oh gosh. there is sth majorly wrong wif me. *i think faith agrees* i've missed 2 morning lectures. one at 9, one at 8. and each time, i'll wake up like when the lecture just started or is in progress.. honestly. this cannot go on man.. argh! and i need to study!

last week has been a whole week of orientation.. busy week for me aye. calling and all. i've used up 100 bucks for my phone bill. and it is crazy. why can't aust haf a better plan. like singapore! hahs. is it really that expensive to transfer a call? hmm.. but! i am getting a new phone! hahs. ya. so things like calling dorcas.. huibing.. faith.. etc etc wld save me money!!! muahahaha.. kk i am abit crazy...

anyway, orientation was ok.. we've got a contacts of quite afew freshies. juz need to follow up. and like met alot of sept intake ppl.. hehs. e next intake i wld noe wld b feb intake. n den dats all. unless more joins us at zion!

cell group was ok. it will b ok! hahs. first formal cell is tonight!! its gonna b great! as long as i dun hafta do word. hahs. *yes dorcas*

ok. down for breakfast.

CRISIS!!!

i must stay strong. i can't let this affect my mood.

Lord, please give me strength and guidance.

we will pull through this.

i will b praying for u.

was damn pissed off juz now.. regarding wad, i think huibing n faith knows. but anw.. ya. i guess it was a build up thing. like first my results, den that thing happened.. i guess wad i went through today was juz too much for me to handle.. esp e talks wif e dean n all.. sorry all for my terrible attitude. what amazes me is that some ppl r like so responsible that even if its not der fault, dey still apologise n sort things out. and some ppl. when everything is der fault, dey dun even seem to know. weird eh? but i guess it juz shows that those ppl who are so responsible can be relied on, while the others can't. and i guess it is just the different gifts that God has given us.. like one can talk to freshies but cant think for others for nuts. one amazingly can do both etc.. i guess it is all about us embracing em rite.. hahs. eunice learns sth again..

back in perth for my 3rd day. feels like i never left. its so good to be back. then again, how long will this last? i wonder. life has been sort of a roller coaster these few days.. the lows being the periods i was so afraid and worried about having to leave perth. i still am though. the highs being when i was out wif my church frens and i completely forget the kind of "torture" i am going through. kinda like self denial huh.

went for cell on friday. due to my lack of sleep on thurs nite.. i was dozing off during combined cell.. generally it was good.. oh yes. dorcas came to pick me.. and ofcourse stanley came along *sweet*.. anyway.. ya. den we picked letitia n she came to help me move stuff and unpack *thanks gal. really appreciate it!!*

originally din haf anything on on sat.. was suppose to send ruwei off. den later was suddenly told we were gg to have lunch. yup.. fish n chips *yes elaine(or was it mum) i had my fish and chips here and i still dun think i wld haf regretted having em in singapore* at freo.. letitia joined us aft her work at freo den we went to send ruwei offf.. goodbye gal. i'll catch up wif ya in singapore.. gonna miss u ard here loads!!! visited winnie and laura at currie hall and to "deliver" mooncakes to em as well as to sherilyn and frens *e taylors ppl* yup.. so glad e mooncakes mum n i made were so popular *muahahaha*

service today.. everything was... ok... speaker was very good.. we had great fun! pity letita was sick... poor gal.. went for dimsum after service! hehs.. miss dimsum so much.. anw.. it was a great lunch.. den faith came over and we talked for most of e time she was here.. den we headed off to dorcas's place for prayer meeting.. it was great! hehs. God is gonna move in uwa! *amen!* met a "freshie" but not first year lar.. max's fren isaiah. yup. and aft dat we had dinner! hahs broadway pizzas *nice* dats like always e best lar.. kk i mean i prefer dat to dominos.. and max rented a movie to watch as well.. and of all movies he could rent. he rented TITANIC. like omg. super funny lar.. e whole time during e show we couldn't stop commenting and all.. 3 long and draggy hours.. but we completed it in e end! yup. and here i am in my room aft dat.. gotta go type e orientation stuff out.. lalalala...

tmr gotta go see e person in charge. pray that i get a positive reply pls.

as i see em.. one pair of siblings-in-christ.. one couple.. i think its juz so sweet..

hmm... for those of u who know, i failed 2 untis for dis sem.. dying le.. muz hurry go back to meet e dean of student affairs or sth to see wad to do... hope dun hafta repeat a yr or sth..

leaving tmr for perth le.. gonna miss those ppl.. as in pmc ppl.. i may not b coming back for a yr.. *mayb*

next sem is gona b challenging.. God pls bless me wif love for your ppl.. guide me and help me to be your light..

whats wrong? what should i do? i am so screwed.

results out in 6 hrs. damn scared.

