Day 29 By Being Willing to Serve

We're saved to serve each other.

1. the basis for serving others is salvation
2. the barrier to serving others is selfishness
3. the motive for serving is love

enlightenment to why i serve. it is because i was saved by God. serve cause we are saved NOT serve to be saved. yup.

TAWG

Matt 17:20-21 have FAITH as small as a mustard seed, nothing will be impossible for you!

Matt 21: 18-22 have FAITH, do not doubt, it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

Phi 4:6-7 DO NOT be anxious, in PRAYER and PETITION, PEACE of GOD, transcends all understanding, GUARD your HEART and MIND.

back from rural week.. spent 1 week in Bridgetown...

was rather reluctant to go to bridgetown at the beginning, but it was a VERY GOOD trip that i had. on sunday, we met up for our trip down. it was a 4 hour ride with a stopover at bunbury. had a bbq dinner at nite.. which was nth much for the day. but it was quite fun lar!! as in socialising etc. wanted to skip the social activities but wasnt allowed to do so. we had speed dating which was fun but rather silly. lydia n me kept crapping our way ard..

anw. 2nd dayw as a little more interesting. went ot the natural therapies centre.. we were introduced to some of the therapies there like yoga, crystal healing, foot reflexology, kinesiology, reiki etc etc. all terribly dodgy.. i was like dunno to believe or not.. espeically when i heard about yoga. u noe e controversy abt yoga.. and when i heard abt kinesiology and reiki and reflexology.. all terribly dodgy.. good thing genevieve n me concluded that can't believe.. i think the only thing that can be "used" safely there is massage. that is quite good for relaxation i think.. in the afternoon i went to interview my case study.. was rather short cause not much info cause she was kind of like not very active in natural therapy anymore.. anw. while amanda n me were doing our interview, afew others had a message from the guy in the centre. yup. in the evening, we went to the cidery for the officail shire welcome. well. we din do much der. tried their drinks der *alcohol* and came to the same conclusion as last rd that i will NOT drink unless there is a social event that i think needs drinking. heh. anw. had soup der and dinner back at the lodge and then went on with a game of bridge till rather late at nite.. *fun*

on tuesday was Anzac Day. day to commemorate the ppl who died in the war. we had to go participate in the memorial service.. and then we had the rest of the morning off.. went to the Lucieville farm in the afternoon.. got to milk cows, cook some form of bread etc etc. was quite fun! though like have done it b4. but it was still fun. got loads of pictures!!! had a great dinner as well there.. the place was really nice man!! nothing much on that nite.. ppl watched the anchorman while i went to play more bridge *i think* got chased off to bed cause the previous nite der were guys creating havoc at 3am in e morning...

wed was the most *xiong* one now though i tot it was quite slack at first.. went to the bowling club in the morning and played lawn bowling.. it was very very very fun!!! hahs. i always tot it was a game for old ppl n all but anw. i had fun wif sarah and afew of the older ppl playing the game. hehs..went to the bridgetown district hospital aft dat.. was quite intersting in seeing the way they work.. such a close knit community.. nice. had host family dinner in the evening. gosh. the family i went to had 3 sons. brent 9, luke 7 and sam 5. like the oldest had 5 letters in his name 2nd had 4, 3rd had 3. n dey din eve realise it. heh. anw. its so sad! i forgot to take photos wif em.. gahs. of all times. but i really had a great time wif em. like the boys were so cute!!! they were amused by paper boats that louise made.. den so happen sam was on a "project" using icecream sticks to make a boat, so he continued to make it using the paper pad that we gave them to make his said etc. so fun!! aft dinner, same juz kept sitting on my lap to do wad he had to do.. refuse to sit on the chair. so cute!!! hahs. so i kept him occupied while wilson n lousie kept the other 2 boys occupied. a pity they had to sleep early, so we had a chat wif der parents awhile aft dey slept b4 we went back.. that evening, we played bridge and bluff till much later.. cause the lecturer gave us leeway..

