amazing. just as i was worrying yesterday about managing my studies with my service this period like u noe if i shld continue serving like "full on" and go for meetings and training even when my midsems and assignments draw near.. if i shld join choir for mother's day performance, if i shld usher for AACN seminar etc etc.. and like i did today's QT. it says that serious service requires serious sacrifice. and it quoted 2 Cor 6:4-10. like even if we end up sleeping late. end up not eating. etc etc.. it is still worth the sacrifice. and i just was like "wow!" i can't rmb who's sharing it was, i think it was roy's sharing on offering or was it ps patrick's sermon. one of them mentioned that God is not a second late, neither is he a second early. God's timing is really perfect and amazing. den i was thinking. if i had read this like 1 week earlier, it won't have such an impact on me.. not that i should have skipped my QT cause i shldn't but anw. ya. its really amazing when it strikes you.. and it realy makes e most impact.. really showing that God's plan is perfect!!

anyway, aside the point, i am really feeling a kind of uncomfortable-ness in caths. as in the few of em that i hang out wif. what i hear all day are gossips, criticisms. its like in the past it isn't so.. with rachel n cheryl it is still ok. dey are great friends. we can easily talk about other stuff and all.. but the other 2.. all i hear from them are criticisms. complaints. unfairness. like when will you stop criticising the way things work here, when will you stop comparing whose room is better. when will you stop complaining that the service here is lousy and the meals service here are not good enough? when will you stop and realise how fortunate you are? when will you stop and see that you are terribly lucky? now adays the moment they start, i get upset. and i leave. seriously. i will juz walk away. like i think its rather obvious, but i've tried. i tried to tell lydia abt it b4. infact, rachel n cheryl oso noticed it. all of us tried telling her b4. din work. i am really at my wits ends.. den as i tot she was changing for the better, jerline came into the picture. complain complain complain.. what the!!!!

Lord, give me the patience.