woohoo!!!!

3 papers down, 2 to go. and i have absolutely no mood to study.. argh!!! how how how??? lalala lalala lalala

i juz had a 'lecture' with jeremy.. sigh.. i do so hate giving lectures.. maybe i need to learn how to convey my message across properly eh..

hmmm... kiwi 2 has flown off.. apparently i am the mother, dey r my kids. wow. in dat case i have 15 kids? haha i love them.. i'm going to miss jiali so so so much.. like jeremy is great too. but dey r both unique. and i will really miss jiali..

cell leaders appreciation was awesome.. i've gotta get hold of the video wilson took.. its up on facebook though.. they did ymca and changed it to "eunice's house" and yea.. dey even took pictures of my room when it was a mess.. ARGH!!! i dun like ppl in my room when its in a mess. but i mean. i know it was for fun.. but yea. hehe.. d song/dance together with the video really made me cry. i was like telling myself cannot cry. sigh. but i did. heh.. i'm weak i know.. i juz haf a soft spot for them haha.. and my gift frm dem (a scrapbook) is still not done. hahaha.. why am i not surprised???? but i still love them.. very very much. hehe..

exam periods are now.. and everyone is super stress.. its reid library everyday. some go by 8am etc.. and we stay till 11pm. madness rite.. haha.. oh wells. exciting times eh.. i really enjoy times der. disturbing ppl, catching up wif ppl, getting to know them better.. even like rebekah is opening up so much more now..

we're heading for coral bay for the 3rd time aft exams.. n its gonna b insanely HUGE.. we have 47 ppl gg.. and i can just die i tell u.. but we all know its for God's ppl.. who are we to complain huh?? as long as they enjoy themselves, dats all.. i've learnt so much interms of planning.. interms of working wif ppl.. jlow aint that easy to work with.. gotta change approach tactics everytime.. sometimes muz b firm (when things gets out of hand) sometimes muz b silly.. ah.. my brain has too much to think.. den again, i enjoy such things. more than studying for organisational behaviour. dunno why i even took it. but i needa clear dis elective.. i will and i can.. coral bay will be exciting. woohoo!!!

God is good, all the time..

my second time doing tithes n offerings.. and i was scared to death.. memories of the first one that i did haunted me.. i was scared. trembling. hands and feet, my voice quavered and i seem to be that close to tears.

this round somehow i felt a tad bit more confident. i prepared. i knew how God wanted me to do it.. yet my lack of faith caused me to start fearing what i was going to say was not good enough. that i'll go up and start panicking again like last round.. i prayed a prayer of peace and wisdom to know what to say. and as i went up there, i knew what to say. God guided me. my words and my actions.

it was really amazing when i went up there.. how i envisioned myself speaking was how it came out. it was amazing.. really thanks to joshlim for all the support. d place u sat was juz stratigic.. haha..& thx for responding so well. hehe. though faith wanted those lines to spoil my sharing.. anyhow.. really, it was all God and none of me.. cos if u ask me to do sth like this again, i wld prob start freaking out again. though i know dat God will always b der to guide.

the best part of all, i had so many ppl coming up to me to affirm that what i did was good and all.. and even better so, they were from a wide range of grps of ppl. frm those older knowledgeble ppl. to those newer ones.. i had several comments as followed "nice sharing", "short simple easy to understand. good", "nice use of props", "dare to use other verses. good" etc..

thanks so much guys.. and most importantly, thanks DADDY GOD...

another more amazing thing.. i prayed for 2 healings today for myself. and amen, i was healed. sort of instantly. for the swelling in one of my eyes. and that was kinda instant, and the pain in my arm.. thank you Lord.

sometimes.. i just feel like i've failed as a cell leader..

there are so much i want to do that i wish i could do.. i ask myself how my members are doing, and sometimes my answer is i dunno. yet i am so tired physically..

i really dun like the idea that "he/she is a cell leader, so cannot be friends".. i dun get it. really. i dun.. sigh... and i dun even know why i'm getting so emo about it.. guess i really dun wanna see that gap, that barrier.. all i wanna do is just be friends..

its the last 3 cells left. i'm already gonna b missing this one. i dun wanna miss another one... i dun wan dis sem to end and i hate saying goodbye. especially when this one holds so much meaning to me.. and yet.. i feel like i've failed them. sigh..

i need a kind of check point. by people or by things happening..

currently as it seems, its a cell leader aint to her job, but we do our best to bond the cell..

maybe i am just being paranoid.