on thus it was juz to the police station *which the cells to hold convics were terrible* and then to the harvey dickson's country music centre. it was SUPER nice.. the kind of things he can do with wood is simply amazing. and his love for elvis presly is also simply amazing. such craze for 1 guy?? kekeke. but i tell u. he is really an expert wif trees n wood work. took loads of pic on it.. *nice nice* we had some games der and like had emma dressed up in our clothes, had kaitlin do an elvis song, and jordon do a stand up comedy.. had to try blowing up those long baloons and do an animal wif it. i wish der was a pump der. i love baloon craft.. hehs. anw. the best that i saw dat nite was a ballet performance frm nish and lydia. super funny. but anw. dey won the prize. kekeke.. more cards for us to play wif. anw. dat nite we played cards till 2 plus den decided to go for a walk so i only slept at 530. *tired*

on the last dat der was a grp presentation and den back. nth much. but it was a great trip. made great frens der. like wad lydia rated the camp in terms of friendships forged. 10/10 hehs. oh yes... afew amusing stuff dis trip was the game called "stupid" that lydia n her sis came up wif. i tell u. it was really stupid.but i think its e most amusing when geneveive n lydia or lydia n nish played it.. and loads of other silly things lar *all in pics* that i shant mention here, but it was really a good trip..

sigh. now it means that we muz start gg back to studying!!! gahs!!! heh kk shall go off for church now.

i can do all things through christ who strengthen me.

[kw] hahs.. i'm ok. its alright. pepperspray? mafan. dun wan. [shaun]aye. yes i was praying when he followed me down that nth wld happen man! so scary. [irwin]hahs. yes yes i wont. *least not walking* cycling mayb.. [clayton]hahs. not woodbridge lar. mental hospital in aust. hehs..

well.. this would probably be my last entry before i got down south with my med coursmates. having our rural week for the whole of the coming week. i will be at bridgetown. that is somewhere near margaret river *for those of you who know perth* yup. 6 days trip... i am not exactly looking forward to it, but i guess i will make do with it. well, i guess one reason why i am not looking forward to it is because when i come ba ck, it means full on studying and catching up with my school work whcih i am not looking for ward to. sigh.

anyway, the past few days have been ok. busy cooking *shepherd's pie* which people said it was nice *thank God*. yup and also for cell whcih besides refreshments, don't really have naything to prepare this week. heh and next week will oso be skipping the discussion leading cause i wont b here for the pre cell screeing of ps rick warren's msg. actually, come to think of it, this week is not going to be 40 days. gahs.

oh yes. i was terribly traumatised today. there was this aboriginal guy who boarded the bus at the bus port. i was already in the bus, then he sat behind me. i was alone, but good thing i met ben who sat next to me. anyway, ya. the guy was making a whole load of noise, like cursing peole and swearing at people, but all of us ignored him and took it was he was on the phone or he was wone of those crazy people. until he started whistling at a shrill sharp pitch that i couldnt take it and ask ben if dat guy was on e phone or sth *in chinese* anyway, ben said to ignore, so i listened. but it was really scary. the worse thing is that the guy decided that the insults were fore me *or maybe it was already from the beginning*. he started pulling my hair. i tell u, i freaked out immediately. ben saw it, so he asked me to move to the front. and guess wad!!! the guy folowed to the front and didnt stop his insults and all. like asking me to go back to my country etc etc.. sigh. was super scary man. i sat der like a stone. din dare to look at him wad so ever. until the bus driver went to him and asked him to shut up *which he din listen* and as a result the bus driver made him get down at the next stop.. ya. itwas a traumatic experience. the wrose thing was that i was worried taht cuase ben gets down 1 stop b4 me, so liek if he gets down, then i am left wif dat guy, den dat guy follow me off e bus. man. i will freak out even more.. anyway, afther that, i went to the library *terribly shaken* and like sort of freaked out for 10 min.. then aft dat decided that i wont cover anything der, so might as well go back to the lecture theater and relax.. ya. so it wasn't that bad after it, but was still very very very traumatised..

after service, david *a fren frm church who was on the bus as well* came and told me that he and his other 2 frens were ready to bash dat guy up if dat guy touched me *cause dey saw the guy following me down* but little did they know that hte guy was pulling my hair etc at the back already.. ya and supposedly if they knew, they would go after him.. *dotz* but ya. aft dat for therest of the evening, dey were taking turns trying to scare me by pulling my hair or springing surprises on me. but i tell u.. it was a terrible experience. still suffereing from the effects of it.. gahs.. now i will really listen to wad jon n irwin said last yr to not go back on my own... imagin if it happened at night and dere weren't people aroudn to tell him off. oh man. i will be in deep deep trouble!!!!!!!! *ok shall be guai for now on*

gahs. ok. fine. shall commit it to God. no matter how traumatising it is.. shall go sleep. still got my trip tmr..

[stef] hey.. miss you too!!! yupyup. wil lcatch up over my july hols. i shld b back.. u having break at that time as well??

