now now... my wonderful cell leader.. hahhaha.. i really got no comments.. but yea.. its quite a funny picture. i never really intended for it to go up. it was by accident that i uploaded this picture. but all is good. heh.. the picture that i intended for is the one below... its not to full cell.. lishya and mahdri are missing, but yea.. we'll get them next round..
quite sad isn't it? hehe.. jon is the only guy. and he looks veyr lost.. hahaha.. i love these pictures. i should upload more.. it seems like that is dorcas's favourite pose eh.. haha.. acting cute!!!!

cell has been pretty fun.. i've been enjoying myself.. a bunch of crazy gals plus a boy who doesnt have a choice to be there or not. hahs..

school... i've been too slack as i see.. got a test and a presentation next week. muz work harder le.. jiayou!!!

how bored were we?? haha dis is wad we did after dinner with the cell on our way to coffee. it was seriously funny. cause we were like paparazzi trying to tkae pictures of jon n dorcas in the car.. i guess this was like the best photo we got.. the rest were.. not very clear. haha.. anw.. yea.. it was a great time.. i really enjoyed myself. this cell is awesome!!! haha... eh... i seem to b behind my sch work n all.. lala.. i should should should start working man... need settle my room!!!! hahah.. anw. back to the cell dinner etc, we really had a great time. like cause wad we did was like play truth or truth with a modified version of indian poker. super funny.. but yea.. it was good.. hehehe.. managed to dig out alot of gossips from people... hahaha...

i like my room. very happy with the arrangement of it.. but i needa do abit more packing b4 i take pictures and post it up here. but i really like the layout.. yups

what do you think about it? it is possible.

this question and reply has kept me thinking for the past day.. but it feels as if i have been thinking about it for the past yr or sth...

indeed, it is a long term commitment.. it is something that i won't mind doing, seriously.

so many commitments. will i be able to handle?

planning time wise, it seems ok.

but will i be too tired?

den again, like what he said, i would have to learn to be ministered to while working..

why did my name even pop out of his mouth? why was i put in the same cell???

too many coincidence that i cant believe it.

i stand with arms wide and heart abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all

irwin.. no lor. dun b mean.. did u noe dat der was once i saw a lizard in my room and i had a terrible nightmare??

so much going on this week.. hmmm... had leaders meeting on monday.. dunno why i was der.. tuesday met up wif david josh sharan let and sarah for gelare!!! woohoo!!haha.. had a great time.. went to ikea yesterday.. it was.. ok lar.. i realise that taking a cab home is cheaper than tkaing bus and getting them to deliver it. ofcourse cant compare to like your own car lar.. hahhaha

dorcas convo tonight. lallala. gg to buy stuff for her..

cell tmr... dunno how it will go.. lalala..

I’m really lost for words.. like. I really dun wanna do stuff.. but then you have the ability to make me feel guilty and for me to do it in the end.. its been going on for 2 sems le…. I dunno if it is good or if it is bad.. I dunno if it is right or it is wrong.. but I really feel that when I have reached a point of tired of saying yes, and when I put my foot down and say no, it really means no. like the only time you actually realize that I really mean it is when I don’t care. And that is really bad.. I am sure you do not want to see it happen for important things like cell leading. Honestly, can’t you guys just listen and accept?

In all my ministries, yes, some of them maybe time consuming, but nothing is as tiring, as worrying, as headache as this. In fact, each time after choir, I feel refreshed. I love choir and singing to bits. Each time after ushering, I feel really happy.. like yea. I really do.. but yet, this ministry is the one that makes me tired, makes me dry, makes me frustrated etc..

Yes, it also makes me rely on God more, but so does my other ministires..

I remembered what Derrel said to Kevin n me.. he told us that God did not need us to serve. In fact, none of the ministries NEED us.. we are not all that important.. what is important is our choice and our decision. In where we want to serve God.. in where we find joy in.. in where we feel God’s calling.. den again, no one is going to tell you that they do not need people. They will always need people.. it is for us to put our feet down and say.. yes or no, we want or do not want to do it..

I am so tempted to tell the ic that I wanted to from the beginning learn from another cgl.. not that the present one is not good, but I feel that under another person, you learn more and you learn different things.

Today, I once again realize how much I miss the pink peacock and sir in the orange attire.. likei really do..