Psalms 121:1-2. help me Lord

Motto

We look up to God for help and guidance,as well as for directions in our lives,as we aim for greater heights of achievements.
We lift up our eyes unto the Lord from whom we receive help to face life's trials and tribulations.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. " - Psalms 121:1-2 -

Creed

I would be true for there are those who trust me
I would be pure for there are those who care
I would be strong for there is much to suffer
I would be brave for there is much to dare (2x)

I would be friend of all - the foe, the friendless
I would be giving and forget the gift
I would be humble, for I know my weakness;
I would look up and love and laugh and lift. (2x)

I would be prayerful through each busy moment
I would be constantly in touch with God
I would be tuned to hear his slightest whisper
I would have faith to tread the path Christ trod. (2x)

Anthem

O Let our youthful voices ring
With all their joyfulness
In praise and gladness let us sing
Of Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Here may we seek all wisdom, truth
And ways of kindness
Through all the years of golden youth
At Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

So when we leave its shethering walls
We go with fearlessness
Enriched to face life's greatest call
By Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

Now let us pray and learn and trust and obey
To serve Him in every way
Glory to God we give and pray
For Paya Lebar MGS (2x)

i can't deal with stress.. i am so bad at it..

in the past few weeks, i've given everyone the impression that i'm very uptight and stress and all.. sigh... but they just don't see the importance of getting things done. and in the end, if its not done, either i get into trouble, or i dun get my sleep..

now everyone is telling me dun stress/dun worry etc.. yikes...

i realise i really suck at dealing with stress...

and sometimes, i do wish i never had to do all these

Lord, help me to remember each time i do all these, its for You and Your people. and help me to deal with it with a smile

stand by everything you said
stand by the promises we make
let go of everything i've done
i'll run into your open arms

i was talking.. and it does seem that people are so... emotional. i can't find a better word to describe it. i know its difficult not to be emo. but when all thats said and done comes to an end, what holds you is God's promises and God Himself.

i guess i will not understand. won't i? but i guess... ... its sometimes not that difficult after all.. i mean.. those standing outside will see the clearer picture. no?

dear Lord, please keep me from all temptation. help me not fall into sin. help me to keep myself pure for you and for your mighty great plans.

i was just looking through some videos on youtube shown by my hsemate.. n my my. wad memories it brought back..

i rmb when i was in primary sch, i wld go arounds shouting "chen han wei, wo yong yuan zhi chi ni!!!"

and the 7 and 9pm shows that used to be a reward for finishing my homework.

those were the days..

half the semester has passed. well not exactly, but by the end of this week, it wld b.. and.. it has been a rather interesting semester.. i think i'll just ramble out everything in one long post...

indeed.. leading a cell is no joke.. especially as compared to what i did back home. back home its more facilitating a discussion.. how i literally have to preach.. and knowing me.. its such a challenge.. but really glory to God that i have sustained till now... and somehow, over here, der r so much more issues to deal with. i guess since everyone is away from family, we're their family...

i was just thinking.. if i was to lead a cell when i just came over when dorcas first asked me.. i think.. i wld not have done a good job.. least now, one n half yrs later.. i can say i haf improved. least i choose to believe so. each time i see my cell members change/improve/get over a problem, i feel such a great sense of satisfaction.. i really dunno how to describe..

its amazing how much i've learnt here.. its so different to the way i've been used to doing things.. but i really pray that no matter where i go, i would still be able to serve God and glorify His name in all that i do..

2009 could potentialy be my last yr in perth... if it ever is.. i pray God wld use me mightly in the remaining 2 cell grps i wld b leading..

[open wounds never seem to heal..they are the only reminants of the relationship we had. they have gotta be healed.it doesn't matter anymore. i shouldn't matter]

not happy. will update soon.

i know all the while you have something against me. sigh. i guess like what God told me. just do your part. thats enough..

why i use that kind of language? my D-ness? haha.. i think more like cos no one listens to me.. sigh.. its ok. i guess i will change n see how things goes.. with God's help. i will b better!

i love jeremy and jiali to bits.. haha.. honestly, its amazing how much jiali catches on within 1-2 weeks. so much for her not knowing anything. today she just covered so much stuff for me.. its simply amazing.. she just took off a whole load of calling ppl n all off my back.. and it felt so good. hehe. finally i understand how much i helped max to do it last sem. haha *pat on my back* like so ego like dat. but yea.. i really understood it..

really, its the 2 of them that have been and i believe will be my support through dis sem.. when jeremy came up to me today and asked if shld go find other visitors to talk to. i was amazed. each time i go disturb him, he patiently asks if i needed anything like need him to do etc and if i said yes, he wld listen.. wow.. i am just so amazed..

indeed.. God has His plans in His timing.. not mine..