*update*

well.. i was just wondering. why do i fear after leaving camp.. i realise sth.. church camps are the places that you feel so secure, so peaceful, so free..yet, when you leave the camp, it means that you would have to be back into reality, into the world. into your responsibilities etc etc. its just so scary..

God spoke to me while i was fearing all these. He said to me that i would get such peacefulness, such secureness in heaven. as for now, i need to get back to my duty on earth. ps jeff said sth in his sermon that came to my head. " the reason why you are still on earth is because tehre is still something that we've not done!" and God was telling me, there is still alot you've not done. once you've done your so called duty on earth, and you come into heaven, there would be abundance of such joy. its really amazing how such encouragement comes when you're down and out.

then i thought of what it would be like going to heaven.. and i realise that i really wanna do some stuff b4 gg to heaven.. hehs. i wanna get married and have kids, i wanna finish studying med and be able to practice it and help others, i wanna go on mission trips...well.. just some simple "request" hehs..

oh yes. cheryl *good fren frm st caths* was super sweet lar!! she know my voice was going, den she went to make some herbal drink for me!!! man.. so touched!!! i'm so fortunate to have such a good fren..

*tag replies*
[clayton] happy easter to you too! study hard for ya "o" levels ar!
[gloria] hey gal. thx. yup wld add u.
[alicia] hahs. happy easter to you too gal. hows sch?
[b] isit the same ym website u gave me last rd? i cldnt find it.. was e dance nice??

*yawn* Super tired man. just came back from camp.. though i am tired, but i am REFRESHED. hahs. yupyup. the theme dis year is "refresh". it was a very different camp to what pmc usually have. it has more sessions and less games and shorter period, which was ok.

was a group leader for This camp. i really freaked out, because it was very different.. as compared to pmc one as well. dunno what to expect. ya. n when i saw my group list, i was terribly worried. cause all were from curtin, only letitia was from uwa. but overall, it was not too bad. only needed to lead them in devotion skit and games which was not too bad. the other times, the zones stuck to each other *rather sad though* yup and we won the games!! hahs.

i'm terribly tired now cause i slept for like 5 hrs for both nights. slept At 3am and woke up at 8am. first night, was preparing for the next day's devotion for quite awhile with dorcas june and francis. then after that we kinda listen to the worship team practice while dorcas n me talked for awhile, and then after the worship team was done, we played cards wif francis dorcas charles and stanley.. till quite late then we went back.. on the second night, we went all the way back to the city for supper.. then went back to prepare devotion and stick our head into the talk show that they had which was SUPER crappy..

the games were quite fun too!!! but i was all dreNched when david poured a bucket of water over me when only water bombs were suppose to be used... obviously using underhand tactics to win the game.. but anyway, they did not win. *justice prevails* we won!! kekeke. actually i think it is due to alot of help from max *our game master*

we had breaks during the 2 days, and first day we went to the beach.. it was so so so nice!!!!!! hahs. got pics too!! muz go grab from june jamie etc etc.. my cam din take aLot of pics though *sadly* yup. got boost on both days too!! havent had boost for ages.. and oso bought boost and some other stuff for the worship team as well.. *loving is sharing! hahs* but the 2nd day, we didnt walk to the beach. decided to drive der. walking takes too much time man...

the spEaker sessions were really great. really touched the heart of everyone. every single speaker. and so many lives were saved. now i know why they love passion easter retreat.. cause so many great things happens... dr cheong and ps goldie came too!! hahs. dorcas's fave speakers. they were nice. very nice. hehs.. and then the first and last speaker were great as well. though i cant remember der name. shall update later if i do recall.. yupyup... really impacted me..

lastlY, the mega praise was the best. just stood der singing jumping dancing. and the new hillsongs album is quite nice. "take take take it all" "inside out" hahs. ya juz 2 parts of 2 different songs dat we sang..

oh yes. oso had to "plan" transport dis round. so mafan. cause dey had to drive to uwa for only 4 of us. qutie pointless. anw. i wanted to take car, but michelle said that since e bus was gg to uwa, go wif em.. cause anw. her car oso not enough boot space for my stuff. anw. k nvm it was ok lar. not too bad.. but i guess i shld do dat cause since i incharge of getting e ppl der and back, i shld b der?? i dunno..

oh yes.i was also terribly disturbed that everyone around me are so OLD!!! old as in older than me! i treat alot of em like same age as me.. but apparely, it isn't so.. girls wise, other than letitia, the rest are all older than me!! all above 20.. *sounds so old rite* and like wah. dorcas oso. din expect her to b so old.. i tot max max she is 3 yrs older than i am. *apparely not* as for the guys.. hahs.. the one dat is same age as me i tot he is old. *nick* and those dat r older *stanley, francis, etc etc* i tot dey r younger. why isit when you grow older, age seems deceiving??

anyway, this camp was overall a really good one.. cant wait for the next passion retreat!!!!

i dunno why, but after the camp, der is dis fear in me. fear of what, i also dunno.

everyone is still sleeping from the camp.. i managed to catch up wif 2 hrs of my sleep. kekeke.. ok off to dinner. i think cheryl jerline and lydia cooked sushi. kekeke..

