sometimes.. i just feel like i've failed as a cell leader..

there are so much i want to do that i wish i could do.. i ask myself how my members are doing, and sometimes my answer is i dunno. yet i am so tired physically..

i really dun like the idea that "he/she is a cell leader, so cannot be friends".. i dun get it. really. i dun.. sigh... and i dun even know why i'm getting so emo about it.. guess i really dun wanna see that gap, that barrier.. all i wanna do is just be friends..

its the last 3 cells left. i'm already gonna b missing this one. i dun wanna miss another one... i dun wan dis sem to end and i hate saying goodbye. especially when this one holds so much meaning to me.. and yet.. i feel like i've failed them. sigh..

i need a kind of check point. by people or by things happening..

currently as it seems, its a cell leader aint to her job, but we do our best to bond the cell..

maybe i am just being paranoid.

Psalms 121:1-2. help me Lord