i am terribly pissed off now. wanted to blog abt my trip to the aged care place today. but anw. no mood! seriously. now just seeing them puts me off. what kind of attitude is it? if you want something, you will ask nicely, if not, you will just ignore. you know how to ask if they need transport, yet i who stay beside you you don't bother. in the end, someone else needs to send me back. i am not upset about you not sending me back cause i am terribly reluctant to ever sit your car, neither am i upset about you asking me for stuff cause i dun mind passing them around. what i am upset about is your kind of selfish attitude. not only you.. its 2 of you infact. and the result of your selfish attitude is to bring more inconvenience to others. both incidences. you've brought inconveniences to 2 ppl already.. nish and charles and indirectly, marianne. what else can i say?? i tot least since u're frm zph.. things shldnt get this bad.. and you *diff*.. little did i expect too the kind of attitude u haf towards freshies. "they are weird" so you don't bother about them and tell me to go talk to them when i myself and a freshie?? *not that i mind. but what kind of attitude is this??* i tot i cld let it pass.. now i can't. i just seem to keep digging up your mistakes. why?

sigh.. Lord, please help me to apply what you have taught me this week. to have the heart of a servant. even when others treat me badly, to just humble myself and do things for your sake. i know this journey is going to be difficult, and i am not suppose to judge people as i have above, but it is seriously difficult when you meet with such cases. especially when you know you have another 6 and 4 yrs respectively with them and it is going to be a tough 6 and 4 years. Lord, please just guide me, please help me to calm down, please help me to love them as you loved those unlovable ones *like me* help me to be more like you. guide me Lord.