hmm.. 1 yr older. legal to do so many things now.. oh well. dis birthday was a rather quiet one. nth much oso. had 4 lectures summore. how terrible. was stoning through one lecture. muz start listeninig to online lectures. if not i wld soon forget everything. it was sort of a reminder frm mrs caverly's class. juz dat it was easier to understand. better teachers i guess. not like her. anyway.. ya.. 4 lectures. it was bad. after that went back for lunch den did e criminal record thing.. walked frm st caths to QE II to broadway fair and back home. super long walk lar! legs r dying now. sigh. i tell u. i've been walking so far everyday dat my legs r gonna fail me soon. like frm one end of uni to the other end. leg can die..

oh yes. thx ip marcusnwife n carol for e dinner.. oh yes. thx for e pics too cheryl!! hahs.. n i juz heard frm an archi yr 2 in st caths dat herman has been talking abt u to everyone. haha. aww. so sweet rite.

anyway. i'm off. got 5 contact hrs tmr.. out of which 2 are french. can DIE man. ok. i shld go now. chaoz.

p/s: elaine thx thx.. hahs. go record my new no. hahs u shld haf gotten it frm dad. anyway, study hard!!!

hmm.. in e library again.. dis rd, using my own acct.. sigh.. looks like its gonna b a terrible 6 yrs for me.. i got my first essay and i din understand it till ning explained it. n got loads of books to settle.. esp trying to compare 1st n 2nd yr books to save money. sigh. so mafan. muz buy frm signapore. cheaper.. hehs...

my coursemates are weird. least most of e gals are. wif e exception of huiqi. like e other 3 are... funny?!? ya. kinda e word to use. i guess i juz hafta get used to it. havent talked to my frens for ages. miss all of em. hehs. i've been going ard wif my coursemates so often dat i barely joined e taylors gang.. oh but least e guys r rather gentlemanly. n quite nice lar.. but quite poor thing. became our "maids" for e nite when we went to garden city to shop last nite..

going for cell later. in dorcas's grp. dunno all of em.. *how*?? hahs. anw. i'll survive. zph is a nice grp. jean ma'am asked me to go visit fcc. will prob do it nxt week. dis week going subi coc *Christine's church* den mayb another one OR i wld go for st caths bbq..

st caths is qutie good. besdies for e fact dat i dun haf like good frens der, and my neighbour is our drinking, clubbing, gambling half e time.. so is the other signaporean dat shares e same balcony. out. oh well oh well..

okies. i shall remain uncontactable till st caths decides to b nice n tell me how to connect e internet.. bleah!!

finally. internet. using it frm taylors college, nadia's account. schools been... ok.. sigh.. i miss taylors. guess its cause i'm in my own comfort zone dat i refuse to go out n talk to people. rather anti i guess..

my med frens r ok.. i mean.. dey r nice.. but difficult to mix abt wif. majority guys. 4 gals only. not much of a choice. 2 are 20 2 are 18. ie 2 frm A levels 2 frm foundation. can't link much i guess.. but managed to like get to know the rest.. talk abit.. sigh.. i cant wait for e nxt batch to come in.. wanjie!!! yirang!!! sigh.. missing everyone. like when i wanna turn to someone, cant find. as in to ask stuff. den rmbed e time i juz walk over to knock on jon's door for help, call ppl for help, bug steph whose house is juz down e road.. sigh..

i cant wait to get used to the system..

well.. in the airport lounge now.. as usual.. having a snack wif dad b4 entering. its been 3 mths of coming back to singapore.. well.. time to start school again..

dunno if i'm living in denial or wad. can't seem to knock sense into myself dat i am leaving. was not really upset abt leaving my parents. cant imagin myself in uni. bleah. i had better switch back to reality soon man..

changi airport is so nice. i din noe dat. haf nv walked ard. usually only to e gate n e lounge. now went to explore to find 8days. so saw quite abit. super nice lar..

if only we could go back in time

bleah. had a close to terrible experience with My Hair Artists today.. sigh. i've got terribly cut hair now. hrmph. cant wait for them to grow longer!! i wan my old hairstyle back! shall go ask steph wong to bring me to dat hk uncle whe my hair is slightly longer. sigh. dat lady cut until it is so short!! n terrible. n my hair is rather thick, so dey fall all over e place. mum kinda happy with it though. but i think its terrible. sigh..

went for bday dinner today. hehs. my fav crabs n prawns. hehe.. n had cake aft dat too.. sigh super rich *again* hahs. dat seems to b our family's fav cake shop?!?!?

bought some usher clothing today. i wan too!! its so soft n nice. no like my few. so stiff. *yucks* hahs. so cool..

gonna get back to my full house now. n muz start on the serials i got frm ip asap.. hehs. kinda delayed em for afew mths alrdy..

sigh dunno wads wrong wif my harddrive n my com. dey all dun like me. hrmph.

i like the show full house. all of us stuck to it now. sigh. kinda understand e gal's pov. oh well..

been packing for aust.. busy busy. have been packing and all.. copying my shows too!!! hehs..

