yawn.. i'm so tired. just missed a lecture *sigh* everyone is like "this is so not like eunice!" i guess it means i have to start sleeping earlier..

well. choir practice was yesterday.. was singing via throat half e time not diaphragm.. ie. i am down wif a sore throat today. which also means i have to go shop for stuff to sooth my throat. ok. besides that point, choir practice was GREAT yesterday! i got to know more people from curtin. oh yes. another point! dawn has taught us well during caroling! heh. ailin was saying that my expression is very good. as in like very joyful when i sing *gosh i din even noe dat* hehs. anw. ya. i guess that is good. heh. am learning e sign language for dat too!!

ok. *resolution for the rest of the sem* not to skip anymore non i-lectures lectures. since they cancelled labs for awhile, i shld haf enough rest. okies. off to buy my stuff. and i need to go do my lab lit review n essay too!!

Redeemer

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning
Who told the ocean you can only come this far?
Who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testify
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

The very same God that spins things in orbit
He runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold mewhen I'm broken
They conqured death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

To take away my shame
And he lives forever, I'l proclaim
that the payment for my sin
Was the precious life hte Gave
But now He's alive and
There's an empty grave

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

such a nice song isnt it?? hahs. we're singing this for easter. *choir i meant* yupyup. such a nice song.. lala. but a pity i dunno who sang it. as in original singers. i only have like the zion version!! heh..

its been a long time since i've updated *least to me*. life has been quite good i guess.. i'm learning more and more each day.. especially how to be patient towards my coursemates *nods nods*

medicine has been a fun course so far. labs are pure fun. i love them. all the stuff you do are just so interesting.. a pity my pig is half gone already... not sure when i will get it back though to continue my dissection. the human cadevers have been kept already *i think* and now what is left are the physio and anat labs. but they are fun too.. oh yes. i saw a chicken embryo heart beating yesterday. we opened it to see the development of the embryo. *cool rite* heh...

i guess the only bad part so far are the essay, lit review and labreport*for psych*. yup. but a good thing is that my senior agreed to help me. *yays* so i guess things are not that bad. lets say... i am aiming for no more than 15? is that very high? hahs. its upon 20. i want to do better for the essay so that even if i do "die" in the exam, i cna be revived. * but i do hope not*

lessons have been alright. i've been lazy to study or arrange my stuff though. hope to do it soon. and start MUGGING!!! muahahahaha.. hehs.. i muz lar. i can't afford to fail any units. if not it either means *out of med you go* or *repeat year 1* or *do a summer unit* which would mean that i have to skip chinese new year. *not a good idea huh*. so i guess. i have to study hard.

okay. have an interview with the head of college now. after that going to find some more books for my assignments.

oh yes. i'm going to bridgetown for my rural week!!!

the week has passed.. in a flash, i'm on my 4th week of uni.. life has been a roller coaster of up and downs.. i havent studied much.. but i guess its been quite a good week.. cant remember all of the week at one go, but i know wed was good cause i realised FAHB bridge w/o jianyang nishant and huimei is quite good cause i learn on my own and mix abt more. i love physiology labs on fridays. wed had dinner wif zph uwa zone leaders n freshies. managed to talk to crystal abit. took her advice to juz do my best in cell. wasnt too bad. so dats fine.. cell was fun i guess.. 3 guys walked ruwei n me hme and good thing dey did cause e ppl ard were kinda scary. all e locals drunk.. oh well. and today was ok too. went for CAM. joined choir. and ofcourse ushering which i told derelle already.. yup. den wanted to go study.. but din cause i was tired. went to sleep instead. but went for church, which e sermon was good.. oh well.. i'm trying to do my best in my "work".. though i am finding it terribly difficult wif dis grp of ppl. honestly, if it wasnt for the fact that i am to hang out wif em for e nxt 6 yrs, i wont join em. honestly. now i haf no choice. argh!! dis sux.. anw. gg over to fcc tmr. look see lar. wanna go nlcc soon too!!

was it a wrong choice coming to st caths?? mayb its God's will. but what about His will is it for me to be in st caths?? its so diffcult to integrat wif e ppl.. sigh.. Lord, please show me your will for me.

*happy* hahs okies. not really. haf been rather down for the past day or 2.. but anw, God is good. and ya. was kinda spoken to via a song frm e kids album entitled "Jesus my Super Hero" -- "Never Give Up!". ya. it was good lar.. retail therapy. bought quite afew items..

was talking to this uncle on my way back. talked abt songs first. den went on to the beach, den went on to fishing. hahs he was hilarious.. oh well.. yes yes raked up loads of memories, but it was enjoyable talking to him. hehs.. nice guy..

i desperately need to start studying. but once i step into this room, i wont study anymore. sigh..

was talking to yanjing juz now abt my new cell.. oh well.. i guess i was a very very lucky person last yr.. to be in an ideal cell group that even though it was ideal, all of us grew and served happily.. man. dat was the best!! this yr.. its so much different. the whole atmosphere is different. i really miss those times that the whole cell actually shares and grows together. to me, thats e most impt. e rest like having coffee aft cell or bubble tea, is all not important.. sigh..

man.. i hope things gets better.

anyway, sch has been... i dunno.. taxing? hahs. loads of stuff to study.. n like i am not studying.. dats bad rite. hehs.. muz start man!!

first cell group. sigh. it was... ... i dunno how to say. lets juz say dat i miss murdoch zone loads. miss yanjing's standard way of organising stuff. miss the activeness of the whole cell yj, ailing, jon, steph, alfred, beef, etc etc... sigh. its so different in uwa.. mayb its like wad nancy said, we need to tkae time to adjust..

and i need to learn to be more humble, to be accepting. some times, i feel that i worry too much. i am not accepting. i am not humble, i am not accepting. i keep worrying that people would over shine me, i keep worrying people would be better than me. i worry about every single thing.. sigh. i dun wan ppl to do better than i do, i dun wan ppl to be above me. what is wrong??

Dear Lord, please help me to be a better person. to be more like you. as i see my own actions now, i am saddened by ownself. please help me to be a better person, to accept others just as you have accepted me. please give me a peaceful heart, to be accepting to those i am not accepting to. help me to be glad that more people are finding a place in zion, be glad that more people are serving you, be glad that everyone is doing it out of good intentions and not to be upset that anyone is getting closer to anyone what so ever. please help me Lord, to do what is best in your eyes. help me be accepting to my neighbours and my schoolmates. help me be accepting to everyone around. help me to adjust to this new system Lord. thank you.

sigh.

whats wrong with me!

sigh. been "busy" for e past few days. lectures, labs, settling my elec etc etc.. hahs. jilly n kelly asked me to go to e pub yesterday. din go. had zlm. hahs yes. n it was at zlm dat uwa zone gave me a surprise. celebrated my birthday for me. even murZ forgot.. so i din expect uwa zone to rmb. heh. but it was a pleasant surprise..

i realise i've been too slack. not reading up, not studying. sigh. now like everyone has been studying, BUT me.. i really need to catch up this week end. i guess sat morning is for me to catch up. catch up wif my worksheet, lectures, etc etc.. SIGH.. everyone is working so hard, but me. dis cannot be happening!!!