God is good, all the time..

my second time doing tithes n offerings.. and i was scared to death.. memories of the first one that i did haunted me.. i was scared. trembling. hands and feet, my voice quavered and i seem to be that close to tears.

this round somehow i felt a tad bit more confident. i prepared. i knew how God wanted me to do it.. yet my lack of faith caused me to start fearing what i was going to say was not good enough. that i'll go up and start panicking again like last round.. i prayed a prayer of peace and wisdom to know what to say. and as i went up there, i knew what to say. God guided me. my words and my actions.

it was really amazing when i went up there.. how i envisioned myself speaking was how it came out. it was amazing.. really thanks to joshlim for all the support. d place u sat was juz stratigic.. haha..& thx for responding so well. hehe. though faith wanted those lines to spoil my sharing.. anyhow.. really, it was all God and none of me.. cos if u ask me to do sth like this again, i wld prob start freaking out again. though i know dat God will always b der to guide.

the best part of all, i had so many ppl coming up to me to affirm that what i did was good and all.. and even better so, they were from a wide range of grps of ppl. frm those older knowledgeble ppl. to those newer ones.. i had several comments as followed "nice sharing", "short simple easy to understand. good", "nice use of props", "dare to use other verses. good" etc..

thanks so much guys.. and most importantly, thanks DADDY GOD...

another more amazing thing.. i prayed for 2 healings today for myself. and amen, i was healed. sort of instantly. for the swelling in one of my eyes. and that was kinda instant, and the pain in my arm.. thank you Lord.

sometimes.. i just feel like i've failed as a cell leader..

there are so much i want to do that i wish i could do.. i ask myself how my members are doing, and sometimes my answer is i dunno. yet i am so tired physically..

i really dun like the idea that "he/she is a cell leader, so cannot be friends".. i dun get it. really. i dun.. sigh... and i dun even know why i'm getting so emo about it.. guess i really dun wanna see that gap, that barrier.. all i wanna do is just be friends..

its the last 3 cells left. i'm already gonna b missing this one. i dun wanna miss another one... i dun wan dis sem to end and i hate saying goodbye. especially when this one holds so much meaning to me.. and yet.. i feel like i've failed them. sigh..

i need a kind of check point. by people or by things happening..

currently as it seems, its a cell leader aint to her job, but we do our best to bond the cell..

maybe i am just being paranoid.

Psalms 121:1-2. help me Lord

Motto

We look up to God for help and guidance,as well as for directions in our lives,as we aim for greater heights of achievements.
We lift up our eyes unto the Lord from whom we receive help to face life's trials and tribulations.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. " - Psalms 121:1-2 -

Creed

I would be true for there are those who trust me
I would be pure for there are those who care
I would be strong for there is much to suffer
I would be brave for there is much to dare (2x)

I would be friend of all - the foe, the friendless
I would be giving and forget the gift
I would be humble, for I know my weakness;
I would look up and love and laugh and lift. (2x)

I would be prayerful through each busy moment
I would be constantly in touch with God
I would be tuned to hear his slightest whisper
I would have faith to tread the path Christ trod. (2x)

Anthem

O Let our youthful voices ring
With all their joyfulness
In praise and gladness let us sing
Of Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Here may we seek all wisdom, truth
And ways of kindness
Through all the years of golden youth
At Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

So when we leave its shethering walls
We go with fearlessness
Enriched to face life's greatest call
By Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Now let us pray and learn and trust and obey
To serve Him in every way
Glory to God we give and pray
For Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

i can't deal with stress.. i am so bad at it..

in the past few weeks, i've given everyone the impression that i'm very uptight and stress and all.. sigh... but they just don't see the importance of getting things done. and in the end, if its not done, either i get into trouble, or i dun get my sleep..

now everyone is telling me dun stress/dun worry etc.. yikes...

i realise i really suck at dealing with stress...

and sometimes, i do wish i never had to do all these

Lord, help me to remember each time i do all these, its for You and Your people. and help me to deal with it with a smile