youth sunday.. the speaker was good. something like ps patric.. we need more of such pastors not only to pastor the youths, but also for the traditional cngregation.. can see the traditional service ppl enjoyed themselves as well!!! praise the Lord!! hahs. but she was really good... no wonder the rapid increase in membershi of her church rite.. performances were good as well.. so niceto see your own sis dance. hehs.. one problem is that isabelle was like super duper late. couldnt pass her some stuff b4 i leave. good thing got elaine to help me.. dinah got baptised otday!!! hehe.. dat gal is so sweet man.. anw. super glad for her..

was standing outside at the photo board when i heard two kids go "where is kiki?? find kiki!!! KIKI IS HERE!!!" hahs. was super amused by that. bertrand's reputation with the kids are still there. eh bert.. mayb u shld consider going to help out wif e kids eh.. hahs..

had a talk during 9am service. Shaun. as i told u. it wont work out. no point i wate m time effort and breath talking. anw.. what is e other prob wif e other person u were mentioning?

A: if u continue wif ya choice, i dunno what they wld become of. they are not ready. *my opinion*

on the MUCH more fun side of my day, went to plaza sing*again* to meet the murdoch zone ppl.. ailing camille jon and ahgoh.. it was a good time of catching up.. enjoyed myself.. and we were crazily taking photos *ailing rather* hehs.. den aft dat we went to paragon to walk ard.. *yays* now got 2 ppl same flight as me.. ailing and faith. the silly thing is that all 3 frm zph but all 3 stay in e 3 diff zones.. so 3 diff cars frm zph hasta come down to pic 3 of us.. silly eh.. if only i still stay in murdoch.. anw.. aft dat the guys said they needed to go far east to shop *or sth like dat* so der we went.. oso took neoprints! hahs.. gosh dis holiday.. took tonnes and tonnes of neoprints!!!

aft e meeting of that grp, jon n me went to scotts foodcourt to meet christine cheryl irwin and may.... it was quite good time of catching up.. the same nonsense we get in taylors last year.. sth i miss ALOT in uwa medicine. the ppl r juz so different. u dun get good fun anymore.. but anyway.. it was good.. as in the gathering.. after that, it was neos again.. muahahaha.. we managed to get jon to take *he agreed willingly* irwin and may din wann take though. but anw. it was quite fun as well. these neoprints are all so crappy.. as in silly as well.. but quite nice in e end.. yups.. really had a good time...

world cup. in half an hrs time. will i stay up for it? hahs.. elaine suppose to wake me since she is waking clarissa.. see if i do wake up lar..

oh gosh. what should i do? someone pls tell me. i feel like i should move on. i am not gaining anything here. i mean. it does not cater to overseas students at all.. yet. it is my "alma mater" and i feel that i hafta do sth for her. *lost* changing my mind so often is not helping at all. gosh!

i have 4 mths to think about it b4 i hafta face give an ans again.. dorcas invited me over. shld i go? ceds invited me over. shld i go?

i feel like i am a completely different person in 2 different places. last yr, i still thought that i cld bring e fire back. boy, how wrong i was. when i see the attitude of the heads.

teach me Lord

went for "the journey" today.. it was.. kinda a waste of time i think.. like everything was so extreme.. i really wonder if isabelle and anabelle understood what it was all about.. 2 small girls gg on der own. hope jocelyn n vivien's mum and ber and marcus did not terrorise them.. even sec sch gals got so freaked out.. gosh. no comments.

met up wif xw ced and cheryl today.. oh gosh.. had this whole discussion-argument about if boys should carry bags for girls or girls should be all "independent" hahs. but it was quite funny i must say.. i honestly cant rmb e convo.. but ya. if interested. i think cheryl may have posted them up.

tmr is youth sunday. something to think about.

i hate you i hate you i hate you. i guess my worry of coming back was right. i should never have came back. maybe i will not come back at the end of the year. its gonna b so much worse.. 3 months!!! what the!!! i thought things were getting better when i first came back. WRONG. i thought things can go back to what it was when i was still young n innocent. WRONG.

I HATE YOU!!!

was suppose to go cable ski park. sians. but it rained. so din go.. but anw. thurs was good. managed to meet like afew ppl.. like hb n soosoo for lunch and den walked abt. den oso met faith aft dat.. suppose to meet e other uwaZ ppl but den only josh n david came. anw. we went to chomp chomp to eat.. not bad. hehs...

hmm. friday was kinda boring at first. nth to do.. but met hb n soosoo aft lunch.. lingered around heartland mall.. met quite a number of ppl.. like rachel and alicia, sweedy etc.. yup. but nth much to do lar.. den went to meet amy n teacher alan for e rick warren seminar. it was ok...