Lord, use what i have and grow it to build your kingdom. help me to invest in others just as you have invested in me.

amazing. how God always has a special word for you no matter how difficult your situation is.

today's word for CAM vision day was on how to let God deal and grow your life? and every other point ps michael battersby said it just echoed in my heart. you know like being able to acknowledge with whatever is spoken.

ps michael said about not letting what other people are doing affect you. don't compare with people like who is doing better than who. only then can God use you. and it just spoke so much so much to me. i really need to let go of that first before being able to be used by God..i missed out the second part of his message cos i went for vocals workshop which was very good as well. so no regrets ..

the feeling of being left out...

not fun. not nice.

everyone wants to be included. no one wants to feel excluded..

sometimes, when you are trying so hard on your side, and the other side does not reciprocate, it gets hard..

sometimes, people are just being over sensitive. and then does it back to you.

at the end of the day, we have to find where our true friends are. for they will be the one who will stand by you all the way.

and then i think for myself. who are my true friends?

God. daddy. mummy. elaine. faith. letitia. sooling. huibing. i am sure there could be more.

i love the feeling of being home. but home must first being me comfort. for now, home is in my Father's arms and 38 lim tua tow road

i am honesetly feeling very emo now. i haf no idea why, but i've gotta snap out of it..

actually. i i do know why.. and it hits me hard when i start comparing. how fair or unfair things are now and before. i feel that everything is a choice. and since i did not get the training from him, i believe it was a choice he made frm the beginning.. and i get upset when another person does get it. cos its very unfair.. especially when i tried so hard. i really did.. wanting to learn more about stuff.. creating oportunities for myself to learn. but its always the same excuse.. tiredness.. and i am not some super woman fyi. i just try my best to cover your back.. and it doesn't mean i know everything and can do everything.. i am still learning and trying.. and i am just like other girls. needing care and concern.

you know.. i really need to snap out of this.. to learn from this and bring it to the next level in my cell.. this semester is going to be a challenge.. to step out of my comfort zone and make things work.. everyone who were my support. emotionally physically have been removed from me. and the only thing that stays on, now and forever is my spiritual support. i think. its now. that God is saying. rely on me. not on other people.. we can do this together!

its been a busy week for me.. and besides being busy, its been really mind boggling.. how i wish sometimes my mind wld b less complicated. i wld not be as bothered as i am. i wld b more simple.. i wont b who i am.. but then again. God made us in His own image. and each and everyone of us are special.

the trip to augusta was just amazing.. you really see God's amazing work happening in our surroundings. in the world and you just cant help but to be in awe of Him. oh and i saw the end of the rainbow. no pot of gold but it was a pretty site. we went to climb some tree in pemberton, and honestly, it was just. great. the climb up the tree somehow struck me as an equivalent to our walk with God.. its tough. but the end product is what we keep in mind to keep us moving. sometimes it gets abit easier, sometimes it gets steeper. sometimes there will be pauses that just requires us to wait. and wait. and wait. sounds familiar?? yea. thats what happened in the tree. which i kinda found it the same as our walk wif God.. and indeed, it was a great encouragement.. my group that went to climb: henry jeremy isabel gloria me were pretty scared as we went up. and the 3 girls ended up singing.. and i particularly like one song.. "i CLIMB by faith each step by faith to live by faith i put my trust in you".. we chagned the caps word. it was suppose to be walk.. and we oso sang loads of other songs. to comfort ourselves to give us the courage to go on. cools rite...

anw.. besides that, i haf just been thinking over the past few weeks.. like is coordinating really what God has called me to do?? sometimes i just feel like a robot.. like doing the bulk of the work, but the master is the one that programs me, makes me do stuff and all..and everything muz "report" back to the master.. and somehow. it just makes me doubt.there are times that i look back at my past, but what God told me a couple of weeks back. is to move on. look ahead.. so. what is ahead for me?? i really dunno. i just dun wanna be a puppet/robot. to people.