ASSIGNMENTS ARE OVER!!! hehe.. yup. its over. super happy.. but.. one down side is that i am falling sick. hehs.. least i think so. major headache today.so those of u who read this *cause i noe u do* pray for me ya?? anw..so happy i handed the assignments in early. woke up at 10 *hehe..* den handed them in at 12. yup. run to 2 extreme ends of the school cause fcp lit review have to hand in at the meddent faculty. decided to cycle. still took me 30 min. gahs. dats how far they are. found out i was the first few to hand up. many of them handed up at like.. 2.30pm.. just before fcp. bridgetown. here i come!

went to blockbuster today to borrow shows. oh man! its such a rip off. only worth it if u borrow 6 at one go. anw. means i have to watch less shows. but anyway, i got 6dvds. saw annie *the musical* couldn't resist it.. havent seen it for ages.. so i juz borrowed it. *nice nice* and another one that i watched today was "my little princess" oh man. super touching. i like dat show. u watch already can cry. *trust me* heh. i like nice shows. not those ghost movies that dorcas borrowed. *yikes* haha.

anyway, now that assignments are over, midsems r coming in may. then finals in june. giving myself the break till easter. then i'm gonna start MUGGING!!! haha. nah. more of settle my notes. i am considering to bring my laptop down south or not. if not at nite will b very boring *i think* or mayb, i shld give myself a break frm e com for dat week. i rmb last yr wif yj, i went on a computer fast. heh.

taylors gathering this saturday. speaking of which, mayb i shld go buy eggs *easter eggs* hehe. i was thinking of getting huge eggs for cheryl jerline and lydia.. mayb dorcas as well. ya. good idea. dorcas n josh. shall go tmr. anw. hehs. ya n get a HUGE one for elaine. but pity it wld only b back in signaproe in july. dat is like 2 mths time.. dun u think it'll b cool? a HUGE egg.. kekeke.. so far i've gotten an egg frm st caths during our easter dinner, and a bunny frm kiran *my tutor*. yup.

easter dinner today was great! it was a good meal. there was... fried rice, *huge* chicken drumsticks, mussels, ngoh hiang, tiramisu cake, a whole array of salads, and a whole array of cold meat *is that what you call it?*and there were all kinds of sauces to go with it.. i'm in love with lamb now. it goes with the mint jam. really nice. and i had 1 cup of hot mocha (with a tablespoon of cocoa powder) and another cup of hot chocolate (with a tablespoon of coffee) i think i like the 2nd one better. the first one is too creamy. shall stick to it..

well.. yesterday *tuesday* was suppose to have an afternoon lecture. then it said to be at the SSCI. where on earth is that place man! heh. half of us assumed it was at the SSLT while the other half assumed it was at wilsmore *where we had our lecture in e morning* anyway, the teacher never came. so we left! such a waste of time. good thing i cycled. save time. poor huiqi got gum on her jeans. someone left it on the edge of teh seat. so inconsiderate!

my sleeping habit had gotten from bad to worse. heh. suppose to be in bet at 11!! but dun feel like sleeping so came to blog. later still going to reply vivien's email. gahs. i better wake up for breakfast tmr. missed 2 days of breakfast already. *breakfast are nice here*

oh yes. i bought my choir shirt already. *yays* tmr lydia n cheryl r gg to shop. i dun tink i'll go. wanna slack at home.. heh.

