[jacq].. eh.. u r.. jacko? haha. sorrie ar. cause i noe afew ppl by e same name. anw. yes gal. got miss u.. will b back soon. hehs.. end june early july.
[kw] its a choice. since u wanna look good, it comes wif a price to pay. dun complain.. hehs..
[stef] hey gal.. will b back end june early july. wld u b on hols?? den can go out or sth. hehs.

hrmph. i am upset at myself. how can i not notice it? it was super obvious. like right in my face.. yet i din see it. where has the sensitive eunice gone to?? where was the eunice who was once in ym now?? the eunice now is insensitive and nonsensical. gosh. how? i know that i prob wont b able to do anything to the situation. but what i cant stand is that i din even think der was anything wrong. like juz ignore n go on doing my own stuff.. couldnt i see? couldnt i think?? couldnt i have some empathy to those ard me?? gosh!

oh my goodness. this is highly embarassing.. was looking through the pig lab in General Purpose 3 com lab.. we went der after the biosci lib closed at 10. gonna stay here till 12. anyway. yes. we came here. and i decided i needed to revise my pig lab. so i went to look. i showed letitia den we decided to show e guys. n we were talking about naming my pig *that has been disposed off*.. so stanley suggested naming it "puppy" and i went "thats so cruel! to call it a dog!" *like imagin cutting up your dog lar!* anyway. and letitia n him broke up in laughters cause what i heard as "puppy" was actualy "babi" meaning pig in malay! gosh. i shld learn some malay huh. so i wont embarass myself again. ok. i decided. babi it shall be. for my pig dat died long ago for the sake of me being able to study fahb. babi. rip.

hrmph. am highly irritated now. cause i juz realise i wont b able to go back for youth sunday and for the shift of the youth service to the chapel etc etc.. hrmph.

supposedly studying now in reid wif cheryl. but duh i am not. kinda bored so decided dat e internet wld do me good. well...

i just realise that i have things missing frm my med chem lecture notes. ie. i am dead. hahs. i hope its not dat bad..

i have decided. after talking to steph.. i think i will take it up. talk to crystal on sat.

i miss home. pmc. ympact *as it is called now*. hb soo2. everyone in church.

so much for wanting to get PR in aust huh..

only time will tell. 6 more years of studies to go *and hopefully no more*

couldn't sleep last night. was tossing and turning in bed. was panicking about my results. panicking about my exams. panicking about responsibilities i have to take up if i do take up the challenge. panicking about how i would cope with my studies then. panicking about what people have told me though they are all praises.

oh God, this stress is getthing the better of me. it is getting a better hold on me than i have a hold on myself.

the panic button is on. someone pls off it!!!

i had a very random urge to go search youtube for stuff.. n guess wad. i found a video on scrcy http://youtube.com/watch?v=zyZGl6o6ns0&search=scrcy like was very surprised. but it was reallly nice cuase i really miss my juniors and all e red cross stuff.. anw.. yes.. den i searched handbells. *for some random reason* and i found sc's performance!! so i think hb n me wld b gg to see it b4 i come back!!! haha..

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