i am so ashamed. of what i asked. i am so ashamed. of forgetting You. i am so ashamed. of turning to someone before turning to You.

anyway, abit abt cell... it was really a great joy when i shared in the discussion group and people learn from it. i hope i managed to help solve some doubts people have. *Lord, i wan a personal relationship wif u. i wan a relationship dat never wavers. help me to do so* anyway, yes. it was a HUGE sabo by my dear cell leader dorcas. go and count in a way that i have to lead the BIGGER discussion group ALONE. when i am not even a cell helper. den josh (cell helper) and dorcas lead e SMALLer group TOGETHER. see the difference?? oh well.. it was rather scary for me as like ppl were really quiet, and like dey were not talking nor responding. so i was worried. but i guess at some point, sth i said triggered some questions dey had, and ya. it was a rather fruitful time there after. sigh. anw. still have to talk to dorcas abt it. she wanna noe how it went. kekeke. see. she shldnt haf put me alone der! gahs. and rite. like 2 of em are my age ppl while another 2 are older than i am!! gahs..

focus my girl, focus. focus on the reason that you are on this earth. you can spout out knowledge, but with out love, it is nothing. nothing. nothing.

dear Lord, please help me.