OH.. i remembered what i wanted to blog about yesterday but didn't have time.. was talking to christine. den mentioned abt how the guys in med deals with girls. and she gave this comment that i can buy popcorn to school and watch scandalous movies. hehe. i was laughing my head off when i read it. super funny. nishant was enquiring what dat meant when i put it on my nic. heh. oh. n i realise today how nishant starts a convo wif gals *locals* he cracks a silly joke, and if dey respond, he goes on. if they don't den too bad for them *heh* realise today cause one of e gal din respond. heh.. anw.. ok dat was like out of point le..

i should go sleep soon. now rather. nites!

choir practice today was great. *all the girls say amen!* cause there was this 14 *turning 15* yr old guy-sam dat was playing the violin for us. its gonna be part of the musical group with joanne on the keyboard and ben on the guitar. and i tell u.. his ability to play the violin was simply *amazing* all the girls were like just captivated by him. everyone's attention was focused on him. heh. not on usha *our conductor*.. but really.. the way he plays it with so much passion.. can really capture all of our attention and hearts. aye. dunno how to describe. but it was really very very very nice.. *duh cause he plays for an orchestra*

as evelyn was driving us back, i was just looking at the sky over the swan river.. there were alot of clouds, and the sun was shining through a hole in the clouds. it was really majestic. as you see the sun rays *you really can see them* and like a "hole" where the sun was behind.. the sun rays reminded me of the picture many people painted of Jesus rising to heaven and the same way he will come back down on earth. it really reminded me of the coming of Jesus. and these few days, as i sit on the bus that goes along the swan river, i see the creation, the so many different kinds of birds *that you'll never see in singapore*, i am really amazed at God's creation. its really THE BEST..

yawn.. i'm tired. just had broadway pizza about 1 hr ago. left overs from st caths river cruise. broadway has nice pizzas. nicer than dominos. heh. anw. i'm dead tired now. dunno if i still got energy go down to city tmr to buy the shirt.

my psych is hanging at 850 words out of 1500 words. ie. about 650 more words. sux lar. my intro oso not going to be very long. i think i should be long winded in my discussion. gahs.

dorcas is so sweet.. i dunno why, but she bought me green tea today. weird huh. showing her form of love to her cell member?? hehe.. shes sweet. sad though. last sem already. gahs. gonna miss you dorcas!!

i am so ashamed. of what i asked. i am so ashamed. of forgetting You. i am so ashamed. of turning to someone before turning to You.

anyway, abit abt cell... it was really a great joy when i shared in the discussion group and people learn from it. i hope i managed to help solve some doubts people have. *Lord, i wan a personal relationship wif u. i wan a relationship dat never wavers. help me to do so* anyway, yes. it was a HUGE sabo by my dear cell leader dorcas. go and count in a way that i have to lead the BIGGER discussion group ALONE. when i am not even a cell helper. den josh (cell helper) and dorcas lead e SMALLer group TOGETHER. see the difference?? oh well.. it was rather scary for me as like ppl were really quiet, and like dey were not talking nor responding. so i was worried. but i guess at some point, sth i said triggered some questions dey had, and ya. it was a rather fruitful time there after. sigh. anw. still have to talk to dorcas abt it. she wanna noe how it went. kekeke. see. she shldnt haf put me alone der! gahs. and rite. like 2 of em are my age ppl while another 2 are older than i am!! gahs..

focus my girl, focus. focus on the reason that you are on this earth. you can spout out knowledge, but with out love, it is nothing. nothing. nothing.

dear Lord, please help me.

sigh.. i'm stressing out now.. got 2 more assignments not done. both 1 500 words. i noe its not much, but i really dunno wad to do.. psych is the killer. if not for psych, i wld haf more or less finished my fcp lit review. sigh. and i think i am falling sick too..

i keep saying wrong things. mentioning wrong words *pai seh*

gahs. in the blink of an eye, one week has passed. or least close to. i'm beginning to feel the heat of having to complete my assignments. all worth around 10 - 20% of my final grade for the units. i have psychology to hand up on monday which i have not started. fahb and fcp are not even half way done, though i have a rough idea for fahb. just can't find info on africa *sux*.

i've been stoning in classes again today. especially those that they hand out notes.. i just turn off. and thats bad. but fahb has been better. cause i actually have to pay attention to be able to type the notes into my laptop. and yes, laptops are super useful. hehs. especially for keeping up with the speed the lecturers goes. i just have to figure out how to use the snap password thing. then i can do research around school and not only at home.

have been really busy these few days. wednesday had zion leaders meeting, today have cell group prep and choir practice, tmr have cell, sat have breakfast wif amanda and steph, lunch wif aunt and cousin, and then church which i have duty. sunday is the last day to do my lab report. which means i have to do all i can now. for the next 3 hours or so. sigh. what pack timetable have i gotten myself into? *if you honour God, he will honour you*

[irwin] hahs yes i skipped classes. sth wrong wif me rite? sigh. [clayton]hey.. hows ya studies gg? all e best man!! [shaun]ya.its me. wad u mean if i am eunice? kekeke.