this is honestly, ODD..

like i was telling max [hm grp mate], suddenly i am very 'homesick' like dunno why oso.. super sickening. argh..

i had e weirdest dream last nite. i was @ some event like it was a normal event, but sponsored by some chinese religion thing. den it was terrible lar. some monk started to rituals all over me and at me. and i was freaking out.. and i felt like so.. i dunno. .weird? haha uncomfortable? gosh. such a terrible dream. argh.

suddenly, i have this deep longing to go back to singapore. some how, i miss her. the tiny island.. haha..

today at work, i dunno why, but my mind kept going back to the good old days in singapore.. in scgs, in tution, in heartland mall, in novena sq, in hb's hse. haha.. i guess cause tehse few days got too much recollection of the past. chatting wif hb, reading blogs. hahaha..

i am thinking of booking my flight now to go back for christmas. but i think i will only make it just in time for christmas. dun think i cna go back any earlier. i even tot of juz appearing for christmas service.HAHAHA..

i needa study for exams.. sigh. hahaha.. i am so gonna die for exams if i dun study.. DIE.

some ppl r juz plain stubborn.

we all have different mindsets. i am glad mine is changing. is yours?

some ppl juz dun think.

thx bijia for making me think. r u starting to think?

some ppl r juz plain rude.

thank you Lord for the gentle reminders to be polite. are you?

i am thankful for my cell leader, and for the people around me who have showed me that even when you are tired, you do not throw your tantrum at people. i am glad i have changed. i have learnt to not do it. to not find excuses for things that you can't do, to not give lame reasons for your mistakes and incapabilities. instead, you try and make things better. all you need is effort. thank God i did not continue like that. if not, i would never be successful in life. and people would never like to work with you.. i think i am learning

have you?

i've learnt to be nice when you want people to do something or when you want to tell people something.

its all about love. not about how great you are in doing what you are doing.

have you?

mmm.. while talking to eufei, i had dis sudden realisation. that actually, much as i believe it isn't, alot of ppl read dis blog.. hahaha.. oh wells.. it really amazes me how my writing style has changed over the 3 yrs of bloggging..

anw.. i went to work today.. n it was.. dull. hahs.. i was so tired physically. i was telling my manager i am dead tired. n good thing she din scold or anything.. hehs. for once, i managed to talk to 2 of e guys.. like sth i've never done. cuase dey r kinda scary. haha.. but yea.. it was pretty cooll.. nice guys..

i've juz started my camping spree in gp3.. wanna make it a everyday thing. but feel bad cause josh hasta open door for me.. so.. mayb not.. we shall see how it goes lar. at most reid first? haha.. we'll see we'll see..

ps benny ho's sermon said that b4 we ask for it, we muz make sure we can start alone in Him. cuase if not, we will tend to be emotionally dependent..

suddenly i cant wait to go home. as in back to singapore. cant wait to go back n meet my family, frens. n oso the kids in hope.. miss em loads..

mmm. juz came back frm e jetty.. went der after springfeast in uni.. aft springfeast, headed for jamie's place to play some games. quite fun. its been ages since i did such stuff.. mm. den aft dat couple of em decided to head for e jetty. so i followed.. hehs. quite fun eh. we went fishing.. caught a flounder first.. quite cool. but so small. sad. had to release it back into e water. den came a puffer.. and den another fish dat looked pretty decent.. den everything else were puffers frm den on. quite sad rite.. pictures shall b up on facebook soon. hehs.. anw. yea.. went der wif stan joshlau jamie weiping jeremy(awhile@beginning) max (@end) and yea. i am back in my room while the rest are still out der battling the cold. wonder wad dey r doing. but dey confirm not gg to sleep anytime soon. bet dey will go out for brekkie b4 gg to sleep. heh. i oso wan brekkie. haha.. anw. we were having very interesting conversations.. like truth n dare kinda questions.. which reminded me of my dream last nite.. ok b4 dat.. haha we saw a couple making out near e jetty lar. sick.

my dream last night was very interesting. i dreamt i was back in singapore.. in church. n e church was bigger. much bigger.. and by chance, i was walking to service wif dis old church fren of mine (which will never happen) and we were just catching up. though it was weird, but it seemed true in e dream. anw. yea. n he sort of realised what my problems were in moving church. n somehow, e worship was great. and aft dat somehow, i broke down. and yea.. he was der to comfort me..

it was a pretty interesting dream. i dunno why i had it. it seemed like sth indicating wad i am really concerned abt deep down in my heart.. i wish the dream could go on. and what happened in it could be real..