i hate the feeling of uncertainty... as i was looking at the photos, i thought to myself.. wad wld i b doing if i din come to perth.. once again.. another of my emo rides.. n i was thinking.. i really dunno eh.. i honestly wld nv heave learnt so much dat zph has taught me, but then again, i wld b experiencing a completely different thing..

i guess that is why i hate to return to singapore.. and i dread sundays.. cause things have moved on. things have changed. people have changed. its so difficult to build relationships based on something 4 years ago.. perth seems to be my home now.. so is zph.. i honestly dunno wad i wld b like if i decided to return to singapore.. honestly, it never crossed my mind.. its too much effort and too much of a transition. like how it took me so long to transit to perth..

i guess people are different. there are some that will try and keep the friendship. there are some who move on..

dad n mum wan me to go back.. longer.. but i dun.. honestly..i dunno..

dis is so not a good time for this kind of emo-ing.. i have 3 papers in the next 3 days. argh.

eunice is feeling rather emo now. hahaha.. actually.. its after i tot of the line "max. are you feeling emo now?" for max's cell leaders appreciation video and he actually replied that he was feeling emo *dwanG!!* that the reality kinda set in..

this sem has passed in a flash.. i have been more regular @ sch, seemingly more hardworking.. and cell has been a blast.. each time i assure my members that alls good and even though we may not be in the same cell again, the world is not gg to end, i actually dun really think much abt it.. now that even combine cell has ended, the reality had kinda set in.. its the end of sth so wonderful so amusing so interesting, and the start of something new.

MAX_impact has really given me a new experience.. max n francis does things completely differently.. and it was interesting to get to work wif different ppl.. i feel that dis sem i have improved from last sem.. i took up challenges. i had more responsibilities, yet i was more reliant on one person.. and tried to rely on Him as well. the people i meet and work with.. the dynamics of the cell.. of the zone.. its all so different..

i was just thinking.. now that the cell has its own cliques, and the members are way much more stable, its high time we start integrating them with the zone.. and in this perspective, i guess its really good for our cell to split up. for the good of the people.. to bring all of them to the next level.

the dynamics of the zone is so different now.. the leadership is very comfortable now. what will happen when new leaders join us? how would we blend? i know we will do ok, but will the comfort be disrupted? its actually rather interesting to see how we would move in the near future.. and it really gets me excited.. and the most important thing is if our focus is right, if our focus is on GOd, den all wld b good. amen?

nxt sem would really be a different sem.. i actually wanna start breaking out of the reliance on a person. but to rely on GOd, and to juz aim to bring what ever ministry i am in to a new level.. changes are going to happen. both in cell and in service. infact, i believe, after those "wow" weekends, the church as well. i actually can't wait to hear from our zone sups on what is going to happen.. and i am actually very excited..

i haf no idea how dis post came to this.. i wanted to do a post abt cell. which i guess wld be the nxt one.. mayb can upload the poloroid pics i made too. kekeke..