Anw. Irwin, snails are so NOT cute.. dun like you. Bleah.

hmm.. i have a feeling uwa zone ppl actually reads this. super SIAN. haha. like why dey dun dare to juz tag or sth.. weird. nvm nvm... lalalala... in hmes 1103 exercise and health science lecture now... looking at weird pictures. lalala..

mavis was so sweet last night. called n asked if i needed anything.. mayb she was juz asking her fren sell it. but it was still pretty sweet. lalala...

dunno if i shld b excited or not.. but oh well...

love ushering and choir.. lalala.. cant wait for next prac to start.. lalala...

hmm.. i have a feeling uwa zone ppl actually reads this. super SIAN. haha. like why dey dun dare to juz tag or sth.. weird. nvm nvm... lalalala... in hmes 1103 exercise and health science lecture now... looking at weird pictures. lalala..

mavis was so sweet last night. called n asked if i needed anything.. mayb she was juz asking her fren sell it. but it was still pretty sweet. lalala...

dunno if i shld b excited or not.. but oh well...

love ushering and choir.. lalala.. cant wait for next prac to start.. lalala...

hmm.. i dunno to b excited or not. but really, i dunno to b excited or not. sigh.. cell has been... ok.. not too bad. but like i find it weird. but den it seems to b really good for the members especially.. sigh.. like i wanna try to take "ownership" but den one of you don't bother involving the cell, one of you don't bother updating us.. i really dunno wad you guys are expecting.. sigh... like if you wanna involve ppl, do it all the way. dun like half way half way kinda thing. what i hate is half way things. bleah..

went for iwt on thursday.. it was not bad lar. quite cool.. enjoyed myself. like you actualy get to meet new people and all.. yea.. i really really enjoyed myself. learnt alot as well.. hehs..

school has been ok.. kinda busy.. got stuff to do. and alot of exercise. muscles dying. hahhaha..

went for wind surfing on saturday. muscles dying as well.. sprained it... lalalalala...

am at eufei's place.. lalalla

housemates are a killer.. least one is. sigh...

i feel like running away... argh!!! hahahha...

sometimes, when i look back, i somehow think that i actually regretted coming over to australia.. rather, the thought of "what would i be doing now" if i din go to australia but continued to study in singapore...

i miss you..

anw.. met up wif dawn today. surprises eh.. hahaha. now i noe why i should stop disturbing marcus. hehs...

hmm.. was quite pissed off last night.. den again, once u blabber it all out to your fren, it feels much better. thanks faith.. n let.. hehs...

i've been feeling all weird n funny again. dunno why.. sometimes, i juz wonder when would it be my turn...

ok randomness..

i cant wait for tmr. iwt!! but terrance isnt replying me.. lalala *excited*

One More Time

Lord i saw your face last night

when i looked in the sky

you were smiling

you told me it would be ok

and you'd make a way

in my dark times

everytime i hear your voice

everytime i feel your touch

makes me know that i can face tomorrow

one more time

when all my friends go away

i'd be glad to say

you're still near me

even when the wind blows by

i feel warm inside

you're so lovely

chorus

i need you, don't leave me

without you i can't survive

chorus

and i know that i can face tomorrow

cause you've walked me through my pain and sorrow

makes me know that i can face tomorrow

one more time

woohoo!!! freshies is over!!! den again, i miss choir practices. i guess thats why i wont quit choir? hahha.. like.. i really really enjoy choir practices.. yea. so there it goes.. cant wait for easter performance. heh. *excited* heh.. oh.. i conducted for uwa service. like usha ask me to conduct cause she got work.. but yea. in e end she din go to work cause she is sick... and she came for service.. but i still conducted. it was a very interesting experience. like i was really really really scared and my heart was beating like terribly fast. but den, like once we started, i sort of calmed down. like got alot of tips frm ppl n all. really thankful to all of em. like i dunno if i ever will conduct again. cause if i were usha, i wld never ask me again, but i muz say.. its not dat scary now. heh.. like really thanks to cath for praying for me.. n to jimmy usha n kong for advices. hehs.. even fake confidence is good eh?? hehehe... i was so scared dat during service, i kept praying that God wld juz use me, and like u noe, i wld b an instrument for Him and not like throw His face kinda thing. and the amazing thing is, IT WAS OK!!! hahaha.. yea. like alot of ppl tell me dat it was quite good. ivy though i was sha.. but i bet she was trying ot make me less kancheong, some choir members told me i was more firm and all.. which was goood.. not that scared n all.. hehe.. praise the Lord!!!

labs and tutes are starting.. dunno to b excited or wad. anw. i shall go off le lar.. update more later.. oh yes.. if anyone frm ympact is reading this, tell shane that as soon as i get my internet, i will upload freshies welcome (its a bi-annual event) dance for him to see.. yupyup.. chaoz.