maybe she is right after all. it was all my fault all along. i should never have been like that. i am trying to change. none of you are helping. sigh. maybe that is the reason why things are like that. what is so great about being the "oldest"? sigh.

i am very "fragil" as a girl too you know?

princess

sigh. finally i get online at this weird hour. sigh. com nearly crashed on me!!! argh!! terrible.

congrats to all who did well in ya o levels. u all deserve e credit!!! hahs i went back to sc on the wrong day AGAIN. dis rd, e o level results were out. sigh.

went for some chinese new year concert today. it was some outreach event. n i tell u.. it was simply.. amazing.though it was in chinese and some parts in canto and not all that hyped up and all, but it was a great performance. u can really see all our fellow bro n sis in christ who are celebrities putting their best foot forward for God. and their performance is not something for the audience, but its for God. its amazing. i videoed down dis guy called Huntley Brown's performance on the piano. it was.. amazing. breath taking. hahs. i love it man.. was really glad i went. and in the end, during the alter call, more than a hundred ppl went up. amazing rite. e way God works.. hahs..

sigh. the hope of getting back my wallet is slowly dwindling away. sigh. all my stuff inside. everything very precious one.. sigh.. i can't imagine it. money lost. cards lost. argh. how.. how.. how..

sigh. so screwed. lost my wallet. so many things missing. lalalala. sigh...

oh well.. juz came back frm ps benny ho's seminar. it was good.. hehs. was a good seminar lar.. oh and rite... ps benny brought like afew of his band members and i look, den when i step in to e place, i saw e backup singer ( also violinist) sideways, and i was wondering.. "how come ah goh is here?" hahs. den when he turned ard, he really looked like ah goh. juz some slight difference.. den i saw e worship leader. i was like "omg. so like gabriel (amanda's bf)" den i looked at e drummer, " so like eu lynn!!!!" hahs. i was like wondering how come 3 of em frm zph looked so alike as the other 3 who are prob oso studying in aust. hehs.

oh yes. i love my grandma!! omg. she really pamper me alot. sigh. muz do well in uni for her man...

hmm.. been a fruitful 3 days since friday.. cms predeparture briefing was boring. shldn't haf gone for it. dad was sleeping through it. cheryl n me were stoning n chatting and not doing anything. sigh.

sat was quite a good day. as in managed to packed part of my room. sorted stuff into boxes which was quite good. juz need more time n more space to apck my bag. argh. my bag needs to b packed in e nxt 3 day so i can settle wif my dad some other stuff...

in the evening had dinner wif jessica charlene melissa bertrand kangwei nicholas jon shaun. i had a good time. quite abit of catching up wif ppl and all.. nxt one is gonna b at charlene's hse.. she volunteered her hse for nxt yr's one! we're gg to haf a...... BBQ!! juz like e one dawn n eugene planned for my batch, juz like e one we had as a class under loo!! hahs. i juz realise like 2 gatherings were at charlene's hse. one at mine. one at marina bay. one at sakura. now e gg back to her hse again. gahs. those good times. miss em.

today was a busy day.. but i realise i only have 1 more sunday b4 i go back. sigh. muz wrap stuff up n think of how to pass on info to e gals. had welcome team meeting, den went to char's hse.. played some games and talked to viv. some of them did der hw too!! muggers! hahs.

talked to khee xiang today on msn. so sweet. hahs wish me happy bday like 3 weeks early. anw. caught up wif some castor 3 gossips.. but as for 224.. havent toked to em much nor catched up wif em either.. its so good to hear frm em..

also talked to nancy today.. so sweet. ask me abt transport. argh. yj too.. offer transport.. oh well. but dun need. dad is gg wif me. den talked abt to stay in murdoch zone or to move to uwa zone. i more comfortable wif murdoch, but i am in uwa. i live in uwa. oh well.. but wad struck me as a possibility to go to murdoch is dat mickey takes e bus to murdoch every friday. i shld learn frm him man. oh well.. if only.. den nancy reminded me. it is not where i want to go or where i feel comfortable in, but where God wants me to go. hmmm.. i'm seriously amazed how in murdoch, u can actually like talk to anyone freely in this kinda language u noe like remidn e ach other abt God and all. even though we're not dat close.. but in singapore, talking like dat is.. i dunno.. weird? unless wif someone close, but not all e time either. its really amazing how murdoch works. i hope uwa doesnt defer much. its after all the same church!!

hb is back! sigh but i prob can only meet her twice. cause she is busy. n tired. sigh. i rest enough le. wanna meet her more. hehs.

maybe i should have another email. a good long one b4 i leave..

chinese new year juz passed.. been having loads of gatherings.. sunday had gathering wif both sides.. heh.. my grandma sorta accepted Christ *grins*. went to watch i not stupid 2 wif family on monday. so sad lar.. hehs. den yesterday went for gathering at uncle ben's hse wif those sorta childhood frens. heh.. time really flies. everyone has grown up and haf matured. aft dat had another family gathering.. hehs. very sian now.. nth to do.. sigh..

things haf changed. can it ever be the same??

its turning from bad to worse.. sigh.