roller coaster.. i dunno why its been like this.. the moment i see you, i get scared. like i rather see your slippers at the door.. meaning you're out. i am so tired of it. i dunno why your existence can cause such emotional trauma.. it doesnt make sense eh..

maybe when one thing bothers you, everything starts to bother you as well. cause everything has been starting to bother me.. i think i think too much.. infact, i think my cgl cg helper and newest core member are all against me or have sth against me.. i somehow feel the difference for the first and the third. and the second. i juz dun see anything to talk to her about.. i guess thats how people work yea? like getting to know them based on your mood.. you think one has potential den u invest more time in the person and as a result neglect the rest. you dont involve your interns n helpers regarding investing in their lives. what on earth is this? i guess thats why i choose to ignore things. to not care. life was never that tough. oh well. why?

maybe you are just another one of those people. who easily get close to ppl.. another one eh..