ice-skating!!! woohoo!!! hahs. quite fun!!! went ice-skating today wif amelea olivia and benedict.. all e med ppl suppose to come but dey din.. chinloon came late and nish n jy came AFTER we finish.. hahs. anw. we had lunch first.. den aft dat we went to iceskating.. first time.. but quite fun eh.. was playing wif e support thing. look so silly.. olivia got e pics. muz get frm her soon. hehs. den benedict insisted on getting me away frm e railing.. and ya. so like 4 of us linked hands and went afew rounds. anw. i think i kinda got e hang *i hope* and hope can get a chance to go again..

went for elaine's sch talk.. oh wells.. met mrs tsoi.. and mrs tsoi asked me back to scgs to give a talk to e students. hehs.. super funny.. not as if i wan to lar. weird eh.. like i go back. talk wad man! crazy... anw. elaine's sch talk was ok lar..

went to buy dinner later.. frm pasar malam. *nice* and my sis oso got quite abit of stuff.. n i bought durain as well!!! hahs. anw. guess wad. most unlucky.. mum's car no batt.. so sis n me walked home first.. and here we are lor.. durain was ok. *yays*

gg cable ski park tmr! yays!

cycling!!! haha!!! have been out cycling!!! yup. went to cycle wif my caths frens today. pity lydia couldn't make it. but cheryl and rachel were der. we cycled for 2 hours.. rather. rachel bladed. and guess wad!!! we saw the cable ski park!!!! OMG!!! so cool!!! we're gg der on thurs. hehs. i din noe der was such a thing lar. till like today. though it was up like since last yr.. yay yay yay.. we're gg on thurs!!! hope lydia can join us.. dis grp of frens so nice. hehs. den nxt monday we gg to sentosa to paddle.. cool!!!

was listening to the radio today on e way to return the rented vcds to videoezy.. i think ar.. the talk shows now adays are nonsensical.. i tell u.. dey debate if sports athletes should wear wrist bands and why they wear wrist bands. and if sports athletes shld keep long hair and tie up der hair. omg. i changed e channel immediately..

saw our ym cheerleading. haha. so worried for kelyn.. anw. dey seem to b having fun so i guess it is ok. shaun ar.. u better take care of e gals or else.. haha.. jking..

[shaun] huh. wad temperature?

reply to the tags.. [rach] eh. i dunno. it was a side comment. no gal. u haven't changed. no worries.. [clayton] counter strike [stef] eh. lazy ar. hehs.. [shaun] yes i am having nightmares abt it. gosh [ipcheryl] hahas i know.. my bestfren:aircon [irwin] for one, we are girls. and another thing. we are not pampered lar. sheesh. try staying in perth in winter. gosh. not as if u haven't hehs.. and it is so freaking hot here...

can't believe its saturday already. one week in singapore already.. another 2 more to go.. haf been rather lazy these few days.. but i haf only 8 hrs of sleep lar.. been stuck with canto shows till my mum just complained today that its too much. hehs.. finished Always Ready today. quite like that show.. on helicopters.. nice.. and i tell u.. the boy is so cute!! he has acted in so many shows.. gosh. such a cute little kid. hehs..

only "appointment" today was meeting lingleong [irwin n may], cheryl and jon.. nice to see e 2 guys aft 1 sem in perth.. as i always say, i miss college days.. suppose to meet cheryl at orchard mrt at 1845 but at 1830 she called asking me to head for tangs. hehs. so as i get der at 1840... settled sth.. den irwin called.. *yes i was supposed to be "at home"*... met jon at the venue and had dinner at Pepper Lunch.. 4 of us ordered e same thing lar. except for may. hehs.. dinner was ok.. aft dat went to cine for neos.. *much to the disagreement of the guys* hahs. but ya.. took neos and den had desert b4 jon had to leave to book in.. hahs. wad a good life these policemen get... timetable even more relaxing than my uni life. gosh. hahs. anw.. yes.. we shall haf another gathering when the rest gets back in december kz? hehs..

watched superman yesterday wif cheryl n cedric.. had lunch wif cedric b4 meeting cheryl.. walked around b4 dat.. bought some craft at spotlight... hehs.. after cheryl came, we walked around. and as usual, cedric had to follow us around.. also went to e arcade and played some driving game.. gosh. i suck at it man.. any kind.. but anw. e mario one was good fun and silly *yes it was fun irwin...* got a pic of us.. hehs.. anyway.. ya.. superman was ok.. not fantastic i guess.. aft dat headed for home.. last episode for e 7pm show.. sweet. all the shows on channel 55 i haf all watched b4.. so it isnt as nice.. now only left channel 8 show.. hehs.. and the other one oso finishing nxt week.. wanna start on a new tvb drama.. and now i prefer to watch em in e original language.. like last rd i was watching da chang jin in perth and i think it in korean is nicer.. hehs.. so is tvb dramas nicer in canto.. chinese like very fake..

england is playing wif portugal now.. for a strange reason, i wan england to win. same as i wanted germany to win yesterday's match. weird me huh.. few more minutes into extra time. gosh. i need my sleep.