bad mood.. rarrr.. juz dun understand ppl.. i notice, alot of times u juz brush aside my ideas n opinions.. while i juz listen to yours.. kk i noe its unfair to say so. cuase we listen to each other whine n complain abt other stuff. but still.. why did we fall out over such stuff? think both of us r juz in a terrible mood eh? or mayb cause both our egos r too big. girls..

anw. i seriously dun understand our leaders sometimes.. where did the lead by example go to? where did the theory of "the basic reason we are here is to study" go to? i seriously am having a hard time submitting to them. esp those who are setting the very basic bad examples. u think abt it. if frm beginning of e sem, u think u will fail n wanna take a yr off. wad u think ur results will b? duh. fail. duh take a sem off.. n i honestly think if one does badly, he/she shld go think why it happened. n go cut down on all other stuff to make sure u pass. not go on n juz think u doing well in your ministries will "make up" for your studies. cuase it will stumble ppl. like how it has affected me. much as i try to not b affected, i still cant believe it is happening. don't u feel bad abt wasting money, about setting a bad eg? gosh.

actually, i am very thankful for my cell leader dis sem. finally, one dat i think i can learn frm, one dat i think is actually doing his best and knows his limits. i really thank God for dis cell leader. cause i realise its been 3 sems since e last cgl dat i had dat really set a fantastic eg.

dear God, please guide me in my walk with you and my studies and help me to do my best and rely on you. to learn my limits, and to learn how to set a good eg for those under me. and most importantly, help me to guard my heart frm all the negative stuff around, and help me not to judge. amen.