i hate the feeling of uncertainty... as i was looking at the photos, i thought to myself.. wad wld i b doing if i din come to perth.. once again.. another of my emo rides.. n i was thinking.. i really dunno eh.. i honestly wld nv heave learnt so much dat zph has taught me, but then again, i wld b experiencing a completely different thing..

i guess that is why i hate to return to singapore.. and i dread sundays.. cause things have moved on. things have changed. people have changed. its so difficult to build relationships based on something 4 years ago.. perth seems to be my home now.. so is zph.. i honestly dunno wad i wld b like if i decided to return to singapore.. honestly, it never crossed my mind.. its too much effort and too much of a transition. like how it took me so long to transit to perth..

i guess people are different. there are some that will try and keep the friendship. there are some who move on..

dad n mum wan me to go back.. longer.. but i dun.. honestly..i dunno..

dis is so not a good time for this kind of emo-ing.. i have 3 papers in the next 3 days. argh.

eunice is feeling rather emo now. hahaha.. actually.. its after i tot of the line "max. are you feeling emo now?" for max's cell leaders appreciation video and he actually replied that he was feeling emo *dwanG!!* that the reality kinda set in..

this sem has passed in a flash.. i have been more regular @ sch, seemingly more hardworking.. and cell has been a blast.. each time i assure my members that alls good and even though we may not be in the same cell again, the world is not gg to end, i actually dun really think much abt it.. now that even combine cell has ended, the reality had kinda set in.. its the end of sth so wonderful so amusing so interesting, and the start of something new.

MAX_impact has really given me a new experience.. max n francis does things completely differently.. and it was interesting to get to work wif different ppl.. i feel that dis sem i have improved from last sem.. i took up challenges. i had more responsibilities, yet i was more reliant on one person.. and tried to rely on Him as well. the people i meet and work with.. the dynamics of the cell.. of the zone.. its all so different..

i was just thinking.. now that the cell has its own cliques, and the members are way much more stable, its high time we start integrating them with the zone.. and in this perspective, i guess its really good for our cell to split up. for the good of the people.. to bring all of them to the next level.

the dynamics of the zone is so different now.. the leadership is very comfortable now. what will happen when new leaders join us? how would we blend? i know we will do ok, but will the comfort be disrupted? its actually rather interesting to see how we would move in the near future.. and it really gets me excited.. and the most important thing is if our focus is right, if our focus is on GOd, den all wld b good. amen?

nxt sem would really be a different sem.. i actually wanna start breaking out of the reliance on a person. but to rely on GOd, and to juz aim to bring what ever ministry i am in to a new level.. changes are going to happen. both in cell and in service. infact, i believe, after those "wow" weekends, the church as well. i actually can't wait to hear from our zone sups on what is going to happen.. and i am actually very excited..

i haf no idea how dis post came to this.. i wanted to do a post abt cell. which i guess wld be the nxt one.. mayb can upload the poloroid pics i made too. kekeke..

alot of things have been happening lately...

*have you ever wondered how it would be if everyone is scared of you and avoid you?? i think its quite sad isn't it. when people dun realise it and keep going their own ways and people get scared of em.. dunno to feel sad for them or wad..

*sometimes i guess i expect more.. like an equal of wad i do.. but i guess sometimes you just dun care do u?? sigh.. *sad sad*

*i have been wondering what is the real motivation to do stuff.. i really need to ask for a revelation of my own.. sigh.. jiayou eunice!!

needs to come back to reality.

wake up girl.

love so amazing so devine
demands my soul my life my all.

easter camp was amazing. it was a whole new feeling that i never had before..

there was freedom, independence, accountability, laughter, tears, and just awe.

indeed, God is great and greatly to be praised.

dear God, i pray that everyone that was touched by you and reignited in this camp would continue to feel your passion. feel your love. feel your touch. and continue to burn bright for you.

amen.

i cannot believe this. someone told me e wrong info so i missed marianne n mishi's convo. ARGH dis is insane. sigh i feel so bad.. not that i will be missed. but i feel bad.. bleah...



anw.. i was juz reading my past entries when i got a link frm my cousin's blog.. amazing. how i was so motivated last time to study to do work to wake up early hahaha... i so need it again.. God, please give me the discipline to do things right.. to make things right.

