not happy. will update soon.

i know all the while you have something against me. sigh. i guess like what God told me. just do your part. thats enough..

why i use that kind of language? my D-ness? haha.. i think more like cos no one listens to me.. sigh.. its ok. i guess i will change n see how things goes.. with God's help. i will b better!

i love jeremy and jiali to bits.. haha.. honestly, its amazing how much jiali catches on within 1-2 weeks. so much for her not knowing anything. today she just covered so much stuff for me.. its simply amazing.. she just took off a whole load of calling ppl n all off my back.. and it felt so good. hehe. finally i understand how much i helped max to do it last sem. haha *pat on my back* like so ego like dat. but yea.. i really understood it..

really, its the 2 of them that have been and i believe will be my support through dis sem.. when jeremy came up to me today and asked if shld go find other visitors to talk to. i was amazed. each time i go disturb him, he patiently asks if i needed anything like need him to do etc and if i said yes, he wld listen.. wow.. i am just so amazed..

indeed.. God has His plans in His timing.. not mine..

Lord, use what i have and grow it to build your kingdom. help me to invest in others just as you have invested in me.

amazing. how God always has a special word for you no matter how difficult your situation is.

today's word for CAM vision day was on how to let God deal and grow your life? and every other point ps michael battersby said it just echoed in my heart. you know like being able to acknowledge with whatever is spoken.

ps michael said about not letting what other people are doing affect you. don't compare with people like who is doing better than who. only then can God use you. and it just spoke so much so much to me. i really need to let go of that first before being able to be used by God..i missed out the second part of his message cos i went for vocals workshop which was very good as well. so no regrets ..

the feeling of being left out...

not fun. not nice.

everyone wants to be included. no one wants to feel excluded..

sometimes, when you are trying so hard on your side, and the other side does not reciprocate, it gets hard..

sometimes, people are just being over sensitive. and then does it back to you.

at the end of the day, we have to find where our true friends are. for they will be the one who will stand by you all the way.

and then i think for myself. who are my true friends?

God. daddy. mummy. elaine. faith. letitia. sooling. huibing. i am sure there could be more.

i love the feeling of being home. but home must first being me comfort. for now, home is in my Father's arms and 38 lim tua tow road