the 2 best compliments i've gotten for my baking

• its the best i've had so far
• i'm a big fan of ur cheesecake

hahaha.. ok. i know i've prob had Similar complimenTs. but somehow, when people reAlly meaN it LikE deep down, it becomes a whole lot more meaningful.. agree?? Yups!

i'm glad we talked it out.. least one thing is settled.. yea?

its been 2 weeks since i last updated this.. its been so freaking busy..

school has been alright. i've been lazy to go for class. sucks eh..cannot skip class anymore le.. bleah.. but guess wad.. holidays are here soon!!! its easter nxt week. early eh...

singing for choir for easter.. its gonna b great!!! great song. but den... alot of practice. oh wells... heh..

cell has been great. but busy.. average of 20 ppl per cell.. alot of work man..

work has been interesting.. pretty cool abt it..

only thing that has been kinda troubling is coordinating.. much tougher than i thought it is.. all other ministry heads have their own plans and own actions they wanna do. when i give instructions, some listen and cooperate. some juz give me a black face. ah.. male ego at work! sucks.

i'm old.. 20 already.

its been a hectic week.. and even on my birthday, i had to work, had to go for choir practice and go out wif freshies. that was basically how i celebrated my birthday.. and cause of that, my celebrations have been pushed back.. and thus, presents came in late as well.. and that got me thinking.. like i know i have presents coming in and i know there are some ppl whom havent given me yet, but when stan posed the question wad is e best present i got, i realise that i have to admit, its God sending down His son Jesus Christ to die for an unworthy me..

anw.. really thanks to those ppl who got me stuff.. and who wished me happy bday.. like everything seems to have a real good use.. like recipe book.. bag.. even the stuff toy was like the cutest ever.. and also for those who really have the heart to think of me. thanks..

i supposedly still have 2 more bday meals.. i think one is confirm. cause i kena chased abt it for like 3 times le. but e last one.. i still contemplating.. but really thanks everyone..

school is starting tmr.. time to start afresh!

this cell is amazing..

its one huge cell man. first informal cell had a turnout of 17. and the first official cell had a turnout of 23. its amazing how God works.. just taking numbers, it seemed discouraging cause some visitors said they couldnt come. but it was actually.. even better..

cell was great.. somehow the flow was great. though we made changes to the plans.. everything was just. amazing.. the commitment thing max made us do i felt was superb. meeting the people and getting to know them was great too.. i tried my best to do wad i could and hope it was alright.. but can really see the core doing their part as well..

i really hope this cell will grow from glory to glory..

[side note: its amazing how God plan for 3 of us - max stan me to pray for the cell the night b4.. stan called for supper and allie picked up so she was invited.. but backked out.. i originally made a promise not to go out late. but felt like i should go dis rd.. we met josh lim at northbridge but he was leaving to go out wif frens.. these stuff are not coincidences.. its God's plan.. max hit sth on the nail last night... and thus i am so convicted to change.]

Complete - Parachute Band

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
My open heart, I offer up my life
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

its amazing how God works.. pmc sang this song on the last day i was back there. n this song was just so amazing. the lyrics n all just.. was so overwhelming. but yet i didnt know who sang it.. today, while practicing my guitar i was using believer's notes and there was the song. including the chords and all. its just so amazing.

in the past month i've been thrown with the question of my ministries.. and its been a tough decision.. actually, there hasnt been a decision made. but i guess i have a rough idea.. and like what mavis said. the sacrifice of some thing i really love had better be worth it. if not, what is the point of sacrificing it? and i really dunno if it is worth it.. it'll b starting all over again learning everything again.. is it worth it?

argh. new cell list is out.. dunno to b excited or not. my old cell got splitted out.. and i miss it dearly.. dis cell is gg to b a challenging one.. i shant mention why here.. but yea. i guess i can only look ahead huh.. bleah.

rarr.. my mum juz insulted me. over something that i am absolutely sure i was not demanding.. rarrr.. even more reasons for me not to come back to singapore during the july hols..

we make them cry who care for us

we cry for those who never care for us

and we care for those who will never cry for us

i was just reading a “long lost fren’s” blog.. and have been talking to Elaine abt how church has been in the past few mths.. and it really made me think through my decision to go to perth. Was it right? Even a couple of nights ago mum n I were having a talk, and she apologized for sending me overseas. Mayb sr wld haf done me good. Maybe staying in Singapore wld haf been better.. for my studies, health, frens, church etc.. what would I be like in these areas if I stayed?

seems like after 3 yrs, I haf lost most of my friends in Singapore. Not that I dun wanna catch up wif em but it just gets harder to relate when you are away. Even like for sooling and me. Though we are close but when I am in perth n she in Singapore studying it was hard to keep in touch. But the moment she came over, we had loads of topics to talk about.. its all abt effort. Which many dun haf e time to put in. and many times, it is not reciprocated. And it hurts and you just wont bother any more. 3 yrs ago, I made the step to put studies before friends. I guess I just have to face it now huh..

and even in pmc.. everything seems distant now.. though I try really hard. Always trying to rmb how bijia or jac does it.. and really try to make the effort. But it really isn’t easy.. even I can see.. things changes. Even for other ppl who go overseas.. was it to right decision to go over??

During the talk wif mum, I confidently told her that it was the right decision.. but now, thinking back, I am not too sure myself.

But I must really say, I must thank God for my friends in perth. In particularly faith (“,) yes you. Though I nv really talk abt my feelings out loud, but I know she wld b there anytime. Right? Hehe.. and I muz oso say, I have grown to be a better leader in zion. Passion has taught me loads that I dun tink I wld haf learnt in Singapore.. kudos to bijia dorcas crystal francis yanjing mavis.. n ofcourse my ministry heads jack n derell. Dey haf really taught me loads. Even more than I think I haf learnt in the years b4.. Even for my dearest hsemate weiping.. shes been such a dear.. thx gal for everything..

Maybe that is why I wanna get my PR and not come back to Singapore.. mayb dats why I am so bent on staying in perth whatever the reasons maybe..

Excuses or God’s plan? I really dunno.. but I guess I have to trust in Him that He has a greater plan for me.. when he sent me to perth, he had my road pave for me already..

I know, he sent me to zion, to passion, to uwa to learn to be a better vessel for Him.. and I honestly pray that I have been.. and will bring what I learn to wherever I go.. but honestly, the road is tough.. why I am in human movement, I still dunno.. why I did 1 yr of medicine I oso dunno. Maybe it was just me not grabbing the chance. I dunno.

I guess I just have to trust.

rarrrw.. eunice is not happy.. the china homestay girl is pissing me off.. rarrr... honestly. she has like the best homestay in the world. ok mayb not e only best. cause i am sure der r other good ones too. but honestly. my parents r so nice. and she seems to take advantge of them. either that or she juz doesnt appreciate it.

at the rate shes going, she is gg to spoil my sofa cause she doesnt sit down. she throws her weight down so much so u hear a loud plop each time.. like no one sits like that. and its every single time. i juz sit at e lounge area andi hear it over n over again. when i down switch e tv on, she walks in front of me least 7 times, back and forth. argh!!! anw. den, my sis n me dun get to watch our tv. cause she sits in front of the tv for HOURS. and she juz goes on watching her show and like not caring abt us, and she doesnt even bother to ask if we wanna watch it.. so much for us being e owners of e hse *sorta*.. and i dun even know how much she appreciates my dad when he tries so hard to help her wif her ticket, her sch etc. wif her ticket, hshe will reply him wif regards to school, she juz gives 1 word ans. what the.. and then. she doesnt even try to study hard. gosh. dunno how she is gg to make it here.. argh... like those china students we see in perth n in my sch, dey try to speak chinese. they ask us for help in learning words and all. but she juz doesnt care! so much for wanting to do her o levels in 1 yr. fail more like it. bleah. anw. and each time she watches show, not only do we not get to watch our own shows, we cant even concentrate on wad we are doing cause she will either sing/laugh/talk/comment very loudly.. argh.. i cannot take it..

anw.. e worse of all.. she is even more picky when it comes to food than faith is!!!! imagine that. haha... and its least 10 times more.. i can even list wad she doesnt eat. gosh. bleah. each time we eat, she will be picking stuff out of the food. and i tell u. i really hopess she appreciates it. cause she is getting a even better life tha my family are.. my parents wld sacrifice der or even my sis/my food to give her a better meal.. (eg. say we haf 2 fish. she will get half of one, and 4 of us will share the remaining 1 and half. considering we have a guy here ok. its super not enough for my dad. but he still does it..) yea. i tell u.. i hope she learns to be nicer. if not she will get kicked out soon.. inconsiderate, selfish, spoilt, pampered. rarr.. and the list goes on..